Forgiveness Is The Only Way To Let Go

I always had issues of letting go in the past. Most, if not all, stems from anger of injustice, shit, et al. One of the major issues I had was how my attempted return to a previous workplace, DagangNet, was shattered due to so called company policy, even though I thought my return would be accepted with open arms. Esp, with the person who was handling HR during that time. In a way, she was clear that I would not be accepted back, even though the rest of them knew but were too p***y to tell it straight up.
I carried the hurt/grudge for a while .. and though I thought I had let it go, a recent event affecting DagangNet made it realize that it was still an issue inside. After a while, I decided that I should just tell the person that gave me the shock years ago .... through FB chat. I told her the whole story and basically said this ... I apologize for hating her what she did to me, and I forgave her for screwing me during that time, as she performing her duties at that time, and wished her the best for the future. It was closure, and I was relieved. I did not pay attention to whatever she said, as it did not matter any more. I finally let go ....
I guess, in the end, if you have issues, go to the core and decide what to do. Remember, you can forgive and move on. Usually you will not forget it, but it is easier to move on.

Syukur Dan Regret

Beberapa hari lepas, saya dapat tahu yang bekas majikan saya, DNT, mengeluarkan VSS (Voluntary Separation Scheme), untuk mengurangkan jumlah staf mereka sebanyak 40%. Dan di gambar-gambar FB kawan, ada menunjukkan rakan-rakan yang menerima VSS ini. Kadarnya agak okay sesuai dengan khidmat lama mereka di sana.
Untuk beberapa jam, saya kembali marah, terguris dengan kenangan kerja di sana, di mana usaha untuk kembali setelah meninggalkan ditolak mentah2. Kerana, seingat saya, ada yang mendapat VSS itu ikut pengalaman saya, bukan kerja seberapa tetapi pandai bermain arus politik di DNT dalam kerja mereka. "Tak Guna!", "Pandai Getting Something For ..." ... di penghujung hari, saya sedar sebenarnya, ia hanyalah perasaan cemburu dan penyesalan. Di minda hanya bermain fikiran, kalaulah aku kan ..... Jadi, aku let go. Tahniah kepada mereka dan semoga sukses di masa hadapan. Masa untuk ke hadapan.
Kesimpulannya, kita harus bersyukur dengan apa yang kita.. fokus kepada hari ini dan masa hadapan, bukan masa lepas. Yang uniknya, kesimpulan ini aku kutip semasa minum malam Ahad lepas, semasa minum malam dengan 2 rakan sekolah rendah lama di Mahbub, Bangsar - Majid dan Kapit.

Aku Bersyukur , Fokus Kepada Hari Ini Dan Masa Hadapan!