Pagi tadi aku tulis ...
"We cannot change the past, but we can start today to make a better tomorrow " -limpbizkit-
Tadi, ada berita tentang kejayaan perlantikan seorang pelajar ex-Jasin sebagai Pengarah Hospital made me angry about the past again. It awoken one of the more painful episodes of my school years and the rage returned. The rage of the scars of the wounds that have healed.
Life is not fair. I get it. And this episode reinforced that statement, way back in 1990.
And LP latest single 'Lost', released with new Meteora 20 year anniversary box set said it all ...
Just a scar somewhere down inside of me
Something I can not repair
Even though it will always be
I pretend it isn't there (This is how I feel)
I'm trapped in yesterday (Just a memory)
Where the pain is all I know (This is all I know)
I'm lost in these memories
Living behind my own illusion
Lost all my dignity
Living inside my own confusion
But I'm tired, I will always be afraid
Of the damage I've received
Broken promises they made
And how blindly I believed (This is all I know)
I will never break away (Can't break free)
'Cause when I'm alone
I'm lost in these memories
Living behind my own illusion
Lost all my dignity
Living inside my own confusion
*sigh*