This Heart

HATI INI - Nabil -

Ku lihat kau berlegar-legar di kaki lima,
Inginku tegurmu tapi terasa curiga,
Mungkin ekspresimu nanti tak sepertiku harapkan,
Adakah kau merinduku sepertiku merindumu..

Tanpa aku sedari, cinta pun mula berputik,
Mulanya dari teguran "boleh kita berkenalan?"
Tanya "apa nama, buat apa, nak ke mana?"
Hati rasa berdebar...

Janganlah hancurkan hati ini..
Ku hanya mencuba meluahkan perasaan..
Usahlah ragui hati ini...
Kerna kau satu-satunya gadis yang ku cinta selamanya...

I got home dat day, feeling so tired and in pain,
I wana call u but u need your rest, u might feel the same..
Something's wrong with me, i can't seem to find myself...
(U know what?) I think I'm crazy over you...

I called my friend and asked her,
"What should i do, what should i say?"
Cos everytime i hear your voice, you'll throw me miles away..
My cellphone suddenly rings...your name is on the screen...

Janganlah hancurkan hati ini..
Ku hanya mencuba meluahkan perasaan..
Usahlah ragui hati ini...
Kerna kau satu-satunya gadis yang ku cinta selamanya...

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for her ... ;-)

Misc Stuff To Pass By Time

Courtesy of this post

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love. You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't? You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky. In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm. A break-up usually comes as a shock to you. You always think things are going well.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

Ome - err, yeah .. a bit spot on. Tq sayang for accepting me :-)

Your World View

You are a happy, well-balanced person who likes people and is liked by others. You question whether many conventional views on morality are valid under all circumstances. You are essentially a content person. Sometimes, you consider yourself a little superior. You are moral by your own standards. You believe that morality is what best suits the occasion.

What Is Your World View?

Ome - err really ah ? But, I tend to judge stuff based on moral perceptions..but in this world, morality is a double edged sword eh ?

You Have Low Self Esteem 60% of the Time

While you sometimes feel good about yourself, you tend to struggle a little with self esteem issues. It's not about changing who you are, it's about accepting your faults. You just need to be less critical and demanding of yourself!

How is Your Self Esteem?

Ome - NOT 60% but ... I am a bit too critical of meself at times ....

Updates

Dear blog.

It has been a long time since I posted. A good friend asked where I have been ... my simple excuse was I have been very2 preoccupied ,... tp, I have been going around the blogworld ... so I am not out of touch la sangat

1) Raya Trip

Raya was a trip to the Mrs kampung in kota bharu, kelantan. Folks, whatever you have heard abt the infamous Kelantan jam .. I can confirm that it is all true .. penat la ... i drove 9 hrs to KB, using the usual KL - Gua Musang - KB road ... balik, I went the roundabout way thru K. Tganu ..and it took 12 hours ! Luckily, it's a bi-yearly thing... :-) On the good stuff, loads of good Kelate food ( manis2 wehh ... ), met nice2 relatives... and received a few kain pelikat ( I am told it's a Kelate newly wed tradition ;-) ) ..cool !!

2) Final IS Paper

I have finished my final IS paper for my Masters finally !! It was overdue for about a year .. after the hee haw n whatevers, I managed to get it done. As usual, it was a last minute job, but I am not complaining, as it was my decisions that lead me to the situation. Bring on the convo next year :-)

3) Final Month

It is my final month at my current firm. I have to thank em for teaching me a lot, but I have to move on. And event that I have seen in the past weeks, confirmed my decision. The cool thing s that it is here, I have learned new work methods and now where my future is, albeit, a surety this time. Learnt a lot about myself, especially ... so I can't thank the firm enough...

4) Open Houses

What is Syawal without open houses ? This is a Malaysian tradition that should be cherished ... when it comes to food, Malaysia is king :-) .. I propose that the Tourism Malaysia 2007 says, Malaysia, Food Truly World !!! :-)

5) Congrats, to Acat n Cookie

The couple who inspired abt a year are getting hitched next year InsyaAllah :-) I am so happy for them. I met Cookie once and see her as a warm, jovial person, so Acat jaga dia baik2 okay :P ... hehe, she did ask abt the issue of going thru it again, after the previous hurt. I can talk long abt it .. but in the end, it can be summarized from these line in Good Will Hunting...

" You're not perfect sport, and let me save you the suspense, this girl you've met she's not perfect either. But the question is whether or not you're perfect for each other. That is what intimacy is all about. You can know everything in the world, but the only you know about this is by giving it a shot "

so, cookie .. give acat a shot, .. the man is definitely so in to you ( Mcm lagu SWV la pulok .. )

6) The Mongolian Murder

It can only happen here and still gets screwed up in its execution. To the UTK trainers, update your syllabus with loads of CSI, Alias and Gilmore Girls viewings please ..... (err, Gilmore Girls was to lighten themselves up ) ..

7) UMNO 2006

**deleted to excessive political subjective rant*** please refer to the daily news, if u love 'em, or Malaysiakini or Malaysia-Today, if u are on the other side.

8) Something is On The Way

And that's all I am saying .. for now ;-)

Salam Aidilfitri

To all my readers,

SALAM AIDILFITRI N HAPPY DEEPAVALI

a bit lambat ..maaf ye ...

Raya stories + jawapan Cookie, next post :D

Late Night Thoughts

A few things to say, as Ramadhan is nearly over and Syawal is closer ..

1) Marriage 101

After 3 months of marital life, I salute those who have been for married for years :-) it's true folks ... it is hard work.. byk sabar2 and give and take I tell ya .. but, it is the little things that make it worthwhile .. :-) a stroke of the face in the end of a tired day .. mcm kata Sean in Good Will Hunting ;-)

2) Audio motivation
Recently for the past few months, I have been burning some of the free motivation mp3s that I have in my pc and listening to them, while I am driving. Alone of course ;-) And I have come to a common conclusion that it works as you listen to the messages over and over again. It is the simple messages which ring true and when you listen to it repeatedly, it inspires you to action yourself.. it works folks, but in the end, the choice is up to you, to do it or not :-)

3) December Comes

I am joining another firm in December. A positive movement in my career, expanding what I am doing in my current firm. I am happy to leave, but I thank my current place for making me a better professional. But, in order to grow, I have to move on. As a professional, I will do my job until end of November. Also, I know what is the major concept of my career . it is CRM. The details are still hazy, but the foundation is there.

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I am happy right now.

Life Changes + Solid

1) Life Changes

In the past few months ever since I settled down, things have changed ..some things remained the same ... I have been reading Jack Canfield's The Success Principles .. still not finished yet though...but, the principles in the book are timeless and it works. And I am implementing it one by one in my life right now ... highly recommended :-) ...

Principle No 1 : Take 100 % Responsibility For Your Life

2) Solid

As an ode to this man and lady :-) .. the song below .. they were my inspiration when I was at a low point personally, abt a year ago .. and rasa2nya, ada berita baik kot in the future, kan guys ? ;-)


SOLID - Ashford n Simpson


And for love’s sake, each mistake, ah, you forgave
And soon both of us learned to trust
Not run away, it was no time to play
We build it up and build it up and build it up

And now it’s solid
Solid as a rock
That’s what this love is
That’s what we’ve got, oh, mmm…

Solid (Oh)
Solid as a rock
And nothing’s changed it (Ooh)
The thrill is still hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot

Oh…oh…oh…ah…

You didn’t turn away
When the sky went gray
Somehow we managed
We had to stick together (Ooh…ooh…ooh…ooh…)

You didn’t bat an eye
When I made you cry
We knew down the line
We would make it better (Ooh…ooh…ooh…ooh…)

And for love’s sake, each mistake, ah, you forgave
And soon both of us learned to trust
Not run away, it was no time to play
We build it up and build it up and build it up

Now it’s solid
Solid as a rock [Ooh]
That’s what this love is (Oh…oh…)
That’s what we’ve got [Oh…oh…] (Yes, it is)

Solid
Solid as a rock
And nothing’s changed it [Oh…]
The thrill is still hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot

Oh…oh…oh…ah…

Gone with the wind
Another friend
Got in between
Tried to separate us (Ooh…ooh…ooh…ooh…)

Oh, knock-knock on wood
You understood
Love was so new
We did what we had to (Ooh…ooh…ooh…ooh…)

And with that feeling we were willing to take a chance
So against all odds, we made a start
We got serious (Ooh), this wouldn’t turn to dust
We build it up and build it up and build it up

And now it’s solid (Ooh)
Solid as a rock
That’s what this love is (Oh)
That’s what we’ve got, oh (Oh, oh)

Solid (Yes, it is)
Solid as a rock (Ah…)
And nothing’s changed it (Ooh)
The thrill is still hot, hot, hot, hot, hot, hot , hot , hot

Solid (Oh)
Solid as a rock (You know it) [Well] (You know it, baby)
Solid
Solid as a rock (Lovin’ me, lovin’ me, oh)

Solid (Don’t leave me, baby)
Solid as a rock [Well, well, why, why] (Oh…)
Solid
Solid as a rock (Every day it gets sweeter, now) [Ooh]

Solid [You know I like it]
Solid as a rock (Good, good, well, it’s good, good, good)
Solid (Solid, solid, solid, solid, solid)
As a rock

Plug + Steve Jobs

I am plugging this guy's blog who is a friend of mine ...

Read the speech and watched the speech given by Steve Jobs here .. Stay Hungry and Stay Foolish :-) ... my mantra :-).. please do check it out.

Later

My Heart

Just found the song and video ..patutla lagu ni hit habis right now :D ... it is a sweet song ....




Still jiwang gue rupanya .. ;-)

Mantra Hari Ini

The Prayer - Andrea Bocelli with Celine Dion -

I pray you'll be our eyes, and watch us where we go.
And help us to be wise in times when we don't know.
Let this be our prayer, when we lose our way.
Lead us to a place, guide us with your grace
To a place where we'll be safe.

La luce che tu dai
Nel cuore restera
A ricordarci che
L'eterna stella sei.

I pray we'll find your light,
And hold it in our hearts
When stars go out each night,
Remind us where you are..

Nella mia preghiera
Quanta fede c'e.
Lead us to a place ?

Let this be our prayer
When shadows fill our day
Guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we'll be safe.

Sogniamo un mondo senza piu violenza,
Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza.
Ognuno dia una mano al suo vicino,
Simbolo di pace...di fraternita.

La forza che ci dai
E desiderio te
Ognuno trovi amor
Intorno e dentro se.
Let this be our prayer,
Just like every child.

We ask that life be kind
And watch us from above.
We hope each soul will find
Another soul to love.
Let this be our prayer,
Just like every child.

Needs to find a place, guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
E la fede che hai acceso in noi
Sento che ci salverai...


---- think positive !!

Puasa Post

Assalammu'alaikum wr. wb,
Ramadhan sudah diambang pintu,
Jika Allah berkehendak InsyaAllah kita akan menemui Ramadhan penuh barakah.
Semoga kata taqwa InsyaAllah akan menjadi milik kita yang
berharga sebagai modal untuk langkah kita selanjutnya
Sementara Salah paham, kesedihan, ego, sakit hati, adalah sebahagian dari proses kehidupan kita.

Tapi Allah membuatnya dengan sangat sempurna, tidak
ada yang sia - sia dari apa yang sudah Allah kemas
dengan baik dalam bingkai rumah kehidupan kita
Tidak ada yang lebih mulia pada hari dimana semua
malaikat memanjatkan doa, dimana tidak ada kegiatan
baik yang tidak dilipat gandakan amalannya oleh Allah.

"MAKA NIKMAT TUHANMU YANG MANAKAH YANG KAMU DUSTAKAN..."
teringat ayat ini terus berulang di Ar-Rahman...
teringat kelemahan diri akan segala khilaf dan salah...
semoga Ramadhan ini membawa kebaikan, dan kesejukan...
seperti layaknya embun di pagi hari
berkilau tertimpa cahaya mentari...
semoga di masa mendatang terus dianugerahi keheningan hati...
seperti layaknya telaga Kautsar..

Dengan segala kekurangan dan kerendahan hati serta keikhlasan atas
semua kekhilafan dan kelalaian yang pernah saya lakukan
baik secara langsung mahupun melalui dunia maya,
Jauh didalam hati yang senentiasa didalam genggaman Allah,
Saya mengucapkan :
" Marhabban Ya Ramadhan, Mohon Maaf Lahir dan Bathin. "
Semoga Allah mengampuni semua dosa-dosa kita dan memberikan Barkahnya di Bulan penuh Hikmah ini.
Wassamu'alaikum Wr. Wb,.


---- the above stuff is from an email a friend forwarded to me. Ramadhan is here and it's my first time dengan wifey. Wifey ? Aku dah kahwin eh ? heheh .. last year, never I imasgined this to happen ..

Last nite was our first terawih together at a local masjid. It was okay la .. , as advised by a few friends, in Ramadhan, as a hubby, byk sabar2 ye .... :-) .. dulu dok pahe ..sekrg pahe2 sgt. Keh keh ...

To my Muslim friends, a good Ramadhan to you.:D

Life is Interesting

Things are getting pretty interesting .. living in a marriage is really something, once u are actually in it. I understand the phrase " sedangkan lidah pun tergigit, ini kan hati manusia .. ", or something like that .. ;-)

Not a winning week for my sports teams. Pool , Skins , Raiders lost .. FSU, Notre Dame and Barca won though. I am a sports fan, yes, but, only nowadays, the lessons of the game I am noting it down and following ..

Among them

1. Planning is VERY Important
2. Details .. details .. details
3. Do your best each time
4. If it does not go your way, learn and let it go ...

Ome
- this heart beats Red ;-)

Happiness N Randomness

Lama gue tak update as I have been busy with stuff ..

click this link. Happiness is where it really is .. in yourself. Need to remind self every day ;-)

Random thoughts

- Tun M, what goes around comes around ...

- NLP is very interesting :-)

Pics Link + Blink

Hi peeps.. you can check out more wedding pics at the link below, under ' Azmir & Azlinda '

Pics

The previous post comment was really stinging, but true. The person was not the only one who discovered my marriage that way. There were others with the same comments, one way or the other.

In going through the list of invitees, I made the choices based on several factors. Suffice to say, some of the factors were plain inaccurate.

I sincerely apologize to them. I made a judgment based on the facts I knew then and was proven wrong.

It is pretty interesting for the past month, since dah sebulan, on marriage. The fun, up n downs, quirks ... I am adjusting as best as I can ... Most of the nasihat which I have received are true to a variety of degree.

Later.

Ps/ am reading this book. Highly recommended :-)

Ngomel Wedding

Pic : Our family picture ( My Side )

No wedding is perfect. I guess there are a few things which bugged me about the wedding that was on my side.
Main grouse : The non attendance by people who received invitation and confirmed their attendance. And, in the aftermath, no reasons / explanations why ...

I stewed abt it for a while .. and then decided to just let go .. Luckily, my dearest is a patient person who kindly listens while I ramble ... letting go of bad stuff, is something which I have been practising for the past few years with a lot hurt that I have been through ..

As my dear friend Inn would understand, letting go is one of the easiest things to say, but hardest to do.

My thanks to those who came, and those who didn't come, but informed me.

" The future is NOW ! The past is past .... "

ps/ - You don't know what marriage until you are in one !

Nikah n Kahwin Pics + Ngomels

Yes peeps ... lama dah gue tidak update ;-) Limited access to the Net after office due to personal reasons ;-)

To see pics on the nikah and kahwin, go to this link and look under 'nikah dan kahwin' folder.

Not many pics yet , but will be updated / reorganized as more are added :-)

The nikah and kahwins had its high and lows ... err cite nanti in the next post :-)

One Pic

It's been one week ... looks nice eh .. InsyaAllah, more pics coming ... it's been a change, but very welcomed :-)

Kiss - Forever

I gotta tell you what I'm feelin' inside, I could lie to myself,
but it's true
There's no denying when I look in your eyes, girl I'm out of my
head over you
I lived so long believin' all love is blind
But everything about you is tellin' me this time

Chorus:
It's forever, this time I know and there's no doubt in my
mind
Forever, until my life is thru, girl I'll be lovin' you
forever

I hear the echo of a promise I made
When you're strong you can stand on your own
But those words grow distant as I look at your face
No, I don't wanna go it alone
I never thought I'd lay my heart on the line
But everything about you is tellin' me this time

chorus - yeah!

I see my future when I look in your eyes
It took your love to make my heart come alive
Cos I lived my life believin' all love is blind
But everything about you is tellin' me this time

chorus repeats 2x


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Insya Allah, it will be forever ....

Dah Tiba Masanya

In less than 12 hours *gulp* ..

yet, I am here in my opis menghabiskan kerja !!!

Eternal Love by P.j. & Duncan


Back in the days when we first met
those time we had I'm never gonna forget
long summer nights and lazy days
we knew our love was not a passing phase
suntan lotion that familiar smell
I made you a necklace from a chian of shells
the sand on my feet and the warm sea breeze
a kind of romance that's hard to believe

Our bodies together beneath the palm
We had our first kiss I melted in your arms

Chorus: I'll give you my love an eternal love
from me to you if you return
A token of love an eternal love
from you to me i'll give my love

** When autumn leaveswere on the ground
we had long walks together with noone around
long conversations alone in the park
that carry on 'till way after dark
winters chill and icy streets
inside is warm on the christmas eve
The fire burning our bodies yearning

Round and round the wheel of loves are turning

Chorus: I'll give you my love an eternal love
from me to you if you return
A token of love an eternal love
from you to me i'll give my love

So promise me (will you promise me)
and i'll promise you an eternal love, eternal love.

The very first fragance of spring is in the air
And each and every moment we still love to share
Alone together Just the two of us
It was then I know my heart belonged to you
Mmmm.. summers here

Chorus: I'll give you my love an eternal love
from me to you if you return
A token of love an eternal love
from you to me i'll give my love

So promise me (will you promise me)
and i'll promise you an eternal love, eternal love.

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I am going to make a promise today. Hopefully, it's forever la kan ...

Sibuk n Debar2

I have been so preoccupied lately. Work n personal stuff :D Sometimes, you have to trust yourself that semua akan work out alright ;-)

I am actually a bit nervous as the day is nearer ... dulu just an observer, soon I will actually participate in it. Looks easy ... but ? For the past week, a lot kata2 nasihat was given ....

Isy..biar benar ni .. is this real ?


Waiting For A Star To Fall - Boy Meets Girl -


I hear your name whispered on the wind
It’s a sound that makes me cry..
I hear a song blow again and again
Through my mind and I don’t know why..

I wish I didn’t feel so strong about you
Like happiness and love revolve around you..
Trying to catch your heart
Is like trying to catch a star..

So many people love you baby
That must be what you are..

Waiting for a star to fall
And carry your heart into my arms,
That’s where you belong, in my arms baby..

Waiting for a star to fall
And carry your heart into my arms,
That’s where you belong, in my arms baby..

I’ve learn to feel what I cannot see
But with you I lose that vision..
I don’t know how to dream your dream
So I’m all caught up in superstition..

I want to reach out and pull you to me
Who says I should let a wild one go free..
Trying to catch your heart
Is like trying to catch a star..

But I can’t love you this much baby
And love you from this far..

Waiting for a star to fall
And carry your heart into my arms,
That’s where you belong, in my arms baby..

Waiting for a star to fall
And carry your heart into my arms,
That’s where you belong, in my arms baby..

Waiting, however long.
I don’t like waiting, I’ll wait for you..
It’s so hard waiting, don’t be too long..
Seems like waiting, makes me love you even more


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waiting ....

The Song of Celine

The song below introduced to Celine Dion :-)



I am okay la now .. tq peeps for the support ! ;-)

Goyang

I am wavering ... do little things matter or is it cold feet ?

Does a red car is really what I needed ?

Help !