Why I didn't go .....

I have been wanting to write this post for a while ... but now only came to it ... ada dua majlis reunion tempat belajar berlangsung pada bulan lepas .... Jasin dan IU10. Dan aku tidak pergi, walapupun mahu pada mulanya, mahu sangat2...

why? It brought bad memories of what really happened there in both places. I romanticized it a little bit and the reunions made me realize that I was not really happy and had issues. My fear was that being there, I would feel all bad again .... especially realizing that am not at my potential due to issues I faced at both places ....

I didn't fret later, and knew I made good decisions not to go. I was not missed and it did not really matter to me. I saw me for what I was, in friendships, I was close to a few friends and that's alright. I am suited and I like to do stuff where I am in control. Probably, that explains why trading fx and internet marketing appeals to me, as I do not have to meet so many people. Another self discovery.

Will I go again? Probably, yes ... when I am ok .. and have made peace with both memories ...  and worked out the issues ...




This song makes so much sense ....