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 1) Just do the work.

2)

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 1) Penat. But, everything works out in the end.

2) July ni will be a really busy2 work month. Aduhai.

3) Light at the end of the tunnel..? I know what to do, but the doing tu needs to be done. Sounds familiar?

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break it down

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 1) Do the important work first.

2)

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Instrumental LP yg best

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 1) When it makes sense, embrace it and work with it. Hindsight, be damned!

2) Sometimes, blood can go upstairs. Sabor je la...

3) It will work, kinks and all ....

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brain power

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 1) what is your legacy? Up to you to decide, not others. However, it will be judged by others.

2) mcm2 to learn when challenges occur.

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cure for da itch

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 1) keep da faith tentang apa yg u buat ... fomo n bright shiny objects akan sentiasa muncul.

2) your life is your life, people got their own things to deal with

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1) 2024 dah nak habis. Tahun yg menarik in terms of ups and downs. RM shows u you up, actually, is the main lesson for this year, for me.

2) Enjoy and use what you have, instead of wishing apa yang kau tidak ada.

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Don't stay!

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1) Character is fate.

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you become a part of me

Fail

 We all fail.

But it is not failing that hurts. What hurts is knowing you didn't give your best.

Andrew Matthews, Happiness in a Nutshell, page 6.

sometimes, it crawls ....

Redha With Lost

 Pagi tadi aku tulis ...

"We cannot change the past, but we can start today to make a better tomorrow " -limpbizkit-

Tadi, ada berita tentang kejayaan perlantikan seorang pelajar ex-Jasin sebagai Pengarah Hospital made me angry about the past again. It awoken one of the more painful episodes of my school years and the rage returned. The rage of the scars of the wounds that have healed.

Life is not fair. I get it. And this episode reinforced that statement, way back in 1990.

And LP latest single 'Lost', released with new Meteora 20 year anniversary box set said it all ... 

Lost by LP

Just a scar somewhere down inside of me

Something I can not repair

Even though it will always be

I pretend it isn't there (This is how I feel)

I'm trapped in yesterday (Just a memory)

Where the pain is all I know (This is all I know)

I'm lost in these memories

Living behind my own illusion

Lost all my dignity

Living inside my own confusion

But I'm tired, I will always be afraid

Of the damage I've received

Broken promises they made

And how blindly I believed (This is all I know)

I will never break away (Can't break free)

'Cause when I'm alone

I'm lost in these memories

Living behind my own illusion

Lost all my dignity

Living inside my own confusion

*sigh*

Do It Part 2

 Syukur, some success ... keep doing the work ok .. one trade at a time ...

LP represent!

The Music In Me

In me

Air Supply + Pet Shop Boys + Def Leppard + Guns n Roses + Oasis + Stone Roses + Linkin Park... You mix that up and you will get me ... Love + Despair + Hate + Anger + Hope ...

I am a boyband + man band kind of guy :)

The dark feelings

The dark feelings have made a visit these past few days. They tend to do it when things are doing well ... In it, the major emotion is regret, very2 much regret ... All the emo ...
Ignore it.. it gets more power .. acknowledge it and the ride.. after all it is a part of me somewhat...

".. and now you've become a part of me ..." Figure 09, Linkin Park

A few LP related links

Kerrang interview with LP  

Spin 2003 cover story

Spin review of Hybrid Theory 

Chester of Linkin Park Is Dead

I posted this note below on my Facebook upon hearing Chester's suicide

If you google his name right now, there are probably tributes on how he gave a voice to a lot of angry people. I am one of them.

When Hybrid Theory came out, I didn't pay much attention to it at first, as I was not that into 'One Step Closer'. But, had to admit that the music has a nice feel to it. 'Crawling' was alright, but what got me was 'Papercut'. Oh man, the lyrics were so speaking to me, about that point of time of my life. All the anger I had and felt really came out. So, bought the CD and the rest was history. I became a fan.

When Meteora came out, a few of the songs were even better, as it reflected again, the torment and anger inside. 'Somewhere To Belong' was wanting to be a part of something, 'Lying Away from You' and 'Don't Stay' was for all the m**ers who pissed me off all my life, 'Figure 09' was about my angry demons, 'Numb' was being angry and numb with oneself and the demons inside...

There were times I could listen to both albums repeated for a while ...

However, my interest in LP waned after these two albums, as their musical direction became a bit alien. I guess all bands evolve at one point and they did. When One More Light came out, I liked the new song 'Heavy' as it reminded me of the early two albums. I'll probably check it out later.

Suicide is never cool, and I wished he got help before he did it. To anyone who feels suicidal, do get help.

Thank you Chester for giving me a voice during those years ...

Goodbye, Chester.