;-p Part Deux

I was typing a post, then the browser crashed ! .. well.. let me summarize what I wrote just now ...

1) Acknowledged an addiction and working to overcome it.

2) This piece of the local news. I wish them all the happiness. I know how it feels lonely at nights... :-|

2.1 ) Hmm, ada harapan buat gue. ;-) My future wife could be in Form 1 tahun ni !! .. hehe.. ada excuse baru for my relatives ;-p

3) Went to a job agency. Ok la .. but see how they can help me. A bummer that I am not working , but .. during this break .. I learnt a lot about myself, saw a lot n observed many things and adored her. ( I still do ;-) )

4) Went to see this show at Sutra. I had a great time .. and I have a new appreciation for the man and his works. Will be going there again for next month's performance. Something about the place...

Official website here.

Have a good weekend, amigos !

Gol n Gincu Part 2

1) Saw it again td at Pyramid, with a friend who is also a fellow blogger. She liked it and said that she would buy the vcd. Yep, dia dah bagi her seal of approval ;-) Cewah .. ok, that's it ;-) .. I am going only to watch it twice in the movie theatres... unless ada org belanja me pulak. Any takers ?!!??

The song below was featured in the movie, especially a very interesting 'drooling' scene .. ;-)

Bagaikan Puteri - Zarina AF2 - oa Farra

Ha...Ha...Ha
Ha...Ha...
Mm...Mm...

Jika dunia
Aku yang punya
Akan ku dirikan
Sebuah syurga
Malam tanpa siang
Untuk ku bermimpi

Sepanjang masa
Tanpa kecewa
Bertemankan bintang yang setia
Bagaikan puteri
Kisah khayalan
Yang hidupnya suci dan sempurna

oh...Tapi sayang
Hanyalah impian
Bulan tak bisa tumbuh ditaman
Dan bila mentari datang
Pulanglah segala kenyataan

Jika dunia
Aku yang punya
Akan kuhiaskan
Sepasang sayap
Putih dan berseri
Untukku kemudi

2) This story elicited an Awww... then a cynical smile from me.. lucky girl ... I mean a very lucky girl. Ada apa dengan cinta ya ? ;-)

Nak Ke Tak Nak + NKOTB

1) A couple of days ago, I went to Cheras to look for a music album, which I found there. Wanted to buy, but .. wanted to get it later. This time, one year ago, was way too late. Tak jumpa, and the album is hard to find nowadays. Lesson : When you delay decision, berani la tanggung consequences. The album is the debut and only album by the local group, Juliet The Orange.

2) During the trip there, I bought two music video compilation vcds. One is by Def Leppard, containing all their music videos. I'll review that later. But the next one, is making me smile so broadly. It's a compilation of music videos by NKOTB. *Squeal with glee* .. ok, hands up gue mengaku .. when they were fab during the late 80s and early 90s, I was a big fan. :-) .. sheesh, if I cerita abt my minat with them during those days.. hahah.. I would blush .. they were THE boyband masa my time. Looking at them videos made me smile..

my 3 fav NKOTB videos in order

1. Please Don't Go Girl
2. I'll Be Loving You Forever
3. You Got It ( The Right Stuff )

Yep, I was a Blockhead and proud of it !

The music video compilation details are here.


Please Don't Go Girl( NKOTB )

We've been together for a long time, baby
Do you have to leave?
Please don't go girl
I just can't live without you
Please don't go girl
So listen to me... (Don't go, girl)
Please don't go girl
You would ruin my whole world
Tell me you'll stay
Never ever go away
I love you (I love you)
I guess I always will
Girl, you're my best friend
Girl, you're my love within
I just want you to know
That I will always love you
Ooh, baby

Tell me you'll stay
Never ever go away
I need you (I need you)
I guess I always will
Girl, you're my best friend
Girl, you're my love within
I just want you to know
That I will always love you
Ooh, baby

(Please don't go girl)
I'm gonna always love you girl
I'm gonna love you girl until the end of time
Tell me girl
You're gonna always be mine

Please don't go girl
You would ruin my whole world
Tell me you'll stay
Never ever go away
I love you (I love you)
I guess I always will
Girl, you're my best friend
Girl, you're my love within
I just want you to know
That I will always love you
Ooh, baby

(Please don't go girl)
(Please don't go girl)
Please don't go girl
(Please don't go girl)
Please don't go, baby
(Please don't go girl)
Please don't go girl
(Please don't go girl)
Please don't go darlin'
(Please don't go girl)
Please don't go, baby, no

It's Ok

* Admittedly, these past two weeks .. my mind has been thinking loads of stuff and I mean loads .. of new thoughts ...

1) It's okay

Today, while biking over .. I realized that it is okay. It is okay to feel sad and lonely ... I realized that it is just being human .. life has up and downs. It is not a sign of weakness. Previously, I would be angry whenever I feel like it .. but now I'm okay. And, keep on living. Only now, I understand what Joel Boyd said, about ten years ago.

2) Lose Your Illusions

Hmm, the illusions about her. Maybe it was all illusions . hmmm... still, I thank her for making me smile and keeping my spirits when the times are tough.

2.1 ) Move On

I want to move on. How ?

Nice clear skies today.

Godfather + Sideways

Bought a few DVDs a few days ago kat Uptown.

The Godfather Trilogy

This trilogy is a must have for any movie buff. The tale of the Corleone family... the words, scene and life lessons .. what can I say ;-) Last nite, I did a cursory check on all three DVDs .. and spent a few hours ;-) .. the movies are timeless ... which scenes I like ? ... too much to remember ..but on top of my head.. the shortlived marriage of Michael and Apollonia in Sicily, .. first meet, courtship, marriage, first night, Apollonia's death.

I have watched it loads of times, and it still captivates me the each time I see them. There is something new I would notice.

A cool unofficial website for the trilogy here.

Warning - the movies to some extent, does romanticize the whole Mafia gig .. but in the end, in Godfather III, there always a price to pay ..

Sideways

This flick is a cool drama / comedy buddy movie. I wanted to see what was the big deal about this movie, since it did pretty well in the movie awards circuit last year. For me, I enjoyed watching it, but the movie , at times, touched an uncomfortable raw emotion for me, especially in the lead character, Miles. Kind of art imitating life perhaps. What is it ? Watch it yourself .. and perhaps u get the idea *wink*

A good place to check on this movie is here.

ps / saw her recently. She looked great. ;-)

Dia

1) Bila aku berfikir atau teringat dia, aku bertanya .. adakah aku ni mengejar bayangan seperti biasa ? Mungkin .. mungkin ... bukan pertama kali aku direject or told in nice words .. " Let's just be friends " .. selalunya selepas ini berlaku, si gadis yg aku suka tu, aku mudah aja lupakan or anggap dia sebagai normal. Tidak dgn dia .. aku persistent kali ni ;-p .. tapi, aku tidak psycho atau go ga-ga. Aku tenang kali ni .. tenang dan bersedia menghadapi realiti. Bagi dia, aku hanyalah teman biasa.. tapi dia tahu yang aku suka dia. Aku bersyukur n berterima kasih yg dia melayan aku seperti dulu.

1.1 ) Pada yg menasihati, aku ucapkan terima kasih :-) Kita tgk nanti bagaimana aku dan dia. Hati kecil aku berkata, dia tidak berubah, Pet .. dia akan tetap melayan kau begitu. Aku akur ... but hati kecil aku memujuk, .. if she is meant for you, you are meant for her .. InsyaAllah.

1.2 ) Aku ingat memori2 aku dengan dia. Apa yg berlaku masa kita bertemu utk pertama kali .. dan sekiannya. Pernah dia bertanya, mengapa perlu aku ingat benda2 yg padanya yg remeh temeh ? .. aku kata, aku memang tidak mahu lupa. Tapi, aku tak beritahu dia ... yg aku paling ingat is memori masa kita dinner dulu .. dia kata aku ego. Aku marah, tapi, aku terima kenyataan. Pada aku, bak kata Melvin Udall in As Good As It Gets, " You make me want to become a better man "

1.3 ) Pernah sekali dia call n tinggal voice mail sbb aku tidak sempat akan angkat hp. Dia tak tahu yg utk seminggu, pesanan dia aku tidak padam. Bila aku rindu dia, aku dengar pesanan dia dlm voicemail ;-) .. akhirnya pesanan itu hilang, sbb Maxis simpan seminggu aje. Kejam kau Maxis :-p

2 ) Lagu utk dia malam ini ..

Dia -Cokelat-

Tersipu aku oleh senyuman
Begitu indah, walaupun .. sejenak
Ku tak mengerti, resah di hati
Kian terasa bergetar di sukma

Dia sinari hatiku .. selalu
Dia hangatkan jiwaku .. selalu
Adakah dia tahu rasa di hatiku
Akankah dia nanti, milikku satu
Selama lamanya

Saat kau hadir hiasi mimpi
Dakap diriku damaikan tidurku


Pada kalian, terima kasih kerana membaca kisah aku dan dia.

Malam ni pasti aku akan senyum tidur teringatkan dia. ;-)

Gol N Gincu N Casablanca

1) Tadi siang I went to watch Gol and Gincu at 1 Utama. Well, hmm.. nak kata expectations tu takde la sgt, but I read a few reviews here n there so ... oklah, pi tgk .. sokonglah filem tempatan :-)

Kisah : Cerita dia agak ttg simple. Basically, about a girl, Putri, yg main futsal sbb nak balik bf dia. Putri n geng BTB ( Bukan Team Biasa ).. ada juga diselit kisah2 teammates dia ( J, Dayang , Jiji )

I would recommend people to watch this flick. The main reason I guess is because the film is honest and looks real, even though, it is a simple story. It beats Kuliah Cinta anyday ;-) ... senang follow cerita ni .. soundtrack pun ok .. Malaysian teen flick but tak condescending.

The performance of the actors n actresses were cool ;-) .. Fazura, u r H.O.T .. Sharifah Amani, u r making me drool ;-) .. Sazzy, u can kick me anytime babe.. the 3R ladies cool gila .. Ms Ponds, *wink* .. rest of the cast did their job well.

Since this flick is produced by the team yg buat 3R, some women issues were highlighted. Incest dan self-image antaranya. It is done in an interesting way, so my props to the team.

Laman Web Rasmi here
- di laman web rasmi ni, ada la links n stuff about the movie ..

ps/ I am gonna watch it again ..hehe .. why ? Three reasons above.
pps / if some scenes rasa pelik, sabar je la .. originally it suppose to run 120 minutes, then cut ke 100 minutes.

2) Casablanca

After the movie ended, masa jalan2 je .. tiba my head main lagu ni .. Casablanca ..

Casablanca -Bertie Higgins-

I fell in love with you watching Casablanca
Back row of the drive in show in the flickering light
Popcorn and cokes beneath the stars became champagne and caviar
Making love on a long hot summers night

I thought you fell in love with me watching Casablance
Holding hands 'neath the paddle fans in Rick's Candle lit cafe
Hiding in the shadows from the spies. Moroccan moonlight in your eyes
Making magic at the movies in my old chevrolet

Oh! A kiss is still a kiss in Casablanca
But a kiss is not a kiss without your sigh
Please come back to me in Casablanca
I love you more and more each day as time goes by

I guess there're many broken hearts in Casablanca
You know I've never really been there. so, I don't know
I guess our love story will never be seen on the big wide silver screen
But it hurt just as bad when I had to watch you go

Oh! A kiss is still a kiss in Casablanca
But a kiss is not a kiss without your sigh
Please come back to me in Casablanca
I love you more and more each day as time goes by
Oh! A kiss is still a kiss in Casablanca
But a kiss is not a kiss without your sigh

Please come back to me in Casablanca
I love you more and more each day as time goes by
I love you more and more each day as time goes by

3)I feel better .. I am discovering Coelho n Gibran .. some amazing words said, especially Gibran. These past few days, I feel better in a positive .. syukur the focus on Me is working. Amin.

Post ini tidak ditaja oleh Hotlink & Adidas, penaja utama Gol n Gincu ;-)

Lu Lompat, Gua Lompat

1) Yesterday, went back to Penang for a short trip. On the bus, the driver pasang Titanic. While reading the paper, tgk2 la sikit .. I concentrated a bit when the scene that Rose wanted to jump of at the back of the ship n Jack selamatkan dia. Jack uttered the famous phrase .." You jump, I jump .. " ..
Ingat tak demam Titanic melanda dunia ? hehe ... ramai org demam tgk filem ni .. I think the main reason sbb ia kisah cinta .. cinta abadi n tulus la katakan ;-) .. hehe.. but for me, the main reason I liked watching it sbb it conveyed the situations and emotions oleh penumpang2 tragedi Titanic ..can't imagine what I would do or act if I was there. I hope they rest in peace.

2) Masa dalam bas tu juga, aku fikir tentang dia. Mengapa aku suka dia, walaupun dia hanya menganggap aku kawan aja. Bila aku berbicara dengan memberku yg baru kahwin tu,E, kalau gadis lain, aku berkira sikit ( cewah .. ) tapi, dia.. aku terima dia sebab diri dia .. baik n buruknya. Kalau dia call aku minta tolong, pasti aku akan berbuat apa sahaja .. tapi.. kadang2 aku rasa mahu sahaja melupakan dia , tapi, bila dgr lagu dia, aku terus tersenyum n teringat dia. Nak katakan angau, angau ni dah lama juga ... ;-p *sigh* if she only knew ..

2.1 ) Masa dalam bas juga, terfikir yg selama ni aku berminat pada ladies yg memang gerenti aku tak dpt .. mcm magnet songsang la aku ... E hanya menasihati aku bersabar .. pergh , boleh la org sabar, kau dah ada Z ;-p .. hehe ... so sekrg ni, aku tak fikir apa2 dah sgt. Think positive n simpan segala rindu, cinta n dendam utk si dia.

2.2 ) Rasa2nya patut tak aku bagi deadline pada dia ? Cewah .. bagi deadline 31.12.2005 .. kalau tak jadi aku dengan dia .. aku simpan perasaan aku pd dia di kotak sejarah yg berlabel Dia and move on with my life. Ada deadline la pulok .. hehe ... actually, bukan kali pertama aku buat deadline dengan dia .. ada la a few times, tapi aku tak pernah beritahu dia ttg deadline .. hehe .. kalau la dia tahu ..

2.3 ) Tuhan, kau hantar signal kat aku boleh tak ttg si dia ? Lampu merah, kuning or hijau ? ( aku mintak2 hijau ... hehehe )

2.4 ) Kadang2 pagi2 bila aku bangun pagi, aku terbayang dia di sebelah aku, mata dia tertutup, rambut dia serabut sikit .. tgh tidur dengan lena .. aku pikir aku akan tgk dia selama 10 saat, lepas tu usap pipi dia dgn lembut n perlahan, then give her a light kiss on her forehead .. :-) .. cewah ! angan abis angau gue ... inikah dikatakan cinta ? Ada apa dengan cinta ?

* udah le dengan cerita no 2 tu, krg ada pembaca muntah ;-p

3) Gue still jobless ..dah dua bulan ni ... uwaaaa ....

4) Saya syok dengar lagu ni skrg ( sbb mp3 baru dapat ;-) ) ... gelek bang gelek ...

Shake Your Tailfeather -Nelly, PDiddy, Murphy Lee -

[Nelly] (P. Diddy)
We do it for fun
We just do it for fun
Dirty E.A.T
We do it for fun
Bad Boy (Nelly, Diddy, Murphy Lee)
We do it for fun (This is history baby)
Bend them trucks
We do it for fun (haha)
Stack them bucks
We do it for fun (Come on now)
And the band played on (yea)
Just like (I believe you cool to this)
We do it for fun
If you see me ma
We do it for fun

[P. Diddy]
Bad Boys 2, the soundtrack
Let's Go

[Verse 1: Nelly] + (P. Diddy)
Hey girl
What your name is?
Where you from?
Turn around who you came with?
Is that your ass or your momma have reindeer?
I can't explain it but damn sure glad you came here
I'm still a sucker for cornrolls, you know I never changed that (nah uh)
Your body is banging mamma, but where your brains at? (Come on)
I'm still the same cat when I was young I was running with bad boys
But now I'm older hope they saw I'm running with bad boys (that's right)
Here come another man
Unlike no other man
Candy coated whoa!
Switching in every lane
Ya'll help me
Why don't cha
Please help me
Eigth girl this week and it's only Tuesday
I like the cocky bow legged ones
Like white and Dominicans
Hispanics and Asians
Shake it for Nelly son
Manolos Ma-no-no's I can't tell
Everybody and their hootchies
When you do it do it well

{*Braves tomahawk chop done in background of Chorus*}

[Chorus]
[Nelly] Let me see you take it off
[P. D.] Girl go and take it off
[Nelly] We can even do it slow
[P. D.] We can even do it slow
[Nelly] Take it where you want to go
[P. D.] Take it where you want to go
[Nelly] Just take that ass to the floor
[P. D.] Pop something move something
Shake ya tail feather, girl go and take it low
[Nelly] We can even do it slow
[P. D.] We can even do it slow
[Nelly] Take it where you want to go
[P. D.] Take it where you want to go
[Nelly] Just take that ass to the floor
[P. D.] Pop something move something
Shake ya tail feather

[Verse 2: P. Diddy] + (Nelly)
Now real girls get down on the floor (on the floor)
Get that money honey act like you know (like you know)
Mama I like how you dance
The way you fit in them pants (Uh)
Enter the floor (Uh) take it low (Uh) girl do it again (Uh)
You know I love that (I love that)
Now where them girls at? (Where the girls at?)
It's Diddy, Murphy Lee, and Nelly how you love that? (Shit uh ohhhhhh)
Come on, we got another one player
>From New York to the Dirty how they loving it player?
Baby you impressive let's get
To know each other
You the best of the best and
You got to love it in the dresses, the sexiest
I had to tell her she's a young Janet Jackson live in living color
Look here momma you're dead wrong for having them pants on
Capri's cut low so when you shake it I see you're thong
My pocket's full of dough shake your feathers till the morning
It's Bad Boy and Nelly man somebody better warn them

[Chorus]

[Bridge: Nelly]
Oh no I heard them bad boys coming
Can't stop now
Got to continue my running (yea)
Because we go party till them lights come on
And then my song start thumping because my mike still on

[Verse 3: Murphy Lee] + (Nelly)
Yo, I'm the big booty type
I like them thick with their mind right (Awe)
Banging personality conversate when the time right (Naw)
I'm not hard I've got women to handle that
They be like he the man when I'm really a Thundercat
Come on you know the tics connect like Voltron
Collect so much grass popo thinking we mow lawns
My gohans don't match that
But it matches her head wrap and the seats that I got in the lap
I'm just a juvenile (Wha)
Because I be about G's
Keep your women wizzy man they say they have my babies
I'm young like Tucker like the cash and the money (I'm going to eat my money)
Man, I'm that damn hungry
See I'm starving like Marvin girl
I've got sixteen bars of fire is what I'm starting
Plus my rats come in packs like Sammy and Dean Martin
And I got so many keys you'd think I was valet parking

[Chorus]

[Bridge: Nelly]
Oh no I heard them bad boys coming
Can't stop now
Got to continue my running (yea)
Because we go party till them lights come on
And then my song start thumping because my mic still on (man)


ps / lagu utk dia ? .. hehe .. next post la ... hehe

A Visit To Kilang Cokelat

Just came back watching the midnight of the movie, Charlie and the Chocolate factory with my newly married friend.

My review : Sweet as chocolate :-p .. it is a good movie, on the top it is a funny flick, but underneath it, a few things came to my mind , byk hidden messages.

My newly married friend may not know this, but I think he is going to be alright with this marriage thingy. ;-) And, in spite of my almost cynical thing about the whole marriage + relationship gig, he's inspiring me a bit, and his beloved is so lucky to have him, .. but then I think she knows kot, that's why she married him in the first place !!

More Kilang Cokelat

The Yahoo movie page is here. You can find loads of reviews there.

The Wedding Epilogue II

1) I am okay now. It is all okay.
2) Watched Ungu Violet last Wednesday and got to meet the cast. Dian Sastro in person, the autographed postcard n movie poster ... wargggh.. what a dream ;-)
3) Saw the movie with her. Please visit her blog. Very Love-ly ;-) Tq for the kind words, dear. I really appreciate.

Life goes on .. perjuangan mesti diteruskan ;-)

Daa..

The Wedding Epilogue

Yesterday night, I was the best man ( pengapit ) for my best friend's wedding. He got married last Saturday. The nikah n reception ( on the lady site ) was on Saturday, while his reception was last night, somewhere in Shah Alam.

I experienced a multiple of emotions these past 24 - 36 hours, and probably will be in some similar state in the next few weeks or so. I cannot explain it , maybe some of you understand it .. but, .. bear with me if my writings sound a bit strange from time to time.

He was my best friend, ever since I came back from the States. We used to trade our stories of the pursuit of love, and other stuff. He understood me more than most people who think they know me. We used to travel almost everywhere in Malaysia .. n on his idea, slept in some hotels in Klang Valley !

Then she came.

When they hooked up, I was happy .. delighted even... but then the creeping realization came ... sooner or later .. it will come to this.

To their credit, I was privy to their relationship development ( ups n downs ) .. I knew this was something special for both of them. Don't ask why .. I just knew .. so I prepared myself ...

Prepare to be alone again.
( * my sis cakap .. grow up ! * )

Saturday till a few minutes ago, I was okay ...smiling, laughing, etc .. now the tears are coming down ... *jap* ...

Forgive me dear readers.. I'll be fine eventually. I will always be fine ... I have always been on my own. Yep, I can do this.

The wedding was beautiful. They were a beautiful couple, surrounded by relatives and friends. Smiles n laughter all around.

This song below played ...

Everyday I Love You BZ

I don't know, but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn something new
Everyday I love you

'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.

It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you

Everyday I love you more
Everyday I love you

'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul

If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you
And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you


Selamat pengantin baru E & Z, semoga bahagia ke anak cucu. Thank you for allowing me to see how u guys journeyed from couple to husband & wife ( 2003 - 2005 ).

I gotta go.

Begitu Sempitnya Waktu, Begitu Hebatnya Cinta

* The title is from the movie Ungu Violet ;-)


1) Yesterday I saw two movies at GSC 1 Utama .. actually, my first time visiting the cineplex. Nice place, similar to GSC Gurney Plaza style, so I was familiar with the layout. On to the movies review

Camp ( 1.45 pm )

I was intrigued to watch this flick as it was mentioned in KLUE magazine. And it was kind of interesting premise.. summer arts camp for teenagers. And no, I was not going horny here ;-p

I enjoyed it :-) If there is only one reason to watch it is to watch the teens who performed in this movie .. they can really sing and dance. Turns out that they were actually talented teens in their own right, and their honest performances saved this movie from being a run of the mill stuff. Now, the story is another hal .. regularly run of the mill stuff.. it did touch a bit on teen gay stuff but it was lightly skirted around.. during the whole time, I thought to myself is that I would recommend this movie to local teens who have done sek menengah drama / play / show ... I think they would enjoy it.

Reviews here and here.

2) Ungu Violet 4.10 pm

Now this movie was what I have been waiting for, ever since I read that it was released in Indonesia around June. For one, it has the amazing and babelicious Dian Sastro in it ( a little trivia : Her full name is Diandra Paramitha Sastrowardoyo .. yep, gue hafal nama itu :-) )

I really like this movie ;-) .. really love this movie ..;-) .. it is a change as this movie features a more adult role for Dian and her fans from AADC ( tak tahu .. tanya kawan2 ;-p ) ... and she did well. Admitted this is a slow drama movie, but if u r willing and patient, just relax and let yourself follow and enjoy the story of Lando n Kalin ... the movie's tagline says it all .. definitely, an A+ in my jiwang list ....


Review can be found here.

Official website here

Official Movie Song ... this song is for her ...

Menanti Sebuah Jawaban Padi


Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu...
Seiiring jejak kakiku bergetar
Aku telah terpagut oleh cintamu
Menelusup hariku dengan harapan
(Namun kau masih) terdiam membisu


Reff.
Sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu
Mendekap penuh harapan
Tuk mencintaimu
Setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu
Menanti sebuah jawaban
Tuk memilikimu


Betapa pilunya rindu menusuk jiwaku
Semoga kau tau isi hatiku
Dan seiring waktu yang terus berputar
Aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku
Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu...

Go watch this movie people .. please do ;-)

Later

A Report On Ome ++

1) I found this result from a test I took a long time ago ...

Ome
A very special Gemini

Ome is as bright as a button and as sharp as a blade. If there's ever anything you need to know, Ome is the person to ask. Chances are he will know the answer already. If not he will go and ask someone else and he will keep asking until he gets an answer. Ome simply cannot stand the idea of a question that has no answer, so if he cannot get a satisfactory explanation he will invent one. A good one. He is after all as bright as a button. There are though, some questions in life which are best left unanswered. The rest of us know to leave them alone. Ome cannot resist the urge to explore them. He is drawn to such questions, like, well, like a button to a button hole! Ome answers these questions cleverly because, after all as sharp as a blade, but then you know what they say about people who are too sharp...
Ome can be very cutting sometimes. He doesn't mean to be. He just can't help it. Ome can't stop himself from daring to say what other people hardly dare to think. This is why Ome often gets himself into trouble but it is also why Ome is such an interesting person to know. Life with Ome is never dull. There's always an adventure, a challenge or a deal to be done. Ome loves to do deals. The word 'no' is not in his vocabulary. When he hears it Ome is immediately tempted to reply "Is that 'no' as in 'maybe', 'no' as in 'I need to be persuaded,' or 'no as in 'not quite yet?' Luckily Ome gets clean away with this kind of attitude. Ome , at least when it comes to the unanswerable question, is living proof of the old adage "Who dares...wins".

I re-read this statement, and I remembered a blogger asking me the question, " why do u need to know everything ? " .. I answered, " donno, just wanna know ... " .. " No need la Ome .. no need la to know everything .. "

Now, to be honest .. I see her point .. some of my insecurities are due to my need to know everything ... so I tell myself gently, when the situation arises, I just tell myself to let go of the need..

2) Fact or fiction : Grown man, when sick, become babies :-)

I am not well since yesterday afternoon,...*sigh* rasa pulak perlu si dia ..

Later

Tambahan 3 X

1) Kisah Klasik Gue

What Classic Movie Are You?
personality tests by similarminds.com

2) Gue tunggu cerita ini ...

;-) ...*still in jiwang mood*

Tambahan ++

So extra stuff ... productive pulak gue hari ni ya ;-p

A quote I found in this blog.

"Love comes when manipulation stops; when you think more about the other person than about his or her reactions to you. When you dare to reveal yourself fully. When you dare to be vulnerable."

Dr. Joyce Brothers

-- told ya I am jiwang today....

A Jiwang Song

I bought the album "A Tribute to Koes Plus oleh Erwin Gutawa" some time ago. A review of it can be found here.

The song below is one of my fav tracks from the album. With vocals by the wonderful Ruth Sahanaya, it is a beautiful song.

Andaikan Kau Datang Ruth Sahanaya

Terlalu indah dilupakan
Terlalu sedih dikenangkan
Setelah aku jauh berjalan
Dan kau ku tinggalkan

Betapa hatiku bersedih
Mengenang kasih dan sayangmu
Setulus pesanmu kepadaku
Engkau kan menunggu

Andaikan kau datang kembali
Jawaban apa yang kan ku beri
Adakah cara yang kau temui
Untuk kita kembali lagi

Bersinarlah bulan purnama
Seindah serta tulus cintanya
Bersinarlah terus sampai nanti
Lagu ini ku akhiri


.. feeling a bit jiwang abt her today.. something that was not meant to be...

News that brought a smile :- This blogger is having a baby. I love her writings, so expect to see loads of mommy stuff in the coming future .. ;-)

Ode To My Family + Time .....

Found it :-) I found the mp3 to the song ... thank you to this blogger who passed me the file....

Please, please go to her site and check out the pics of her first born Hana. So cute .. so kawai neh ... fyi, she was one of the first blogs I went through and I still visit her site quite regularly .. went to her wedding end of 2003 :-) ...

Ode To My Family - The Cranberries -

Understand the things I say
Don't turn away from me
Cause I spent half my life out there
You wouldn't disagree
D'you see me, d'you see
Do you like me. Do you like me standing there
D'you notice, d'you know
Do you see me, do you see me
Does anyone care

Unhappiness, where's when I was young
And we didn't give a damn
'Cause we were raised
To see life as fun and take it if we can
My mother, my mother she hold me
Did she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father, he liked me
Oh he liked me, does anyone care

Understand what I've become
It wasn't my design
And people everywhere think
Something better than I am
But I miss you. I miss
'Cause you liked it. I liked it
When I was out there
D'you know this, d'you know
You did not find me, you did not find
Does anyone care

Unhappiness was when I was young
And we didn't give a damn
'Cause we were raised
To see life as fun and take it if we can
My mother, my mother she hold me
Did she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father, he liked me
Oh me liked me, does anyone care

Does anyone care

...*humming to the tune* ...esp the intro ...

Additional : She also gave me Aqua's Turn Back Time .. terima kasih banyak2 .. :-) *grinning ear to ear*

Turn Back Time Aqua

Give me time to reason,
give me time to think it through
Passing through the season,
where I cheated you

I will always have a cross to wear,
but the bolt reminds me I was there

So give me strength,
to face this test tonight

If only I could turn back time
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time
I would stay for the night. For the night...

Claim your right to science
Claim your right to see the truth
Though my pangs of conscience,
Will drill a hole in you

I seen it coming like a thief in the night,
I seen it coming from the flash of your light

So give me strength,
to face this test tonight

If only I could turn back time
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time..
I would stay for the night

The bolt reminds me I was there
the bolt reminds me I was there

If only I could turn back time
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time
I would stay for the night

;-)

Everybody Else Is Doing It, So Why Dont We ..

1) Last Friday, I went to get my PC in Penang, with my parents in tow. It turned out well, the whole experience was okay. And, the bonus point was that there is an opportunity for .. a small window... :-) .. anyway, it was a good drive up n down .. KL to Penang...

2) My best friend is getting married soon, and yours truly is his pengapit on his wedding day, his side. hehe ... wonder if I can score with the pengapit perempuan :-)I am happy for the dude .. the only down side is I will be one of the few remaining bachelors among my male friends .. no worry amigos, resistance is still here :-) .. truthfully, hmm ... loads I can say .. hehe :-) .. right now, I am making Me the most important person in these matters ;-) .. having another person would complicate matters perhaps .. it sounds selfish kan .. but this is what I realized recently. I have to take care of myself first. Cewah ... ;-p ...

2.1 ) Related to no 2 ..all I can say is .. cewah ..ideally nak mcm tu la ..hehehe... but, all of us are human kan .. but, I am very very aware now ..very very aware ...

2.2 ) *blushes* hehehe ....

WHY CAN'T I WAKE UP WITH YOU Take That

Can't decide if I should read or think
I'll keep an open mind, 'til the day sets in
Hear you thinking. Hope you hear me thinking too.

Why can't I wake up with you
So you're there when I open my eyes
Baby why can't I wake up with you. You're my life.

Feel alive, so I'll just begin
To rest my mind, before you ring me
Hear you call me, I'm so willing to call back
Hear you thinking. Hope you hear me thinking too.


Why can't I wake up with you
So you're there when I open my eyes
Baby why can't I wake up with you. You're my life.

So good to be near you.
So dark when you walk from my side
Baby why can't I wake up with you.


You're my life, you're my life ...

Later ...

Ps/ everything is getting clearer a bit ..
pps - Post title is from the title of the Cranberries debut album

We Belong + Linger

2 songs that I am grooving into ;-)

1) I caught this song a bit late .. but damn, it's got me hooked .. :-) .. MC's back in form ? ( ..maybe.. )

We Belong Together - Mariah Carey -

I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should've let you go
I did nothing
I was stupid
I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself

Cuz' I didn't know you
Cuz' I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt..
The feeling that I'm feeling now
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or even touch or even kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
What I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side

We belong together
When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please come back
We belong together

Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
Baby nobody better
We belong together

I can't sleep at night

2) This song is a song that reminds me masa mula2 sampai US dulu.. also got me hooked on the Cranberries ;-) .. baru je found the mp3 .. yahoo ! .. now, to find Ode To My Family pulak .. another Cranberries fav ...

Linger - Cranberries -

If you, if you could return, don't let it burn, don't let it fade.

I'm sure I'm not being rude, but it's just your attitude,
It's tearing me apart, It's ruining everything.

I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you.
So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you?

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

Oh, I thought the world of you.
I thought nothing could go wrong,
But I was wrong. I was wrong.
If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie,
Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used,
But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you.

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

And I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?


Later peeps.

Musings

-- the past few days have been interesting

1) Kelas dah mula balik .. there goes my Saturdays ...

2) I am following the Tour De France. Why ? It is Lance Armstrong last race as a pro cyclist, and he is leading right now. The guy is remarkable. He has won SIX straight Tours and is on pace to win his seventh. Consecutive, back-to-back. Woo.. and this chap is a cancer survivor. Suffice to say that this guy is an inspiration. And yes, L&Gs, I was a cycling nut once .. still is ... to a lesser extent..hehehe ....

3) British Open .. Tiger won it .. his 10th major .. and he is still 29 ! .. he has accomplished so much at his age, but true to his personality, I don't he'll stop there.

With no 2 & no 3, it is hard not to admire them for what they have accomplished. It looks so easy, yet it is not. A lot was done - planning, execution, sacrifice, etc. I know about all this , yet ... here I am now. What I realized during the past few weeks is that I am more of a dreamer, than a doer. I dream, I plan .. yet they all remain there .. in dreams ... More Do, Less Dream Azmir !!

Banyaknya berfikir nowadays ;-p

New Thoughts

The past few days which I have not posted.. I thought of new things .. new findings .. new realizations ... when one faces repeated failures, if one does not learn from it, and apply its lessons, then one is sure gonna kena lagi.

What I listened in the past few days was my collection of Padi, Def Leppard, LP, Limp Bizkit and Oasis, and they helped to raise my spirits. Too many songs by the groups I can list below ... but ... some of the phrases from the songs I listened ..

" .. where does love go when it dies .. ", Def Leppard
" .. get off the floor and believe in life .. " Oasis
" .. it's my way .. my way or the highway .. " Limp Bizkit
" .. the very worst part of me is you .. ", LP
" .. sesuatu yg indah untuk dirimu .. ", Padi

you know what peeps, in the end, it's all about you ... not others .. you have to take care of you.. no one else will do it for you ...

Later

Estranged

Yo ..

The past 24 hours have been very ..ermm.. mind numbing in some ways... the song played in my head a lot for the past 24 hours ... it is sickening when you keep hitting the wall time and time again .. when will I ever learn ?


Estranged Guns N Roses

When you're talkin to yourself
And nobody's home
You can fool yourself
You came in this world alone
(Alone)

So nobody ever told you baby
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to you baby
Guess we'll have to wait and see
ONE, TWO

Old at heart but I'm only 28
And I'm much too young
To let love break my heart
Young at heart but it's getting much too late
To find ourselves so far apart

I don't know how you're s'posed
To find me lately
An what more could tou ask from me
How could you say that I never needed you
When you took everything
Said you took everything from me

Young at heart an it gets so hard to wait
When no one I know can seem to help me now
Old at heart but I musn't hesitate
If I'm to find my own way out

Still talkin' to myself
and nobody's home
(Alone)

So nobody ever told us baby
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to us baby
Guess we'll have to wait and see

When I find out all the reasons
Maybe I'll find another way
Find another day
With all the changing seasons of my life
Maybe I'll get it right next time
An now that you've been broken down
Got your head out of the clouds
You're back down on the ground
And you don't talk so loud
An you don't walk so proud
Any more, and what for

Well I jumped into the river
Too many times to make it home
I'm out here on my own, an drifting all alone
If it doesn't show give it time
To read between the lines
'Cause I see the storm getting closer
And the waves they get so high
Seems everything We've ever known's here
Why must it drift away and die

I'll never find anyone to replace you
Guess I'll have to make it thru, this time- Oh this time
Without you

I knew the storm was getting closer
And all my friends said I was high
But everything we've ever known's here
I never wanted it to die



to my friend, Megat .. congrats on Putri .. and tq for the unique experience ;-p ..

R.I.P

My TokChik in Kulim passed away yesterday. So, I went down with my family for his burial. He passed away due to cancer, that came from Hepatitis B, at least that was what I was told. I visited him a few days, and he was not looking good. At least, in his case, his passing was expected. I am gonna miss the guy a bit.. he had some pretty good one-liners.
When someone close / dear to us passes away, it helps to remember the good times / memories that we had with them. Also, to forgive them , let them go and hope that they are in a better place where they are right now.

Al-Fatihah, Tok Chik.

Goodbye Nuri

Today began as a regular day .. woke up late at 11.00 am ... then proceeded to do housework ... a friend called around noon .. saying Nuri passed away. Ran to IJN KL,and yes, there she was lying there. I managed to console her husband and talked to him a bit. Said hi to a few ex-colleagues.. dpt sembahyang her mayat .. and helped to put her jenazah into the van. After that, went to the old office, just to look at her spot and remember the good times we had.

Who was she ?

She was a Muar girl who joined the same date I did. 18/3/2002. She was a programmer / analyst. I became quite fond of her.. sebab of who she was. We talked a lot when I was in Dataran. Talking with her was cool .. she always had time to talk stuff, esp my girl problems. She got married last year and was expecting. The baby died with her.

Truth to be told .. she had a medical condition that needed medication. When she got married, she knew that the condition made it risky for her to have children. When she was pregnant, I asked her about this and she told me she knew. But, she was willing to risk it. She was determined.

Why I will miss her ? She never judged me and accepted me for what I am. A cheerful lady.... One of the few ladies that I was genuinely fond of. When we talked, it was always fun and cool , even though the subject can be serious at times. The next few days, I guess, the memories video, will be playing in my head. And I will cherish it this time.

At this moment, the phrase " Dont Know What You Got Till It's Gone ", means a lot.

I will miss you, Nuri. Al-Fatihah. Semoga Allah mencucuri roh mu, Nuriyati Rohani.

One Sweet Day B2M with Mariac Carey

B II M:
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away
Ayyy

Mariah:
Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive
Alive

all:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
Mariah: Together
One sweet day
Mariah: Eventually I'll see you in heaven…

B II M:
Darling, I never showed you (I never showed you)
Assumed you'd always be there (I thought you'd always be there)
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
(Mariah: But I always cared)
And I miss the love we shared

all:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
(Mariah: Together)
One sweet day
Mariah: Eventually I'll see you in heaven

B II M:
Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Mariah:
Yeah
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray

all:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
(Mariah: Together)
One sweet day

all:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
(Mariah: Together)
One sweet day

Mariah: Sorry I never told you (oooh)
all: All I wanted to say


... rasa kehilangan gue ...

Back With Reviews

Allo there .. I have been gone for the past 2 plus weeks ;-) ...missed me ? nah, didnt think so .. hehehe

A recap
1st week - Kota Bharu & Kemaman
2nd week - Kuala Terengganu

I had fun .. did some reading .. wrote stuff on my journal.. during these two weeks, I saw a lot of stuff, thought a lot, contemplated a lot ... hmmm...

you know what's missing ? ... do a lot ... I think a lot but don't actually do it ... one of the things learnt ... it's been week three and I am figuring things out ...

Later

Missing

.. I might be missing .. no worries if I am not around okay .. going to lose some illusions ... take care amigos :-)

Free

1) Last Day N Future
... today was my last working day .. so from now on, I am unemployed .. wonder if I should start a tabung derma or something like that .. what I am gonna do for the next 1, 2 months while looking for another job, is to do some reflecting, perhaps... think about various stuff ..now that I actually have some free time ;-)
I am gonna do an east coast escapade ... get some real nasi kerabu ;-) n check out the east coast flava... cewah ;-)

2) Be Still My Heart !

Is it true ? .. it is not about changing, but accepting the person for what she is .. and telling her that you accept her the way she is ... dia caya ke tidak, when u say like this ..? ;-) hmmm....

This song was popular when I arrived in the States ... and it is kind of related a bit to what is going on right now .. ;-p ...

Baby I'm Yours
by Shai


Understand girl that my heart is in your hands.
And I'm cautious. Of falling in love again.
So please don't hurt me, I'm scared.
Don't desert me, I'm afraid.
Of being a fool. Again.

So Baby I'm yours, if you want me. And if you want my sweet love.
And Baby I'm yours, if you need me. La la la.
Loving you forever, if you want me. Give me your love.
Baby I'm yours, if you need me. Ohh...

Realize girl that my faith is kind of torn.
Watch your step girl, Because my heart is weak and worn.
So won't you please be careful, I'm fragile.
I can't imagine the damage,
I have to handle. If you hurt me one more time,
Please be mine.

So Baby I'm yours, if you want me. And if you want my sweet love.
And Baby I'm yours, if you need me. La la la.
Loving you forever, if you want me. Give me your love.
Baby I'm yours, if you need me. Ohh...

Baby, I've been through a whole lot of relationships,
Whole lot of broken promises,
but now I'm ready for a real one sweet heart.
Yes I am.
You don't have to worry baby.
Don't you every go away.
Baby I'm, Baby Baby I'm yours.
Baby I'm, Baby Baby I'm yours.
Baby I'm, Baby Baby I'm yours.
Baby I'm, Baby Baby I'm yours.
Baby I'm, Baby Baby I'm yours.
So Baby I'm yours, if you want me. And if you want my sweet love.
And Baby I'm yours, if you need me. La la la.
Loving you forever, if you want me. Give me your love.
Baby I'm yours, if you need me. Ohh...

later ....

Being Brave

I stepped out of my comfort zone yesterday, and it continued to today. Despite my fears, still haunted by the demons of my past, I was like giving a shot and see how it goes. The result ? I don't know .. maybe I'll never know .. or maybe I'll know soon .. I don't know .. but, I am giving a shot and hope my heart can take it ...

dedicated to her :-)

MAROON 5 "She Will Be Loved"

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

[in the background]
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

Yeah
[softly]
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Try so hard to say goodbye

.. later ...

Wishing For ?

1) Mini Instropective

..the long weekend that I had .. gave me a chance to think about some stuff of my life currently...personal and work .. at times, I feel disenchanted with what is going on so far ... looking at other people's lives, ,I feel like they are having a better time than mine.... but, fikir2, what I have is better than some folks out there .. then came the lesson ... Be Happy, Syukur With What You Have .. Never Lose Desire For The Better ..

2) A Lot Like Love & The Smiths

Saw two movies these past few days ... both are recommended :-)

A Lot Like Love - I would say that the key to this movie's success is the chemistry betweem two leads, Oliver n Emily ... it's like a Gen X When Harry Met Sally wannabe ... I enjoyed it, there were some really good moments ... two of them .. one : when Oliver's bro told him to get up and face life, in sign language, at the beach .. Olly's just lost his business, and moved in back with his parents.. two : Olly sang Bn Jovi's I'll Be There For You for Emily at Emily's doorstep .. I know the movie is kinda corny at times ...hehe ..but, I liked it and may watch it again in the theatres..

Mr N Mrs Smith - it's a cool movie I admit .. again the chemistry between the leads made this movie pretty watchable .. I liked that both leads seemed to be having fun and not take themselves too seriously ;-) .. it was good popcorn movie stuff .. plus the song Making Love Out Of Nothing At All, will never be the same for me .. ;-)

3) A Marriage

A fellow blogger's bro got married and he is working same place as I am right now ( ( I am leaving soon though ... ). Met the guy and he is a cool chap. I have read her postings for the past 2 years plus and to sum her up .. she is cool, wacky, fun, great wife n mom ... her link is here. There is a link to the pics of her bro's wedding.


4) Last Week

It is my last week where I am working ... hmm, rasa tak sabar2 nak ciao pulak ..n go on my vacation / break / soul searching sessions .. ;-P

Later....

For My Dad n Mom

.. thought of both songs for my parents ... only now, I begin to understand them ...

MAMA - Spice Girls -

She used to be my only enemy and never let me free,
Catching me in places that I know I shouldn't be,
Ever other day I crossed the line, I didn't mean to be so bad,
I never thought you would become the friend I never had,
Back then I didn't know why, why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes, all that you did was love,
Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
My friend
I didn't want to hear it then but I'm not ashamed to say it now,

Every little thing you said and did was right for me,
I had alot of time to think about, about the way I used to be,
Never had a sense of my responsibilty
Back then I didn't know why, why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes, all that you did was love,
Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
My friend
But now I'm sure I know why, why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes, all I can give you is love,
Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
My friend
Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
My friend


The Living Years - Mike N The Mechanics -

Every generation
Blames the one before
And all of their frustrations
Come beating on your door

I know that I'm a prisoner
To all my Father held so dear
I know that I'm a hostage
To all his hopes and fears
I just wish I could have told him in the living years

Crumpled bits of paper
Filled with imperfect thought
Stilted conversations
I'm afraid that's all we've got

You say you just don't see it
He says it's perfect sense
You just can't get agreement
In this present tense
We all talk a different language
Talking in defence

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It's too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye

So we open up a quarrel
Between the present and the past
We only sacrifice the future
It's the bitterness that lasts

So Don't yield to the fortunes
You sometimes see as fate
It may have a new perspective
On a different day
And if you don't give up, and don't give in
You may just be O.K.

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It's too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye

I wasn't there that morning
When my Father passed away
I didn't get to tell him
All the things I had to say

I think I caught his spirit
Later that same year
I'm sure I heard his echo
In my baby's new born tears
I just wish I could have told him in the living years

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It's too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye

.. have a good weekend ;-) .. it is my last working weekend .. ;-)

Ipoh Mali

1) Life Lessons ... >>>

Last Monday, I did a crazy thing. I decided to join a friend and his 'friend' in Ipoh for dinner. The plan was simple .. go down to Ipoh for dinner .. lepak with them for a couple of hours .. then balik to Penang. But u know what they say about good and noble intentions ...
After work, it was straight up ride there .. now, my transport was my beloved BFJ... those who know what it looks like.. enuff .. so in the middle of the night around 9 pm .. the bike broke down ! .. I was at the km 230 .. the hill before the Perak Simen.. my friend couldn't help me .. dumb ass ! .. a kind pakcik on a kapcai offered to tarik me .. but takde tali. So on a busy stretch of a highway .. 30+ km from Ipoh .. broke down bike .. pushing a bike uphill .. reaching on top of the hill... went down the drop ..no lights with only the signal lights ..it was dangerous I admit .. but, hey what to do ... ;-) .. after the cement plant, it went up again .. so had to push the bike up again.. but what happened made me feel glad to be alive and ashamed of myself of the same time.
A van stopped at the side near the hill. Two chaps asked what the trouble was .. I told them what happened and told them where I was going... so what did they do ? Took my bike in the back of my van .. took me in .. and drove me all the way to Ipoh .. dropped my bike at a motor shop near Ipoh Garden.. dropped me at the Ipoh Specialist for my friend to pick me up. And for saving me, both of them refused the cash I wanted to give them, even though I offered a few times. I remembered what of them said .. " takpe la bang .. tak payah la .. nanti mana tahu abang tolong kami pulak ... " To say that I am touched was an understatement ... it also made me thought of a few things .. which is still running in my mind ... most of the thread deals with who I am .. and what I want to be ...

2) My friend n ??

So my friend n his 'friend' .. we had dinner after I arrived .. I took the opportunity to observe the 'friend' the whole time I was there .. I spent the night in Ipoh .. the next day, took leave ... had the motor repaired .. observing the couple during the time I was there .. made me realize that I had no right to judge them .. I don't agree with they are doing ... but in the end, I leave it up to them to take responsibility for their actions ..

During my time in Ipoh, this tune was playing in my head .. pelik la .. a song for the couple perhaps ...

My Boo - Usher n Alicia Keys
[Usher intro:]

There's always that one person
That will always have your heart
You'll never see it coming
Cause you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me
It's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby ooh you'll always be my boo

[Alicia intro:]

I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
Its the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
Its the only way
We know how to rock

[Usher Verse:]

Do you remember girl
I was the one who gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl
I was the one who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and
People screaming your name
Girl I was there when you were my baby

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were young girl
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia:]
I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man in my life
You will always be my boo

[Alicia Verse:]

I remember boy
Cause after we kissed
I could only think about your lips
Yes I remember boy
The moment I knew
You were the one
I could spend my life with
Even before all the fame
And people screaming your name
I was there and you were my baby

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were young girl
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia:]
I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man in my life
You will always be my boo

[Usher:]
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

[Alicia:]
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were young girl
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia & Usher:]

I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
Its the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
Its the only way
We know how to rock

Later

PDA Post

.. a post from my PDA

27 May
.the decision to resign from my current work position is something that actually had roots beginning mid 2002.
At that time, I moved from another company in order to escape the company's environment. A few months after I joined, I knew I made a mistake as the job was not something I wanted to do. That started a chain reaction that resulted in me currently studying part-time. I had a rough idea what I wanted to do, but wasn't sure at that time.
I also looked at the financials, saw that I was a bit shaky, and made some decisions about it. Now, it is a bit better.
It took my current employer to make me realize that I did not want to do this kind of gig. The money is good, let me tell ya, but I was at risk of losing my sanity at times.
To the point that people saying that the world does not owe me a living, let me reiterate that I agree with that point, and I owe the world the right to do something that would best serve it, and this gig wasn't it.
So here it goes that I would have one to two months off, hopefully, and then get another gig that I am looking for. Exciting ? Scary ? yes.. I have learnt my lessons n it took a world class firm to show the error of my ways.
A few things from my current gig has helped.. identified a few weaknesses n helping me in working to rectify it. Listening n talking better ... always look at positive angle of bad stuff n apply it for future use, that's been one of my life credos.
I have realized another lesson, .. that I am a reactive person .. meaning that I tend to react to situations more than preparing for it. Will be more preppared for the future.
What a hmm post ..hehe ..

later

All Da Love

... more jiwang post ...

1) I attended two weddings this past weekend and read two Malay romance books from this publisher....

And the result is the song below ...

All the love in the world [remix] THE CORRS

I´m not looking for someone to talk to
I´ve got my friend, I´m more than O.K.
I´ve got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams but it´s not all they say
Still I believe - I´m missing - I´m missing something real
I need someone who really sees me

- Don´t wanna wake - Don´t wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you´ll walk through my door
All I need is to know it´s for sure
Then I´ll give all the love in the world

I´ve often wondered if love´s an illusion
Just to get you through the loneliest days
I can´t criticize it
I have no hestitaion
My imagination just stole me away
- Still - Still I believe
- I´m missing - I´m missing something real
I need someone who really sees me

- Don´t wanna wake - Don´t wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you´ll walk through my door
All I need is to know it´s for sure
Then I´ll give all the love in the world

Love´s for a lifetime not for a moment
So how could I throw it away
Yeah I´m only human
And nights grow colder
With no-one to love me that way
Yeah I need someone who really sees me

- Don´t wanna wake - And i won´t wake up alone anymore
Still believing you´ll walk through my door
You´ll reach for me and I´ll know it´s for sure
Then I´ll give all the love in the world
- Don´t wanna wake up alone anymore -

ps/ ignore the girl references ... I am a guy ok !!

2) This lady says I am currently lovesick .. ;-) .. ya la, maybe .. that's why my break is coming up real soon ! .. need to do some thinking and overhauling..

Please go to her blog here .. I enjoy reading her writings .. at times, she writes exactly what I am thinking at the moment !! Parallel universe ehh ;-)

Later...

Lagu Syok Sendiri

If you have cases of syok sendiri .. in case of moir, multiple cases of it ;-) ... this song by one of my fav bands, means a lot ... hehehe... oh goodness gracious me.. :-D

DEF LEPPARD

"It's Only Love"

Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na

If you could feel what I feel
If I could make you see
If you could need like I need
I'd be the air that you breathe

You go straight to my head as I lie in my bed
I just can't win
I can't help the state I'm in

It's only love so why is falling in it
The one thing that you can't do
It's only love then why am I hurting from it
It's only love if you're hurting too

Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na

If you could share my wildest thoughts
Meet me in my mind
If you could want the way that I want
You'd want me all the time

You go straight to my head when I lie in my bed
I just can't win
I can't stop the state I'm in

It's only love so why is falling in it
The one thing that you can't do
It's only love then why am I hurting from it
It's only love if you're hurting too

Every dream I dream has got you in
And every minute with you means everything
I wanna take you there where you've never been
In my dreams

You go straight to my head as I lie in my bed
I just can't win
I can't help the state I'm in

It's only love so why is falling in it
The one thing that you can't do
It's only love so why am I hurting from it
It's only love if you're hurting too

Na na na na na na na na na
It's only love if you're hurting too
Na na na na na na na na na
It's only love if you're hurting too

- later -

Beatles Song

-- a song post ----

I love this song .. and it's not even their original song ... if only love were this simple ;-)

Baby It's You - Beatles

It's not the way you smile that touched my heart
It's not the way you kiss that tears my apart

But how many many many nights go by
I sit alone at home and cry over you
What can I do
Can't help myself
Cause baby it's you
Baby it's you

You should hear what they say about you
(cheat, cheat)
They say, they say you never never ever been true
(cheat, cheat)

Wo ho, it doesn't matter what they say
I know I'm gonna love you any old way
What can I do, then it's true
Don't want nobody, nobody
Cause baby it's you
Baby it's you

Wo ho, it doesn't matter what they say
I know I'm gonna love you any old way
What can I do, then it's true
Don't want nobody, nobody
Cause baby it's you
Baby it's you
Don't leave me all alone


... later ..

Nostalgia

....something that was in the mind these past few days...

1) Nostalgia

from this link .. I found this meaning of a word that has been playing in my mind ..

nos·tal·gi·a

n.
I. A bittersweet longing for things, persons, or situations of the past.
II. The condition of being homesick; homesickness.

Hmm.. I am a nostalgic person rupanya ... hmmmm..... any cure for it ?

2) Anugerah

An old acquaintance got married over the weekend ... I didn't go .. I once gave her this song .. Selamat Pengantin Baru Niz :-)

ANUGERAH TERINDAH YANG PERNAH KUMILIKI - SHEILA ON 7

Melihat tawamu
Mendengar senandungmu
Terlihat jelas dimataku
Warna - warna indahmu

Menatap langkahmu
Meratapi kisah hidupmu
Terlukis jelas bahwa hatimu
Anugerah terindah yang pernah kumiliki

Sifatmu nan slalu
Redakan ambisiku
Tepikan khilafku
Dari bunga yang layu

Saat kau disisiku
Kembali dunia ceria
Tegaskan bahwa kamu
Anugerah terindah yang pernah kumiliki

Belai lembut jarimu
Sejuk tatap wajahmu
Hangat peluk janjimu
Anugerah terindah yang pernah kumiliki 2x


... set adrift on a memory bliss ....

Pool Ku Sayang

This heart beats Red ....what happened in this year's Champions League final, shall forever be in the hearts of those who believe and support the club...

Click this link to go a post and links to other posts on the win :-) See the pictures...read the reviews... enjoy the moment.. it was magical ! ;-)

You'll Never Walk Alone Theme Song of Liverpool FC

When you walk through a storm,
Hold your head up high,
And don't be afraid of the dark.
At the end of a storm,
There's a golden sky,
And the sweet silver song of a lark.

Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Though your dreams be tossed and blown.
Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart,
And you'll never walk alone…

Walk on, walk on, with hope in your heart,
And you'll never walk alone…
You'll never walk alone.

News links
here :-)

MC Day

.. today I took MC from work ... truthfully, I was too tired to feel like going to work..

1) Ta-ta

What I am doing right now is not my cup of tea. So soon I will be free.. and gonna chill for a month or two .. the moment I realized that , a great weight went off my shoulders.. kinda strange though .. it took a world class company to wake me up ! .. it is not the environment or the people .. it is the work.. what I want to do ? Definitely not call centre work .. more towards field support / training kind of gig ...I remembered getting a similar lesson end of 2003, but did not pay attention to it ... lesson here : If you ignore life's lessons, you will keep repeating the same mistakes over and over again ...

2) A blogger got married

A prominent blogger got married over the weekend, somewhere South :-) My best wishes to her .. who is she ? .. one of my favorite bloggers ...hehe ... if u know, u know la .. Congrats !

3) Dilemma

I am in a dilemma with a friend of mine.. I feel for him ... this song is for him .. the concept of it ...

Dilemma - Nelly with Kelly Rowlands

(Kelly)

I love you and I need you
Nelly, I love you, I do,
Need you

No matter what I do....
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
Boy, you know I’m crazy over you

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
You know I’m crazy over you

(Nelly)
Uh-uh
I met this chick and she just moved right up the block from me
And she got the hots for me, the finest thing i'd ever seen
But oh, no, no, she got a man and a son doh-oh, but that’s okay
‘Cuz I wait for my cue and just listen, play my position
Like a shortstop, pick up e’rything mama hittin’
And in no time I better make this with her mine and that’s for sure
‘Cos I-I never been the type to break up a happy home
But uh there’s something ‘bout baby girl, I just can’t leave alone
So tell me, ma, what’s it gonna be
She said, “You don’t know what you mean to me,”

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
Boy, you know I’m crazy over you

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
You know I’m crazy over you

Uh-uh-uh-uh
I see a lot in your look and I never say a word
I know how niggas start actin trippin out here about they girl
And there’s no way-hey-hey Nelly gon' fight ova no dame as you could see
But I like your steeze, your style, your whole demeanor
The way you come through and holler, and swoop me in his two-seater
Now that’s gangsta and I got special ways to thank ya,
don’t you forget it
But uh it ain’t that easy for you to pack up and leave him
But uh you and dirty got ties for different reasons
I respect that and right before I turned to leave
She said, “You don’t know what you mean to me,” come on

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
Boy, you know I’m crazy over you

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
You know I’m crazy over you

Sing it for me, Kelly

I love you and I need you
Nelly, I love you, I do
And it’s more than you’ll ever know
Boy, it’s for sure
You can always count on my love
Forever more, yeah, yeah

East coast, I know you’re shakin’ right
Down south, I know you’re bouncin’ right
West coast, I know you’re walkin’ right
(‘Cos you don’t know what you mean to me)
Midwest, I see you swingin’ right

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
Boy, you know I’m crazy over you

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
You know I’m crazy over you

East coast, I know you’re shakin’ right
Down south, I know you’re bouncin’ right
West coast, I know you’re walkin’ right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)
Midwest, I see you swingin’ right

East coast, you’re still shakin’ right
Down south, I know you’re bouncin’ right
West coast, I know you’re walkin’ right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)
Midwest, you’re still swingin’ right

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
Boy, you know I’m crazy over you

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
You know I’m crazy over you

Yeah, yeah

East coast, I know you’re shakin’ right
Down south, I know you’re bouncin’ right
West coast, I know you’re walkin’ right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)
Midwest, I see you swingin’ right

East coast, you’re still shakin’ right
Down south, I see you’re bouncin’ right
West coast, I know you’re walkin’ right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)
Midwest, you’re still swingin’ right.
oh


dude .. all I can be is listen and offer words .. the choice is yours ...

.. Later amigos ....

PDA Post +++ 3

1) PDA Post III

while waiting for my beloved kena repair, I am writing this post... hm, continuing the previous post .. kadang2, it feels like running yr car into the wall n repeating the process all over ... this is what I thought when it comes to my experiences in relationships.
Then came the realization that I should not be the victim anymore,..it was playing in my head, the victim mode rupa2nya. The process in changing takes time n I admit is still ongoing. It does take time to undo twenty odd years of progamming..
The beginning of the new pogramming is when I met this person whom I shall only call RR. An old friend, I quickly developed feelings for her as usual .. but, in he process of knowing her, she taught me a lot abt self. Now, admittedly, we are just friends n I dont think that we will be more than that, but I owe her a debt of gratitude for inspiring this change.
I fel better now .. it is easier to be with the ladies, when u r not thinking of anything more than kawan2 with them. It is like I am relearning the whole relationship gig, a newbie again.
Right now, I found a new female friend who lives on a nearby island. Though the songs start playing again, I am in command here. I tell myself this ... I dont know her, so begin with a fresh clean slate. No expectations, nothing .. sekurang2nya, I found another friend up here...
waduh, some heavy writings eh ...hehe .. later ..

- late nite

I am in my own apt .. finally move to my own 4 place, nearer to my workplace. Cuts my travelling time abt 30 minutes... a bit bare .. but tunggu la .. hehehe ...

11 May

What if I didn't care anymore ? .. the thought occurred to me .... hmmm, .... maybe I was caring abt minor stuff too much....
At work, I am stressing too much at times .. not that I care .. but, .. I do notice it.... relax relax .. take a deep breath .. prepare , prepare ...

12 May

Man is the master of his thoughts, as I read in the James Hill ebook, As The Man Thinketh. Hmm... we have thoughts running up in our heads all the time during our waking hours ... can we control what is running inside our heads ? ... I have been doing a small ongoing experiment this past week .. whenever my thoughts tend to stray to impossible scenarios, I would immediately bring myself back to reality, to focus on the task at hand.
Results ? .. though it is way too early to judge, at times, I find that it helps me a lot in accomplishing the task at hand. Hmm.. very interesting...
remember my post yesterday about not caring ? I tried it once today n walla ... I felt okay abt the matter that I chose not to care abt .. looking at it, it was a trivial matter after all.

2) A Big Target

I am feeling a bit paranoid at work nowadays ... today was one of dem days .... *sigh* ...

3) Langkawi

I went for a short trip there on Saturday ... I will go back there again ;-)

4) Blog Link

I like going to this blog ... reading it, and at the least, just to make sure that I remember her ;-p

Later ..

PDA Post 2 +++

Allo people .. I have been a bit busy lately .. so here are some stuff I wrote on the PDA :-)

1) PDA

9 May

Hmm, on this wet Monday morning, I ponder the idea that perhaps, all this while … I have been in love with the idea of falling in love. U know , like , just wanting to be in a relationship, just for the sake of it. From what I have read, this is a very dangerous situation to begin with. Cause, once you are actually in on one, the realities might shock the participants, who have been fed, so far, with Hallmark versions of relationships. Sweet n sugary and all of that.

To be honest, dulu I was like that. But, the past few months, my perception has changed. I still like the cheesy stuff, but I am grounded in reality now. Though, current developments ..heheh .. kacau sikit la … ;-)

2) That's all

Nowadays, bila dgr lagu ni kan ... rasa *sigh* .. it is for her .. :-)..who is her ? ..

MICHAEL BUBLE "That's All"

I can only give you love that lasts forever,
And a promise to be near each time you call.
And the only heart I own
For you and you alone
That's all,
That's all...

I can only give you country walks in springtime
And a hand to hold when leaves begin to fall;
And a love whose burning light
Will warm the winter's night
That's all,
That's all.

There are those I am sure who have told you,
They would give you the world for a toy.
All I have are these arms to enfold you,
And a love even time can't destroy.

If you're wondering what I'm asking in return, dear,
You'll be glad to know that my demands are small.
Say it's me that you'll adore,
For now and evermore
That's all,
That's all.

..later...

F A H S II

1) Work Grrsss

Enough to say that the song below says what I feel, these past few days ...

"Points Of Authority" LP

Forfeit the game
Before somebody else
Takes you out of the frame
Puts your name to shame
Cover up your face
You can't run the race
The pace is too fast
You just won't last

You love the way i look at you
While taking pleasure in the awful things you put me through
You take away when I give in
My life
My pride is broken

[Chorus:]
You like to think you're never wrong
(You live what you've learned)
You have to act like you're someone
(You live what you've learned)
You want someone to hurt like you
(You live what you've learned)
You want to share what you have been through
(You live what you've learned)

You love the things i say i'll do
The way i hurt myself again just to get back at you
You take away when I give in
My life
My pride is broken

lesson : Being helpful sucks !

2) Extra Pain

Residue from weekend plus no 1) makes today a big pain .. seriously, around 6 pm, I was numb .. keep saying positive stuff ..words like, "challenge" n "diamonds in the rough" thing ... semoga aku bersabar dengan cabaran dan dugaanNya ...

- the candle slowly flickers in the wind and rain ....

F A H S

Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to the dark side .. then it leads to sadness and loneliness ....

F*** it all ... I'm gonna have the cigarette now ....

PDA Post

23/4/05

Reading this morning's paper saw the announcement of a local celebrity's mysterious future spouse. DPM's younger brother it seems.
Normally, I couldn't care less but .. this lady is an exception. She first came to prominence as the host of this program. Then, sometime last year, she announced that she was quitting the media and continuing her studies. Speculation began soon after, linking her to a VVIP's brother. Earlier this year, she confirmed it, but didn’t reveal the guy, promised to do so, when the time comes. So it came...
Actually, this lady had a relationship earlier with a prominent local blogger, which came to fore, during the lady's media career. From local tabloid reports, it happened during their university days, but ended at the end of it. The blogger did acknowledge their relationship, both in the tabloid reports and in his blog.

Click here and here on the news of the wedding ..
I wonder how he feels now. He did write abt moments of meeting her, after their relationship ended. Those awkward moments. Well, I guess they had their good times and the memories would last forever. When I read the news, this song played in my mind, which the lyrics I reproduce below. To the guy, I hope and pray that u r doin okay ;-) ...

Ill Be Over You

Toto

Some people live their dreams
Some people close their eyes
Some people's destiny passes by
There are no guarantees, there are no alibis
That's how our love must be, don't ask why

It takes some time, god knows how long
I know that I can forget you
As soon as my heart stops breakin', anticipating
As soon as forever is through I'll be over you

Remembering times gone by
Promises we once made
What are the reasons why
Nothing stays the same

There were the nights holding you close
Someday I'll try to forget them
As soon as my heart stops breakin', anticipating
As soon as forever is through I'll be over you

As soon as my heart stops breakin', anticipating
Someday I'll be over you
As soon as my heart stops breakin', anticipating
As soon as forever is through I'll be over you
Someday I'll be over you
As soon as my heart stops breakin', anticipating


One other thing, the hantaran is 40k !!! aiyo, she really set the bar la, this woman. Any guy marrying a Penang lady,jaga2, the hantaran might be a bit more lepas ni. My best wishes to the married couple;-)


26 April

This morning, I got slapped n the face , not literally. Someone who I thought was with a person, was not ..n is dating someone else. They r close friends rupa2nya, as the lady had always maintained. I owe the guy an apology n will do so, when I meet him.
Last weekend, was a good one.. Went to the klibf on sat n sun, beli byk reading materials !.. met a few friends, saw this movie which I enjoyed very much.
It was a weekend which I did a lot of reflecting. On various matters. Confession, I do a lot of thinking n strategizing, but it all stays in the mind. This time, it must go out n put into paper !

later

* This was posted from my PDA ;-) tu yang tarikh lambat sikit ....

Tuesday

1) Awareness

Sometimes, when you reach a higher level of awareness, you develop new insights into stuff that you thought you never had answers to. The last few days have been 'revealing' in that aspect. Omigod, I am finally growing up! ;-) I know some of my friends will be more than happy about this .. ;-P

2) This song is definitely abt the big L. Each time I hear this song, a certain melancholic feel comes over me ...

Artist: Whitney Houston Lyrics
Song: Exhale (Shoop Shoop) Lyrics

Everyone falls in love sometime
Sometimes it's wrong
And sometimes it's right
For every win
Someone must fail
But there comes a point when
When we exhale (yeah, yeah, say)

[Chorus:]
Shoop, Shoop, Shoop
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (yeah)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop
(All you got to say is shoo be doop)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (Shoo be doop)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop
Shoo Be Doo

Sometimes you'll laugh
Sometimes you'll cry
Life never tells us
The when's or why's
When you've got friends to wish you well
You'll find a point when
You wille exhale (yeah, yeah, say)

[Chorus:]
Shoop, Shoop, Shoop
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (shoo shoo shoo huh)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (Sho0 be)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (Say shoop say shoo be say shoo be)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (say shoo-hoo say sho)
Shoo Be Doo (be doo oh)

Hearts are often broken
When there are words unspoken
In your soul there's
Answers to your prayers
If you're searching for
A place you know
A familiar face
Somewhere to go
You should look inside yourself
You're halfway there

[Repeat Verse 2]

[Chorus:]
Shoop, Shoop, Shoop (Shoo Be)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (Shoo Be)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (Shoo Be)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (Shoo-hoo-hoo be)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (Shoo be doop doop doop hoo hoo hoo)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (do do shoo be shoo be feels alright)
Shoo Be Doop Shoop Shoop (You can say oh)
Shoo Be Doo

3) PDA Post

I also blog in my PDA. Yeah .. like a diary kind of thing.. anyway, when I can transfer it online, I will ya .. ;-) PDA definitely offline version

4) Blog Of The Post

She is my sista.... Check her out .. 'nuff said. ;-) ..ps: Jaga2 ya ..

Later.

Familiar

1) Does this sound familiar ? ;-)

I Love You Came Too Late
Joey McIntyre

Baby listen to me
If I had the chance
I’d say the words
(Come on)

The bluest of blue
That’s what your eyes are
That’s what I am today
And if I had it all to do
All over again
I wouldn’t have waited so long to say

I can’t live without you (Live without you)
Don’t want nobody else (Nobody else)
Baby listen very closely
I love you

I couldn’t lie
She couldn’t wait (But wait)
I love you came too late
I’d give my life for yesterday
I love you came too late

I should’ve seen the signs
Paid more attention
But I pushed your love away (Pushed your love away)
So she found someone to give her what she needed (Somebody else)
Somebody else not afraid to say (Not afraid to say)

I can’t live without you (Live without you)
Don’t want nobody else (Nobody else)
Baby listen very closely
I love you

I couldn’t lie (I couldn’t lie)
She couldn’t wait (She couldn’t wait for me)
I love you came too late (I love you came too late)
I’d give my life (I’d give my life)
For yesterday (For yesterday)
I love you came too late (I love you came too late)

I can’t live without you (Live without you)
Don’t want nobody else (Nobody else)
My heart is in my head
I took a good look at myself
If I had another chance
I’d shout it out to the world (I swear I would)
I love you (uh uh yeah yeah)

I couldn’t lie (I couldn’t lie)
She couldn’t wait (She couldn’t wait for me)
I love you came too late (She wouldn’t wait for me)
I’d give my life for yesterday (I’d give my life for yesterday)
I love you came too late (I love you came too late)

I couldn’t lie (I couldn’t lie)
She couldn’t wait (She couldn’t wait)
I love you came too late (Please, don’t say it’s too late)
I’d give my life (I’d give my life for you)
For yesterday (For yesterday)
I love you came too late (I love you came too late)

I couldn’t lie (I couldn’t lie)
She couldn’t wait (She couldn’t wait for me)
I love you came too late
I’d give my life for yesterday
I love you came too late


2) Link -- I like going to this blog, this chap is considered one of Malaysia's blog royalty. He is the guy who started Petaling Street .. and it is still running !!! He can be found here...

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Have U Seen Her

1) Blog Link

Yo, people .. starting today, I will be posting a blog link with each of my post. Sort of spread the love kind of thing :-)

2) Have U Seen Her ?

I am looking for her .. bila ya jumpa ?

Stone Roses
She Bangs The Drums


I can feel the earth begin to move
I hear my needle hit the groove
And spiral through another day
I hear my song begin to say
Kiss me where the sun don't shine
The past was yours
But the future's mine
You're all out of time

I don't feel too steady on my feet
I feel hollow I feel weak
Passion fruit and holy bread
Fill my guts and ease my head
Through the early morning sun
I can see her here she comes

She bangs the drums

Have you seen her have you heard
The way she plays there are no words
To describe the way I feel

How could it ever come to pass
She'll be the first she'll be the last
To describe the way I feel
The way I feel

Have you seen her have you heard
The way she plays there are no words
To describe the way I feel

How could it ever come to pass
She'll be the first she'll be the last
To describe the way I feel
The way I feel

Have you seen her have you heard
The way she plays there are no words
To describe the way I feel

How could it ever come to pass
She'll be the first she'll be the last
To describe the way I feel
The way I feel

3) Link - Annotations ... I like this blogger writings... some of her writings are way cool :-).. a young Malaysian Malay Muslim woman perspective...

Later