So much H...

So much hate and anger ...   Funny, the more connected we are, the more divided we are .... :(

Cameron dan Jinan

Aku rindu Cameron. Baru tamat reunion Ismail bros di sana last weekend, 9 to 11 November. The fresh air and cool environment. Menyegarkan.
Aku rindu Jinan. Baru setahun sejak ke sana. Rindu the solitude, the cold and the surroundings.
Memang benar jiwa aku seorang traveller.

Terang

Bila realiti tidak boleh dinafikan lagi, segalanya menjadi terang.
Persoalannya, mahu terima atau terus berillusi? Jawapannya, nak ke tak nak.

Cold November Rain

Nothing last forever ... Even cold November rain ....

Syukur2 for all my blessings..

To speak is a ....

To speak is a sin ... Tapi, kalau tak berkata, ia akan diam dan tidak apa yang akan berlaku.
But, must know what and when to speak.

Ingat!

Keep on moving

Setelah 20+ tahun mendengar nasihat beliau, baru sekarang ia bermakna. Joel Boyd menasihati saya to keep on living, keep on moving.
Now it makes sense, after all this while.

Thank you, sir.

Keep on grinding

Apa2 yang kita usahakan, kejayaan tidak akan menjadi dengan sekelip mata.
Percaya dengan proses, teruskan usaha anda, hasilnya akan tiba. Beri perhatian kepada maklumbalas, untuk sampai ke destinasi.

Free your mind

Fixed Mindset vs Growth Mindset. Now I understand. Guilty. Me bad.
To infinity and beyond!

Cha Cha Cha

Cha Cha Cha by Finzi Contini



Alway gets me dancing ... and reminds me of my sekolah menengah days. :)

142 kilos n counting

The title of this post says it all...

Forty Five Is Moir

So I have turned forty five. Dah empat puluh lima. Halfway there.

Peace. :)

Beyond infinite affections

Things are going alright. But, still have to be wary and watch out.

Grateful for everything and looking forward to more.

What U Gotta Do n Peace

Insight or revelation does exist. It only shows itself when it is time. Like Coolio says it, I'll see you when you get there... And surprise2, I have found my escapade  .. to destress and to decompress.

It is the highlands we go . 

S.l.e.e.p

I need sleep. In order to get more sleep, I need to be more ruthless.

Ruthless and focused. Right on :)

Standing on the shoulder of giants

You gotta roll with it, so don't look back in anger. In the champagne supernova, you will find the wonderwall that will tell you what's the story, morning glory?
Columbia will make you feel supersonic like a rock and roll star, urging you to live forever.
Really, do you know what I mean? So, don't go away, be here now.

The Music In Me

In me

Air Supply + Pet Shop Boys + Def Leppard + Guns n Roses + Oasis + Stone Roses + Linkin Park... You mix that up and you will get me ... Love + Despair + Hate + Anger + Hope ...

I am a boyband + man band kind of guy :)

Only the truth will set you ...

Memang benar ... Hanya kebenaran membebaskan diri  .. kebenaran menghadapi realiti. Tidak menipu diri sendiri.
Focus on what you can work on, and work on your focus.

A break

Maybe I need a break from everything. Just be alone with the thoughts.
Or, maybe I am just complicating things. Oh well. 

Peace

The most important thing is to find peace within yourself. How to achieve it is another story.

It begins with gratitude .. an often overlooked angle ...

Kisah Cinta Mus dan Nadia

Malam tadi, sebelum tidur, terdetik dalam fikiran, kisah contact sepupu saya, Musfirah, dan adik ipar, Nadia.
Kebetulan, mereka berdua mendirikan rumahtangga dengan jejaka yang boleh dikatakan baru dikenali.
Berdua, mereka pernah berada dalam hubungan jangka masa panjang yang today berkekalan.
Dengan jejaka kedua2, mereka nyatakan mereka tidak mahu main2, mahu serius dalam perhubungan. Suami Mus dikenali melalui rakan di Facebook, manakala Nadia, rakan SRK, yang muncul kembali.
Pendapat saya, mereka memilih model cinta selepas kahwin, dengan suami2 mereka.
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Will it work? All I can say that's more than one way of marriage and I pray for their everlasting happiness.

"Banyak2 sabar ye"

The dark feelings

The dark feelings have made a visit these past few days. They tend to do it when things are doing well ... In it, the major emotion is regret, very2 much regret ... All the emo ...
Ignore it.. it gets more power .. acknowledge it and the ride.. after all it is a part of me somewhat...

".. and now you've become a part of me ..." Figure 09, Linkin Park

Post nikah n wedding Nadia

Syukur majlis nikah dan wedding Nadia telah selesai pada 3/3/2018 lepas.

Suka tengok kesungguhan Bukhari yang ikhlas mahu Nadia menjadi suri hidup. Nadia dirisik October 2017 lepas.

Den jadi wakil keluarga dan saksi nikah. Jadi saksi ok, jadi wakil aiyoo ... Tak cukup prep :p .. pantun pun tak menjadi :D ...

Meeting the relatives was cool and my parents came. That was good

Overall, semua org had a good time :)

Okaylah, semoga Bukhari dan Nadia happy forever as hubby and wife.

PS/ tgk kawan2 Nadia, Bu kumpul2, was a flashback to my life in the 20s. Weddings was the time we had our reunions ...

Keep the focus and effort

One thing I am reminding myself is to keep the focus and work, as small bits of success are appearing. Steve Jobs says it best, stay hungry, stay foolish .. never be content ... Keep on grinding.

Netflix Pulok

Baru daftar sebulan percuma guna Netflix. Wow, macam2 ada ... :D goodbye, Astro?!

Mortality Calls

You are in your mid 40s. You feel your mortality now. Signs are aplenty.

Secangkir Teh untuk Yang Letih

Something I read yesterday was really good in interpreting the lessons of life. According to Ustaz Hasrizal, what happen to us is not as important as what hapoen in us.
Basically, what is the learnt lesson and how will affect us going forward. If you keep doing the same thing expecting different results, that is insanity!
Also know your big WHY.

So long 96

Saw the mtv show that played 90s videos .. some of my fav videos are from 95/96. Omg.
Wonderwall
Wannabe

Dang, I feel old! . But still sounds good though ... ;)

Ingatan2 Arwah Pak Tam Harun

Assalamualaikum.

Pada 14 hb February, arwah Pak Tam Harun, suami Mak Tam adik Mama, meninggal dunia di Kuala Terengganu.

Memang beliau tidak berapa sihat sejak setahun dua kebelakangan ini. Memang lama tak jumpa beliau, even I can't remember when the last time I met him.

Ada niat mahu pergi lawat beliau tahun lepas, tetapi tangguh sebab kekurangan bajet. Oh well...

Ingatan tentang Pak Tam

Warna kuning - warna pakaian pengantin beliau Dan Mak Tam semasa majlis perkahwinan mereka di junjong dahulu.

Gaya sideburn panjang beliau, soft spoken-jarang dengar dia naikkan suara, senyum, Pak Tam ni byk senyum, tak byk cakap sgt ..

Juadah Nasi Kerabu - nak makan nasi kerabu mesti ingat gerai kt simpang masuk rumah mereka di Bukit Paying. He took me there a few times.

Seberang Takir - beberapa kali saya melawat rumah family beliau di Seberang Takir.. memang dekat tebing Sg Terengganu .. pernah sekali join beliau n his kids mandi sungai, masa kecik2 la ... :)

Jangan kahwin orang Kelantan - dia pernah pesan kepada saya tentang perkara ini. 'takut awak tak balik seremban krg, asyik ke sana je' ... Hehe, takpe la, Pak Tam, Ome kahwin dengan org setengah Kelantan je ..

Dia seorang yang baik, bapa kepada lima org anak, and a good uncle.

Alfatihah kepada arwah Pak Tam Harun. You will be missed.

Familia para siempre...

Little Lies exposes

The camera never lies ... Also the weighing scales as well .. reality2 ..

Today's The Greatest Day

The more you know yourself, the clearer it gets ... Look forward, look forward! What you do today affects your future . 

Kerja Gila

Insanity is doing the same shit and expecting different results.

Do you want it?

Life in the Lo Fi

Most of the time, it becomes clearer when you take it one step at a time. One step will lead to multiple steps, then you'll get it done.

Sleep

I need more sleep. Work smart needed. Kapisch?

Everybody Else is doing it, so why don't we? No need to Argue

The blog post title is a tribute to the passing of the lead singer, Dolores O'Riordan, of the Cranberries.
When I arrived in the states around August 1993, the band had just arrived with Linger, which became one of the anthem songs for me of my college years in the USA.
Thank you for the lovely songs of Linger and Ode to my family.

Buat Skrip Baru

In this head, old scripts keep playing. I am tired. Need to discard old scripts and buat new scripts.

Insanity is doing the same thing repeatedly and expecting a different outcome each time.

No insanity, no more.

Just Do It

Just do it. In the mind, it's beautiful, but it is an illusion. Make it real.

In Da Club

Are you in da club? Yes or no ... It does not matter, we are all in da club, da club of life!

How to dance in da club, is up to you, following the beat ..  feel the life, feel the beat ...

Later

Post Brad's Status

I finished watching the movie and the movie works in a subliminal level. There are so many things to interpret, but here are a few things about the movie

It is all in the head.
Be humble and accept what you have
It is not always about what people think of you, it is about what you think of you.
Be happy and grateful with what you have.

I think the movie is one of Ben Stiller's best work.

For the record, Ben Stiller always reminds me of Reality Bites ;) 1993 Washington DC, GeeDub

The Blues ... Again?!

Managed to get Brad's Status .. and what the main character is going through is so me ... Problem is he has it for the movie's two hours .. I had mine since this early millennium ...
Dang! I am in a funk again .. emo wise ...

2017 Recap + 2018 Allo

2017 in one sentence - The good, the bad, and not so ugly. Learnt a lot. Left UCSI.
2018 Allo - onwards to the here and now ..