A Report On Ome ++

1) I found this result from a test I took a long time ago ...

Ome
A very special Gemini

Ome is as bright as a button and as sharp as a blade. If there's ever anything you need to know, Ome is the person to ask. Chances are he will know the answer already. If not he will go and ask someone else and he will keep asking until he gets an answer. Ome simply cannot stand the idea of a question that has no answer, so if he cannot get a satisfactory explanation he will invent one. A good one. He is after all as bright as a button. There are though, some questions in life which are best left unanswered. The rest of us know to leave them alone. Ome cannot resist the urge to explore them. He is drawn to such questions, like, well, like a button to a button hole! Ome answers these questions cleverly because, after all as sharp as a blade, but then you know what they say about people who are too sharp...
Ome can be very cutting sometimes. He doesn't mean to be. He just can't help it. Ome can't stop himself from daring to say what other people hardly dare to think. This is why Ome often gets himself into trouble but it is also why Ome is such an interesting person to know. Life with Ome is never dull. There's always an adventure, a challenge or a deal to be done. Ome loves to do deals. The word 'no' is not in his vocabulary. When he hears it Ome is immediately tempted to reply "Is that 'no' as in 'maybe', 'no' as in 'I need to be persuaded,' or 'no as in 'not quite yet?' Luckily Ome gets clean away with this kind of attitude. Ome , at least when it comes to the unanswerable question, is living proof of the old adage "Who dares...wins".

I re-read this statement, and I remembered a blogger asking me the question, " why do u need to know everything ? " .. I answered, " donno, just wanna know ... " .. " No need la Ome .. no need la to know everything .. "

Now, to be honest .. I see her point .. some of my insecurities are due to my need to know everything ... so I tell myself gently, when the situation arises, I just tell myself to let go of the need..

2) Fact or fiction : Grown man, when sick, become babies :-)

I am not well since yesterday afternoon,...*sigh* rasa pulak perlu si dia ..

Later

Tambahan 3 X

1) Kisah Klasik Gue

What Classic Movie Are You?
personality tests by similarminds.com

2) Gue tunggu cerita ini ...

;-) ...*still in jiwang mood*

Tambahan ++

So extra stuff ... productive pulak gue hari ni ya ;-p

A quote I found in this blog.

"Love comes when manipulation stops; when you think more about the other person than about his or her reactions to you. When you dare to reveal yourself fully. When you dare to be vulnerable."

Dr. Joyce Brothers

-- told ya I am jiwang today....

A Jiwang Song

I bought the album "A Tribute to Koes Plus oleh Erwin Gutawa" some time ago. A review of it can be found here.

The song below is one of my fav tracks from the album. With vocals by the wonderful Ruth Sahanaya, it is a beautiful song.

Andaikan Kau Datang Ruth Sahanaya

Terlalu indah dilupakan
Terlalu sedih dikenangkan
Setelah aku jauh berjalan
Dan kau ku tinggalkan

Betapa hatiku bersedih
Mengenang kasih dan sayangmu
Setulus pesanmu kepadaku
Engkau kan menunggu

Andaikan kau datang kembali
Jawaban apa yang kan ku beri
Adakah cara yang kau temui
Untuk kita kembali lagi

Bersinarlah bulan purnama
Seindah serta tulus cintanya
Bersinarlah terus sampai nanti
Lagu ini ku akhiri


.. feeling a bit jiwang abt her today.. something that was not meant to be...

News that brought a smile :- This blogger is having a baby. I love her writings, so expect to see loads of mommy stuff in the coming future .. ;-)

Ode To My Family + Time .....

Found it :-) I found the mp3 to the song ... thank you to this blogger who passed me the file....

Please, please go to her site and check out the pics of her first born Hana. So cute .. so kawai neh ... fyi, she was one of the first blogs I went through and I still visit her site quite regularly .. went to her wedding end of 2003 :-) ...

Ode To My Family - The Cranberries -

Understand the things I say
Don't turn away from me
Cause I spent half my life out there
You wouldn't disagree
D'you see me, d'you see
Do you like me. Do you like me standing there
D'you notice, d'you know
Do you see me, do you see me
Does anyone care

Unhappiness, where's when I was young
And we didn't give a damn
'Cause we were raised
To see life as fun and take it if we can
My mother, my mother she hold me
Did she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father, he liked me
Oh he liked me, does anyone care

Understand what I've become
It wasn't my design
And people everywhere think
Something better than I am
But I miss you. I miss
'Cause you liked it. I liked it
When I was out there
D'you know this, d'you know
You did not find me, you did not find
Does anyone care

Unhappiness was when I was young
And we didn't give a damn
'Cause we were raised
To see life as fun and take it if we can
My mother, my mother she hold me
Did she hold me, when I was out there
My father, my father, he liked me
Oh me liked me, does anyone care

Does anyone care

...*humming to the tune* ...esp the intro ...

Additional : She also gave me Aqua's Turn Back Time .. terima kasih banyak2 .. :-) *grinning ear to ear*

Turn Back Time Aqua

Give me time to reason,
give me time to think it through
Passing through the season,
where I cheated you

I will always have a cross to wear,
but the bolt reminds me I was there

So give me strength,
to face this test tonight

If only I could turn back time
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time
I would stay for the night. For the night...

Claim your right to science
Claim your right to see the truth
Though my pangs of conscience,
Will drill a hole in you

I seen it coming like a thief in the night,
I seen it coming from the flash of your light

So give me strength,
to face this test tonight

If only I could turn back time
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time..
I would stay for the night

The bolt reminds me I was there
the bolt reminds me I was there

If only I could turn back time
If only I had said what I still hide
If only I could turn back time
I would stay for the night

;-)

Everybody Else Is Doing It, So Why Dont We ..

1) Last Friday, I went to get my PC in Penang, with my parents in tow. It turned out well, the whole experience was okay. And, the bonus point was that there is an opportunity for .. a small window... :-) .. anyway, it was a good drive up n down .. KL to Penang...

2) My best friend is getting married soon, and yours truly is his pengapit on his wedding day, his side. hehe ... wonder if I can score with the pengapit perempuan :-)I am happy for the dude .. the only down side is I will be one of the few remaining bachelors among my male friends .. no worry amigos, resistance is still here :-) .. truthfully, hmm ... loads I can say .. hehe :-) .. right now, I am making Me the most important person in these matters ;-) .. having another person would complicate matters perhaps .. it sounds selfish kan .. but this is what I realized recently. I have to take care of myself first. Cewah ... ;-p ...

2.1 ) Related to no 2 ..all I can say is .. cewah ..ideally nak mcm tu la ..hehehe... but, all of us are human kan .. but, I am very very aware now ..very very aware ...

2.2 ) *blushes* hehehe ....

WHY CAN'T I WAKE UP WITH YOU Take That

Can't decide if I should read or think
I'll keep an open mind, 'til the day sets in
Hear you thinking. Hope you hear me thinking too.

Why can't I wake up with you
So you're there when I open my eyes
Baby why can't I wake up with you. You're my life.

Feel alive, so I'll just begin
To rest my mind, before you ring me
Hear you call me, I'm so willing to call back
Hear you thinking. Hope you hear me thinking too.


Why can't I wake up with you
So you're there when I open my eyes
Baby why can't I wake up with you. You're my life.

So good to be near you.
So dark when you walk from my side
Baby why can't I wake up with you.


You're my life, you're my life ...

Later ...

Ps/ everything is getting clearer a bit ..
pps - Post title is from the title of the Cranberries debut album

We Belong + Linger

2 songs that I am grooving into ;-)

1) I caught this song a bit late .. but damn, it's got me hooked .. :-) .. MC's back in form ? ( ..maybe.. )

We Belong Together - Mariah Carey -

I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should've let you go
I did nothing
I was stupid
I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself

Cuz' I didn't know you
Cuz' I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt..
The feeling that I'm feeling now
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or even touch or even kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
What I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side

We belong together
When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please come back
We belong together

Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
Baby nobody better
We belong together

I can't sleep at night

2) This song is a song that reminds me masa mula2 sampai US dulu.. also got me hooked on the Cranberries ;-) .. baru je found the mp3 .. yahoo ! .. now, to find Ode To My Family pulak .. another Cranberries fav ...

Linger - Cranberries -

If you, if you could return, don't let it burn, don't let it fade.

I'm sure I'm not being rude, but it's just your attitude,
It's tearing me apart, It's ruining everything.

I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you.
So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you?

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

Oh, I thought the world of you.
I thought nothing could go wrong,
But I was wrong. I was wrong.
If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie,
Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used,
But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you.

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

And I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?


Later peeps.

Musings

-- the past few days have been interesting

1) Kelas dah mula balik .. there goes my Saturdays ...

2) I am following the Tour De France. Why ? It is Lance Armstrong last race as a pro cyclist, and he is leading right now. The guy is remarkable. He has won SIX straight Tours and is on pace to win his seventh. Consecutive, back-to-back. Woo.. and this chap is a cancer survivor. Suffice to say that this guy is an inspiration. And yes, L&Gs, I was a cycling nut once .. still is ... to a lesser extent..hehehe ....

3) British Open .. Tiger won it .. his 10th major .. and he is still 29 ! .. he has accomplished so much at his age, but true to his personality, I don't he'll stop there.

With no 2 & no 3, it is hard not to admire them for what they have accomplished. It looks so easy, yet it is not. A lot was done - planning, execution, sacrifice, etc. I know about all this , yet ... here I am now. What I realized during the past few weeks is that I am more of a dreamer, than a doer. I dream, I plan .. yet they all remain there .. in dreams ... More Do, Less Dream Azmir !!

Banyaknya berfikir nowadays ;-p

New Thoughts

The past few days which I have not posted.. I thought of new things .. new findings .. new realizations ... when one faces repeated failures, if one does not learn from it, and apply its lessons, then one is sure gonna kena lagi.

What I listened in the past few days was my collection of Padi, Def Leppard, LP, Limp Bizkit and Oasis, and they helped to raise my spirits. Too many songs by the groups I can list below ... but ... some of the phrases from the songs I listened ..

" .. where does love go when it dies .. ", Def Leppard
" .. get off the floor and believe in life .. " Oasis
" .. it's my way .. my way or the highway .. " Limp Bizkit
" .. the very worst part of me is you .. ", LP
" .. sesuatu yg indah untuk dirimu .. ", Padi

you know what peeps, in the end, it's all about you ... not others .. you have to take care of you.. no one else will do it for you ...

Later

Estranged

Yo ..

The past 24 hours have been very ..ermm.. mind numbing in some ways... the song played in my head a lot for the past 24 hours ... it is sickening when you keep hitting the wall time and time again .. when will I ever learn ?


Estranged Guns N Roses

When you're talkin to yourself
And nobody's home
You can fool yourself
You came in this world alone
(Alone)

So nobody ever told you baby
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to you baby
Guess we'll have to wait and see
ONE, TWO

Old at heart but I'm only 28
And I'm much too young
To let love break my heart
Young at heart but it's getting much too late
To find ourselves so far apart

I don't know how you're s'posed
To find me lately
An what more could tou ask from me
How could you say that I never needed you
When you took everything
Said you took everything from me

Young at heart an it gets so hard to wait
When no one I know can seem to help me now
Old at heart but I musn't hesitate
If I'm to find my own way out

Still talkin' to myself
and nobody's home
(Alone)

So nobody ever told us baby
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to us baby
Guess we'll have to wait and see

When I find out all the reasons
Maybe I'll find another way
Find another day
With all the changing seasons of my life
Maybe I'll get it right next time
An now that you've been broken down
Got your head out of the clouds
You're back down on the ground
And you don't talk so loud
An you don't walk so proud
Any more, and what for

Well I jumped into the river
Too many times to make it home
I'm out here on my own, an drifting all alone
If it doesn't show give it time
To read between the lines
'Cause I see the storm getting closer
And the waves they get so high
Seems everything We've ever known's here
Why must it drift away and die

I'll never find anyone to replace you
Guess I'll have to make it thru, this time- Oh this time
Without you

I knew the storm was getting closer
And all my friends said I was high
But everything we've ever known's here
I never wanted it to die



to my friend, Megat .. congrats on Putri .. and tq for the unique experience ;-p ..

R.I.P

My TokChik in Kulim passed away yesterday. So, I went down with my family for his burial. He passed away due to cancer, that came from Hepatitis B, at least that was what I was told. I visited him a few days, and he was not looking good. At least, in his case, his passing was expected. I am gonna miss the guy a bit.. he had some pretty good one-liners.
When someone close / dear to us passes away, it helps to remember the good times / memories that we had with them. Also, to forgive them , let them go and hope that they are in a better place where they are right now.

Al-Fatihah, Tok Chik.

Goodbye Nuri

Today began as a regular day .. woke up late at 11.00 am ... then proceeded to do housework ... a friend called around noon .. saying Nuri passed away. Ran to IJN KL,and yes, there she was lying there. I managed to console her husband and talked to him a bit. Said hi to a few ex-colleagues.. dpt sembahyang her mayat .. and helped to put her jenazah into the van. After that, went to the old office, just to look at her spot and remember the good times we had.

Who was she ?

She was a Muar girl who joined the same date I did. 18/3/2002. She was a programmer / analyst. I became quite fond of her.. sebab of who she was. We talked a lot when I was in Dataran. Talking with her was cool .. she always had time to talk stuff, esp my girl problems. She got married last year and was expecting. The baby died with her.

Truth to be told .. she had a medical condition that needed medication. When she got married, she knew that the condition made it risky for her to have children. When she was pregnant, I asked her about this and she told me she knew. But, she was willing to risk it. She was determined.

Why I will miss her ? She never judged me and accepted me for what I am. A cheerful lady.... One of the few ladies that I was genuinely fond of. When we talked, it was always fun and cool , even though the subject can be serious at times. The next few days, I guess, the memories video, will be playing in my head. And I will cherish it this time.

At this moment, the phrase " Dont Know What You Got Till It's Gone ", means a lot.

I will miss you, Nuri. Al-Fatihah. Semoga Allah mencucuri roh mu, Nuriyati Rohani.

One Sweet Day B2M with Mariac Carey

B II M:
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away
Ayyy

Mariah:
Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive
Alive

all:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
Mariah: Together
One sweet day
Mariah: Eventually I'll see you in heaven…

B II M:
Darling, I never showed you (I never showed you)
Assumed you'd always be there (I thought you'd always be there)
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
(Mariah: But I always cared)
And I miss the love we shared

all:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
(Mariah: Together)
One sweet day
Mariah: Eventually I'll see you in heaven

B II M:
Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Mariah:
Yeah
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray

all:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
(Mariah: Together)
One sweet day

all:
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
(Mariah: Together)
One sweet day

Mariah: Sorry I never told you (oooh)
all: All I wanted to say


... rasa kehilangan gue ...

Back With Reviews

Allo there .. I have been gone for the past 2 plus weeks ;-) ...missed me ? nah, didnt think so .. hehehe

A recap
1st week - Kota Bharu & Kemaman
2nd week - Kuala Terengganu

I had fun .. did some reading .. wrote stuff on my journal.. during these two weeks, I saw a lot of stuff, thought a lot, contemplated a lot ... hmmm...

you know what's missing ? ... do a lot ... I think a lot but don't actually do it ... one of the things learnt ... it's been week three and I am figuring things out ...

Later

Missing

.. I might be missing .. no worries if I am not around okay .. going to lose some illusions ... take care amigos :-)

Free

1) Last Day N Future
... today was my last working day .. so from now on, I am unemployed .. wonder if I should start a tabung derma or something like that .. what I am gonna do for the next 1, 2 months while looking for another job, is to do some reflecting, perhaps... think about various stuff ..now that I actually have some free time ;-)
I am gonna do an east coast escapade ... get some real nasi kerabu ;-) n check out the east coast flava... cewah ;-)

2) Be Still My Heart !

Is it true ? .. it is not about changing, but accepting the person for what she is .. and telling her that you accept her the way she is ... dia caya ke tidak, when u say like this ..? ;-) hmmm....

This song was popular when I arrived in the States ... and it is kind of related a bit to what is going on right now .. ;-p ...

Baby I'm Yours
by Shai


Understand girl that my heart is in your hands.
And I'm cautious. Of falling in love again.
So please don't hurt me, I'm scared.
Don't desert me, I'm afraid.
Of being a fool. Again.

So Baby I'm yours, if you want me. And if you want my sweet love.
And Baby I'm yours, if you need me. La la la.
Loving you forever, if you want me. Give me your love.
Baby I'm yours, if you need me. Ohh...

Realize girl that my faith is kind of torn.
Watch your step girl, Because my heart is weak and worn.
So won't you please be careful, I'm fragile.
I can't imagine the damage,
I have to handle. If you hurt me one more time,
Please be mine.

So Baby I'm yours, if you want me. And if you want my sweet love.
And Baby I'm yours, if you need me. La la la.
Loving you forever, if you want me. Give me your love.
Baby I'm yours, if you need me. Ohh...

Baby, I've been through a whole lot of relationships,
Whole lot of broken promises,
but now I'm ready for a real one sweet heart.
Yes I am.
You don't have to worry baby.
Don't you every go away.
Baby I'm, Baby Baby I'm yours.
Baby I'm, Baby Baby I'm yours.
Baby I'm, Baby Baby I'm yours.
Baby I'm, Baby Baby I'm yours.
Baby I'm, Baby Baby I'm yours.
So Baby I'm yours, if you want me. And if you want my sweet love.
And Baby I'm yours, if you need me. La la la.
Loving you forever, if you want me. Give me your love.
Baby I'm yours, if you need me. Ohh...

later ....

Being Brave

I stepped out of my comfort zone yesterday, and it continued to today. Despite my fears, still haunted by the demons of my past, I was like giving a shot and see how it goes. The result ? I don't know .. maybe I'll never know .. or maybe I'll know soon .. I don't know .. but, I am giving a shot and hope my heart can take it ...

dedicated to her :-)

MAROON 5 "She Will Be Loved"

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

[in the background]
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye

Yeah
[softly]
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Try so hard to say goodbye

.. later ...

Wishing For ?

1) Mini Instropective

..the long weekend that I had .. gave me a chance to think about some stuff of my life currently...personal and work .. at times, I feel disenchanted with what is going on so far ... looking at other people's lives, ,I feel like they are having a better time than mine.... but, fikir2, what I have is better than some folks out there .. then came the lesson ... Be Happy, Syukur With What You Have .. Never Lose Desire For The Better ..

2) A Lot Like Love & The Smiths

Saw two movies these past few days ... both are recommended :-)

A Lot Like Love - I would say that the key to this movie's success is the chemistry betweem two leads, Oliver n Emily ... it's like a Gen X When Harry Met Sally wannabe ... I enjoyed it, there were some really good moments ... two of them .. one : when Oliver's bro told him to get up and face life, in sign language, at the beach .. Olly's just lost his business, and moved in back with his parents.. two : Olly sang Bn Jovi's I'll Be There For You for Emily at Emily's doorstep .. I know the movie is kinda corny at times ...hehe ..but, I liked it and may watch it again in the theatres..

Mr N Mrs Smith - it's a cool movie I admit .. again the chemistry between the leads made this movie pretty watchable .. I liked that both leads seemed to be having fun and not take themselves too seriously ;-) .. it was good popcorn movie stuff .. plus the song Making Love Out Of Nothing At All, will never be the same for me .. ;-)

3) A Marriage

A fellow blogger's bro got married and he is working same place as I am right now ( ( I am leaving soon though ... ). Met the guy and he is a cool chap. I have read her postings for the past 2 years plus and to sum her up .. she is cool, wacky, fun, great wife n mom ... her link is here. There is a link to the pics of her bro's wedding.


4) Last Week

It is my last week where I am working ... hmm, rasa tak sabar2 nak ciao pulak ..n go on my vacation / break / soul searching sessions .. ;-P

Later....

For My Dad n Mom

.. thought of both songs for my parents ... only now, I begin to understand them ...

MAMA - Spice Girls -

She used to be my only enemy and never let me free,
Catching me in places that I know I shouldn't be,
Ever other day I crossed the line, I didn't mean to be so bad,
I never thought you would become the friend I never had,
Back then I didn't know why, why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes, all that you did was love,
Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
My friend
I didn't want to hear it then but I'm not ashamed to say it now,

Every little thing you said and did was right for me,
I had alot of time to think about, about the way I used to be,
Never had a sense of my responsibilty
Back then I didn't know why, why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes, all that you did was love,
Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
My friend
But now I'm sure I know why, why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes, all I can give you is love,
Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
My friend
Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
My friend


The Living Years - Mike N The Mechanics -

Every generation
Blames the one before
And all of their frustrations
Come beating on your door

I know that I'm a prisoner
To all my Father held so dear
I know that I'm a hostage
To all his hopes and fears
I just wish I could have told him in the living years

Crumpled bits of paper
Filled with imperfect thought
Stilted conversations
I'm afraid that's all we've got

You say you just don't see it
He says it's perfect sense
You just can't get agreement
In this present tense
We all talk a different language
Talking in defence

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It's too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye

So we open up a quarrel
Between the present and the past
We only sacrifice the future
It's the bitterness that lasts

So Don't yield to the fortunes
You sometimes see as fate
It may have a new perspective
On a different day
And if you don't give up, and don't give in
You may just be O.K.

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It's too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye

I wasn't there that morning
When my Father passed away
I didn't get to tell him
All the things I had to say

I think I caught his spirit
Later that same year
I'm sure I heard his echo
In my baby's new born tears
I just wish I could have told him in the living years

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It's too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye

.. have a good weekend ;-) .. it is my last working weekend .. ;-)

Ipoh Mali

1) Life Lessons ... >>>

Last Monday, I did a crazy thing. I decided to join a friend and his 'friend' in Ipoh for dinner. The plan was simple .. go down to Ipoh for dinner .. lepak with them for a couple of hours .. then balik to Penang. But u know what they say about good and noble intentions ...
After work, it was straight up ride there .. now, my transport was my beloved BFJ... those who know what it looks like.. enuff .. so in the middle of the night around 9 pm .. the bike broke down ! .. I was at the km 230 .. the hill before the Perak Simen.. my friend couldn't help me .. dumb ass ! .. a kind pakcik on a kapcai offered to tarik me .. but takde tali. So on a busy stretch of a highway .. 30+ km from Ipoh .. broke down bike .. pushing a bike uphill .. reaching on top of the hill... went down the drop ..no lights with only the signal lights ..it was dangerous I admit .. but, hey what to do ... ;-) .. after the cement plant, it went up again .. so had to push the bike up again.. but what happened made me feel glad to be alive and ashamed of myself of the same time.
A van stopped at the side near the hill. Two chaps asked what the trouble was .. I told them what happened and told them where I was going... so what did they do ? Took my bike in the back of my van .. took me in .. and drove me all the way to Ipoh .. dropped my bike at a motor shop near Ipoh Garden.. dropped me at the Ipoh Specialist for my friend to pick me up. And for saving me, both of them refused the cash I wanted to give them, even though I offered a few times. I remembered what of them said .. " takpe la bang .. tak payah la .. nanti mana tahu abang tolong kami pulak ... " To say that I am touched was an understatement ... it also made me thought of a few things .. which is still running in my mind ... most of the thread deals with who I am .. and what I want to be ...

2) My friend n ??

So my friend n his 'friend' .. we had dinner after I arrived .. I took the opportunity to observe the 'friend' the whole time I was there .. I spent the night in Ipoh .. the next day, took leave ... had the motor repaired .. observing the couple during the time I was there .. made me realize that I had no right to judge them .. I don't agree with they are doing ... but in the end, I leave it up to them to take responsibility for their actions ..

During my time in Ipoh, this tune was playing in my head .. pelik la .. a song for the couple perhaps ...

My Boo - Usher n Alicia Keys
[Usher intro:]

There's always that one person
That will always have your heart
You'll never see it coming
Cause you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me
It's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby ooh you'll always be my boo

[Alicia intro:]

I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
Its the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
Its the only way
We know how to rock

[Usher Verse:]

Do you remember girl
I was the one who gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl
I was the one who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and
People screaming your name
Girl I was there when you were my baby

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were young girl
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia:]
I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man in my life
You will always be my boo

[Alicia Verse:]

I remember boy
Cause after we kissed
I could only think about your lips
Yes I remember boy
The moment I knew
You were the one
I could spend my life with
Even before all the fame
And people screaming your name
I was there and you were my baby

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were young girl
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia:]
I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man in my life
You will always be my boo

[Usher:]
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

[Alicia:]
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were young girl
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia & Usher:]

I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
Its the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
Its the only way
We know how to rock

Later

PDA Post

.. a post from my PDA

27 May
.the decision to resign from my current work position is something that actually had roots beginning mid 2002.
At that time, I moved from another company in order to escape the company's environment. A few months after I joined, I knew I made a mistake as the job was not something I wanted to do. That started a chain reaction that resulted in me currently studying part-time. I had a rough idea what I wanted to do, but wasn't sure at that time.
I also looked at the financials, saw that I was a bit shaky, and made some decisions about it. Now, it is a bit better.
It took my current employer to make me realize that I did not want to do this kind of gig. The money is good, let me tell ya, but I was at risk of losing my sanity at times.
To the point that people saying that the world does not owe me a living, let me reiterate that I agree with that point, and I owe the world the right to do something that would best serve it, and this gig wasn't it.
So here it goes that I would have one to two months off, hopefully, and then get another gig that I am looking for. Exciting ? Scary ? yes.. I have learnt my lessons n it took a world class firm to show the error of my ways.
A few things from my current gig has helped.. identified a few weaknesses n helping me in working to rectify it. Listening n talking better ... always look at positive angle of bad stuff n apply it for future use, that's been one of my life credos.
I have realized another lesson, .. that I am a reactive person .. meaning that I tend to react to situations more than preparing for it. Will be more preppared for the future.
What a hmm post ..hehe ..

later