Control ++ Kerja ?

1) Control

A blogger wrote that I had issues of control. I had she misunderstood what my control comment to her was. What I said was, " I am never going to let any woman control me again .. " .. it sounds rather harsh eh .. what I meant was, I was not going to let my emotions be overly swayed or influenced by women, to a point where I do stupid things.

There are lots of reason why I said that .. but, it first came out around July. Suffice to say, I was partially duped by a girl I fancied and when I ticked her off abt it .. she just laughed me off. It got me thinking right, .. when it comes to womenfolk, I have been played a lot .. and the lessons keep on repeating. So, I guess, that's where the control part came in. I am sorry that she misunderstood it.

Honestly, *sigh* .. when it comes to relationships and stuff like that, the heart rules the head more ya .. so nowadays, I tell my head to have more input on the matter and since that July .. it's improving ...

2) Swamped

Currently, I am a bit swamped with loads of study stuff due this month .. byknya kerja !

2.1 ) .. work ..

I am going back racing in the rat race after Raya ! .. interesting gig this time ;-) and maybe some new interesting makeovers ... hmm .. see la ye ...

3) Wilson Phillips

Anyone remember this trio ? ;-) .. in the flood of black singing girl groups, a WASP trio came out and sang themselves to the top. Cepat dia naik, cepat dia hilang .. I loved their songs from the their two albums. There were lovely pop tunes, and heartfelt lyrics .. I had their cassettes only and lost 'em .. lupa lak nak beli their CDs when I was in US. They were an important music part of my college years ..

A review of their selected albums are below

1) Wilson Phillips
2) Shadows and Lights

Their official website here.

Some of their videos here. ( ... bestnya !! )

I got the mp3 to this song from them a few days ago

"Don't Take Me Down"

'I love you girl' that's what you used to say
And that no one would ever take it away
I gave you all I had inside, baby it's alright

But then you took the love right from my heart
It's funny how things so strong can fall apart
I gave you all I had inside, baby it's alright, ooh

One day you'll wear out the lines you always use
Why do you say that you'll change when you never do?
I've always found a reason to let it slide...baby not this time.
Ooh, because I know where you're going from here
(Don't take me down with you)

[Chorus:]
Don't take me down (take me down with you...)
'Cause I don't need no one and no one's ever gonna bring me down.
Don't take me down (Don't take me down with you...)
And I don't need no one and no one's ever gonna bring me down.
You had someone; you had me to love.

Why do we put up all these fronts?
There's something about the way that you loved me once.
And why, why is it wrong to want it back again?

Oh no... one day you'll wear out the lines you always use
Why do you say that you'll change when you never do?
I've always found a reason to let it slide...baby not this time.
Ooh, because I know where you're going from here
(Don't take me down with you)

[Chorus]

Too many times, I've realized the truth
(don't take me down, don't take me down)
Too many times...
I've seen enough, I've seen it enough to know
This time you're not, you're not gonna take me down
Down, down, down, down .... yeah

[Chorus]

Nickname N Her

1) Origin

Most of my good friends call me Pet. What's the story ? Well, the story is like this ...

" .. Arakian satu masa dahulu, di bumi Melaka, di pekan Jasin, adalah seorang cowok yang menjejak kakinya di situ, tanggal 1989. Menempuh alam baru, terpisah daripada keluarga tercinta .. saja nak tunjuk terrer ;-)..

Hidup beliau di maktab yg tersergam indah mencelikkan mata beliau pada realiti hidup .. no longer black and white, semuanya kelabu ala jerebu ...

Ketika makhluk2 maktab asyik dengan irama rock melayu dan tommy page ... cowok ini mendengar lagu geng ini. Warga2 bertanya kpd cowok .. weii mamat .. apa yg lu dengar ni ? .. cowok dengan lagak macho n cool berkata .. electropop .. sesungguhnya mereka tidak faham, lalu berkata .. mulai tika dan saat ini, dengan perintah yg asal usulnya taman rasyidah utama, yg penuh misteri mimpi syakilla, tak masuk lagi dengan fenomena, dan penuh penantian ... we call you Pet Shop Boy or Fat Short Boy !!

Dan bermulalah Hikayat Penuh Ranjau Pet .... "

Pet was the nickname and it stuck from then on ...

Imagine when I found out later that they were gay. Adakah Pet juga gay ? jeng jeng ...

Below is one of my fav songs from the group ;-)


Domino Dancing - Pet Shop Boys -

-----------------
(all day, all day)

I don't know why, I don't know how
I thought I loved you, but I'm not sure now
I've seen you look at strangers too many times
A love-you-once is of a, a different kind

Remember when we felt the sun
A love like paradise, how hot it burned
A threat of distant thunder, the sky was red
And when you walked, you always - turned every head

(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day) domino dancing
(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day) domino dancing

I thought that when we fought I was to blame
But now I know you play a different game
I've watched you dance with danger, still wanting more
Add another number to the score

(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day) domino dancing
(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day) domino dancing

When you look around you wonder
Do you play to win'
Or are you just a bad loser'

(all day, all day)
(all day, all day)

(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day, domino dancing)

(all day, all day)
(all day, all day)

I don't know why, I don't know how
I'd thought I loved you, but I'm not sure now
I hear the thunder crashing, the sky is dark
And now a storm is breaking within my heart

(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day) domino dancing
(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day, domino dancing)

(all day, all daeheheheheheheh)
(all day, all daeheheheheheheh)

(all day, all day)
(all day, all day)
(domino dancing)

(all day, all day)
(all day, all day)

(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day, domino dancing)

(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day) domino dancing
(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day)


... To her : We may have more in common than I thought. Oh well ...

Tagged !!

Allo hombres .. I got tagged by this blogger who is a wonderful person in real life .. so dah kena nag dengan dia ;-p .. buat la juga benda di bawah ni.


Seven things you plan to do before you die:
1 - Perform the Hajj / visit the Holy Land
2 – Visit Anfield, home of Liverpool FC
3 - Go back to USA and chill there.. watch American football puas2. 
4 – Go and visit each continent, especially Europe
5 – Ada rezeki , kahwin !
6 – Become a cool husband and father ( related to no 6 )
7 – Read .. read ..read on stuff that interests me

Seven things I could do:
1 – start doing more instead of thinking aja
2 – Buy a car … finally ;-)
3 – Settle down .. hehehe
4 – Upgrade my wardrobe .. still in college mode ;-p
5 – Read more stuff ( esp history and management )
6 – Visit more muzeums / art galleries
7 – Pursue my creative interest .. drawing, acting

Seven celebrity crushes:
1 – Dian Sastro
2 – Alexis Bledel
3 – Preity Zinta
4 – Marisa Tomei
5 – Kirsten Dunst
6 – Larisa Oleynik
7 – Sharifah Amani

Seven often repeated words:
1 – Yeah baby
2 – What the f***
3 – Damn !
4 – Yo wassup
5 – What ?!
6 – Nahh ….
7 – You know what I'm saying ..

Seven physical traits I look for in the opposite sex :
1 – A bit fair looking
2 – Chinese looking
3 – Sweet smile
4 - Lovely eyes
5 – Soft hands
6 – Medium size
7 - Cute

Seven tags go to:
1 – julia ( my sis )
2 - Inn
3 - Rafthah
4 - Rudy
5 -
6 -
7 -

.. to those who I tagged .. kalau dah buat, tak yah la buat lagi ye ...

Freaky Friday + ?

1)Freaky Friday

I saw Freaky Friday last Friday ( get it ? ;-p ). It was okay la .. I enjoyed it and would definitely recommend it to everyone for a nice viewing. It has an interesting story of how a mother and daughter switches places for one day. It is believable as the leads Jamie Lee Curtis ( mother ) and Lindsay Lohan ( daughter ) make a totally cool mother and daughter combo. Going through the tribulations of one day of switched identities, with new discoveries and appreciation for each other, and in the end, the main lesson is that in order to get along, both parties need to look from the other point of view.

Oh, screw it ;-) Lindsay Lohan is hot … ! Freckle face and all … she can play guitar for me anytime !

2)Why ?

What is it about the big L ? I posted a comment on this blog’s post … am reposting it here again below …

1) Sandman says ..

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love." ~Neil Gaiman

2) Sean says

" Sean: You're not perfect sport, and let me save you the suspense, this girl you've met she's not perfect either. But the question is whether or not you're perfect for each other.That's what intimacy is all about ..."

-good will hunting-


It occurred to me about this after breaking fast with my sis and her friends today at Chinoz KLCC ( good food, btw ). My sis kata my misconception abt the big L is simple … it is not about control … hmm, of course masa tu I was like blergh …. But on the way back, hmm… hmmm … hmmmm ……. Ada apa dengan cinta ya ? …

The song belows answers it a bit I guess …

Why - 3T with MJ-

(Chorus)
Why does Monday come after Tuesday
Why do summers start in June
Why do winters come too soon
Why do people fall in love
When they're always breaking up, oh why

Why do I love you, tell me why

It's not like I can explain whats in my heart
It's just I feel a crazy pain with we're apart
I don't wanna breathe
I don't wanna think
I don't wanna love
I don't wanna do anything

It's not like I can't describe what's going on
It's just I feel I'm not alive when your not home
I don't wannna sleep
I don't wanna be
I just want you here beside me
Without you there's no me

(Chorus)

Why do we love if love will die

Why does Wednesday come after Tuesday
Why do flowers come in May
Why does springtime go away
Why do people fall in love
When they're always breaking up
Oh why

Why do I love you, tell me why

It's not like I can escape what's in my soul
Cuz with you inside my heart where can I go
I don't wanna see
No you without me
I can't go through life without you
Without you there's no me

(Chorus)

Why do we love if love will die?

Why do the rivers flow to the sea
Even if it flows
Why can't your love flow to me, babe
Why does my heart feel sadness
To be in love, to feel your love
Why don't I feel complete

(Chorus)

Why do I love you, tell me why
Tell me why
Tell me why
Tell my why
Tell my why

.. ada apa dengan cinta ya ? ;-) ...

No More I Love U's

Greetings ..

I have been looking for the mp3 for this song amd I have found it at last. Interesting song as my thoughts are going along these lines .. maybe .. ;-) ..

No More I Love Yous – Annie Lennox --

I used to be lunatic from the gracious days
I used to be woebegone and so restless nights
My aching heart would bleed for you to see
Oh but now...
(I don't find myself bouncing round whistling
and fortunes to make me cry)
No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me
No more "I love you's"
Changes are shifting outside the word
(The lover speaks about the monsters)

I used to have demons in my room at night
Desire,despair,desire,so many monsters
Oh but now...
(I don't find myself bouncing round whistling
and fortunes to make me cry)

No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me
No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me in silence
No more "I love you's"
Changes are shifting outside the word

They were being really crazy
They were on the come.
And you know what mammy?
Everybody was being really crazy.
Uh huh.
The monsters are crazy.
There are monsters outsides.

No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me
No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me in silence
No more "I love you's"
Changes are shifting outside the word

Outside the word


... ada apa dengan cinta ya ? ... ;-)

Mail n Puasa No 2

1) Mail

Yesterday, I saw You've Got Mail. The storyline of love through the internet, which is so relevant today. This movie was set during the days of dial up using American Online .. I used it a few times when I was in US, and wondered why it wasn't done here ... and the rest of you guys who have internet in your homes know how at times, troublesome internet in Malaysia ..but that's another matter.

A key success factor of this movie is the chemistry between the two leads, Tom n Meg. This was their 2nd movie together after Sleepless in Seattle .. it is nice tale of enemies in the real world, lovers online kind of thing. I would recommend it.. and of course, NYC is a nice place to fall in love.

One thing struck me though .. in the dvd extra, in an interview with the director, Nora Ephron .. she said that the kind of love shown in the movie is fantasy. Hmm, maybe she's right and I have been foolish all these years ..

2) Puasa No 2

Day No 2 has been okay. Have not suffered much. Agaknya, sbb dah biasa kan ... today, I had a chance to go up the KLCC .. at the skybridge and the 76th floor .. looking down at all that was going on .. I realized that I am now at a major crossroads of my life ... yep the crossroads where changes have to made .. and I mean major changes ...

You can't have everything .. there must be sacrifices ..

Selamat berbuka ..

Later.

Movies n Ramadan

Hello amigos ...

1) Saw these flicks these past few days ..

Must Love Dogs

Cerita ni okay lah .. so relevant as it touches on internet dating  .. I enjoyed but wouldn’t really put it as a must watch kind of flick .. probably kan because at times .. the chemistry between the leads ( Cusack and Lane ) was kind of forced at times,.. but it has some good one liners :-) and u have some free time..tgk la

50 First Dates

A classic Adam Sandler flick if you asked me. Actually, I like the idea,.. it is kind of hard but, you want to make the person love you every single day of her life. ;-) Watching it make me smile most of the times seeing Henry ( Sandler ) trying his best to woo Lucy ( Drew Barrymore ) with the help from his nutty cousin Ula ( Rob Scheider ).

And the music really helped

Notting Hill

Hugh Grant at his best :D and Julia Roberts. I would really recommend this flick to lovers of romantic comedies ;-) Good performances from both of them … and assisted by able support from the rest of the cast, especially William ( Grant )’s gila housemate.

Classic quote : “ I am just a girl .. asking a boy to love her .. “ … Awwwww


2) Ramadhan

Ramadhan will begin tonight, so I would like to wish my Muslim readers Selamat Beribadah in Ramadhan ;-) .. hope the Man will accept our ibadah during this Holy Month.

As I was biking back, I realized that I should count my blessings in many ways .. ya la, this is what normal people do kan ... but really, do I count my blessings ... I don't think I do that enough. I get a bit depressed when I think of what I dont have : A car, a house, loads of blings ...etc .. but then, look of what I have and accomplished so far .. then .... its get better.. and since one of Ramadhan's lessons is to count yr blessings .. so I will focus on my blessings from now on :-)Insya-Allah.

Ok lah .. later ... Selamat Berpuasa Hari Pertama !

ps/ I am working now at KLCC .. albeit until Raya ;-) ...

Posts2

I have not written for the past few days but fear not, masa tu pun my head was cranking out blog posts ;-) .. so at least, I know what I plan to write ..

1) Pre, Post, Epilogue

When you are in love with a woman, this song comes to my mind ...

When she tells you, ".. let's just be friends ... " .. the song below plays ...

I Guess She Never Loved Me - Jason Donovan -

She said she knew, but she never knew me
and when she looked, she was looking through me
and when she talked, I don’t know exactly
behind her smile, was she laughing at me
I guess it doesn’t matter anymore
How could she hold, but never hold me
feel, but never feel me
I guess she never loved me at all

She said she tried, but she never made it
The love just died, nothing would have saved it
I was so sure on the day we started
Now I’ll never know if it could have lasted
I guess it doesn’t matter anymore
How could she hold, but never hold me
feel, but never feel me
I guess she never loved me at all

I guess she never meant all those things
Maybe it’s just one of those things
I guess she was fooling me
I guess she was using me

Was she laughing, was she laughing
Was she laughing, was she laughing
Was she laughing, was she laughing
Was she laughing at me
Was she laughing, was she laughing
Was she laughing at me

I guess it doesn’t matter anymore
How could she hold, but never hold me
feel, but never feel me

I guess she never loved me at all
I guess she never loved me at all
I guess she never loved me at all
I guess she never loved me at all
I guess she never loved me at all


And during those lonely times, especially cold lonely rainy nights .. this song can make one break down and cry ..

2) Goodbye

A lady friend's fiance passed away recently ... it reminded me of when one of my college roommate passed away a few years ... there was a song I gave her.. for my lady friend and in rememberance of arwah R, this song is for them ....

One Sweet Day - Mariah Carey n Boyz II Men -


Sorry, I never told you, all I wanted to say.
Now it's too late to hold you. '
Cause you've flown away, so far away.

Never, Had I imagined, yeah, living without your smile.
Feelin' and knowing you hear me.
It keeps me alive. Alive!

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way,
And I know eventually we'll be together.
One sweet day.

picture a little scene from heaven

Darling, I never showed you.
Assumed you'd always be there.
I took your presence for granted.
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared.

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven.
Like so many friends we've lost along the way.
And I know eventually we'll be together.
One sweet day.

Picture a little scene from Heaven.

Although, the sun will never shine the same, I'll
always look to a brighter day.

Yeah, Lord, I know, when I lay me down to sleep,
You'll always listen, as I pray!

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way,
And I know eventually we'll be together.
One sweet day.

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way,
And I know eventually we'll be together.
One sweet day.

Sorry, I Never told you, all I wanted to say


..more to write later ;-)

Tentang Dia

Petang tadi, semasa gue membuat kerja pejabat baru .. gue menonton filem ini .. yg bertajuk Tentang Dia.

Filem yang gue rasa harus ditontoni oleh mereka yg ingin, sedang atau telah bercinta... cewah ... ;-)

Sesiapa yg kecewa bercinta pasti tahu apa yg Gadis rasa, sesiapa yg berharap cinta dengan seseorang yg belum melihat cintanya, pasti faham Randu, sesiapa yg pernah kehilangan seseorang yg dicinta pasti faham Rudi.

Apa yang istimewa filem ini ya ? Bagi gue, ia adalah kombinasi apa yg tersurat dan apa yg tersirat. Mesej cinta memang diperkatakan dalam cerita ini, tetapi dengan scope yg lebih luas.. cinta antara sahabat, cinta yg dikhianat. cinta sejenis ?

Menonton cerita ini, penonton harus menghayati suasana filem ini untuk menikmatinya. Ia bukan filem 'popcorn' .. ia adalah cerita di mana moodnya juga penting.

Gue faham apa yg dilalui oleh Gadis. Terlalu melihat ke belakang, tragedi cintanya dikhianati sehingga hidupnya murung akibat peristiwa itu. Tidak salah Gadis berperasaan begitu, tetapi beliau nggak mahu bangkit walaupun Randu, sahabat baik Gadis, bersungguh2 mahu menolongnya. Kedatangan Rudi, si gadis pelayan kedai makan, ke dalam hidup Gadis menceriakan kembali Gadis .. Gadis mampu tersenyum. Randu cemburu ttg perubahan Gadis .. siapakah Rudi ? ... Gadis pula tertanya2 ..apakah perasaan Rudi terhadapnya ? ... bagaimanakah semuanya berakhir ? .. lihat sendiri ya .. ;-)

Gue rekomen filem ini pada anda semua ..

Situs rasmi Tentang Dia di sini.

Cite2 Wayang Lagi

I saw Dark Water. One word – creepy. Luckily, I had my PDA to play with during the creepy times ;-) ..no I don’t watch horror flicks .. tapi kawan ajak .. tipah tertipu !!

As requested by a blogger … a short review of The Sisterhood Of Travelling Pants…

The story is pretty simple.. 4 best 16 yr old girlfriends are going off separate ways for the summer. Before going off, they managed to find a pair of jeans that somehow fit all four of them., in a thrift shop. They agreed to share it among themselves during the vacation. Sound simple kan ? well, actually, there are four stories in this movie with a common thread holding them., the pair of jeans which in my mind , represent the close friendship between ‘em. The stories show they kind of like growing up .. each in their own ways, yet through it all, they still remain close to each other.

Bridget, Lena, Tibby and Carmen and a pair of pants had a magical summer and in the end, turned out better for it ;-)

It is a sweet, growing up, coming of age flick which I would recommend.

This flick was based on this book series. And the movie’s storyline is based on book one.

Ps / I wonder why here in Malaysian tv, there is not something like this. Kalau ada, maybe I have not seen them perhaps.

I also saw these flicks in the past few days

Sin City

If you like comics and can stand some graphic violence, this movie is for you ;-) .. the cool thing abt this movie is its use of colors. Mostly black and white, but certain scenes and ppl have colors. And the stories are pretty good and amazing. But the violence, I am telling ya … be prepared.

The story of the residents of Sin City and how they interlock. Good cop, bad cop, kick ass prostitutes, sick Cardinal, cannibalistic Frodo, paedophile sicko…. And some more. Yep, the story has it all.

Totally recommended.

Based on Frank Miller’s comic series of the same title.

Jersey Girl

Hmm…this is sweet father and girl bonding movie… yeah, Ben Affleck plays the father. I like one phrase in this movie … “ .. forget who you were and just accept who you are … “ In a way, this movie emphasizes “ Hujan Emas di Negeri Orang, Hujan Batu di Negeri Sendiri “ ..

It is not a major blockbuster .. but, ok la ..for some leisure viewing.

Collateral

Actually, I didn’t know what was the big deal about this movie, until I watched it. Oh yeah, the two main guys in the movie gave incredible performances. Tom Cruise as the Vincent the assassin, Jamie Foxx as the cab driver. The cab driver who nak tak nak drives him around for him to do his killing jobs. It is engrossing to watch, how they interplay with one another. And discuss life matters … would not want to spoil the ending, but this is definitely recommended.

I think Cruise should play a bad guy once a while.. definitely he acts better as one ;-) ..


Ok la .. later amigos. Don’t forget to watch them flicks and make your DVD seller happy. Malaysia Boleh !!

Jom Tgk Wayang

I have been watching a few flicks in the cinema for the past two weeks , so well here are my reviews of the ones yg I watched ;-)

1) Janji Joni

This is an Indonesian flick which is quite interesting. ;-) .. the premise is simply a day of the life of a film delivery guy. In trying to impress a lady ( Mariana Renata ) he met at a cinema, he tries to deliver his film on time, so that he can get her name. OK la .. sounds cheesy eh .. but that what goes in his quest is worth watching. This movie plays tribute to moviemaking and has a few subtle messages in it, related to filmmaking and society. It is a light breezy kind of flick and Nicholas Saputra does a good job as Joni. Watch it and see whether Joni fulfills his promise ;-) Recommended.

2) Herbie Fully Loaded

Ok Ok .. so sue me that I watched this because of Lindsay Lohan ;-p .. well, she stars in this movie. And I still like her as a redhead rather than blond ;-p .. the movie is another story .. the return of Herbie, the VW Bug ... it was fun and entertaining .. especially if you know a bit on NASCAR. But, overall, this movie is for me, tengok sekali dah cukup. The antics of Herbie is okay la ... so get the DVD if you like Lindsay Lohan

3) Salaam Namaste

I like Hindi movies, but not all la. My main criteria for a good Hindi movie is simple - Movie and Songs must be good. If one is lacking than the other then .. sayang la. This movie stars Saif Ali Khan and Preity Zinta ( rawrr ) ;-) .. about a couple who lives together ( mula2 separate rooms then ... ) and falls in love. Your typical Bollywood flick. ;-) Set in Melbourne. The leads got chemistry, the story is okay, the songs are okay ( only 3 !! ) I enjoyed watching this flick and would recommend it to anyone who likes Hindi to watch this movie.

The one thing that hit me though was the character of Nikhil ( " My name is Nick " ) .. his beliefs in the movie used to reflect mine in a way .. about marriage and kids .. like I said, used to .. so I kind of understood when his character does a u-turn in the end of the flick about this matter. When you have found that someone, your perspective changes ... ;-)

Other links on the movie -
One
Two

4) KL Menjerit 1

Aku mengaku yg aku menonton filem tempatan yg diputarkan di cineplex. Bukan semua tetapi filem2 yg ada konsep dan cerita yang menarik. ( Nota : Aku tak nak tgk cerita Yusof Haslam atau Prof XXXX lagi, unless org belanja. Tobat ! ) Cerita ni aku tengok sebab aku dah tengok filem yg sebelum , KL Menjerit. Yang ni pula adalah prequel pada filem yang lepas.

Pertama, tabik kepada pengarahnya, Bade kerana membuat filem2 yang berbeza daripada filem2 Melayu biasa. Filem2 KL Menjerit ni berkisarkan kisah mat2 rempit di KL. Tak ramai org buat filem ttg golongan ini.

Kedua, filem ni menghiburkan, walaupun aku lebih suka pada KL Menjerit yg pertama. Aksi lumba-lumba motor haram yg menarik, trauma Khatijah yg realistik dan jalan cerita yang menarik.

Ketiga, pelakon2 utama semua ok .. ( tak over2 la ).. tapi watak Apek tu, kalau tak ada pun .. tak penting, but dia mesti muncul sbb dia muncul in the previous KL Menjerit.

Mula2, selepas filem ni tamat, saya fikir "?" .. tetapi, fikir2 balik, filem ni kira okay lah .. ;-) oh ye, lebih bagus kalau anda dapat tgk KL Menjerit yg pertama, sebab ada rujukan filem pertama dalam filem ini.

Pada peminat filem tempatan, cerita ni selamat untuk anda tontoni ;-) .. gerenti tak membodohkan anda.

1) & 2 ) watched at 1 Utama
3) & 4 ) watched at Sunway Pyramid

Goodbye

1) Goodbye

Thursday afternoon 4 pm - a baby girl is born to a couple, their firstborn
Friday morning 4 am - baby transferred to ICU and put on full machine support
Saturday evening 9 pm - baby passes away
Sunday morning - funeral of the baby

I knew the couple when they were courting. I went to their wedding. Met them a few times she was carrying the baby. No wonder the couple were subdued when I met them once I heard of the news of the birth. I told the hubby to keep his head up and hope everything works out.

Sunday morning I got the news. Met the hubby n wife. The hubby was okay about it and the wife ... I didn't ask much. I wonder what goes in her mind. I did say to the hubby that he needs to support the wife during this time. But I think he already knows that.

Al Fatihah to the daughter of M&M. Amin.

" Dari Dia kita datang dan kepada Dia kita kembali "

Wish You Were Here

1) I have been looking for this track for quite some time .. so far I have found only mp3s of their live performance of this song :-) .. anyway, it is still enjoyable .. one thing abt this song yg best is it incorporates some DJ scratching ..

My day was blergh .. had a test which I sucked ;-p


Wish You Were Here - Incubus -

I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds
Strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy.. happy

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here

I lay my head onto the sand
The sky resembles a backlit canopy
With holes punched in it
I'M counting UFOs
I signal them with my lighter
And in this moment I am happy.. happy

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
Wish you were here

The world's a roller coaster
And I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care
But my hands are busy in the air saying:

I wish you were here
I wish you were

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
Wish you were here

Have a good weekend amigos ;-)

Secret Garden

This song below came from Jerry Maguire which had the immortal quotes like " You complete me " ... " You had me at hello " ...

I love this song .. I hope I'll find her.


Secret Garden - Bruce Springsteen -

She'll let you in her house
If you come knockin' late at night
She'll let you in her mouth
If the words you say are right
If you pay the price
She'll let you deep inside
But there's a secret garden she hides

She'll let you in her car
To go drivin' round
She'll let you into the parts of herself
That'll bring you down
She'll let you in her heart
If you got a hammer and a vise
But into her secret garden, don't think twice

You've gone a million miles
How far'd you get
To that place where you can't remember
And you can't forget
She'll lead you down a path
There'll be tenderness in the air
She'll let you come just far enough
So you know she's really there
She'll look at you and smile
And her eyes will say
She's got a secret garden
Where everything you want
Where everything you need
Will always stay
A million miles away

Movies + ?

1) This past 24-36 hours I watched a few movies on DVD ... emotions ranged between LOL, sweet smile, melancholic smile, acknowledged nod ... question : why do we watch movies ? Many have argued that it is just for pure entertainment. I will tell you why I watch movies - escapism + motivation + inspiration :-) .. that's it.

I saw

1) Robin Williams Live

Hilarious .. most of it :-) ...had its usual share of profanity laced.. but it was good and I laughed out a few times. The man is a riot. Definitely recommended ;-)

2) The Wedding Date

A typical romantic comedy :-) but, it was kinda good .. the performance of the lead actress Debra Messing who plays Kat was the one that held this movie together :-) And it was set in a English setting ( and I am sucker for English setting romantic comedies ;-) ) the premise is interesting. Hiring a male escort for a wedding, to pretend that he is the boyfriend, just to throw off her ex, who happens to be the best man to the groom who is marrying her sister.. interesting eh ?

Hmm.. maybe I should do something similar for my next wedding to visit ..bosan la pi sorang2 ..cewah .. oh yeah, Maroon 5 'Secret' n Michael Buble's 'Sway' are featured here. I'll always think of this movie when I listen to these songs.

3) Under The Tuscan Sun

This movie first came to my mind when it was featured on this blog post.

Suffice to say, Diane Lane shone in this movie. ;-) .. and one reviewer put it .. it is pure escapism. It is escapism, but entertaining escapism. One line that was said in this movie was crystal clear .. as a character says it "Never lose your childish innocence. It's the most important thing." That I will hold dearly.

More quotes can be found here.

Many things in this movie I can identify with, so I would really recommend this movie .. paling kurang pun enjoy the landscape ... pure gorgeousness. Please beware though that this a chick flick okay. No boom-boom bang-bang here.

4)Closer

I first heard of this movie in this blog, where the blogger had an obsession with the movie for a while. I did not understand why, but after watching the DVD, I can see why. This movie is intriguing.

In the end of this movie, it made me think. All four main characters in this movie were grey. It is a movie, yet, .. their characters do exist in real life. Well, the people I have met anyway.

Loosely, it is about four people, 2 couple in a complex relationship deal. It is funny, sad, melancholic in a way. In the end, nothing is ever clearly resolved. I think I am going to watch it again, maybe ...just to get a clearer picture perhaps.

The movie advocates the point that nothing is ever clear in relationships .. there are grey areas, no black n white, which to a certain extent is true ya .. Definitely recommended ;-)

Another good Closer link here.

Some great quotes from the movie here.

Damien Rice's The Blower's Daughter is featured as the main song for this movie.

Waa.. so long one my reviews. Ini belum Janji Joni n Herbie. I'll save it for my next post eh. *wink*

Bugging Song

1) Melt With You

I just heard this song for the past 24 hours and it has been bugging me. So simple yet so beautiful...

My thanks to her for giving me the file. I heard it first on her blog.

The group which is actually a musical project by a French duo is officially here. U can check the info about them here.

I Melt With U -Nouvelle Vague feat Silija-

Moving forward using all my breath
Making love to you was never second best
I saw the world thrashing all around your face
Never really knowing it was always mesh and lace

I'll stop the world and melt with you
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do
I'll stop the world and melt with you

Dream of better lives the kind which never hate
Dropped in the state of imaginary grace
I made a pilgrimage to save this humans race
Yes I did
What I'm comprehending a race that long gone bye

I'll stop the world and melt with you
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do
I'll stop the world and melt with you

The future's open wide
I'll stop the world and melt with you
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do
I'll stop the world and melt with you, yeah
I'll stop the world and melt with you
I'll stop the world and melt with you, yeah, yeah

I dedicate this song to my new friend :-)

Demons + Possibilities

1) Do you have demons inside you ? I do. Well, not the occult or similar thing .. it is kinda like the bad stuff that you keep inside. It consists of the bad moments, low self-esteem, painful memories, etc. Dulu, I used to have all this stuff running around in my head, so what I did was gave them form so that I can imagine what they look like. What the form was two black dragons ( similar to that you see in Chinese comics ) with fire eyes, breathing fire. Usually, most of the time they remain out of sight. But when shit happens, and I can't take it anymore.. they come out, feeding on my fears ( whatever that was going through at that time ) and magnified. It was the misery I felt which fed them.
Syukur, lately, they have been pretty quiet. The last time they appeared was after my best friend's wedding for a short while. Even if they appear, I able to control their appearance and influence. The scary part is .. I actually enjoy it that they appear when I am angry ... I become more focused, more intense .. luckily I don't follow my impulses at that time.
I have to credit this blogger for helping me in facing them. She has helped me in a way, to change my thoughts and how I think, at least, leading me to change them thoughts .. Terima kasih, Inn.

2) Today and Tonight, another possibility is there ... I am cool. But, hmmm ... syukur padaNya. God helps those who help themselves ..

2.1) I am gonna be cool about it. We see how it goes ..

have a good weekend, hombres ;-)

The Best + Cycle

1) The Best

there is one phrase which has been bugging me for the past few days. This phrase I have seen in romance books, movies n articles on relationships, in one form or another ... it goes something like this ..

" I may not be the best for you, but I will do my best for you "

You know what...I think I am figuring that out now. Yep, the brain is finally clicking on this one. Sheesh.. about time too.

2) Cycle

1. MTB was delivered to B'worth KTM Package office
2. MTB arrived at KL KTM Package office
3. Owner arrived via Komuter at KTM KL Station
4. Owner picked up MTB at KL KTM Package office
5. Owner cycled MTB from KL KTM Packageg office to DD, SB.

Distance - ? naik , turun bukit .. main kejar dgn kenderaan di jalanraya
Time taken - roughly 2 hours
Owner is still alive ;-)

Weekend is coming up ;-)

Post Penang

The past few days have been a bit of a blur ..:-) Anyway, I finally moved out from the Penang apt and brought all remaining stuff back down to my apt in DD. Yep, ada la 4 bags. Phew, carrying 'em on my Ferrari was a bit tricky , but settled it.

So now, I am finally for all intents n purposes based here again. ;-)

Semalam, when I was on feri sending my bicycle to the KTM B'worth .. heard this song on my mp3 player .. with the breeze, the seawaters ... the memories came back again. She is now happily married, and I wish her all the best. The heartbreak that she gave was something ...

More Than That -Backstreet Boys-

I can see that you’ve been crying
You can’t hide it with a lie
What’s the use in you denying
That what you have is wrong

I heard him promise you forever
But forever’s come and gone
Baby, he would say whatever
It takes to keep you blind
To the truth between the lines, oh…

CHORUS

I will love you more than that
I won’t say the words
Then take them back
Don’t give loneliness a chance
Baby listen to me when I say
I will love you more than that

Baby, you deserve much better
What’s the use in holding on
Don’t you see it’s now or never
‘Cause I just can’t be friends
Baby knowing in the end, that..

CHORUS - repeat

There’s not a day that passes by
I don’t wonder why we haven’t tried
It’s not too late to change your mind
So take my hand, don’t say goodbye
CHORUS - repeat


ps / I really enjoyed my stay there .. walaupun endingnya tak seberapa, but I learnt something.
pps / this guy is writing some jiwang posts at the moment :-) Check him out ya....

Mersing + Oasis

1) Mersing

I was away at Mersing for the past few days. A camping by the beach at a small chalet resort in Teluk Iskandar with a bunch of friends. It was good. I had fun. Enjoyed the clean sea air n water. ( pi berenang at Air Papan ). Yours truly loves to swim ;-)

I went there from KL and back, on my ferrari. The total time taken was 12 hours. The trip was uneventful, save for 2 tense filled hours .. Keluang to Mersing 7.15 pm - 9.30 pm Wednesday night. Lonely twisty dark road..misty at times. I nearly slipped a few times. And at times I was scared. What I did was mumble positive words repeatedly and thought positively during the scary moments. When you are alone in a dark road, you do not want to think about supernatural stuff kan ? ;-)

2) Oasis

This song was kind of the trip's theme song. My sis says Liam does not sing, he warbles,.. but they still rock !!!


D'You Know What I Mean? Oasis

Step off the train all alone at dawn
Back into the hole where I was born
The sun in the sky never raised an eye to me
The blood on the trax and must be mine
The fool on the hill and I feel fine
Don't look back cos you know what you might see

Look into the wall of my mind's eye
I think I know, but I don't know why
The questions are the answers you might need
Coming in a mess going out in style
I ain't good-looking but I'm someone's child
No-one can give me the air that's mine to breathe

I met my maker
I made him cry
And on my shoulder he asked me why
His people won't fly through the storm
I said "Listen up man, they don't even know you're born"

All my people right here, right now
D'You Know What I Mean?
All my people right here, right now
D'You Know What I Mean?
All my people right here, right now
D'You Know What I Mean?
Yeah, yeah

I don't really care for what you believe
So open up your fist or you won't receive
The thoughts and the words of every man you'll need
Get up off the floor and believe in life
No-one's ever gonna ever ask you twice
Get on the bus and bring it on home to me

the highlighted words are what I believe now ;-)

Kilang Cokelat --> Merdeka

1) Today my sis belanja me tgk Kilang Cokelat at MV. Okayla .. not as boring as I thought it would be ;-) ..

2) 31st August is Malaysia'2 48th Independence Day. Like what I wrote in a comment at this blog. .. "So much we have accomplished, yet so much more needs to be done .. as a nation. " fikir - fikirkan lah ..

3)I may see some sand and water the next few days .. hmmm...

4) DVDs just bought

a) Serendipity
b) Something's Gotta Give
c) Sisterhood Of Travelling Pants
d) Day of The Jackal ( versi lama )
e) Hitch

a, b , e .. I am sucker for good romantic comedies ;-)
c .. Alexis Bledel !!
d .. I loved the book ;-)

Happy Merdeka Day !!

Murmurs

1) The song below was originally sung by Bonnie Raitt, but it didn't come to my attention, until George Michael sang it in his MTV Unplugged show.

And it aptly reflects my thoughts about her right now.

I Can't Make You Love Me - George Michael

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize
Don't patronize me

'Cause I can't make you love me If you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark in these final hours
I will lay down my heart, and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
And I can't make you love me
If you don't

I'll close my eyes and then I won't see
The love you do not feel, when you're holding me
Morning will come, and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then, to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight

And I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
And here in the dark in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no, you won't
And I can't make you love me
If you don't

Ain't no use in you trying
It's no good for me baby without love
All my tears, all these years, everything I believed in
Baby
Oh yeah
Someone's gonna love me ...

I am moving on.

;-p Part Deux

I was typing a post, then the browser crashed ! .. well.. let me summarize what I wrote just now ...

1) Acknowledged an addiction and working to overcome it.

2) This piece of the local news. I wish them all the happiness. I know how it feels lonely at nights... :-|

2.1 ) Hmm, ada harapan buat gue. ;-) My future wife could be in Form 1 tahun ni !! .. hehe.. ada excuse baru for my relatives ;-p

3) Went to a job agency. Ok la .. but see how they can help me. A bummer that I am not working , but .. during this break .. I learnt a lot about myself, saw a lot n observed many things and adored her. ( I still do ;-) )

4) Went to see this show at Sutra. I had a great time .. and I have a new appreciation for the man and his works. Will be going there again for next month's performance. Something about the place...

Official website here.

Have a good weekend, amigos !

Gol n Gincu Part 2

1) Saw it again td at Pyramid, with a friend who is also a fellow blogger. She liked it and said that she would buy the vcd. Yep, dia dah bagi her seal of approval ;-) Cewah .. ok, that's it ;-) .. I am going only to watch it twice in the movie theatres... unless ada org belanja me pulak. Any takers ?!!??

The song below was featured in the movie, especially a very interesting 'drooling' scene .. ;-)

Bagaikan Puteri - Zarina AF2 - oa Farra

Ha...Ha...Ha
Ha...Ha...
Mm...Mm...

Jika dunia
Aku yang punya
Akan ku dirikan
Sebuah syurga
Malam tanpa siang
Untuk ku bermimpi

Sepanjang masa
Tanpa kecewa
Bertemankan bintang yang setia
Bagaikan puteri
Kisah khayalan
Yang hidupnya suci dan sempurna

oh...Tapi sayang
Hanyalah impian
Bulan tak bisa tumbuh ditaman
Dan bila mentari datang
Pulanglah segala kenyataan

Jika dunia
Aku yang punya
Akan kuhiaskan
Sepasang sayap
Putih dan berseri
Untukku kemudi

2) This story elicited an Awww... then a cynical smile from me.. lucky girl ... I mean a very lucky girl. Ada apa dengan cinta ya ? ;-)

Nak Ke Tak Nak + NKOTB

1) A couple of days ago, I went to Cheras to look for a music album, which I found there. Wanted to buy, but .. wanted to get it later. This time, one year ago, was way too late. Tak jumpa, and the album is hard to find nowadays. Lesson : When you delay decision, berani la tanggung consequences. The album is the debut and only album by the local group, Juliet The Orange.

2) During the trip there, I bought two music video compilation vcds. One is by Def Leppard, containing all their music videos. I'll review that later. But the next one, is making me smile so broadly. It's a compilation of music videos by NKOTB. *Squeal with glee* .. ok, hands up gue mengaku .. when they were fab during the late 80s and early 90s, I was a big fan. :-) .. sheesh, if I cerita abt my minat with them during those days.. hahah.. I would blush .. they were THE boyband masa my time. Looking at them videos made me smile..

my 3 fav NKOTB videos in order

1. Please Don't Go Girl
2. I'll Be Loving You Forever
3. You Got It ( The Right Stuff )

Yep, I was a Blockhead and proud of it !

The music video compilation details are here.


Please Don't Go Girl( NKOTB )

We've been together for a long time, baby
Do you have to leave?
Please don't go girl
I just can't live without you
Please don't go girl
So listen to me... (Don't go, girl)
Please don't go girl
You would ruin my whole world
Tell me you'll stay
Never ever go away
I love you (I love you)
I guess I always will
Girl, you're my best friend
Girl, you're my love within
I just want you to know
That I will always love you
Ooh, baby

Tell me you'll stay
Never ever go away
I need you (I need you)
I guess I always will
Girl, you're my best friend
Girl, you're my love within
I just want you to know
That I will always love you
Ooh, baby

(Please don't go girl)
I'm gonna always love you girl
I'm gonna love you girl until the end of time
Tell me girl
You're gonna always be mine

Please don't go girl
You would ruin my whole world
Tell me you'll stay
Never ever go away
I love you (I love you)
I guess I always will
Girl, you're my best friend
Girl, you're my love within
I just want you to know
That I will always love you
Ooh, baby

(Please don't go girl)
(Please don't go girl)
Please don't go girl
(Please don't go girl)
Please don't go, baby
(Please don't go girl)
Please don't go girl
(Please don't go girl)
Please don't go darlin'
(Please don't go girl)
Please don't go, baby, no

It's Ok

* Admittedly, these past two weeks .. my mind has been thinking loads of stuff and I mean loads .. of new thoughts ...

1) It's okay

Today, while biking over .. I realized that it is okay. It is okay to feel sad and lonely ... I realized that it is just being human .. life has up and downs. It is not a sign of weakness. Previously, I would be angry whenever I feel like it .. but now I'm okay. And, keep on living. Only now, I understand what Joel Boyd said, about ten years ago.

2) Lose Your Illusions

Hmm, the illusions about her. Maybe it was all illusions . hmmm... still, I thank her for making me smile and keeping my spirits when the times are tough.

2.1 ) Move On

I want to move on. How ?

Nice clear skies today.

Godfather + Sideways

Bought a few DVDs a few days ago kat Uptown.

The Godfather Trilogy

This trilogy is a must have for any movie buff. The tale of the Corleone family... the words, scene and life lessons .. what can I say ;-) Last nite, I did a cursory check on all three DVDs .. and spent a few hours ;-) .. the movies are timeless ... which scenes I like ? ... too much to remember ..but on top of my head.. the shortlived marriage of Michael and Apollonia in Sicily, .. first meet, courtship, marriage, first night, Apollonia's death.

I have watched it loads of times, and it still captivates me the each time I see them. There is something new I would notice.

A cool unofficial website for the trilogy here.

Warning - the movies to some extent, does romanticize the whole Mafia gig .. but in the end, in Godfather III, there always a price to pay ..

Sideways

This flick is a cool drama / comedy buddy movie. I wanted to see what was the big deal about this movie, since it did pretty well in the movie awards circuit last year. For me, I enjoyed watching it, but the movie , at times, touched an uncomfortable raw emotion for me, especially in the lead character, Miles. Kind of art imitating life perhaps. What is it ? Watch it yourself .. and perhaps u get the idea *wink*

A good place to check on this movie is here.

ps / saw her recently. She looked great. ;-)

Dia

1) Bila aku berfikir atau teringat dia, aku bertanya .. adakah aku ni mengejar bayangan seperti biasa ? Mungkin .. mungkin ... bukan pertama kali aku direject or told in nice words .. " Let's just be friends " .. selalunya selepas ini berlaku, si gadis yg aku suka tu, aku mudah aja lupakan or anggap dia sebagai normal. Tidak dgn dia .. aku persistent kali ni ;-p .. tapi, aku tidak psycho atau go ga-ga. Aku tenang kali ni .. tenang dan bersedia menghadapi realiti. Bagi dia, aku hanyalah teman biasa.. tapi dia tahu yang aku suka dia. Aku bersyukur n berterima kasih yg dia melayan aku seperti dulu.

1.1 ) Pada yg menasihati, aku ucapkan terima kasih :-) Kita tgk nanti bagaimana aku dan dia. Hati kecil aku berkata, dia tidak berubah, Pet .. dia akan tetap melayan kau begitu. Aku akur ... but hati kecil aku memujuk, .. if she is meant for you, you are meant for her .. InsyaAllah.

1.2 ) Aku ingat memori2 aku dengan dia. Apa yg berlaku masa kita bertemu utk pertama kali .. dan sekiannya. Pernah dia bertanya, mengapa perlu aku ingat benda2 yg padanya yg remeh temeh ? .. aku kata, aku memang tidak mahu lupa. Tapi, aku tak beritahu dia ... yg aku paling ingat is memori masa kita dinner dulu .. dia kata aku ego. Aku marah, tapi, aku terima kenyataan. Pada aku, bak kata Melvin Udall in As Good As It Gets, " You make me want to become a better man "

1.3 ) Pernah sekali dia call n tinggal voice mail sbb aku tidak sempat akan angkat hp. Dia tak tahu yg utk seminggu, pesanan dia aku tidak padam. Bila aku rindu dia, aku dengar pesanan dia dlm voicemail ;-) .. akhirnya pesanan itu hilang, sbb Maxis simpan seminggu aje. Kejam kau Maxis :-p

2 ) Lagu utk dia malam ini ..

Dia -Cokelat-

Tersipu aku oleh senyuman
Begitu indah, walaupun .. sejenak
Ku tak mengerti, resah di hati
Kian terasa bergetar di sukma

Dia sinari hatiku .. selalu
Dia hangatkan jiwaku .. selalu
Adakah dia tahu rasa di hatiku
Akankah dia nanti, milikku satu
Selama lamanya

Saat kau hadir hiasi mimpi
Dakap diriku damaikan tidurku


Pada kalian, terima kasih kerana membaca kisah aku dan dia.

Malam ni pasti aku akan senyum tidur teringatkan dia. ;-)

Gol N Gincu N Casablanca

1) Tadi siang I went to watch Gol and Gincu at 1 Utama. Well, hmm.. nak kata expectations tu takde la sgt, but I read a few reviews here n there so ... oklah, pi tgk .. sokonglah filem tempatan :-)

Kisah : Cerita dia agak ttg simple. Basically, about a girl, Putri, yg main futsal sbb nak balik bf dia. Putri n geng BTB ( Bukan Team Biasa ).. ada juga diselit kisah2 teammates dia ( J, Dayang , Jiji )

I would recommend people to watch this flick. The main reason I guess is because the film is honest and looks real, even though, it is a simple story. It beats Kuliah Cinta anyday ;-) ... senang follow cerita ni .. soundtrack pun ok .. Malaysian teen flick but tak condescending.

The performance of the actors n actresses were cool ;-) .. Fazura, u r H.O.T .. Sharifah Amani, u r making me drool ;-) .. Sazzy, u can kick me anytime babe.. the 3R ladies cool gila .. Ms Ponds, *wink* .. rest of the cast did their job well.

Since this flick is produced by the team yg buat 3R, some women issues were highlighted. Incest dan self-image antaranya. It is done in an interesting way, so my props to the team.

Laman Web Rasmi here
- di laman web rasmi ni, ada la links n stuff about the movie ..

ps/ I am gonna watch it again ..hehe .. why ? Three reasons above.
pps / if some scenes rasa pelik, sabar je la .. originally it suppose to run 120 minutes, then cut ke 100 minutes.

2) Casablanca

After the movie ended, masa jalan2 je .. tiba my head main lagu ni .. Casablanca ..

Casablanca -Bertie Higgins-

I fell in love with you watching Casablanca
Back row of the drive in show in the flickering light
Popcorn and cokes beneath the stars became champagne and caviar
Making love on a long hot summers night

I thought you fell in love with me watching Casablance
Holding hands 'neath the paddle fans in Rick's Candle lit cafe
Hiding in the shadows from the spies. Moroccan moonlight in your eyes
Making magic at the movies in my old chevrolet

Oh! A kiss is still a kiss in Casablanca
But a kiss is not a kiss without your sigh
Please come back to me in Casablanca
I love you more and more each day as time goes by

I guess there're many broken hearts in Casablanca
You know I've never really been there. so, I don't know
I guess our love story will never be seen on the big wide silver screen
But it hurt just as bad when I had to watch you go

Oh! A kiss is still a kiss in Casablanca
But a kiss is not a kiss without your sigh
Please come back to me in Casablanca
I love you more and more each day as time goes by
Oh! A kiss is still a kiss in Casablanca
But a kiss is not a kiss without your sigh

Please come back to me in Casablanca
I love you more and more each day as time goes by
I love you more and more each day as time goes by

3)I feel better .. I am discovering Coelho n Gibran .. some amazing words said, especially Gibran. These past few days, I feel better in a positive .. syukur the focus on Me is working. Amin.

Post ini tidak ditaja oleh Hotlink & Adidas, penaja utama Gol n Gincu ;-)

Lu Lompat, Gua Lompat

1) Yesterday, went back to Penang for a short trip. On the bus, the driver pasang Titanic. While reading the paper, tgk2 la sikit .. I concentrated a bit when the scene that Rose wanted to jump of at the back of the ship n Jack selamatkan dia. Jack uttered the famous phrase .." You jump, I jump .. " ..
Ingat tak demam Titanic melanda dunia ? hehe ... ramai org demam tgk filem ni .. I think the main reason sbb ia kisah cinta .. cinta abadi n tulus la katakan ;-) .. hehe.. but for me, the main reason I liked watching it sbb it conveyed the situations and emotions oleh penumpang2 tragedi Titanic ..can't imagine what I would do or act if I was there. I hope they rest in peace.

2) Masa dalam bas tu juga, aku fikir tentang dia. Mengapa aku suka dia, walaupun dia hanya menganggap aku kawan aja. Bila aku berbicara dengan memberku yg baru kahwin tu,E, kalau gadis lain, aku berkira sikit ( cewah .. ) tapi, dia.. aku terima dia sebab diri dia .. baik n buruknya. Kalau dia call aku minta tolong, pasti aku akan berbuat apa sahaja .. tapi.. kadang2 aku rasa mahu sahaja melupakan dia , tapi, bila dgr lagu dia, aku terus tersenyum n teringat dia. Nak katakan angau, angau ni dah lama juga ... ;-p *sigh* if she only knew ..

2.1 ) Masa dalam bas juga, terfikir yg selama ni aku berminat pada ladies yg memang gerenti aku tak dpt .. mcm magnet songsang la aku ... E hanya menasihati aku bersabar .. pergh , boleh la org sabar, kau dah ada Z ;-p .. hehe ... so sekrg ni, aku tak fikir apa2 dah sgt. Think positive n simpan segala rindu, cinta n dendam utk si dia.

2.2 ) Rasa2nya patut tak aku bagi deadline pada dia ? Cewah .. bagi deadline 31.12.2005 .. kalau tak jadi aku dengan dia .. aku simpan perasaan aku pd dia di kotak sejarah yg berlabel Dia and move on with my life. Ada deadline la pulok .. hehe ... actually, bukan kali pertama aku buat deadline dengan dia .. ada la a few times, tapi aku tak pernah beritahu dia ttg deadline .. hehe .. kalau la dia tahu ..

2.3 ) Tuhan, kau hantar signal kat aku boleh tak ttg si dia ? Lampu merah, kuning or hijau ? ( aku mintak2 hijau ... hehehe )

2.4 ) Kadang2 pagi2 bila aku bangun pagi, aku terbayang dia di sebelah aku, mata dia tertutup, rambut dia serabut sikit .. tgh tidur dengan lena .. aku pikir aku akan tgk dia selama 10 saat, lepas tu usap pipi dia dgn lembut n perlahan, then give her a light kiss on her forehead .. :-) .. cewah ! angan abis angau gue ... inikah dikatakan cinta ? Ada apa dengan cinta ?

* udah le dengan cerita no 2 tu, krg ada pembaca muntah ;-p

3) Gue still jobless ..dah dua bulan ni ... uwaaaa ....

4) Saya syok dengar lagu ni skrg ( sbb mp3 baru dapat ;-) ) ... gelek bang gelek ...

Shake Your Tailfeather -Nelly, PDiddy, Murphy Lee -

[Nelly] (P. Diddy)
We do it for fun
We just do it for fun
Dirty E.A.T
We do it for fun
Bad Boy (Nelly, Diddy, Murphy Lee)
We do it for fun (This is history baby)
Bend them trucks
We do it for fun (haha)
Stack them bucks
We do it for fun (Come on now)
And the band played on (yea)
Just like (I believe you cool to this)
We do it for fun
If you see me ma
We do it for fun

[P. Diddy]
Bad Boys 2, the soundtrack
Let's Go

[Verse 1: Nelly] + (P. Diddy)
Hey girl
What your name is?
Where you from?
Turn around who you came with?
Is that your ass or your momma have reindeer?
I can't explain it but damn sure glad you came here
I'm still a sucker for cornrolls, you know I never changed that (nah uh)
Your body is banging mamma, but where your brains at? (Come on)
I'm still the same cat when I was young I was running with bad boys
But now I'm older hope they saw I'm running with bad boys (that's right)
Here come another man
Unlike no other man
Candy coated whoa!
Switching in every lane
Ya'll help me
Why don't cha
Please help me
Eigth girl this week and it's only Tuesday
I like the cocky bow legged ones
Like white and Dominicans
Hispanics and Asians
Shake it for Nelly son
Manolos Ma-no-no's I can't tell
Everybody and their hootchies
When you do it do it well

{*Braves tomahawk chop done in background of Chorus*}

[Chorus]
[Nelly] Let me see you take it off
[P. D.] Girl go and take it off
[Nelly] We can even do it slow
[P. D.] We can even do it slow
[Nelly] Take it where you want to go
[P. D.] Take it where you want to go
[Nelly] Just take that ass to the floor
[P. D.] Pop something move something
Shake ya tail feather, girl go and take it low
[Nelly] We can even do it slow
[P. D.] We can even do it slow
[Nelly] Take it where you want to go
[P. D.] Take it where you want to go
[Nelly] Just take that ass to the floor
[P. D.] Pop something move something
Shake ya tail feather

[Verse 2: P. Diddy] + (Nelly)
Now real girls get down on the floor (on the floor)
Get that money honey act like you know (like you know)
Mama I like how you dance
The way you fit in them pants (Uh)
Enter the floor (Uh) take it low (Uh) girl do it again (Uh)
You know I love that (I love that)
Now where them girls at? (Where the girls at?)
It's Diddy, Murphy Lee, and Nelly how you love that? (Shit uh ohhhhhh)
Come on, we got another one player
>From New York to the Dirty how they loving it player?
Baby you impressive let's get
To know each other
You the best of the best and
You got to love it in the dresses, the sexiest
I had to tell her she's a young Janet Jackson live in living color
Look here momma you're dead wrong for having them pants on
Capri's cut low so when you shake it I see you're thong
My pocket's full of dough shake your feathers till the morning
It's Bad Boy and Nelly man somebody better warn them

[Chorus]

[Bridge: Nelly]
Oh no I heard them bad boys coming
Can't stop now
Got to continue my running (yea)
Because we go party till them lights come on
And then my song start thumping because my mike still on

[Verse 3: Murphy Lee] + (Nelly)
Yo, I'm the big booty type
I like them thick with their mind right (Awe)
Banging personality conversate when the time right (Naw)
I'm not hard I've got women to handle that
They be like he the man when I'm really a Thundercat
Come on you know the tics connect like Voltron
Collect so much grass popo thinking we mow lawns
My gohans don't match that
But it matches her head wrap and the seats that I got in the lap
I'm just a juvenile (Wha)
Because I be about G's
Keep your women wizzy man they say they have my babies
I'm young like Tucker like the cash and the money (I'm going to eat my money)
Man, I'm that damn hungry
See I'm starving like Marvin girl
I've got sixteen bars of fire is what I'm starting
Plus my rats come in packs like Sammy and Dean Martin
And I got so many keys you'd think I was valet parking

[Chorus]

[Bridge: Nelly]
Oh no I heard them bad boys coming
Can't stop now
Got to continue my running (yea)
Because we go party till them lights come on
And then my song start thumping because my mic still on (man)


ps / lagu utk dia ? .. hehe .. next post la ... hehe

A Visit To Kilang Cokelat

Just came back watching the midnight of the movie, Charlie and the Chocolate factory with my newly married friend.

My review : Sweet as chocolate :-p .. it is a good movie, on the top it is a funny flick, but underneath it, a few things came to my mind , byk hidden messages.

My newly married friend may not know this, but I think he is going to be alright with this marriage thingy. ;-) And, in spite of my almost cynical thing about the whole marriage + relationship gig, he's inspiring me a bit, and his beloved is so lucky to have him, .. but then I think she knows kot, that's why she married him in the first place !!

More Kilang Cokelat

The Yahoo movie page is here. You can find loads of reviews there.

The Wedding Epilogue II

1) I am okay now. It is all okay.
2) Watched Ungu Violet last Wednesday and got to meet the cast. Dian Sastro in person, the autographed postcard n movie poster ... wargggh.. what a dream ;-)
3) Saw the movie with her. Please visit her blog. Very Love-ly ;-) Tq for the kind words, dear. I really appreciate.

Life goes on .. perjuangan mesti diteruskan ;-)

Daa..

The Wedding Epilogue

Yesterday night, I was the best man ( pengapit ) for my best friend's wedding. He got married last Saturday. The nikah n reception ( on the lady site ) was on Saturday, while his reception was last night, somewhere in Shah Alam.

I experienced a multiple of emotions these past 24 - 36 hours, and probably will be in some similar state in the next few weeks or so. I cannot explain it , maybe some of you understand it .. but, .. bear with me if my writings sound a bit strange from time to time.

He was my best friend, ever since I came back from the States. We used to trade our stories of the pursuit of love, and other stuff. He understood me more than most people who think they know me. We used to travel almost everywhere in Malaysia .. n on his idea, slept in some hotels in Klang Valley !

Then she came.

When they hooked up, I was happy .. delighted even... but then the creeping realization came ... sooner or later .. it will come to this.

To their credit, I was privy to their relationship development ( ups n downs ) .. I knew this was something special for both of them. Don't ask why .. I just knew .. so I prepared myself ...

Prepare to be alone again.
( * my sis cakap .. grow up ! * )

Saturday till a few minutes ago, I was okay ...smiling, laughing, etc .. now the tears are coming down ... *jap* ...

Forgive me dear readers.. I'll be fine eventually. I will always be fine ... I have always been on my own. Yep, I can do this.

The wedding was beautiful. They were a beautiful couple, surrounded by relatives and friends. Smiles n laughter all around.

This song below played ...

Everyday I Love You BZ

I don't know, but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn something new
Everyday I love you

'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.

It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you

Everyday I love you more
Everyday I love you

'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul

If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you
And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you


Selamat pengantin baru E & Z, semoga bahagia ke anak cucu. Thank you for allowing me to see how u guys journeyed from couple to husband & wife ( 2003 - 2005 ).

I gotta go.

Begitu Sempitnya Waktu, Begitu Hebatnya Cinta

* The title is from the movie Ungu Violet ;-)


1) Yesterday I saw two movies at GSC 1 Utama .. actually, my first time visiting the cineplex. Nice place, similar to GSC Gurney Plaza style, so I was familiar with the layout. On to the movies review

Camp ( 1.45 pm )

I was intrigued to watch this flick as it was mentioned in KLUE magazine. And it was kind of interesting premise.. summer arts camp for teenagers. And no, I was not going horny here ;-p

I enjoyed it :-) If there is only one reason to watch it is to watch the teens who performed in this movie .. they can really sing and dance. Turns out that they were actually talented teens in their own right, and their honest performances saved this movie from being a run of the mill stuff. Now, the story is another hal .. regularly run of the mill stuff.. it did touch a bit on teen gay stuff but it was lightly skirted around.. during the whole time, I thought to myself is that I would recommend this movie to local teens who have done sek menengah drama / play / show ... I think they would enjoy it.

Reviews here and here.

2) Ungu Violet 4.10 pm

Now this movie was what I have been waiting for, ever since I read that it was released in Indonesia around June. For one, it has the amazing and babelicious Dian Sastro in it ( a little trivia : Her full name is Diandra Paramitha Sastrowardoyo .. yep, gue hafal nama itu :-) )

I really like this movie ;-) .. really love this movie ..;-) .. it is a change as this movie features a more adult role for Dian and her fans from AADC ( tak tahu .. tanya kawan2 ;-p ) ... and she did well. Admitted this is a slow drama movie, but if u r willing and patient, just relax and let yourself follow and enjoy the story of Lando n Kalin ... the movie's tagline says it all .. definitely, an A+ in my jiwang list ....


Review can be found here.

Official website here

Official Movie Song ... this song is for her ...

Menanti Sebuah Jawaban Padi


Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu...
Seiiring jejak kakiku bergetar
Aku telah terpagut oleh cintamu
Menelusup hariku dengan harapan
(Namun kau masih) terdiam membisu


Reff.
Sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu
Mendekap penuh harapan
Tuk mencintaimu
Setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu
Menanti sebuah jawaban
Tuk memilikimu


Betapa pilunya rindu menusuk jiwaku
Semoga kau tau isi hatiku
Dan seiring waktu yang terus berputar
Aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku
Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu...

Go watch this movie people .. please do ;-)

Later

A Report On Ome ++

1) I found this result from a test I took a long time ago ...

Ome
A very special Gemini

Ome is as bright as a button and as sharp as a blade. If there's ever anything you need to know, Ome is the person to ask. Chances are he will know the answer already. If not he will go and ask someone else and he will keep asking until he gets an answer. Ome simply cannot stand the idea of a question that has no answer, so if he cannot get a satisfactory explanation he will invent one. A good one. He is after all as bright as a button. There are though, some questions in life which are best left unanswered. The rest of us know to leave them alone. Ome cannot resist the urge to explore them. He is drawn to such questions, like, well, like a button to a button hole! Ome answers these questions cleverly because, after all as sharp as a blade, but then you know what they say about people who are too sharp...
Ome can be very cutting sometimes. He doesn't mean to be. He just can't help it. Ome can't stop himself from daring to say what other people hardly dare to think. This is why Ome often gets himself into trouble but it is also why Ome is such an interesting person to know. Life with Ome is never dull. There's always an adventure, a challenge or a deal to be done. Ome loves to do deals. The word 'no' is not in his vocabulary. When he hears it Ome is immediately tempted to reply "Is that 'no' as in 'maybe', 'no' as in 'I need to be persuaded,' or 'no as in 'not quite yet?' Luckily Ome gets clean away with this kind of attitude. Ome , at least when it comes to the unanswerable question, is living proof of the old adage "Who dares...wins".

I re-read this statement, and I remembered a blogger asking me the question, " why do u need to know everything ? " .. I answered, " donno, just wanna know ... " .. " No need la Ome .. no need la to know everything .. "

Now, to be honest .. I see her point .. some of my insecurities are due to my need to know everything ... so I tell myself gently, when the situation arises, I just tell myself to let go of the need..

2) Fact or fiction : Grown man, when sick, become babies :-)

I am not well since yesterday afternoon,...*sigh* rasa pulak perlu si dia ..

Later

Tambahan 3 X

1) Kisah Klasik Gue

What Classic Movie Are You?
personality tests by similarminds.com

2) Gue tunggu cerita ini ...

;-) ...*still in jiwang mood*

Tambahan ++

So extra stuff ... productive pulak gue hari ni ya ;-p

A quote I found in this blog.

"Love comes when manipulation stops; when you think more about the other person than about his or her reactions to you. When you dare to reveal yourself fully. When you dare to be vulnerable."

Dr. Joyce Brothers

-- told ya I am jiwang today....

A Jiwang Song

I bought the album "A Tribute to Koes Plus oleh Erwin Gutawa" some time ago. A review of it can be found here.

The song below is one of my fav tracks from the album. With vocals by the wonderful Ruth Sahanaya, it is a beautiful song.

Andaikan Kau Datang Ruth Sahanaya

Terlalu indah dilupakan
Terlalu sedih dikenangkan
Setelah aku jauh berjalan
Dan kau ku tinggalkan

Betapa hatiku bersedih
Mengenang kasih dan sayangmu
Setulus pesanmu kepadaku
Engkau kan menunggu

Andaikan kau datang kembali
Jawaban apa yang kan ku beri
Adakah cara yang kau temui
Untuk kita kembali lagi

Bersinarlah bulan purnama
Seindah serta tulus cintanya
Bersinarlah terus sampai nanti
Lagu ini ku akhiri


.. feeling a bit jiwang abt her today.. something that was not meant to be...

News that brought a smile :- This blogger is having a baby. I love her writings, so expect to see loads of mommy stuff in the coming future .. ;-)

Ode To My Family + Time .....

Found it :-) I found the mp3 to the song ... thank you to this blogger who passed me the file....

Please, please go to her site and check out the pics of her first born Hana. So cute .. so kawai neh ... fyi, she was one of the first blogs I went through and I still visit her site quite regularly .. went to her wedding end of 2003 :-) ...

Ode To My Family - The Cranberries -

Understand the things I say
Don't turn away from me
Cause I spent half my life out there
You wouldn't disagree
D'you see me, d'you see
Do you like me. Do you like me standing there
D'you notice, d'you know
Do you see me, do you see me
Does anyone care

Unhappiness, where's when I was young
And we didn't give a damn
'Cause we were raised
To see life as fun and take it if we can
My mother, my mother she hold me
Did she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father, he liked me
Oh he liked me, does anyone care

Understand what I've become
It wasn't my design
And people everywhere think
Something better than I am
But I miss you. I miss
'Cause you liked it. I liked it
When I was out there
D'you know this, d'you know
You did not find me, you did not find
Does anyone care

Unhappiness was when I was young
And we didn't give a damn
'Cause we were raised
To see life as fun and take it if we can
My mother, my mother she hold me
Did she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father, he liked me
Oh me liked me, does anyone care

Does anyone care

...*humming to the tune* ...esp the intro ...

Additional : She also gave me Aqua's Turn Back Time .. terima kasih banyak2 .. :-) *grinning ear to ear*

Turn Back Time Aqua

Give me time to reason,
give me time to think it through
Passing through the season,
where I cheated you

I will always have a cross to wear,
but the bolt reminds me I was there

So give me strength,
to face this test tonight

If only I could turn back time
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time
I would stay for the night. For the night...

Claim your right to science
Claim your right to see the truth
Though my pangs of conscience,
Will drill a hole in you

I seen it coming like a thief in the night,
I seen it coming from the flash of your light

So give me strength,
to face this test tonight

If only I could turn back time
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time..
I would stay for the night

The bolt reminds me I was there
the bolt reminds me I was there

If only I could turn back time
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time
I would stay for the night

;-)

Everybody Else Is Doing It, So Why Dont We ..

1) Last Friday, I went to get my PC in Penang, with my parents in tow. It turned out well, the whole experience was okay. And, the bonus point was that there is an opportunity for .. a small window... :-) .. anyway, it was a good drive up n down .. KL to Penang...

2) My best friend is getting married soon, and yours truly is his pengapit on his wedding day, his side. hehe ... wonder if I can score with the pengapit perempuan :-)I am happy for the dude .. the only down side is I will be one of the few remaining bachelors among my male friends .. no worry amigos, resistance is still here :-) .. truthfully, hmm ... loads I can say .. hehe :-) .. right now, I am making Me the most important person in these matters ;-) .. having another person would complicate matters perhaps .. it sounds selfish kan .. but this is what I realized recently. I have to take care of myself first. Cewah ... ;-p ...

2.1 ) Related to no 2 ..all I can say is .. cewah ..ideally nak mcm tu la ..hehehe... but, all of us are human kan .. but, I am very very aware now ..very very aware ...

2.2 ) *blushes* hehehe ....

WHY CAN'T I WAKE UP WITH YOU Take That

Can't decide if I should read or think
I'll keep an open mind, 'til the day sets in
Hear you thinking. Hope you hear me thinking too.

Why can't I wake up with you
So you're there when I open my eyes
Baby why can't I wake up with you. You're my life.

Feel alive, so I'll just begin
To rest my mind, before you ring me
Hear you call me, I'm so willing to call back
Hear you thinking. Hope you hear me thinking too.


Why can't I wake up with you
So you're there when I open my eyes
Baby why can't I wake up with you. You're my life.

So good to be near you.
So dark when you walk from my side
Baby why can't I wake up with you.


You're my life, you're my life ...

Later ...

Ps/ everything is getting clearer a bit ..
pps - Post title is from the title of the Cranberries debut album

We Belong + Linger

2 songs that I am grooving into ;-)

1) I caught this song a bit late .. but damn, it's got me hooked .. :-) .. MC's back in form ? ( ..maybe.. )

We Belong Together - Mariah Carey -

I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should've let you go
I did nothing
I was stupid
I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself

Cuz' I didn't know you
Cuz' I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt..
The feeling that I'm feeling now
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or even touch or even kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
What I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side

We belong together
When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please come back
We belong together

Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
Baby nobody better
We belong together

I can't sleep at night

2) This song is a song that reminds me masa mula2 sampai US dulu.. also got me hooked on the Cranberries ;-) .. baru je found the mp3 .. yahoo ! .. now, to find Ode To My Family pulak .. another Cranberries fav ...

Linger - Cranberries -

If you, if you could return, don't let it burn, don't let it fade.

I'm sure I'm not being rude, but it's just your attitude,
It's tearing me apart, It's ruining everything.

I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you.
So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you?

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

Oh, I thought the world of you.
I thought nothing could go wrong,
But I was wrong. I was wrong.
If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie,
Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used,
But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you.

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

And I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?


Later peeps.

Musings

-- the past few days have been interesting

1) Kelas dah mula balik .. there goes my Saturdays ...

2) I am following the Tour De France. Why ? It is Lance Armstrong last race as a pro cyclist, and he is leading right now. The guy is remarkable. He has won SIX straight Tours and is on pace to win his seventh. Consecutive, back-to-back. Woo.. and this chap is a cancer survivor. Suffice to say that this guy is an inspiration. And yes, L&Gs, I was a cycling nut once .. still is ... to a lesser extent..hehehe ....

3) British Open .. Tiger won it .. his 10th major .. and he is still 29 ! .. he has accomplished so much at his age, but true to his personality, I don't he'll stop there.

With no 2 & no 3, it is hard not to admire them for what they have accomplished. It looks so easy, yet it is not. A lot was done - planning, execution, sacrifice, etc. I know about all this , yet ... here I am now. What I realized during the past few weeks is that I am more of a dreamer, than a doer. I dream, I plan .. yet they all remain there .. in dreams ... More Do, Less Dream Azmir !!

Banyaknya berfikir nowadays ;-p

New Thoughts

The past few days which I have not posted.. I thought of new things .. new findings .. new realizations ... when one faces repeated failures, if one does not learn from it, and apply its lessons, then one is sure gonna kena lagi.

What I listened in the past few days was my collection of Padi, Def Leppard, LP, Limp Bizkit and Oasis, and they helped to raise my spirits. Too many songs by the groups I can list below ... but ... some of the phrases from the songs I listened ..

" .. where does love go when it dies .. ", Def Leppard
" .. get off the floor and believe in life .. " Oasis
" .. it's my way .. my way or the highway .. " Limp Bizkit
" .. the very worst part of me is you .. ", LP
" .. sesuatu yg indah untuk dirimu .. ", Padi

you know what peeps, in the end, it's all about you ... not others .. you have to take care of you.. no one else will do it for you ...

Later

Estranged

Yo ..

The past 24 hours have been very ..ermm.. mind numbing in some ways... the song played in my head a lot for the past 24 hours ... it is sickening when you keep hitting the wall time and time again .. when will I ever learn ?


Estranged Guns N Roses

When you're talkin to yourself
And nobody's home
You can fool yourself
You came in this world alone
(Alone)

So nobody ever told you baby
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to you baby
Guess we'll have to wait and see
ONE, TWO

Old at heart but I'm only 28
And I'm much too young
To let love break my heart
Young at heart but it's getting much too late
To find ourselves so far apart

I don't know how you're s'posed
To find me lately
An what more could tou ask from me
How could you say that I never needed you
When you took everything
Said you took everything from me

Young at heart an it gets so hard to wait
When no one I know can seem to help me now
Old at heart but I musn't hesitate
If I'm to find my own way out

Still talkin' to myself
and nobody's home
(Alone)

So nobody ever told us baby
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to us baby
Guess we'll have to wait and see

When I find out all the reasons
Maybe I'll find another way
Find another day
With all the changing seasons of my life
Maybe I'll get it right next time
An now that you've been broken down
Got your head out of the clouds
You're back down on the ground
And you don't talk so loud
An you don't walk so proud
Any more, and what for

Well I jumped into the river
Too many times to make it home
I'm out here on my own, an drifting all alone
If it doesn't show give it time
To read between the lines
'Cause I see the storm getting closer
And the waves they get so high
Seems everything We've ever known's here
Why must it drift away and die

I'll never find anyone to replace you
Guess I'll have to make it thru, this time- Oh this time
Without you

I knew the storm was getting closer
And all my friends said I was high
But everything we've ever known's here
I never wanted it to die



to my friend, Megat .. congrats on Putri .. and tq for the unique experience ;-p ..

R.I.P

My TokChik in Kulim passed away yesterday. So, I went down with my family for his burial. He passed away due to cancer, that came from Hepatitis B, at least that was what I was told. I visited him a few days, and he was not looking good. At least, in his case, his passing was expected. I am gonna miss the guy a bit.. he had some pretty good one-liners.
When someone close / dear to us passes away, it helps to remember the good times / memories that we had with them. Also, to forgive them , let them go and hope that they are in a better place where they are right now.

Al-Fatihah, Tok Chik.

Goodbye Nuri

Today began as a regular day .. woke up late at 11.00 am ... then proceeded to do housework ... a friend called around noon .. saying Nuri passed away. Ran to IJN KL,and yes, there she was lying there. I managed to console her husband and talked to him a bit. Said hi to a few ex-colleagues.. dpt sembahyang her mayat .. and helped to put her jenazah into the van. After that, went to the old office, just to look at her spot and remember the good times we had.

Who was she ?

She was a Muar girl who joined the same date I did. 18/3/2002. She was a programmer / analyst. I became quite fond of her.. sebab of who she was. We talked a lot when I was in Dataran. Talking with her was cool .. she always had time to talk stuff, esp my girl problems. She got married last year and was expecting. The baby died with her.

Truth to be told .. she had a medical condition that needed medication. When she got married, she knew that the condition made it risky for her to have children. When she was pregnant, I asked her about this and she told me she knew. But, she was willing to risk it. She was determined.

Why I will miss her ? She never judged me and accepted me for what I am. A cheerful lady.... One of the few ladies that I was genuinely fond of. When we talked, it was always fun and cool , even though the subject can be serious at times. The next few days, I guess, the memories video, will be playing in my head. And I will cherish it this time.

At this moment, the phrase " Dont Know What You Got Till It's Gone ", means a lot.

I will miss you, Nuri. Al-Fatihah. Semoga Allah mencucuri roh mu, Nuriyati Rohani.

One Sweet Day B2M with Mariac Carey

B II M:
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away
Ayyy

Mariah:
Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive
Alive

all:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
Mariah: Together
One sweet day
Mariah: Eventually I'll see you in heaven…

B II M:
Darling, I never showed you (I never showed you)
Assumed you'd always be there (I thought you'd always be there)
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
(Mariah: But I always cared)
And I miss the love we shared

all:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
(Mariah: Together)
One sweet day
Mariah: Eventually I'll see you in heaven

B II M:
Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Mariah:
Yeah
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray

all:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
(Mariah: Together)
One sweet day

all:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
(Mariah: Together)
One sweet day

Mariah: Sorry I never told you (oooh)
all: All I wanted to say


... rasa kehilangan gue ...

Back With Reviews

Allo there .. I have been gone for the past 2 plus weeks ;-) ...missed me ? nah, didnt think so .. hehehe

A recap
1st week - Kota Bharu & Kemaman
2nd week - Kuala Terengganu

I had fun .. did some reading .. wrote stuff on my journal.. during these two weeks, I saw a lot of stuff, thought a lot, contemplated a lot ... hmmm...

you know what's missing ? ... do a lot ... I think a lot but don't actually do it ... one of the things learnt ... it's been week three and I am figuring things out ...

Later

Missing

.. I might be missing .. no worries if I am not around okay .. going to lose some illusions ... take care amigos :-)