Gol N Gincu N Casablanca

1) Tadi siang I went to watch Gol and Gincu at 1 Utama. Well, hmm.. nak kata expectations tu takde la sgt, but I read a few reviews here n there so ... oklah, pi tgk .. sokonglah filem tempatan :-)

Kisah : Cerita dia agak ttg simple. Basically, about a girl, Putri, yg main futsal sbb nak balik bf dia. Putri n geng BTB ( Bukan Team Biasa ).. ada juga diselit kisah2 teammates dia ( J, Dayang , Jiji )

I would recommend people to watch this flick. The main reason I guess is because the film is honest and looks real, even though, it is a simple story. It beats Kuliah Cinta anyday ;-) ... senang follow cerita ni .. soundtrack pun ok .. Malaysian teen flick but tak condescending.

The performance of the actors n actresses were cool ;-) .. Fazura, u r H.O.T .. Sharifah Amani, u r making me drool ;-) .. Sazzy, u can kick me anytime babe.. the 3R ladies cool gila .. Ms Ponds, *wink* .. rest of the cast did their job well.

Since this flick is produced by the team yg buat 3R, some women issues were highlighted. Incest dan self-image antaranya. It is done in an interesting way, so my props to the team.

Laman Web Rasmi here
- di laman web rasmi ni, ada la links n stuff about the movie ..

ps/ I am gonna watch it again ..hehe .. why ? Three reasons above.
pps / if some scenes rasa pelik, sabar je la .. originally it suppose to run 120 minutes, then cut ke 100 minutes.

2) Casablanca

After the movie ended, masa jalan2 je .. tiba my head main lagu ni .. Casablanca ..

Casablanca -Bertie Higgins-

I fell in love with you watching Casablanca
Back row of the drive in show in the flickering light
Popcorn and cokes beneath the stars became champagne and caviar
Making love on a long hot summers night

I thought you fell in love with me watching Casablance
Holding hands 'neath the paddle fans in Rick's Candle lit cafe
Hiding in the shadows from the spies. Moroccan moonlight in your eyes
Making magic at the movies in my old chevrolet

Oh! A kiss is still a kiss in Casablanca
But a kiss is not a kiss without your sigh
Please come back to me in Casablanca
I love you more and more each day as time goes by

I guess there're many broken hearts in Casablanca
You know I've never really been there. so, I don't know
I guess our love story will never be seen on the big wide silver screen
But it hurt just as bad when I had to watch you go

Oh! A kiss is still a kiss in Casablanca
But a kiss is not a kiss without your sigh
Please come back to me in Casablanca
I love you more and more each day as time goes by
Oh! A kiss is still a kiss in Casablanca
But a kiss is not a kiss without your sigh

Please come back to me in Casablanca
I love you more and more each day as time goes by
I love you more and more each day as time goes by

3)I feel better .. I am discovering Coelho n Gibran .. some amazing words said, especially Gibran. These past few days, I feel better in a positive .. syukur the focus on Me is working. Amin.

Post ini tidak ditaja oleh Hotlink & Adidas, penaja utama Gol n Gincu ;-)

Lu Lompat, Gua Lompat

1) Yesterday, went back to Penang for a short trip. On the bus, the driver pasang Titanic. While reading the paper, tgk2 la sikit .. I concentrated a bit when the scene that Rose wanted to jump of at the back of the ship n Jack selamatkan dia. Jack uttered the famous phrase .." You jump, I jump .. " ..
Ingat tak demam Titanic melanda dunia ? hehe ... ramai org demam tgk filem ni .. I think the main reason sbb ia kisah cinta .. cinta abadi n tulus la katakan ;-) .. hehe.. but for me, the main reason I liked watching it sbb it conveyed the situations and emotions oleh penumpang2 tragedi Titanic ..can't imagine what I would do or act if I was there. I hope they rest in peace.

2) Masa dalam bas tu juga, aku fikir tentang dia. Mengapa aku suka dia, walaupun dia hanya menganggap aku kawan aja. Bila aku berbicara dengan memberku yg baru kahwin tu,E, kalau gadis lain, aku berkira sikit ( cewah .. ) tapi, dia.. aku terima dia sebab diri dia .. baik n buruknya. Kalau dia call aku minta tolong, pasti aku akan berbuat apa sahaja .. tapi.. kadang2 aku rasa mahu sahaja melupakan dia , tapi, bila dgr lagu dia, aku terus tersenyum n teringat dia. Nak katakan angau, angau ni dah lama juga ... ;-p *sigh* if she only knew ..

2.1 ) Masa dalam bas juga, terfikir yg selama ni aku berminat pada ladies yg memang gerenti aku tak dpt .. mcm magnet songsang la aku ... E hanya menasihati aku bersabar .. pergh , boleh la org sabar, kau dah ada Z ;-p .. hehe ... so sekrg ni, aku tak fikir apa2 dah sgt. Think positive n simpan segala rindu, cinta n dendam utk si dia.

2.2 ) Rasa2nya patut tak aku bagi deadline pada dia ? Cewah .. bagi deadline 31.12.2005 .. kalau tak jadi aku dengan dia .. aku simpan perasaan aku pd dia di kotak sejarah yg berlabel Dia and move on with my life. Ada deadline la pulok .. hehe ... actually, bukan kali pertama aku buat deadline dengan dia .. ada la a few times, tapi aku tak pernah beritahu dia ttg deadline .. hehe .. kalau la dia tahu ..

2.3 ) Tuhan, kau hantar signal kat aku boleh tak ttg si dia ? Lampu merah, kuning or hijau ? ( aku mintak2 hijau ... hehehe )

2.4 ) Kadang2 pagi2 bila aku bangun pagi, aku terbayang dia di sebelah aku, mata dia tertutup, rambut dia serabut sikit .. tgh tidur dengan lena .. aku pikir aku akan tgk dia selama 10 saat, lepas tu usap pipi dia dgn lembut n perlahan, then give her a light kiss on her forehead .. :-) .. cewah ! angan abis angau gue ... inikah dikatakan cinta ? Ada apa dengan cinta ?

* udah le dengan cerita no 2 tu, krg ada pembaca muntah ;-p

3) Gue still jobless ..dah dua bulan ni ... uwaaaa ....

4) Saya syok dengar lagu ni skrg ( sbb mp3 baru dapat ;-) ) ... gelek bang gelek ...

Shake Your Tailfeather -Nelly, PDiddy, Murphy Lee -

[Nelly] (P. Diddy)
We do it for fun
We just do it for fun
Dirty E.A.T
We do it for fun
Bad Boy (Nelly, Diddy, Murphy Lee)
We do it for fun (This is history baby)
Bend them trucks
We do it for fun (haha)
Stack them bucks
We do it for fun (Come on now)
And the band played on (yea)
Just like (I believe you cool to this)
We do it for fun
If you see me ma
We do it for fun

[P. Diddy]
Bad Boys 2, the soundtrack
Let's Go

[Verse 1: Nelly] + (P. Diddy)
Hey girl
What your name is?
Where you from?
Turn around who you came with?
Is that your ass or your momma have reindeer?
I can't explain it but damn sure glad you came here
I'm still a sucker for cornrolls, you know I never changed that (nah uh)
Your body is banging mamma, but where your brains at? (Come on)
I'm still the same cat when I was young I was running with bad boys
But now I'm older hope they saw I'm running with bad boys (that's right)
Here come another man
Unlike no other man
Candy coated whoa!
Switching in every lane
Ya'll help me
Why don't cha
Please help me
Eigth girl this week and it's only Tuesday
I like the cocky bow legged ones
Like white and Dominicans
Hispanics and Asians
Shake it for Nelly son
Manolos Ma-no-no's I can't tell
Everybody and their hootchies
When you do it do it well

{*Braves tomahawk chop done in background of Chorus*}

[Chorus]
[Nelly] Let me see you take it off
[P. D.] Girl go and take it off
[Nelly] We can even do it slow
[P. D.] We can even do it slow
[Nelly] Take it where you want to go
[P. D.] Take it where you want to go
[Nelly] Just take that ass to the floor
[P. D.] Pop something move something
Shake ya tail feather, girl go and take it low
[Nelly] We can even do it slow
[P. D.] We can even do it slow
[Nelly] Take it where you want to go
[P. D.] Take it where you want to go
[Nelly] Just take that ass to the floor
[P. D.] Pop something move something
Shake ya tail feather

[Verse 2: P. Diddy] + (Nelly)
Now real girls get down on the floor (on the floor)
Get that money honey act like you know (like you know)
Mama I like how you dance
The way you fit in them pants (Uh)
Enter the floor (Uh) take it low (Uh) girl do it again (Uh)
You know I love that (I love that)
Now where them girls at? (Where the girls at?)
It's Diddy, Murphy Lee, and Nelly how you love that? (Shit uh ohhhhhh)
Come on, we got another one player
>From New York to the Dirty how they loving it player?
Baby you impressive let's get
To know each other
You the best of the best and
You got to love it in the dresses, the sexiest
I had to tell her she's a young Janet Jackson live in living color
Look here momma you're dead wrong for having them pants on
Capri's cut low so when you shake it I see you're thong
My pocket's full of dough shake your feathers till the morning
It's Bad Boy and Nelly man somebody better warn them

[Chorus]

[Bridge: Nelly]
Oh no I heard them bad boys coming
Can't stop now
Got to continue my running (yea)
Because we go party till them lights come on
And then my song start thumping because my mike still on

[Verse 3: Murphy Lee] + (Nelly)
Yo, I'm the big booty type
I like them thick with their mind right (Awe)
Banging personality conversate when the time right (Naw)
I'm not hard I've got women to handle that
They be like he the man when I'm really a Thundercat
Come on you know the tics connect like Voltron
Collect so much grass popo thinking we mow lawns
My gohans don't match that
But it matches her head wrap and the seats that I got in the lap
I'm just a juvenile (Wha)
Because I be about G's
Keep your women wizzy man they say they have my babies
I'm young like Tucker like the cash and the money (I'm going to eat my money)
Man, I'm that damn hungry
See I'm starving like Marvin girl
I've got sixteen bars of fire is what I'm starting
Plus my rats come in packs like Sammy and Dean Martin
And I got so many keys you'd think I was valet parking

[Chorus]

[Bridge: Nelly]
Oh no I heard them bad boys coming
Can't stop now
Got to continue my running (yea)
Because we go party till them lights come on
And then my song start thumping because my mic still on (man)


ps / lagu utk dia ? .. hehe .. next post la ... hehe

A Visit To Kilang Cokelat

Just came back watching the midnight of the movie, Charlie and the Chocolate factory with my newly married friend.

My review : Sweet as chocolate :-p .. it is a good movie, on the top it is a funny flick, but underneath it, a few things came to my mind , byk hidden messages.

My newly married friend may not know this, but I think he is going to be alright with this marriage thingy. ;-) And, in spite of my almost cynical thing about the whole marriage + relationship gig, he's inspiring me a bit, and his beloved is so lucky to have him, .. but then I think she knows kot, that's why she married him in the first place !!

More Kilang Cokelat

The Yahoo movie page is here. You can find loads of reviews there.

The Wedding Epilogue II

1) I am okay now. It is all okay.
2) Watched Ungu Violet last Wednesday and got to meet the cast. Dian Sastro in person, the autographed postcard n movie poster ... wargggh.. what a dream ;-)
3) Saw the movie with her. Please visit her blog. Very Love-ly ;-) Tq for the kind words, dear. I really appreciate.

Life goes on .. perjuangan mesti diteruskan ;-)

Daa..

The Wedding Epilogue

Yesterday night, I was the best man ( pengapit ) for my best friend's wedding. He got married last Saturday. The nikah n reception ( on the lady site ) was on Saturday, while his reception was last night, somewhere in Shah Alam.

I experienced a multiple of emotions these past 24 - 36 hours, and probably will be in some similar state in the next few weeks or so. I cannot explain it , maybe some of you understand it .. but, .. bear with me if my writings sound a bit strange from time to time.

He was my best friend, ever since I came back from the States. We used to trade our stories of the pursuit of love, and other stuff. He understood me more than most people who think they know me. We used to travel almost everywhere in Malaysia .. n on his idea, slept in some hotels in Klang Valley !

Then she came.

When they hooked up, I was happy .. delighted even... but then the creeping realization came ... sooner or later .. it will come to this.

To their credit, I was privy to their relationship development ( ups n downs ) .. I knew this was something special for both of them. Don't ask why .. I just knew .. so I prepared myself ...

Prepare to be alone again.
( * my sis cakap .. grow up ! * )

Saturday till a few minutes ago, I was okay ...smiling, laughing, etc .. now the tears are coming down ... *jap* ...

Forgive me dear readers.. I'll be fine eventually. I will always be fine ... I have always been on my own. Yep, I can do this.

The wedding was beautiful. They were a beautiful couple, surrounded by relatives and friends. Smiles n laughter all around.

This song below played ...

Everyday I Love You BZ

I don't know, but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn something new
Everyday I love you

'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.

It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you

Everyday I love you more
Everyday I love you

'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul

If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you
And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you


Selamat pengantin baru E & Z, semoga bahagia ke anak cucu. Thank you for allowing me to see how u guys journeyed from couple to husband & wife ( 2003 - 2005 ).

I gotta go.

Begitu Sempitnya Waktu, Begitu Hebatnya Cinta

* The title is from the movie Ungu Violet ;-)


1) Yesterday I saw two movies at GSC 1 Utama .. actually, my first time visiting the cineplex. Nice place, similar to GSC Gurney Plaza style, so I was familiar with the layout. On to the movies review

Camp ( 1.45 pm )

I was intrigued to watch this flick as it was mentioned in KLUE magazine. And it was kind of interesting premise.. summer arts camp for teenagers. And no, I was not going horny here ;-p

I enjoyed it :-) If there is only one reason to watch it is to watch the teens who performed in this movie .. they can really sing and dance. Turns out that they were actually talented teens in their own right, and their honest performances saved this movie from being a run of the mill stuff. Now, the story is another hal .. regularly run of the mill stuff.. it did touch a bit on teen gay stuff but it was lightly skirted around.. during the whole time, I thought to myself is that I would recommend this movie to local teens who have done sek menengah drama / play / show ... I think they would enjoy it.

Reviews here and here.

2) Ungu Violet 4.10 pm

Now this movie was what I have been waiting for, ever since I read that it was released in Indonesia around June. For one, it has the amazing and babelicious Dian Sastro in it ( a little trivia : Her full name is Diandra Paramitha Sastrowardoyo .. yep, gue hafal nama itu :-) )

I really like this movie ;-) .. really love this movie ..;-) .. it is a change as this movie features a more adult role for Dian and her fans from AADC ( tak tahu .. tanya kawan2 ;-p ) ... and she did well. Admitted this is a slow drama movie, but if u r willing and patient, just relax and let yourself follow and enjoy the story of Lando n Kalin ... the movie's tagline says it all .. definitely, an A+ in my jiwang list ....


Review can be found here.

Official website here

Official Movie Song ... this song is for her ...

Menanti Sebuah Jawaban Padi


Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu...
Seiiring jejak kakiku bergetar
Aku telah terpagut oleh cintamu
Menelusup hariku dengan harapan
(Namun kau masih) terdiam membisu


Reff.
Sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu
Mendekap penuh harapan
Tuk mencintaimu
Setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu
Menanti sebuah jawaban
Tuk memilikimu


Betapa pilunya rindu menusuk jiwaku
Semoga kau tau isi hatiku
Dan seiring waktu yang terus berputar
Aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku
Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu...

Go watch this movie people .. please do ;-)

Later

A Report On Ome ++

1) I found this result from a test I took a long time ago ...

Ome
A very special Gemini

Ome is as bright as a button and as sharp as a blade. If there's ever anything you need to know, Ome is the person to ask. Chances are he will know the answer already. If not he will go and ask someone else and he will keep asking until he gets an answer. Ome simply cannot stand the idea of a question that has no answer, so if he cannot get a satisfactory explanation he will invent one. A good one. He is after all as bright as a button. There are though, some questions in life which are best left unanswered. The rest of us know to leave them alone. Ome cannot resist the urge to explore them. He is drawn to such questions, like, well, like a button to a button hole! Ome answers these questions cleverly because, after all as sharp as a blade, but then you know what they say about people who are too sharp...
Ome can be very cutting sometimes. He doesn't mean to be. He just can't help it. Ome can't stop himself from daring to say what other people hardly dare to think. This is why Ome often gets himself into trouble but it is also why Ome is such an interesting person to know. Life with Ome is never dull. There's always an adventure, a challenge or a deal to be done. Ome loves to do deals. The word 'no' is not in his vocabulary. When he hears it Ome is immediately tempted to reply "Is that 'no' as in 'maybe', 'no' as in 'I need to be persuaded,' or 'no as in 'not quite yet?' Luckily Ome gets clean away with this kind of attitude. Ome , at least when it comes to the unanswerable question, is living proof of the old adage "Who dares...wins".

I re-read this statement, and I remembered a blogger asking me the question, " why do u need to know everything ? " .. I answered, " donno, just wanna know ... " .. " No need la Ome .. no need la to know everything .. "

Now, to be honest .. I see her point .. some of my insecurities are due to my need to know everything ... so I tell myself gently, when the situation arises, I just tell myself to let go of the need..

2) Fact or fiction : Grown man, when sick, become babies :-)

I am not well since yesterday afternoon,...*sigh* rasa pulak perlu si dia ..

Later

Tambahan 3 X

1) Kisah Klasik Gue

What Classic Movie Are You?
personality tests by similarminds.com

2) Gue tunggu cerita ini ...

;-) ...*still in jiwang mood*

Tambahan ++

So extra stuff ... productive pulak gue hari ni ya ;-p

A quote I found in this blog.

"Love comes when manipulation stops; when you think more about the other person than about his or her reactions to you. When you dare to reveal yourself fully. When you dare to be vulnerable."

Dr. Joyce Brothers

-- told ya I am jiwang today....

A Jiwang Song

I bought the album "A Tribute to Koes Plus oleh Erwin Gutawa" some time ago. A review of it can be found here.

The song below is one of my fav tracks from the album. With vocals by the wonderful Ruth Sahanaya, it is a beautiful song.

Andaikan Kau Datang Ruth Sahanaya

Terlalu indah dilupakan
Terlalu sedih dikenangkan
Setelah aku jauh berjalan
Dan kau ku tinggalkan

Betapa hatiku bersedih
Mengenang kasih dan sayangmu
Setulus pesanmu kepadaku
Engkau kan menunggu

Andaikan kau datang kembali
Jawaban apa yang kan ku beri
Adakah cara yang kau temui
Untuk kita kembali lagi

Bersinarlah bulan purnama
Seindah serta tulus cintanya
Bersinarlah terus sampai nanti
Lagu ini ku akhiri


.. feeling a bit jiwang abt her today.. something that was not meant to be...

News that brought a smile :- This blogger is having a baby. I love her writings, so expect to see loads of mommy stuff in the coming future .. ;-)

Ode To My Family + Time .....

Found it :-) I found the mp3 to the song ... thank you to this blogger who passed me the file....

Please, please go to her site and check out the pics of her first born Hana. So cute .. so kawai neh ... fyi, she was one of the first blogs I went through and I still visit her site quite regularly .. went to her wedding end of 2003 :-) ...

Ode To My Family - The Cranberries -

Understand the things I say
Don't turn away from me
Cause I spent half my life out there
You wouldn't disagree
D'you see me, d'you see
Do you like me. Do you like me standing there
D'you notice, d'you know
Do you see me, do you see me
Does anyone care

Unhappiness, where's when I was young
And we didn't give a damn
'Cause we were raised
To see life as fun and take it if we can
My mother, my mother she hold me
Did she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father, he liked me
Oh he liked me, does anyone care

Understand what I've become
It wasn't my design
And people everywhere think
Something better than I am
But I miss you. I miss
'Cause you liked it. I liked it
When I was out there
D'you know this, d'you know
You did not find me, you did not find
Does anyone care

Unhappiness was when I was young
And we didn't give a damn
'Cause we were raised
To see life as fun and take it if we can
My mother, my mother she hold me
Did she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father, he liked me
Oh me liked me, does anyone care

Does anyone care

...*humming to the tune* ...esp the intro ...

Additional : She also gave me Aqua's Turn Back Time .. terima kasih banyak2 .. :-) *grinning ear to ear*

Turn Back Time Aqua

Give me time to reason,
give me time to think it through
Passing through the season,
where I cheated you

I will always have a cross to wear,
but the bolt reminds me I was there

So give me strength,
to face this test tonight

If only I could turn back time
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time
I would stay for the night. For the night...

Claim your right to science
Claim your right to see the truth
Though my pangs of conscience,
Will drill a hole in you

I seen it coming like a thief in the night,
I seen it coming from the flash of your light

So give me strength,
to face this test tonight

If only I could turn back time
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time..
I would stay for the night

The bolt reminds me I was there
the bolt reminds me I was there

If only I could turn back time
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time
I would stay for the night

;-)

Everybody Else Is Doing It, So Why Dont We ..

1) Last Friday, I went to get my PC in Penang, with my parents in tow. It turned out well, the whole experience was okay. And, the bonus point was that there is an opportunity for .. a small window... :-) .. anyway, it was a good drive up n down .. KL to Penang...

2) My best friend is getting married soon, and yours truly is his pengapit on his wedding day, his side. hehe ... wonder if I can score with the pengapit perempuan :-)I am happy for the dude .. the only down side is I will be one of the few remaining bachelors among my male friends .. no worry amigos, resistance is still here :-) .. truthfully, hmm ... loads I can say .. hehe :-) .. right now, I am making Me the most important person in these matters ;-) .. having another person would complicate matters perhaps .. it sounds selfish kan .. but this is what I realized recently. I have to take care of myself first. Cewah ... ;-p ...

2.1 ) Related to no 2 ..all I can say is .. cewah ..ideally nak mcm tu la ..hehehe... but, all of us are human kan .. but, I am very very aware now ..very very aware ...

2.2 ) *blushes* hehehe ....

WHY CAN'T I WAKE UP WITH YOU Take That

Can't decide if I should read or think
I'll keep an open mind, 'til the day sets in
Hear you thinking. Hope you hear me thinking too.

Why can't I wake up with you
So you're there when I open my eyes
Baby why can't I wake up with you. You're my life.

Feel alive, so I'll just begin
To rest my mind, before you ring me
Hear you call me, I'm so willing to call back
Hear you thinking. Hope you hear me thinking too.


Why can't I wake up with you
So you're there when I open my eyes
Baby why can't I wake up with you. You're my life.

So good to be near you.
So dark when you walk from my side
Baby why can't I wake up with you.


You're my life, you're my life ...

Later ...

Ps/ everything is getting clearer a bit ..
pps - Post title is from the title of the Cranberries debut album

We Belong + Linger

2 songs that I am grooving into ;-)

1) I caught this song a bit late .. but damn, it's got me hooked .. :-) .. MC's back in form ? ( ..maybe.. )

We Belong Together - Mariah Carey -

I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should've let you go
I did nothing
I was stupid
I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself

Cuz' I didn't know you
Cuz' I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt..
The feeling that I'm feeling now
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or even touch or even kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
What I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side

We belong together
When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please come back
We belong together

Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
Baby nobody better
We belong together

I can't sleep at night

2) This song is a song that reminds me masa mula2 sampai US dulu.. also got me hooked on the Cranberries ;-) .. baru je found the mp3 .. yahoo ! .. now, to find Ode To My Family pulak .. another Cranberries fav ...

Linger - Cranberries -

If you, if you could return, don't let it burn, don't let it fade.

I'm sure I'm not being rude, but it's just your attitude,
It's tearing me apart, It's ruining everything.

I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you.
So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you?

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

Oh, I thought the world of you.
I thought nothing could go wrong,
But I was wrong. I was wrong.
If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie,
Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used,
But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you.

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

And I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?


Later peeps.

Musings

-- the past few days have been interesting

1) Kelas dah mula balik .. there goes my Saturdays ...

2) I am following the Tour De France. Why ? It is Lance Armstrong last race as a pro cyclist, and he is leading right now. The guy is remarkable. He has won SIX straight Tours and is on pace to win his seventh. Consecutive, back-to-back. Woo.. and this chap is a cancer survivor. Suffice to say that this guy is an inspiration. And yes, L&Gs, I was a cycling nut once .. still is ... to a lesser extent..hehehe ....

3) British Open .. Tiger won it .. his 10th major .. and he is still 29 ! .. he has accomplished so much at his age, but true to his personality, I don't he'll stop there.

With no 2 & no 3, it is hard not to admire them for what they have accomplished. It looks so easy, yet it is not. A lot was done - planning, execution, sacrifice, etc. I know about all this , yet ... here I am now. What I realized during the past few weeks is that I am more of a dreamer, than a doer. I dream, I plan .. yet they all remain there .. in dreams ... More Do, Less Dream Azmir !!

Banyaknya berfikir nowadays ;-p

New Thoughts

The past few days which I have not posted.. I thought of new things .. new findings .. new realizations ... when one faces repeated failures, if one does not learn from it, and apply its lessons, then one is sure gonna kena lagi.

What I listened in the past few days was my collection of Padi, Def Leppard, LP, Limp Bizkit and Oasis, and they helped to raise my spirits. Too many songs by the groups I can list below ... but ... some of the phrases from the songs I listened ..

" .. where does love go when it dies .. ", Def Leppard
" .. get off the floor and believe in life .. " Oasis
" .. it's my way .. my way or the highway .. " Limp Bizkit
" .. the very worst part of me is you .. ", LP
" .. sesuatu yg indah untuk dirimu .. ", Padi

you know what peeps, in the end, it's all about you ... not others .. you have to take care of you.. no one else will do it for you ...

Later

Estranged

Yo ..

The past 24 hours have been very ..ermm.. mind numbing in some ways... the song played in my head a lot for the past 24 hours ... it is sickening when you keep hitting the wall time and time again .. when will I ever learn ?


Estranged Guns N Roses

When you're talkin to yourself
And nobody's home
You can fool yourself
You came in this world alone
(Alone)

So nobody ever told you baby
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to you baby
Guess we'll have to wait and see
ONE, TWO

Old at heart but I'm only 28
And I'm much too young
To let love break my heart
Young at heart but it's getting much too late
To find ourselves so far apart

I don't know how you're s'posed
To find me lately
An what more could tou ask from me
How could you say that I never needed you
When you took everything
Said you took everything from me

Young at heart an it gets so hard to wait
When no one I know can seem to help me now
Old at heart but I musn't hesitate
If I'm to find my own way out

Still talkin' to myself
and nobody's home
(Alone)

So nobody ever told us baby
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to us baby
Guess we'll have to wait and see

When I find out all the reasons
Maybe I'll find another way
Find another day
With all the changing seasons of my life
Maybe I'll get it right next time
An now that you've been broken down
Got your head out of the clouds
You're back down on the ground
And you don't talk so loud
An you don't walk so proud
Any more, and what for

Well I jumped into the river
Too many times to make it home
I'm out here on my own, an drifting all alone
If it doesn't show give it time
To read between the lines
'Cause I see the storm getting closer
And the waves they get so high
Seems everything We've ever known's here
Why must it drift away and die

I'll never find anyone to replace you
Guess I'll have to make it thru, this time- Oh this time
Without you

I knew the storm was getting closer
And all my friends said I was high
But everything we've ever known's here
I never wanted it to die



to my friend, Megat .. congrats on Putri .. and tq for the unique experience ;-p ..

R.I.P

My TokChik in Kulim passed away yesterday. So, I went down with my family for his burial. He passed away due to cancer, that came from Hepatitis B, at least that was what I was told. I visited him a few days, and he was not looking good. At least, in his case, his passing was expected. I am gonna miss the guy a bit.. he had some pretty good one-liners.
When someone close / dear to us passes away, it helps to remember the good times / memories that we had with them. Also, to forgive them , let them go and hope that they are in a better place where they are right now.

Al-Fatihah, Tok Chik.

Goodbye Nuri

Today began as a regular day .. woke up late at 11.00 am ... then proceeded to do housework ... a friend called around noon .. saying Nuri passed away. Ran to IJN KL,and yes, there she was lying there. I managed to console her husband and talked to him a bit. Said hi to a few ex-colleagues.. dpt sembahyang her mayat .. and helped to put her jenazah into the van. After that, went to the old office, just to look at her spot and remember the good times we had.

Who was she ?

She was a Muar girl who joined the same date I did. 18/3/2002. She was a programmer / analyst. I became quite fond of her.. sebab of who she was. We talked a lot when I was in Dataran. Talking with her was cool .. she always had time to talk stuff, esp my girl problems. She got married last year and was expecting. The baby died with her.

Truth to be told .. she had a medical condition that needed medication. When she got married, she knew that the condition made it risky for her to have children. When she was pregnant, I asked her about this and she told me she knew. But, she was willing to risk it. She was determined.

Why I will miss her ? She never judged me and accepted me for what I am. A cheerful lady.... One of the few ladies that I was genuinely fond of. When we talked, it was always fun and cool , even though the subject can be serious at times. The next few days, I guess, the memories video, will be playing in my head. And I will cherish it this time.

At this moment, the phrase " Dont Know What You Got Till It's Gone ", means a lot.

I will miss you, Nuri. Al-Fatihah. Semoga Allah mencucuri roh mu, Nuriyati Rohani.

One Sweet Day B2M with Mariac Carey

B II M:
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away
Ayyy

Mariah:
Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive
Alive

all:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
Mariah: Together
One sweet day
Mariah: Eventually I'll see you in heaven…

B II M:
Darling, I never showed you (I never showed you)
Assumed you'd always be there (I thought you'd always be there)
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
(Mariah: But I always cared)
And I miss the love we shared

all:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
(Mariah: Together)
One sweet day
Mariah: Eventually I'll see you in heaven

B II M:
Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Mariah:
Yeah
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray

all:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
(Mariah: Together)
One sweet day

all:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
(Mariah: Together)
One sweet day

Mariah: Sorry I never told you (oooh)
all: All I wanted to say


... rasa kehilangan gue ...

Back With Reviews

Allo there .. I have been gone for the past 2 plus weeks ;-) ...missed me ? nah, didnt think so .. hehehe

A recap
1st week - Kota Bharu & Kemaman
2nd week - Kuala Terengganu

I had fun .. did some reading .. wrote stuff on my journal.. during these two weeks, I saw a lot of stuff, thought a lot, contemplated a lot ... hmmm...

you know what's missing ? ... do a lot ... I think a lot but don't actually do it ... one of the things learnt ... it's been week three and I am figuring things out ...

Later

Missing

.. I might be missing .. no worries if I am not around okay .. going to lose some illusions ... take care amigos :-)