Control ++ Kerja ?

1) Control

A blogger wrote that I had issues of control. I had she misunderstood what my control comment to her was. What I said was, " I am never going to let any woman control me again .. " .. it sounds rather harsh eh .. what I meant was, I was not going to let my emotions be overly swayed or influenced by women, to a point where I do stupid things.

There are lots of reason why I said that .. but, it first came out around July. Suffice to say, I was partially duped by a girl I fancied and when I ticked her off abt it .. she just laughed me off. It got me thinking right, .. when it comes to womenfolk, I have been played a lot .. and the lessons keep on repeating. So, I guess, that's where the control part came in. I am sorry that she misunderstood it.

Honestly, *sigh* .. when it comes to relationships and stuff like that, the heart rules the head more ya .. so nowadays, I tell my head to have more input on the matter and since that July .. it's improving ...

2) Swamped

Currently, I am a bit swamped with loads of study stuff due this month .. byknya kerja !

2.1 ) .. work ..

I am going back racing in the rat race after Raya ! .. interesting gig this time ;-) and maybe some new interesting makeovers ... hmm .. see la ye ...

3) Wilson Phillips

Anyone remember this trio ? ;-) .. in the flood of black singing girl groups, a WASP trio came out and sang themselves to the top. Cepat dia naik, cepat dia hilang .. I loved their songs from the their two albums. There were lovely pop tunes, and heartfelt lyrics .. I had their cassettes only and lost 'em .. lupa lak nak beli their CDs when I was in US. They were an important music part of my college years ..

A review of their selected albums are below

1) Wilson Phillips
2) Shadows and Lights

Their official website here.

Some of their videos here. ( ... bestnya !! )

I got the mp3 to this song from them a few days ago

"Don't Take Me Down"

'I love you girl' that's what you used to say
And that no one would ever take it away
I gave you all I had inside, baby it's alright

But then you took the love right from my heart
It's funny how things so strong can fall apart
I gave you all I had inside, baby it's alright, ooh

One day you'll wear out the lines you always use
Why do you say that you'll change when you never do?
I've always found a reason to let it slide...baby not this time.
Ooh, because I know where you're going from here
(Don't take me down with you)

[Chorus:]
Don't take me down (take me down with you...)
'Cause I don't need no one and no one's ever gonna bring me down.
Don't take me down (Don't take me down with you...)
And I don't need no one and no one's ever gonna bring me down.
You had someone; you had me to love.

Why do we put up all these fronts?
There's something about the way that you loved me once.
And why, why is it wrong to want it back again?

Oh no... one day you'll wear out the lines you always use
Why do you say that you'll change when you never do?
I've always found a reason to let it slide...baby not this time.
Ooh, because I know where you're going from here
(Don't take me down with you)

[Chorus]

Too many times, I've realized the truth
(don't take me down, don't take me down)
Too many times...
I've seen enough, I've seen it enough to know
This time you're not, you're not gonna take me down
Down, down, down, down .... yeah

[Chorus]

Nickname N Her

1) Origin

Most of my good friends call me Pet. What's the story ? Well, the story is like this ...

" .. Arakian satu masa dahulu, di bumi Melaka, di pekan Jasin, adalah seorang cowok yang menjejak kakinya di situ, tanggal 1989. Menempuh alam baru, terpisah daripada keluarga tercinta .. saja nak tunjuk terrer ;-)..

Hidup beliau di maktab yg tersergam indah mencelikkan mata beliau pada realiti hidup .. no longer black and white, semuanya kelabu ala jerebu ...

Ketika makhluk2 maktab asyik dengan irama rock melayu dan tommy page ... cowok ini mendengar lagu geng ini. Warga2 bertanya kpd cowok .. weii mamat .. apa yg lu dengar ni ? .. cowok dengan lagak macho n cool berkata .. electropop .. sesungguhnya mereka tidak faham, lalu berkata .. mulai tika dan saat ini, dengan perintah yg asal usulnya taman rasyidah utama, yg penuh misteri mimpi syakilla, tak masuk lagi dengan fenomena, dan penuh penantian ... we call you Pet Shop Boy or Fat Short Boy !!

Dan bermulalah Hikayat Penuh Ranjau Pet .... "

Pet was the nickname and it stuck from then on ...

Imagine when I found out later that they were gay. Adakah Pet juga gay ? jeng jeng ...

Below is one of my fav songs from the group ;-)


Domino Dancing - Pet Shop Boys -

-----------------
(all day, all day)

I don't know why, I don't know how
I thought I loved you, but I'm not sure now
I've seen you look at strangers too many times
A love-you-once is of a, a different kind

Remember when we felt the sun
A love like paradise, how hot it burned
A threat of distant thunder, the sky was red
And when you walked, you always - turned every head

(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day) domino dancing
(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day) domino dancing

I thought that when we fought I was to blame
But now I know you play a different game
I've watched you dance with danger, still wanting more
Add another number to the score

(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day) domino dancing
(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day) domino dancing

When you look around you wonder
Do you play to win'
Or are you just a bad loser'

(all day, all day)
(all day, all day)

(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day, domino dancing)

(all day, all day)
(all day, all day)

I don't know why, I don't know how
I'd thought I loved you, but I'm not sure now
I hear the thunder crashing, the sky is dark
And now a storm is breaking within my heart

(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day) domino dancing
(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day, domino dancing)

(all day, all daeheheheheheheh)
(all day, all daeheheheheheheh)

(all day, all day)
(all day, all day)
(domino dancing)

(all day, all day)
(all day, all day)

(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day, domino dancing)

(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day) domino dancing
(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day)


... To her : We may have more in common than I thought. Oh well ...

Tagged !!

Allo hombres .. I got tagged by this blogger who is a wonderful person in real life .. so dah kena nag dengan dia ;-p .. buat la juga benda di bawah ni.


Seven things you plan to do before you die:
1 - Perform the Hajj / visit the Holy Land
2 – Visit Anfield, home of Liverpool FC
3 - Go back to USA and chill there.. watch American football puas2. 
4 – Go and visit each continent, especially Europe
5 – Ada rezeki , kahwin !
6 – Become a cool husband and father ( related to no 6 )
7 – Read .. read ..read on stuff that interests me

Seven things I could do:
1 – start doing more instead of thinking aja
2 – Buy a car … finally ;-)
3 – Settle down .. hehehe
4 – Upgrade my wardrobe .. still in college mode ;-p
5 – Read more stuff ( esp history and management )
6 – Visit more muzeums / art galleries
7 – Pursue my creative interest .. drawing, acting

Seven celebrity crushes:
1 – Dian Sastro
2 – Alexis Bledel
3 – Preity Zinta
4 – Marisa Tomei
5 – Kirsten Dunst
6 – Larisa Oleynik
7 – Sharifah Amani

Seven often repeated words:
1 – Yeah baby
2 – What the f***
3 – Damn !
4 – Yo wassup
5 – What ?!
6 – Nahh ….
7 – You know what I'm saying ..

Seven physical traits I look for in the opposite sex :
1 – A bit fair looking
2 – Chinese looking
3 – Sweet smile
4 - Lovely eyes
5 – Soft hands
6 – Medium size
7 - Cute

Seven tags go to:
1 – julia ( my sis )
2 - Inn
3 - Rafthah
4 - Rudy
5 -
6 -
7 -

.. to those who I tagged .. kalau dah buat, tak yah la buat lagi ye ...

Freaky Friday + ?

1)Freaky Friday

I saw Freaky Friday last Friday ( get it ? ;-p ). It was okay la .. I enjoyed it and would definitely recommend it to everyone for a nice viewing. It has an interesting story of how a mother and daughter switches places for one day. It is believable as the leads Jamie Lee Curtis ( mother ) and Lindsay Lohan ( daughter ) make a totally cool mother and daughter combo. Going through the tribulations of one day of switched identities, with new discoveries and appreciation for each other, and in the end, the main lesson is that in order to get along, both parties need to look from the other point of view.

Oh, screw it ;-) Lindsay Lohan is hot … ! Freckle face and all … she can play guitar for me anytime !

2)Why ?

What is it about the big L ? I posted a comment on this blog’s post … am reposting it here again below …

1) Sandman says ..

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love." ~Neil Gaiman

2) Sean says

" Sean: You're not perfect sport, and let me save you the suspense, this girl you've met she's not perfect either. But the question is whether or not you're perfect for each other.That's what intimacy is all about ..."

-good will hunting-


It occurred to me about this after breaking fast with my sis and her friends today at Chinoz KLCC ( good food, btw ). My sis kata my misconception abt the big L is simple … it is not about control … hmm, of course masa tu I was like blergh …. But on the way back, hmm… hmmm … hmmmm ……. Ada apa dengan cinta ya ? …

The song belows answers it a bit I guess …

Why - 3T with MJ-

(Chorus)
Why does Monday come after Tuesday
Why do summers start in June
Why do winters come too soon
Why do people fall in love
When they're always breaking up, oh why

Why do I love you, tell me why

It's not like I can explain whats in my heart
It's just I feel a crazy pain with we're apart
I don't wanna breathe
I don't wanna think
I don't wanna love
I don't wanna do anything

It's not like I can't describe what's going on
It's just I feel I'm not alive when your not home
I don't wannna sleep
I don't wanna be
I just want you here beside me
Without you there's no me

(Chorus)

Why do we love if love will die

Why does Wednesday come after Tuesday
Why do flowers come in May
Why does springtime go away
Why do people fall in love
When they're always breaking up
Oh why

Why do I love you, tell me why

It's not like I can escape what's in my soul
Cuz with you inside my heart where can I go
I don't wanna see
No you without me
I can't go through life without you
Without you there's no me

(Chorus)

Why do we love if love will die?

Why do the rivers flow to the sea
Even if it flows
Why can't your love flow to me, babe
Why does my heart feel sadness
To be in love, to feel your love
Why don't I feel complete

(Chorus)

Why do I love you, tell me why
Tell me why
Tell me why
Tell my why
Tell my why

.. ada apa dengan cinta ya ? ;-) ...

No More I Love U's

Greetings ..

I have been looking for the mp3 for this song amd I have found it at last. Interesting song as my thoughts are going along these lines .. maybe .. ;-) ..

No More I Love Yous – Annie Lennox --

I used to be lunatic from the gracious days
I used to be woebegone and so restless nights
My aching heart would bleed for you to see
Oh but now...
(I don't find myself bouncing round whistling
and fortunes to make me cry)
No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me
No more "I love you's"
Changes are shifting outside the word
(The lover speaks about the monsters)

I used to have demons in my room at night
Desire,despair,desire,so many monsters
Oh but now...
(I don't find myself bouncing round whistling
and fortunes to make me cry)

No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me
No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me in silence
No more "I love you's"
Changes are shifting outside the word

They were being really crazy
They were on the come.
And you know what mammy?
Everybody was being really crazy.
Uh huh.
The monsters are crazy.
There are monsters outsides.

No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me
No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me in silence
No more "I love you's"
Changes are shifting outside the word

Outside the word


... ada apa dengan cinta ya ? ... ;-)