Updates N New Blog

Byk sgt stuff ... will update later eh ..

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007 to all readers of Pet Life :-)

Tq for visiting, reading and commenting !

- The real Ome -

A New Beginning

Hey, peeps ..

A bit slow in the updates.

L n Gs, check out the pic sebelah ni .. see if u can figure it out :D ..

in the highlighted box, that's the future junior .. due in mid 2007 ... all I can say now is " Wooo.."

New Work Place

Started work in a new place yesterday ... now my office is in the TTDI, a bit further away from KL. I am okay, but kind of nervous still, as this is a new place, but InsyaAllah, I will do fine .. 3 months probation though .... doakan gue okay ya ....

2007 will be very2 interesting ....

This Heart

HATI INI - Nabil -

Ku lihat kau berlegar-legar di kaki lima,
Inginku tegurmu tapi terasa curiga,
Mungkin ekspresimu nanti tak sepertiku harapkan,
Adakah kau merinduku sepertiku merindumu..

Tanpa aku sedari, cinta pun mula berputik,
Mulanya dari teguran "boleh kita berkenalan?"
Tanya "apa nama, buat apa, nak ke mana?"
Hati rasa berdebar...

Janganlah hancurkan hati ini..
Ku hanya mencuba meluahkan perasaan..
Usahlah ragui hati ini...
Kerna kau satu-satunya gadis yang ku cinta selamanya...

I got home dat day, feeling so tired and in pain,
I wana call u but u need your rest, u might feel the same..
Something's wrong with me, i can't seem to find myself...
(U know what?) I think I'm crazy over you...

I called my friend and asked her,
"What should i do, what should i say?"
Cos everytime i hear your voice, you'll throw me miles away..
My cellphone suddenly rings...your name is on the screen...

Janganlah hancurkan hati ini..
Ku hanya mencuba meluahkan perasaan..
Usahlah ragui hati ini...
Kerna kau satu-satunya gadis yang ku cinta selamanya...

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for her ... ;-)

Misc Stuff To Pass By Time

Courtesy of this post

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love. You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't? You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky. In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm. A break-up usually comes as a shock to you. You always think things are going well.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

Ome - err, yeah .. a bit spot on. Tq sayang for accepting me :-)

Your World View

You are a happy, well-balanced person who likes people and is liked by others. You question whether many conventional views on morality are valid under all circumstances. You are essentially a content person. Sometimes, you consider yourself a little superior. You are moral by your own standards. You believe that morality is what best suits the occasion.

What Is Your World View?

Ome - err really ah ? But, I tend to judge stuff based on moral perceptions..but in this world, morality is a double edged sword eh ?

You Have Low Self Esteem 60% of the Time

While you sometimes feel good about yourself, you tend to struggle a little with self esteem issues. It's not about changing who you are, it's about accepting your faults. You just need to be less critical and demanding of yourself!

How is Your Self Esteem?

Ome - NOT 60% but ... I am a bit too critical of meself at times ....

Updates

Dear blog.

It has been a long time since I posted. A good friend asked where I have been ... my simple excuse was I have been very2 preoccupied ,... tp, I have been going around the blogworld ... so I am not out of touch la sangat

1) Raya Trip

Raya was a trip to the Mrs kampung in kota bharu, kelantan. Folks, whatever you have heard abt the infamous Kelantan jam .. I can confirm that it is all true .. penat la ... i drove 9 hrs to KB, using the usual KL - Gua Musang - KB road ... balik, I went the roundabout way thru K. Tganu ..and it took 12 hours ! Luckily, it's a bi-yearly thing... :-) On the good stuff, loads of good Kelate food ( manis2 wehh ... ), met nice2 relatives... and received a few kain pelikat ( I am told it's a Kelate newly wed tradition ;-) ) ..cool !!

2) Final IS Paper

I have finished my final IS paper for my Masters finally !! It was overdue for about a year .. after the hee haw n whatevers, I managed to get it done. As usual, it was a last minute job, but I am not complaining, as it was my decisions that lead me to the situation. Bring on the convo next year :-)

3) Final Month

It is my final month at my current firm. I have to thank em for teaching me a lot, but I have to move on. And event that I have seen in the past weeks, confirmed my decision. The cool thing s that it is here, I have learned new work methods and now where my future is, albeit, a surety this time. Learnt a lot about myself, especially ... so I can't thank the firm enough...

4) Open Houses

What is Syawal without open houses ? This is a Malaysian tradition that should be cherished ... when it comes to food, Malaysia is king :-) .. I propose that the Tourism Malaysia 2007 says, Malaysia, Food Truly World !!! :-)

5) Congrats, to Acat n Cookie

The couple who inspired abt a year are getting hitched next year InsyaAllah :-) I am so happy for them. I met Cookie once and see her as a warm, jovial person, so Acat jaga dia baik2 okay :P ... hehe, she did ask abt the issue of going thru it again, after the previous hurt. I can talk long abt it .. but in the end, it can be summarized from these line in Good Will Hunting...

" You're not perfect sport, and let me save you the suspense, this girl you've met she's not perfect either. But the question is whether or not you're perfect for each other. That is what intimacy is all about. You can know everything in the world, but the only you know about this is by giving it a shot "

so, cookie .. give acat a shot, .. the man is definitely so in to you ( Mcm lagu SWV la pulok .. )

6) The Mongolian Murder

It can only happen here and still gets screwed up in its execution. To the UTK trainers, update your syllabus with loads of CSI, Alias and Gilmore Girls viewings please ..... (err, Gilmore Girls was to lighten themselves up ) ..

7) UMNO 2006

**deleted to excessive political subjective rant*** please refer to the daily news, if u love 'em, or Malaysiakini or Malaysia-Today, if u are on the other side.

8) Something is On The Way

And that's all I am saying .. for now ;-)

Salam Aidilfitri

To all my readers,

SALAM AIDILFITRI N HAPPY DEEPAVALI

a bit lambat ..maaf ye ...

Raya stories + jawapan Cookie, next post :D

Late Night Thoughts

A few things to say, as Ramadhan is nearly over and Syawal is closer ..

1) Marriage 101

After 3 months of marital life, I salute those who have been for married for years :-) it's true folks ... it is hard work.. byk sabar2 and give and take I tell ya .. but, it is the little things that make it worthwhile .. :-) a stroke of the face in the end of a tired day .. mcm kata Sean in Good Will Hunting ;-)

2) Audio motivation
Recently for the past few months, I have been burning some of the free motivation mp3s that I have in my pc and listening to them, while I am driving. Alone of course ;-) And I have come to a common conclusion that it works as you listen to the messages over and over again. It is the simple messages which ring true and when you listen to it repeatedly, it inspires you to action yourself.. it works folks, but in the end, the choice is up to you, to do it or not :-)

3) December Comes

I am joining another firm in December. A positive movement in my career, expanding what I am doing in my current firm. I am happy to leave, but I thank my current place for making me a better professional. But, in order to grow, I have to move on. As a professional, I will do my job until end of November. Also, I know what is the major concept of my career . it is CRM. The details are still hazy, but the foundation is there.

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I am happy right now.

Life Changes + Solid

1) Life Changes

In the past few months ever since I settled down, things have changed ..some things remained the same ... I have been reading Jack Canfield's The Success Principles .. still not finished yet though...but, the principles in the book are timeless and it works. And I am implementing it one by one in my life right now ... highly recommended :-) ...

Principle No 1 : Take 100 % Responsibility For Your Life

2) Solid

As an ode to this man and lady :-) .. the song below .. they were my inspiration when I was at a low point personally, abt a year ago .. and rasa2nya, ada berita baik kot in the future, kan guys ? ;-)


SOLID - Ashford n Simpson


And for love’s sake, each mistake, ah, you forgave
And soon both of us learned to trust
Not run away, it was no time to play
We build it up and build it up and build it up

And now it’s solid
Solid as a rock
That’s what this love is
That’s what we’ve got, oh, mmm…

Solid (Oh)
Solid as a rock
And nothing’s changed it (Ooh)
The thrill is still hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot

Oh…oh…oh…ah…

You didn’t turn away
When the sky went gray
Somehow we managed
We had to stick together (Ooh…ooh…ooh…ooh…)

You didn’t bat an eye
When I made you cry
We knew down the line
We would make it better (Ooh…ooh…ooh…ooh…)

And for love’s sake, each mistake, ah, you forgave
And soon both of us learned to trust
Not run away, it was no time to play
We build it up and build it up and build it up

Now it’s solid
Solid as a rock [Ooh]
That’s what this love is (Oh…oh…)
That’s what we’ve got [Oh…oh…] (Yes, it is)

Solid
Solid as a rock
And nothing’s changed it [Oh…]
The thrill is still hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot

Oh…oh…oh…ah…

Gone with the wind
Another friend
Got in between
Tried to separate us (Ooh…ooh…ooh…ooh…)

Oh, knock-knock on wood
You understood
Love was so new
We did what we had to (Ooh…ooh…ooh…ooh…)

And with that feeling we were willing to take a chance
So against all odds, we made a start
We got serious (Ooh), this wouldn’t turn to dust
We build it up and build it up and build it up

And now it’s solid (Ooh)
Solid as a rock
That’s what this love is (Oh)
That’s what we’ve got, oh (Oh, oh)

Solid (Yes, it is)
Solid as a rock (Ah…)
And nothing’s changed it (Ooh)
The thrill is still hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot , hot , hot

Solid (Oh)
Solid as a rock (You know it) [Well] (You know it, baby)
Solid
Solid as a rock (Lovin’ me, lovin’ me, oh)

Solid (Don’t leave me, baby)
Solid as a rock [Well, well, why, why] (Oh…)
Solid
Solid as a rock (Every day it gets sweeter, now) [Ooh]

Solid [You know I like it]
Solid as a rock (Good, good, well, it’s good, good, good)
Solid (Solid, solid, solid, solid, solid)
As a rock

Plug + Steve Jobs

I am plugging this guy's blog who is a friend of mine ...

Read the speech and watched the speech given by Steve Jobs here .. Stay Hungry and Stay Foolish :-) ... my mantra :-).. please do check it out.

Later

My Heart

Just found the song and video ..patutla lagu ni hit habis right now :D ... it is a sweet song ....




Still jiwang gue rupanya .. ;-)

Mantra Hari Ini

The Prayer - Andrea Bocelli with Celine Dion -

I pray you'll be our eyes, and watch us where we go.
And help us to be wise in times when we don't know.
Let this be our prayer, when we lose our way.
Lead us to a place, guide us with your grace
To a place where we'll be safe.

La luce che tu dai
Nel cuore restera
A ricordarci che
L'eterna stella sei.

I pray we'll find your light,
And hold it in our hearts
When stars go out each night,
Remind us where you are..

Nella mia preghiera
Quanta fede c'e.
Lead us to a place ?

Let this be our prayer
When shadows fill our day
Guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we'll be safe.

Sogniamo un mondo senza piu violenza,
Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza.
Ognuno dia una mano al suo vicino,
Simbolo di pace...di fraternita.

La forza che ci dai
E desiderio te
Ognuno trovi amor
Intorno e dentro se.
Let this be our prayer,
Just like every child.

We ask that life be kind
And watch us from above.
We hope each soul will find
Another soul to love.
Let this be our prayer,
Just like every child.

Needs to find a place, guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
E la fede che hai acceso in noi
Sento che ci salverai...


---- think positive !!

Puasa Post

Assalammu'alaikum wr. wb,
Ramadhan sudah diambang pintu,
Jika Allah berkehendak InsyaAllah kita akan menemui Ramadhan penuh barakah.
Semoga kata taqwa InsyaAllah akan menjadi milik kita yang
berharga sebagai modal untuk langkah kita selanjutnya
Sementara Salah paham, kesedihan, ego, sakit hati, adalah sebahagian dari proses kehidupan kita.

Tapi Allah membuatnya dengan sangat sempurna, tidak
ada yang sia - sia dari apa yang sudah Allah kemas
dengan baik dalam bingkai rumah kehidupan kita
Tidak ada yang lebih mulia pada hari dimana semua
malaikat memanjatkan doa, dimana tidak ada kegiatan
baik yang tidak dilipat gandakan amalannya oleh Allah.

"MAKA NIKMAT TUHANMU YANG MANAKAH YANG KAMU DUSTAKAN..."
teringat ayat ini terus berulang di Ar-Rahman...
teringat kelemahan diri akan segala khilaf dan salah...
semoga Ramadhan ini membawa kebaikan, dan kesejukan...
seperti layaknya embun di pagi hari
berkilau tertimpa cahaya mentari...
semoga di masa mendatang terus dianugerahi keheningan hati...
seperti layaknya telaga Kautsar..

Dengan segala kekurangan dan kerendahan hati serta keikhlasan atas
semua kekhilafan dan kelalaian yang pernah saya lakukan
baik secara langsung mahupun melalui dunia maya,
Jauh didalam hati yang senentiasa didalam genggaman Allah,
Saya mengucapkan :
" Marhabban Ya Ramadhan, Mohon Maaf Lahir dan Bathin. "
Semoga Allah mengampuni semua dosa-dosa kita dan memberikan Barkahnya di Bulan penuh Hikmah ini.
Wassamu'alaikum Wr. Wb,.


---- the above stuff is from an email a friend forwarded to me. Ramadhan is here and it's my first time dengan wifey. Wifey ? Aku dah kahwin eh ? heheh .. last year, never I imasgined this to happen ..

Last nite was our first terawih together at a local masjid. It was okay la .. , as advised by a few friends, in Ramadhan, as a hubby, byk sabar2 ye .... :-) .. dulu dok pahe ..sekrg pahe2 sgt. Keh keh ...

To my Muslim friends, a good Ramadhan to you.:D

Life is Interesting

Things are getting pretty interesting .. living in a marriage is really something, once u are actually in it. I understand the phrase " sedangkan lidah pun tergigit, ini kan hati manusia .. ", or something like that .. ;-)

Not a winning week for my sports teams. Pool , Skins , Raiders lost .. FSU, Notre Dame and Barca won though. I am a sports fan, yes, but, only nowadays, the lessons of the game I am noting it down and following ..

Among them

1. Planning is VERY Important
2. Details .. details .. details
3. Do your best each time
4. If it does not go your way, learn and let it go ...

Ome
- this heart beats Red ;-)

Happiness N Randomness

Lama gue tak update as I have been busy with stuff ..

click this link. Happiness is where it really is .. in yourself. Need to remind self every day ;-)

Random thoughts

- Tun M, what goes around comes around ...

- NLP is very interesting :-)

Pics Link + Blink

Hi peeps.. you can check out more wedding pics at the link below, under ' Azmir & Azlinda '

Pics

The previous post comment was really stinging, but true. The person was not the only one who discovered my marriage that way. There were others with the same comments, one way or the other.

In going through the list of invitees, I made the choices based on several factors. Suffice to say, some of the factors were plain inaccurate.

I sincerely apologize to them. I made a judgment based on the facts I knew then and was proven wrong.

It is pretty interesting for the past month, since dah sebulan, on marriage. The fun, up n downs, quirks ... I am adjusting as best as I can ... Most of the nasihat which I have received are true to a variety of degree.

Later.

Ps/ am reading this book. Highly recommended :-)

Ngomel Wedding

Pic : Our family picture ( My Side )

No wedding is perfect. I guess there are a few things which bugged me about the wedding that was on my side.
Main grouse : The non attendance by people who received invitation and confirmed their attendance. And, in the aftermath, no reasons / explanations why ...

I stewed abt it for a while .. and then decided to just let go .. Luckily, my dearest is a patient person who kindly listens while I ramble ... letting go of bad stuff, is something which I have been practising for the past few years with a lot hurt that I have been through ..

As my dear friend Inn would understand, letting go is one of the easiest things to say, but hardest to do.

My thanks to those who came, and those who didn't come, but informed me.

" The future is NOW ! The past is past .... "

ps/ - You don't know what marriage until you are in one !

Nikah n Kahwin Pics + Ngomels

Yes peeps ... lama dah gue tidak update ;-) Limited access to the Net after office due to personal reasons ;-)

To see pics on the nikah and kahwin, go to this link and look under 'nikah dan kahwin' folder.

Not many pics yet , but will be updated / reorganized as more are added :-)

The nikah and kahwins had its high and lows ... err cite nanti in the next post :-)

One Pic

It's been one week ... looks nice eh .. InsyaAllah, more pics coming ... it's been a change, but very welcomed :-)

Kiss - Forever

I gotta tell you what I'm feelin' inside, I could lie to myself,
but it's true
There's no denying when I look in your eyes, girl I'm out of my
head over you
I lived so long believin' all love is blind
But everything about you is tellin' me this time

Chorus:
It's forever, this time I know and there's no doubt in my
mind
Forever, until my life is thru, girl I'll be lovin' you
forever

I hear the echo of a promise I made
When you're strong you can stand on your own
But those words grow distant as I look at your face
No, I don't wanna go it alone
I never thought I'd lay my heart on the line
But everything about you is tellin' me this time

chorus - yeah!

I see my future when I look in your eyes
It took your love to make my heart come alive
Cos I lived my life believin' all love is blind
But everything about you is tellin' me this time

chorus repeats 2x


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Insya Allah, it will be forever ....

Dah Tiba Masanya

In less than 12 hours *gulp* ..

yet, I am here in my opis menghabiskan kerja !!!

Eternal Love by P.j. & Duncan


Back in the days when we first met
those time we had I'm never gonna forget
long summer nights and lazy days
we knew our love was not a passing phase
suntan lotion that familiar smell
I made you a necklace from a chian of shells
the sand on my feet and the warm sea breeze
a kind of romance that's hard to believe

Our bodies together beneath the palm
We had our first kiss I melted in your arms

Chorus: I'll give you my love an eternal love
from me to you if you return
A token of love an eternal love
from you to me i'll give my love

** When autumn leaveswere on the ground
we had long walks together with noone around
long conversations alone in the park
that carry on 'till way after dark
winters chill and icy streets
inside is warm on the christmas eve
The fire burning our bodies yearning

Round and round the wheel of loves are turning

Chorus: I'll give you my love an eternal love
from me to you if you return
A token of love an eternal love
from you to me i'll give my love

So promise me (will you promise me)
and i'll promise you an eternal love, eternal love.

The very first fragance of spring is in the air
And each and every moment we still love to share
Alone together Just the two of us
It was then I know my heart belonged to you
Mmmm.. summers here

Chorus: I'll give you my love an eternal love
from me to you if you return
A token of love an eternal love
from you to me i'll give my love

So promise me (will you promise me)
and i'll promise you an eternal love, eternal love.

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I am going to make a promise today. Hopefully, it's forever la kan ...

Sibuk n Debar2

I have been so preoccupied lately. Work n personal stuff :D Sometimes, you have to trust yourself that semua akan work out alright ;-)

I am actually a bit nervous as the day is nearer ... dulu just an observer, soon I will actually participate in it. Looks easy ... but ? For the past week, a lot kata2 nasihat was given ....

Isy..biar benar ni .. is this real ?


Waiting For A Star To Fall - Boy Meets Girl -


I hear your name whispered on the wind
It’s a sound that makes me cry..
I hear a song blow again and again
Through my mind and I don’t know why..

I wish I didn’t feel so strong about you
Like happiness and love revolve around you..
Trying to catch your heart
Is like trying to catch a star..

So many people love you baby
That must be what you are..

Waiting for a star to fall
And carry your heart into my arms,
That’s where you belong, in my arms baby..

Waiting for a star to fall
And carry your heart into my arms,
That’s where you belong, in my arms baby..

I’ve learn to feel what I cannot see
But with you I lose that vision..
I don’t know how to dream your dream
So I’m all caught up in superstition..

I want to reach out and pull you to me
Who says I should let a wild one go free..
Trying to catch your heart
Is like trying to catch a star..

But I can’t love you this much baby
And love you from this far..

Waiting for a star to fall
And carry your heart into my arms,
That’s where you belong, in my arms baby..

Waiting for a star to fall
And carry your heart into my arms,
That’s where you belong, in my arms baby..

Waiting, however long.
I don’t like waiting, I’ll wait for you..
It’s so hard waiting, don’t be too long..
Seems like waiting, makes me love you even more


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waiting ....

The Song of Celine

The song below introduced to Celine Dion :-)



I am okay la now .. tq peeps for the support ! ;-)

Goyang

I am wavering ... do little things matter or is it cold feet ?

Does a red car is really what I needed ?

Help !

Kap Alif Wau Ya Nun

If u can figure out the title, I am going there soon .... in a few weeks actually ... tu yg postings pun irregular .. so much to do yet so little time ... :-)

A very valuable info page here. So much info ....

Later ;-)

When I Fall In Love

My fav song of the moment, an oldie sung by Glenn n Dewi Sandra..

The video is here

Voice, keep ya head up k. I feel ya ..

So many things, yet so little time ! Uwaaaa......

DPX 2, Kerna Sayang Dan ....

Maaf for lack of updates, peeps ..been busy ;-)

1) DPX 2

DPX 2 is finally out. Cookie has her Molly, I have my Dogg :D .. a red Myvi Auto Premium .. finally, a car to add to my kapchai, aka Gunjae Rider, with the same color :-)

2) A Song For Her

Artis : VE
Tajuk : Kerna Sayang

Dari tadi kau berlari
ku fikirkan.. hanya engkau yg ku idamkan
tak pernah pula kau bercerita.. siang mlm kau menderita
jangan dibiarkan perasaan menawar hati
jangan dibiarkan semuanya berlalu pergi

aku di sini
ku tetap berdiri
ku mengundang kasih
pergi sendiri
ku takkan kembali
agar kita kan bersama

jgn pulangkan kerinduan
tiap kali kau berjauhan
tidak mudah ku melupakan.. kerna sayang
kali pertama di pandangan
buat ku terbang di awangan
jangan pulangkan kerinduan.. kerna sayang

engkau memungkiri janji.. bukan aku
engkau yg melupakannya.. bukan aku
hanya aku yg impikan.. agar kita berbahagia hingga ke anak cucu
tapi itu semuanya kenangan.. yg tinggal hanya perasaan
dlm doaku hanya ingin selalu di samping mu.. oh pulanglah

aku di sini
ku tetap berdiri
ku mengundang kasih
pergi sendiri
ku takkan kembali
agar kita kan bersama

jgn pulangkan kerinduan
tiap kali kau berjauhan
tidak mudah ku melupakan.. kerna sayang
kali pertama di pandangan
buat ku terbang di awangan
jangan pulangkan kerinduan.. kerna sayang setiap kali ku mengenangkan mu
siang..mlm.. ku doakan kebahagian mu

3) Gambo

Nak tgk gambo tak ?

Click di sini ;-)

Later ....

Blood Sugar N A Friend

A check I did yesterday showed that my blood sugar level went up .. aisey .. kena berhati2 la after this .. ;-)

and these words rang true ..

" A friend in need, is a friend indeed "

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Taboo + Wrath

1) taboo

it's early morning n i tak balik lagi .. feeling a bit melancholic .. and then heard the song below ...

sweetest taboo -sade-

If I tell you
If I tell you now
Will you keep on
Will you keep on loving me
If I tell you
If I tell you how I feel
Will you keep bringing out the best in me
You give me, you give me the sweetest taboo
You give me, you're giving me the sweetest taboo
Too good for me

There's a quiet storm
And it never felt like this before
There's a quiet storm
That is you
There's a quiet storm
And it never felt this hot before
Giving me something that's taboo
(Sometimes I think you're just too good for me)

You give me the sweetest taboo
That's why I'm in love with you
You give me the sweetest taboo
Sometimes I think you're just too good for me

I'd do anything for you, I'd stand out in the rain
Anything you want me to do, don't let it slip away

There's a quiet storm
And it never felt like this before
There'a a quiet storm
I think it's you
There'a a quiet storm
And I never felt this hot before
Giving me something that's taboo

You give me the sweetest taboo
That's why I'm in love with you
You give me, you're giving me the sweetest taboo
Too good for me

You've got the biggest heart
Sometimes I think you're just too good for me
Every day is Christmas, and every night is new years eve

Will you keep on loving me
Will you keep on, will you keep on
Bringing out the best in me

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ingat tak the video ? she sang in a studio, while outside was raining .. I think I saw it masa I was still in primary school. She has a silky smooth voice .. and though not as a big as she should have been, she has her own niche ..

2) Wrath

When I think about this movie, my favorite scene has to be near the end .. when the killer recited to the young detective what his sin was -- Envy n Wrath ...

I think we have that in all of us ... envy what others have n we don't .. better job, car, blings2, etc. I can remember as early as I was 7 or 8, feeling a bit like that ... in my 20s especially, as my peers were moving on up .. and I was stuck. IN the end, I found the cure. No, not her :P ... it was 'redha' ... acceptance of what was going on and the recognition that what happened in the past, happens. It's easy to say let go, but doing it is another thing. The choices that we make echo through eternity :D ..

My life is getting better ... the insecurities are still there .. the demons still linger ... but it's getting better and positive .. you have to be positive, believe in yourself .. and be wary of old habits that might derail you again. Again, as I have written in the past, it's all about choice.

Dang, it's already 6.00 am ! Gotta go ..

This will be an interesting weekend ... :-_

One Ring N Show Me

1) Lord Of The Rings

"Three Rings for the Elven-kings under the sky,
Seven for the Dwarf-lords in their halls of stone,
Nine for Mortal men doomed to die,
One for the Dark Lord on his dark throne
In the Land of Mordor where the Shadows lie.
One Ring to rule them all, One Ring to find them
One Ring to bring them all and in the darkness bind them
In the Land of Mordor where the Shadows lie."

2) Show Me Love

Show me love - Robyn-

Yeah, yeah, yeah...
Always been told that I’ve got too much pride
Too independant to have you by my side
But my heart said all of you will see
Just won’t live for someone until he’ll live for me
Never thought I would find love so sweet
Never thought I would meet someone like you
Well now Ive found you and I’ll tell you no lie
This love Ive got for you
Could take me ’round the world
Now show me love

Show me love, show me life
Baby show me what it’s all about
Youre the one that I ever needed
Show me love and what it’s all about, alright

Don’t waste this love I wanna give it to you
Tell me what you got, show me what you can do
Show me love, show me everything
I know you’ve got potential
So baby let me in and show me love

Show me love, show me life (alright)
Baby show me that it’s all about
You’re the only one that I ever needed (show me love)
Show me love and what it’s all about, alright
Show me love, show me life
Baby show me what it’s all about
You’re the one that I ever needed
Show me love and what it’s all about, alright
Show me love baby
Show me everything you’ve got and show me life
Show me love baby
Show me everything and what it’s all about

You're the one, the only one I ever needed
Show me love and what it’s all about, alright
I'll love you
I'll miss you
I'll make sure
Everything will be alright
I'll give you my heart if you just give me love
Every day and every night

Show me love, show me life (alright)
Baby show me what it’s all about
You’re the one that I ever needed
Show me love and what it’s all about, alright
Show me love, show me life (alright)
Baby show me what it’s all about
You’re the one that I ever needed
Show me love and what it’s all about, alright

---

lama gue cari lagu di atas. Has she shown me love ? Most definitely... and had an education about the future this past weekend ;-)

Six

It has been six months today. What a milestone huh ...:-)

My pardon for the laack of updates. Work has been a lot of stuff lately.

later.

Romantic Comedy

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;-) I mmg love romantic comedies ...

Favorite Romantic Comedy of All Time : Four Weddings n a Funeral
.. thought I was Charles in the making .. till she came along :P

Take That N Party

:-) One of my fav boybands is having a reunion tour ..

The news link are here.

Dang, those were the days .. I caught them a bit late ..but, they were okay lah .. minor confession :- kinda like boybands, but only certain few ...

I once posted a song by them for someone ... when I was into that person ... nak tahu mana satu, cari la in the archives :P ...

but, for the her, as she is far away, right now .. I'll give her this one ;-)

Pray - Take That -

When the time gets near for me to show my love
The longer I stayed away for hiding from a word
I need to hear now don’t think I’ll hear it again
But the nights were always warm with you
Holding you right by my side,
But the morning always comes too soon
Before I even close my eyes

All I do each night is pray
Hoping that I’ll be a part of you again someday
All I do each night is think of all the times
I close the door to keep my love within

If you can’t forgive the past I’ll understand that
Can’t understand why I did this to you
And all of the days and the nights ok I’ll regret it
I never showed you my love
But the nights were always warm with you
Holding you right by my side
But the morning always comes too soon
Before I even close my eyes

All I do each night is pray
Hoping that I’ll be a part of you again someday
All I do each night is think of all the times
I close the door to keep my love within

Surely we must be in sight of the dream we long to live
If you stop and close your eyes you’ll picture me inside
I’m so cold and all alone, straight on back to me

All I do each night is pray
Hoping that I’ll be a part of you again someday
All I do each night is think of all the times
I close the door to keep my love within

...

cookie ... rasanya gue sudah ketemu apa ertinya cinta :-) ..

Cite, Footie, RIP

Cerita Part

Saw a bit of last nite, forum, on TV 1, at Sepet n Gubra … as usual, in the end, denial is better for everything. Malaysians need more Yusuf Haslams, Razak Mohaideen n Malay melodrama crap ….
Is it me or when the closer the moment comes, things become clearer n feet jadi ‘colder’ ? … since she is in Sabah, some stuff is clearer a bit …. N she is a bit worried ….
What is wrong ? Nothing is wrong … I think I am asking the right questions n looking for answers …

U sure u want ah, to do this ?

Footie part

Pool won 2 – 1, vs Chelsea in FA Cup semis n will play West Ham … and right abt now, I am addicted balik to Champ Manager .. uwaaa … ;-) .. sharpen my brains though :D …
Tq to Idlan for supporting ;-) .. and Nazmi, we are in the final … but, yr Milan is catching up to my old lady … in Liga, Barca should win it soon .. Imagine a Barca – Arsenal final ? …. Uwaaa , best tu .. if u want to see the swansong of MU decade, watch on Apr 29, Chelsea – MU … MU might win or not … but, after this season, they might be doing a Pool 90s swoon , for a while … Pool, Chelsea n Arsenal are building for the future … MU.. ? … hmm, Fergie hasn’t heard the fat lady songs I suppose .. maybe they need to check the audio systems at Old Trafford :D

R.I.P

Tun Ghafar Baba .. Rest in peace .. AlFatihah.. u deserve the rest ..

Ada Apa Dengan Cinta

From One Of My Favorite Movies ...



ada apa ya dengan cinta ?

PDA Post

18 april

april 14 was an important milestone. The countdown has begun ... dang ! .. she is in sabah, so we wouldn't see each other for a few weeks. Do I miss her ? of course, nasib baik ada sms n phone calls .. distance dos make the heart grow fonder :-)
I saw Gubra a few days ago. It is worth watching .. thee is somethg different abt yasmin ahmad's works. Ada style ...
My paper is screwed.. tambah lagi one sem. Work is really tiring l .. was exhausted from the stuff of last week. Only my passion for helping ppl still makes me stay .. that n her ...

later..

Wish I + Wiki

1) Wish I

Life has been hectic la .. especially kerja :P .. anyway, right now I want to be here, sebab she is there, ... for a while .. uwaaa

Just like the song below ... like her songs rite now ..

JEM "Wish I"

Baby, you're sailing today
Baby, you're sailing away
Sugar, wish I could go too
But honey you know
I'm happy for you

Wish I, I wish I, I wish I
Wish I was going too

Baby, your ship has come in
Baby, adventures will begin
Sugar, don't you worry 'bout me
Coz honey you know
Want you to be happy

Wish I, I wish I, I wish I
Wish I was going too

But if you find that you don't like it
That the people there aren't inviting
Or that city life is too frightening
Won't you come home
But if you find that you don't like it
That the people there aren't inviting
Or that city life is too frightening
Won't you come home
Please come home

Wish I, I wish I, I wish I
Wish I was going too
Wish I, I wish I, I wish I
Wish I was going too

2) I am now a Wiki addict. It is godsent for an info junkie like me ... kan Inn kan :P

She Will Be Loved

Lama tak tulis .. been busy with mcm2 :-) Nanti cite sikit2 ;-p The song below is for my dear friend, Inn.

Maroon 5 - She Will Be Loved

Later ...

Temani Aku ++

1) DPX II

There was once a DPX, soon there will be a DPX II ;-)

2) For Her

TEMANI AKU - Cokelat

Malam ini kuingin kau ada
Tanpa hadirmu ku tak biasa
Selalu kudambakan bayangmu
Bawa diriku bersamamu

Reff :

Oh .. bintangku .. indahmu
Datanglah padaku
Dan temani jiwaku
Yang sepi saat kau berlalu

Saat kutatap engkau disana
Hanya sesal bila kau tiada
Slalu kudambakan bayangmu
Bawa diriku bersamamu

3) Cookie

Cookie, my inspiration for item no 1), is currently feeling very down. Keep ya head up girl !

Langkah Pertama

1) Langkah Pertama

It is always the first step, that the journey begins ... hopefully, at the end of the journey, it will all work out. Last weekend, it began ... InsyaAllah, in the end, it will work out .. :-)

2)My Blog

To be honest, I always wanted to talk more than the regular jiwang stuff in my blog. When I read other people's writings, .. they seem to write more interesting stuff than mine. It occurred to me then, that in the end, your blog is what you want to write about. Write what you want to talk and be responsible for its content. Terima and appreciate the feedback, comments that you receive. Maybe good or bad, but at least ada feedback.

Whatever people call your blog, --- syok sendiri ke, main2 ke .. in the end, it is your blog. Please treat my blog with respect, as well as people treat yours. Kalau tak suka / minat, don't come again la .. ;-)

3) Blog Lagi

I like reading blogs. That I admit. I have blogs which I visit daily. Why ? .. interests and inspiration :D ... I credit a few blogs for maintaining my faith in the love ( u know who u r :P ) ..and now, I have found her. It is refreshing to read people writings ... especially those who share the same personal stuff that u r going through. U realize in the big picture, you are not alone.

:-) .. me gotta go..

Been Busy Lately

Hey there peeps .. yeah, have not been posting for the past week. Busy with work and personal stuff ;-p

Actually, the past week, I have been evaluating some decisions I made recently. And, true enough, I changed about leaving my current gig .. why ? Well, hmmmm... the future is different now and .. I have to be responsible. Dang ! I am growing up !! Uwaaa .... :)

Anyway, from today till end of April, things will get a bit hectic n busy. There is a little thing called my final paper ! yg tak buat2 lagi ...my fault, I own up to it.

Time to be responsible for choices and life :D time to grow up ..

Me and her are getting along real fine ;-) Syukurlah...

Oh yeah, please visit this blog. The posts make for fine reading. I think I know who the author is , but ... takpe la, his words are good enough.

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ETERNAL FLAME (Bangles)

Close your eyes, give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating
Do you understand
Do you feel the same
Am I only dreaming
Is this burning an eternal flame

I believe it's meant to be, darling
I watch you when you are sleeping
You belong with me
Do you feel the same
Am I only dreaming
Or is this burning an eternal flame

Say my name
sun shines through the rain
A whole life so lonely
And then you come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling

Say my name
sun shines through the rain
A whole life so lonely
And then you come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling

Close your eyes, give me your hand, darling
Do you feel my heart beating
Do you understand
Do you feel the same
Am I only dreaming
But is this burning an eternal flame

- eternal flame indeed, InsyaAllah :-)

My Birthdate

Your Birthdate: June 20

You are a virtual roller coaster of emotions, and most people enjoy the ride. Your mood tends to set the tone of the room, and when you're happy, this is a good thing. When you get in a dark mood, watch out - it's very hard to get you out of it. It's sometimes hard for you to cheer up, and your gloom can be contagious. Your strength: Your warm heart Your weakness: Trouble controlling your emotions Your power color: Black Your power symbol: Musical note Your power month: February

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

--- Dang ! so dekat2 true ... ;-p

Past To The Present Then The Future

15 years go .... ( waa that long ... )

In class, in a place at Shah Alam...

Lecturer : So how do you guys define love and marriage ?
Boy A : Love Then Marriage
Boy B : Marriage Then Love
Boy C : Love first a bit, get married and then develop the love la ..

Whole class : HHuuuuuuuuu ... jiwang karat mamat ni

What if Boy C's words actually came true ? Kata orang Melayu, mulut masin ... :-) ...jeng .. jeng

This Gift - 98 Degrees

The snow is falling, the city is white
Your eyes are shining like diamonds tonight
And we're all alone
There's no one home
You're finally in my arms again
The night is silent
and Christmas is here
I couldn't ask for more than having you near
Cuz I love you girl,
I always will
And now I know the moment is right

*Cuz I've been waiting to give this gift tonight
Im' down on my knees, there's no better time
It's something to last for as long as you live
Tonight I'm going to give you (oh girl!) all my heart can give!!*

I thought I'd give you something shiny and new
I tried to find something worthy of you
But I realized, when I looked inside
There's some things that money can't buy!
Oh no!
I feel the magic, whenever you're near
I feel it even more this time of the year
Cuz I love you girl
I always will
And now I know the moment is right

*Cuz I've been waiting to give this gift tonight!
I'm down on my knees, there's no better time
It's something to last for as long as you live
Tonight I'm going to give you all my heart can give!*

You know I'll always be true to you
And you know I'm the one you can turn to
Oh oh yeah
Any time, any place, or anywhere
you know that I'll always be there!

*Cuz I've been waiting to give this gift tonight
I'm down on my knees, there's no better time
It's something to last for as long as you live
Tonight I'm going to give you all my heart can give*
*Repeat*

Euphoria, Sadness + Despair, Joy --> New Hope

Yesterday, at 7.30 pm, I received a great piece of news, abt me and her. So, was joy n euphoric for a while .. by 9 pm, it turned into despair. By end of the night, I was in tears. The tears, made me realize one thing, that I want her and nobody else.

So today was basically going through the motions...felt kinda empty u know .. luckily she and my best friend were around to lend me support.

The tables were turned later tonight .. thanks to my sister and dad. ;-) And it became joy .. syukur :D ..

So ladies and gents ... the lesson learnt is this ... kalau jodoh tu tak ke mana ... ;p

A new hope is reborn .... and my heart is healed :)


Mulanya Di Sini -Freedom-

( P: )
Tibanya di sini
Bagai terulang lagi
Kisah yang indah
Di antara kita berdua

( L: )
Sehingga di sini
Tiada berpaling lagi
Kita berteman
Seiring jalan dan sehaluan

( L: & P: )
( korus )
Sama sama menjejak mimpi
Sama sama mencari dan menanti
Segalanya direstui cinta sejati
Sama sama gunung didaki
Sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
Suka duka bersama dirasai

( P: )
Mulanya di sini
Ku kenali dirimu
Sehingga kini
Sehingga ke akhir waktu

( L: )
Akhirnya di sini
Ku kenali hatimu
Sehingga kini
Kita akan terus berlalu

( L: & P: )
( korus )
Sama sama menjejak mimpi
Sama sama mencari dan menanti
Segalanya direstui cinta sejati
Sama sama gunung didaki
Sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
Suka duka bersama dirasai

( L: )
Di hadapan kita ada jalan
Menuju di kejauhan ada sinar menanti
Di penghujung perjalanan ini

( P: )
Oh... sambil bernyanyi
Mendendang senandung yang syahdu
Riangnya hati dan indah duniaku

( L: & P: )
( korus )
Sama sama menjejak mimpi
Sama sama mencari dan menanti
Segalanya direstui cinta sejati
Sama sama gunung didaki
Sama sama turun ke lembah sepi
Suka duka bersama dirasai


.....

a new journey begins ....

T.H.R.E.E

It has been three wonderful and interesting months ..

Three words were spoken tonight for the first time.

And officially, I am off from the singles market. :-)

Ta ;-) ...

The end of 2006 cannot come soon enough :D

Love Is + 30 sen + Grillz

1) Love Is ..

SMS
Me : " For me, it should be about joy, laughter and fun. As long as kita ingat n tunaikan peranan n tanggungjawab kita dlm hubungan ini. Kan ? "
Her : Rite! :).. "

2) 30 Sen

Fuel naik 30 sen per litre ... I am affected just a bit, as I naik a kapcai. The after effects see la lepas ni. The usual explanations came out, no need to elaborate here ... but, I really liked what the TPM said here..

My short, simple and sweet answer : Cakap Serupa Bikin. People Ain't Fools, Anymore ...

3) Grillz

Right now, I like to boogie to this song. Cool video too ;-)

Aftermath :--> Stickwitu

The last few days, I have been spending time a bit with her .. usually after work la.. after the hiatus episode, I am now seeing her in a different light ... u know what peeps, .. I appreciate her more .. seeing her smile, laugh at my jokes, her tender touch .. makes me feel good and warm inside. Dang, is my heart melting or what ..

She likes this song below ...

Pussycat Dolls - Stickwitu


Provided by VideoCodes4U.com

.. I hope to stick with her ...

A related post to this post ...

Colors Of Love

Color Of Love Boyz II Men

I was lonely
I needed someone to see me through
I was at the end of my rope
I needed someone to cut me loose

And then an angel out of the blue
Gave me the sense that i might make it through
And somehow I survived with no rhyme or reason
And now I know I'll make it through the miracle of you

I know the color of love
And it lives inside of you
I know the color of truth
It's in the image of you
If it comes from the heart
Then you know that it's true
It will color your soul like a rainbow (Like a
rainbow)
And the color of love is in you

Colors, the colors, the colors, the colors of
Colors, the colors, the colors, the colors of
Colors, the colors, the colors, the colors of
Love, love, love

Like a bridge
Over troubled, troubled water
You stood beside me, stood beside me
And your love did not falter

And then the angel, the angel in you
Gave me the strength to know that I will get through
And that's how I survived, ain't no other reason
And now I know I'll make it through the miracle of you

I know the color of love
And it lives inside of you
I know the color of truth
It's in the image of you
If it comes from the heart
Then you know that it's true
It will color your soul like a rainbow (Like a
rainbow)
And the color of love is in you (Is in you)

Colors, the colors, the colors, the colors of
Colors, the colors, the colors, the colors of (It's
the colors)
Colors, the colors, the colors, the colors of
(Oh...oh...oh...oh...oh...oh...)
Love, love, love

So girl, I wanna thank you
I can't thank you enough
For showing me the meaning
The meaning of true love

When i was lost and so in need
You opened up your heart
When I needed you to comfort me
You opened up your arms

I couldn't face another day
You said, "Don't be afraid"
You showed my heart the,
Showed me the way

I know the color of love (Hey, hey, hey, hey, ho ho,
ho)
And it lives inside of you (It lives in you)
I know the color of truth (Oh...whoa...ho...)
It's in the image of you
If it comes from the heart (Comes from the heart)
Then you know that it's true
It will color your soul like a rainbow
And the color is in you

Colors, the colors, the colors, the colors of (Oh)
Colors, the colors, the colors, the colors of (It's
the colors)
Colors, the colors, the colors, the colors of
Love, love, love

Oh...the color of you

....

Last night, she said " You nearly lost me ... " My heart dropped ...

On the matters of the heart, she is like silk .. strong yet soft n sensitive ..

.. the miseducation of Ome continues ...

Me N My Big Mouth

The hiatus is over. It was all my fault rupanya. Lain kali cakap, jgn jadi mcm kura2. Now have to win her back again.

Update: I love the advice given in this post, abt the matter. Really covers it. ;-)

Hiatus

Me and her are on hiatus *sigh* .... it may have been a shooting star after all ...

True ?

" When you know what you want, you know what you want "

from ...The Wedding Crashers

Hmmm ......

ps / I am leaving my current gig ..

Top 10 Reasons !!!

What do ya think ? ;-p

Never Forget

10 years ago, I was fresh out of uni , with hope n vigor :) The song below was like an anthem ..

NEVER FORGET - Take That -

Been on this path of life for so long, Feel I've walked a thousand miles
Sometimes strolled hand in hand with love, Everybody's been there
With danger on my mind I would stand on the line of hope, I knew I could make it
Once I knew the boundaries I looked into the clouds and saw,
My face in the moonlight
Just then I realised what a fool I could be
Just cause I look so high I don't have to see me
Finding a paradise wasn't easy but still
There's a road going down the other side of this hill

Never forget where you've come here from
Never pretend that it's all real
Someday soon this will be someone else's dream

Been safe from the arms of disappointment for so long,
Feel each day we've come too far
Yet each day seems to make much more, Sure is good to be here
I understand the meaning of "I can't explain this feeling", Now it feels so unreal
At night I see the hand that reminds me of the stand I make
The fact of reality

REPEAT CHORUS

We've come so far and we've reached so high
And we've looked each day and night in the eye
And we're still so young and we hope for more, But remember this
We're not invincible, we're not invincible, no
We're only people, we're only people
Hey we're not invincible, we're not invincible

So again I'll tell you
REPEAT CHORUS

...

and now, I feel it again :) ....

:D ...

Sebenarnya, this past week, hati gue gundah gelana sikit ttg dia. Well, both of us are currently busy with stuff, so tak dpt jumpa.

It all began masa trip ke KB.. actually, I was happy to be going to KB, partly nak get off my mind n think abt stuff. Dia faham and told me to be careful aje. Di KB, ada masanya I wish she was there ... ;-) .. di KB also, I started to think whether me and her were going too fast .. and this feeling was ding-dong ...

Why ? I think it's because I am worried. Worried abt me n her ...

Later in the week, she told me about something that was related to the KB. I was stunned and a bit teed off. I apologized abt it later that night, in the sms. In reply, she said she didn't want to tell me, as she knew my reaction would be that way.

So, today, we had a dinner date...beli makan at a nearby pasar malam. After makan, had a long chat .. it was warm, friendly n lovely. And, she, as usual calmed my fears, and finally made me realize the issue, was that I didn't want to disappoint her, with all my failings ... she didn't say it, but she warmly assured me that it was all okay.

Awak, terima kasih kerana menerima insan ini.


BEAUTIFUL IN MY EYES (Joshua Kadison)

You’re my piece of mind, in this crazy world
You’re every thing I've tried to find
Your love is a pearl
You’re my Mona Lisa
You’re my rainbow skies
And my only prayer is that you realize
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes...

The world will turn
And the seasons will change
And all the lessons we will learn
Will be beautiful and strange
We'll have our fell of tears
Our share of sight
My only prayer is that you realize
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes...

You will always be beautiful in my eyes
And the passing is the show
That you will always grow
Ever more beautiful in my eyes

And there are lines upon my face
From a life time of smiles
When the time comes to embrace
For one long last wine
We can laugh about how time really flies
We won’t say goodbye
‘Cause true love never dies
You'll always be beautiful in my eyes...

You will always be beautiful in my eyes
And the passing is the show
That you will always grow
Ever more beautiful in my eyes

The passing is the show
That you will always grow
Ever more beautiful in my eyes...

...

Destino

1) Last nite at Starbucks, I had a date with destiny. Destiny did not show up. Life goes on :D

2) I am going to be gila2 sibuk till end of April, sbb my final paper is due by end of April n I haven't started anything yet ! ..uwaa....

Told her abt no 2, and dia faham ;-)

3) I met an old schoolmate and a favorite blogger of mine ( blog la balik, girl ! :D ..u know who u are .. ). In KLCC, the past tends to catch up with you while destiny awaits ..;-)

One thing is for sure .. I still view the world through my idealistic eyes ! ;-) ... time to do some new mental models la ...


Try To Find Me - Gorky Park -


When the rain is pouring down
And no one is around
All the doors are closed
You're a stranger in this town
Wandering around and you feel lost

CHORUS:
Please try to find me and I'll try to find you
You know I need you just like you need me
Please don't give up cause we're almost together
We've almost made it, hold on and you'll see

When nobody wants to hear
What you want to say
And you feel down when your hope has disappeared
Like a morning train
You can't slow down

CHORUS

I'm just like you,
Oh you know it's true
Don't give up my friend
This is not the end

CHORUS

Changes

The three days : Thursday - Saturday .. brought a few changes ..

was it too fast too soon ...

was hope given too soon ...

saw this movie on DVD a few times this past few days ...

*sigh* I am a bit screwed up ..

What's Up ?

1) Her
The past few days, I thought of doing some work n personal stuff, but as most things, it mainly focused on her :P ...

It's been nearly two months and jeez, some times it's like a dream. :D It has it's up and downs ... to be honest, it's more to do with me .. once a while, I think a bit too much, and the demons knock in to say hello. To her credit, she has been patient and understanding about the whole thing ... she always say that I think too much though :P ..

There are some stuff abt her that I am discovering,... but underneath all of it, there lies a warm loving person who simply accepts me as I am , and in turn, makes me want to be a better man. :-)

Last Saturday was cool, .. I introduced her to my family, and syukur, depa bagi thumbs up :D ... mama kata "Sejoli" ... hehe.. my papa was like , " oh well, u slipped on a banana peel at last, u were this close to safety .. " .. my anak buahs know that she is my awek ( Apik cakap "awek", Coci cakap "kakak Uncle Ome" ) ...

Thing is .. this is real right ? ... if it ain't, well I don't want to wake up from this dream ...

* Work n study rants later ...:P

Gong Xi Fa Cai n Selamat Menyambut Awal Muharran n KL Day :D

-- kawe ke KB dari esok ke Sabtu .. ada member kahwin ! .. ada can kecek mek kelate .. adoii, jgn la cubit awak ! :D

A Promise I Make - Dakota Moon -

Girl, you're every breath I take
Oh baby,
Your love rules every move I make
Oh baby,
And I know that you can't read my mind
And baby, maybe I

CHORUS
Don't say it as often as I should But I really want it to be heard
When I say I love you that's for good
You have my word
That day after day after all
I will always be true
That's a promise I make to you

You, you take this heart of mine
And make it better
I need you to
Come and walk with me through this life
Forever
And I know these words are long over due
And baby, maybe I

CHORUS

I may hold you
I may need you
I may want to

CHORUS

....

I am French :D

Your Inner European is French!

Smart and sophisticated. You have the best of everything - at least, *you* think so.

Who's Your Inner European?

Soul Survivor

Been busy lately ... work is really piling up !

"Soul Survivor" - Young Jeezy (feat. Akon)

[Intro:]
Convict
Akon and Young Jeezy
Tryin' to take it easy
Only way to go
And So...

[Chorus (Akon):]
If you lookin' for me I'll be on the block
With my thang cocked possibly sittin' on a drop (Now)
'Cuz I'm a rida (Yeah)
I'm just a Soul Survivor

'Cuz er'body know the game don't stop
Tryin' to make it to the top for your ass get popped (Now)
If you a rida (Yeah)
Or just a Soul Survivor

[Verse 1 (Young Jeezy):]
(Let's get it) Tonight I can't sleep--we livin' in Hell (Yeah)
First they, give us the work then they throw us in jail (Ayy)
Road Trip ya--I'm trafficing in the white
Please Lord don't let me go to jail tonight (Yeah)
Who Me?? I'm a Soul Survivor
Ask about 'em in the street, the boy Jeez a rida (Jeez a rida)
A hundred grand on my wrist, yeah life sucks
Fuck the club, dawg, I rather count a million bucks (Ayy)

[Chorus (Akon):]
If you lookin' for me I'll be on the block
With my thang cocked possibly sittin' on a drop (Now)
'Cuz I'm a rida (Yeah)
I'm just a Soul Survivor

'Cuz er'body know the game don't stop
Tryin' to make it to the top for your ass get popped (Now)
If you a rida (Yeah)
Or just a Soul Survivor

[Verse 2 (Young Jeezy):]
Another day, another dolla (dolla)-same block, same nigga, same part, same green
I guess we got the same dreams (Ayy)
Or is it the same nightmares (nightmares)
We let the doves do it for us -- we don't cry tears (That's right)
Real niggaz don't budge
When Mail Man got his time he shot birds at the judge (Yeah)
I'm knee deep in the game
So when it's time to re-up, I'm knee deep in the cane (Damn)
Real talk, Look, I'm tellin' you mayne (tellin' you mayne)
If you get jammed up don't mention my name
Forgive me Lord--I know I aint livin' right
Gotta feed the block, niggaz starvin', they got appitites (Ayy)
And this is er'day, it never gets old (Old)
Thought I was a juvenile stuck to the G-Code (Yeah)
This aint a rap song, nigga this is my life (this is my life)
And if the hood was a battlefield then I'd earn stripes (Yeah)

[Chorus (Akon):]
If you lookin' for me I'll be on the block
With my thang cocked possibly sittin' on a drop (Now)
'Cuz I'm a rida (Yeah)
I'm just a Soul Survivor

'Cuz er'body know the game don't stop
Tryin' to make it to the top for your ass get popped (Now)
If you a rida (Yeah)
Or just a Soul Survivor

[Verse 3 (Young Jeezy):]
Gotta watch er' move 'cuz them eyes be on you (eyes be on you)
Gotta drive real cool when them pies be on you (pies be on you)
Just because we stack paper and we ball outrageous (ball outrageous)
Them alphabet boys gotta us under survalence (Ayy)
(Like animals) They lock us in cages
The same nigga that's a star when you put 'em on stages
I aint cheat--played the hand I was dealt
Tried to tax the grand pearl when I got it myself
(Let's Get It) No nuts, no glory (no glory)
My biography, you damn right, the true story (Yeah)
Set the city on fire, and I didn't even try (try)
Run these streets all day, I can sleep when I die (Ayy)

[Bridge (Akon):]
'Cuz if you lookin' for me you you can find me
On the block disobeyin' the law
Real G--thoroughbred from the streets
Pants saggin' with my gun in my draws
Just to keep on movin' now
Just to keep on movin' now
Just to keep on movin' now
Just to keep on movin' now

[Chorus (Akon) 2x:]
If you lookin' for me I'll be on the block
With my thang cocked possibly sittin' on a drop (Now)
'Cuz I'm a rida (Yeah)
I'm just a Soul Survivor

'Cuz er'body know the game don't stop
Tryin' to make it to the top for your ass get popped (Now)
If you a rida (Yeah)
Or just a Soul Survivor

----
I can sleep when I die ... hmm, that sounds apt right now ..

Tagged + Musings

1) Tagged

I was tagged by cookie a few weeks ago, so .. now got time to do it :D .. here it goes ...

1) What were you doing ten years ago?

Just started working as a training officer, ajar students use MS Office software .. at Bangsar ..

What were you doing one year ago?

Working in PJ, doing a job I absolutely hated :D ... the only I stayed was because the RM was good ... realized that the job was not I wanted to do ..

Five snacks you enjoy
1. Kacang Ngan Yin
2. Sour Cream n Onion Pringles
3. Kacang goreng .. anything kacang la ..
4. Twisties cheese
5. Popcorn wayang

Five songs to which you know all the lyrics off your head right now:
1. Nanti - Innuendo ...
2. Please Dont Go Girl - NKOTB
3. Shape Of My Heart - BSB
4. Baby I'm Yours - Shai
5.


Five things you would do if you were a millionaire:


Five bad habits
1. Think too much
2. Get insecure at times
3. Procrastinate :D


Five things you like doing:
1. Read my readings yg tak habis2
2. Play Championship Manager
3. Travel here n there ..outside KL la..
4. Spend time with her
5.

Five things you would never wear, buy, or get new again:
1. Any clothes in Pink
2.


Five favorite toys: ( susah sikit ni )
1. My computer
2... 5

2/2/06 Note : Maaf la cookie, masa I did this thing, I was kinda blur ( byk empty spaces ) .. it was a few days ago, but to preserve it in its originality, am posting it now like I did it masa tu

Geisha + ??

1) Geisha

Saw this movie with her yesterday at The Mines. Interesting and engrossing I would say. I would say that Michelle Yeoh's performance was good, as she gave another side of her acting skills, instead of the usual terbang2 martial arts stuff. And of course, Zhang Ziyi performance is mesmerizing :-) .. but not as mesmerizing as her ;-p

2) A quote from With Honors

Simon Wilder: Women. Ain't they perfect?
Monty: Not always.
Simon Wilder: Yes, they are, they're perfect. Don't matter if they're skinny, fat, blond or blue. If a woman is willing to give you her love, Harvard, it's the greatest gift in the world. Makes you taller, makes you smarter, makes your teeth shine. Boy, oh, boy, women are perfect.

Hmm .. after yesterday, I think she is ....

3) For her ..

Have You Ever Really Loved A Woman? - Bryan Adams -

To really love a woman
To understand her - you gotta know her deep inside
Hear every thought - see every dream
N' give her wings when she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms
Ya know ya really love a woman

When you love a woman you tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
Cuz she needs somebody to tell her that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really - really really ever loved a woman?

To really love a woman
Let her hold you - til ya know how she needs to be touched
You've gotta breathe her - really taste her
Til you can feel her in your blood
N' when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
Ya know ya really love a woman

Chorus

You got to give her some faith - hold her tight
A little tenderness - gotta treat her right
She will be there for you, takin' good care of you
Ya really gotta love your woman...

.. have I ? or am I learning to do so ..
*wink*

Pride + Come What May

1) Pride

I saw Pride and Prejudice earlier today afternoon at GSC Mid Valley. My verdict .. a superb date movie. :-) I went with her and it was our first date movie :D We had a wonderful time ...

2) After Pride

After the movie, had a drink at San Fran .. she asked about yesterday's episode .. I told her about it .. bared my soul a bit ..:-)

Boy : " yeah .. that's it .. so bagaimana ? U nak lari ke ?"
Girl smiles and shakes her head
Boy : " so you're staying ? "
Girl smiles and nods ...
Boy kisses girl's hand and says silently " Thank you "
Girl " I really like you "
Boy stunned for a few secs ...
Girl " At least u cerita ni, I understand u better "
Boy smiles

Dedicated to her

Come What May - Air Supply -

When she looks at me
I know the girl sees things
Nobody else can see
All of the secret tears inside
And all the craziness I hide
She looks into my soul
And reads me like nobody can
And she doesn't judge the man
She just takes me as I am

Chorus:
Come what may, she believes
And that faith is something
I've never known before
Come what may, she loves me
And that love has helped me open a door
Making me love myself a little more

When I turn away
She knows those are the times
There's nothing to say

Nothing that anyone can do
And so she lets me live it through
And when I'm in my darkest hours of uncertainty
She just simply lets me be
And goes right on loving me

And when it seems my dreams
Have all slipped through my fingers
When they just can't be found
I turn around and there they are
Shining in her eyes


later, amigos

Rain + Demons

Part 1

KL ( office )- B : Motor .. rain ..
B - KL Sentral : Komuter
KL Sentral - B : Komuter
B - KL ( apt ): Motor

Why do u do it ? So that u can ride with her sampai dia balik rumah, as she was working late that night. Even though u were a bit wet due to the weather, u were willing to do so .. to hold her tender hands n feel the warmth ..

Part 2

On the last part of Part 1, the demons paid a visit .. " Kan prinsip kau tak nak menyusahkan orang ... kan kau menyusahkan dia sekrg .." it played on and on, like a broken record and it bothered me till this morning ... masa breakfast, I told her and she reassured me that everything was alright .. " Don't think too much, dear .. "

I feel a bit better now ... I know I am still recovering and leaving the emo baggage of the past.

Thank you, L, for understanding ....

10 Jan 2006

This year's first Raya Korban which fell on 10th Jan 2006, would be remembered fondly in my memory :D ..

1) Touch

From this movie

"Doctor Marcia Fieldstone: Tell me what was so special about your wife?
Sam Baldwin: Well, how long is your program? Well, it was a million tiny little things that, when you added them all up, they meant we were suppose to be together... and I knew it. I knew it the very first time I touched her. It was like coming home... only to no home I'd ever known... I was just taking her hand to help her out of a car and I knew. It was like... magic. "

I know how it feels now .. dang, it feels good :D

2) This Far

" ..u know what .. I wonder how we ever come this far .. "
" tah lah , awak .. ok je .. "
" yeah .. " * both smile *

How soon is soon and how fast is fast ? .. I used to blab about this but now, .. I don't know ... hmm..maybe this would help..

From this movie, there is a scene where the secretary said that we live on based what we know, .. hmm.. or something like that ...

.. as advised by my best friend, just follow the flow ...:D

Both movies are recommended, especially the second one .. freaking hilarious and sweet :D

1) + 2) = below ...

Baby I’m-a Want You - Bread -

Baby, i’m-a want you
Baby, i’m-a need you
You the only one I care enough to hurt about
Maybe i’m-a crazy
But I just can’t live without...

Your lovin’ and affection
Givin’ me direction
Like a guiding light to help me through a darkest hour
Lately I’m a-prayin’
That you’ll always be a-stayin’ beside me

Used to be my life was just emotions passing by
Feeling all the while and never really knowing why...

Lately I’m a-prayin’
That you’ll always be a-stayin’ beside me.

Used to be my life was just emotions passing by
Then you came along and made me laugh
And made me cry...
You taught me why...

Baby, i’m-a want you
Baby, i’m-a need you

Oh, it took so long to find you, baby

Baby, i’m-a want you
Baby, i’m-a need you

.. :-) ...

13 Jan - update title ..tq to Voice :P

Love Thang

I got this from cookie. Dang :D Patut me n her kamceng cepat2 :D .. acat, jgn mare eh ...hehe

Your Love Element Is Fire

In love, you are a true listener and totally present. For you, love is all about feeling more alive than you've ever felt. You attract others with your joy and passion. Your flirting style is defined by your strong ability to communicate. Fun and play are the cornerstones of your love life. And while your flame may burn too brightly, it's part of your appeal. You connect best with: Wood Avoid: Water You and another Fire element: will likely burn out quickly

What Element Is Your Love?

Ada Apa dengan cinta ? ..sudah terjawab dehh .... ;-p

O.N.E

" .. so I call u girl la .. "
" ..jd I call u boy ? "
" err.. yeah .. "
" ok "
" ...I jadi yr boy, u jadi my girl .. "
*smiles*

* boy n girl
-------

girl : " ...enam bulan.."
boy : " yeah "
*silence*
boy : " u okay ke ? "
girl : *geleng2 kepala * " tak okay "
boy : " .. itu dulu la .. "
*silence*
boy : " dengan u it's different "
*girl looks at boy*
*boy takes girl right hand, genggam-s and kisses it*
boy : " dont worry, it's good "
girl smiles

lesson : boy, don't talk too much abt the past. Let it go. Nasib baik girl faham ..lucky boy.

-------

The scenes were recorded at Chilis KLCC on boy n girl's one month anniversary :D

++ boy need to go for a "forget the past, look for the future" therapy ..

Post Holiday Belus

U know u had a good vacation, when u wished it didn't end, and was too short :D

Today, tak minat nak kerja n malas ...bad boy ! :D On the other end, breakfast was good, even though it was short. And yes, it was with her.

My bike is on the mend, temporarily riding a motorised 'Penny Farthing'.. what a bone shaker it is ...

I am humming this song and looking for the mp3

Baby I'm Yours - Cher -

baby i'm yours
and i'll be yours
until the stars fall from the sky
yours until the rivers all run dry
your the one until i die

baby i'm yours
and i'll be yours
until the sun no longer shines
yours until the poets run out of rhyme
your the one until the end of time

i'm gonna stay right here
by your side
do my best to keep you satisfied
nothing in the world can drive me away
cuz everyday you'll hear me say
baby i'm yours

i'm gonna stay right here
by your side
do my best to keep you satisfied
nothing in the world can drive me away
cuz everyday you'll hear me say
baby i'm yours

and i'll be yours
until two and two is three
yours until the mountain crumbles to the sea
your the one until eternity

baby i'm yours
until the stars fall from the sky
baby i'm yours
til the rivers all run dry
baby i'm yours


--- later ;-)