Lebih Fokus, Lebih Jelas

 As I work towards my exit, it is becoming clearer to apa yg perlu buat for my future ... beberapa haluan dan potensi ... still gonna do the work ... :)

InsyaAllah, Amin.

kenangan minum di Jinan kembali :D

So What?

 So what? You do you ... execute and take action. Learn from the feedback and execute again. No time to be scared ... dah lambek :P

I wrote this on May 2021

Love Your Present For Your Future

 I gotta do the work in the present so that my future will be better.

alamak :)

What is process?

 Another small enlightenment, ... in the end, what is the process? I think so much of the output/destination that I forget about the process ...

So question is ... what is the process? figure that out ... the process to the output

INPUT + PROCESS = OUTPUT

tu dia ....

sawadeekap :D

Take Care Of Self

 I am 48 ... and finally! need to take care of self better ... with the things I need and want to do ... have to take care of the engine :)

Keep It Simple ... Back to Basics 

• Sleep
• Eat n Drink
• Exercise

itu saja

yes, I love The Pet Shop Boys

It is all up to you

 In the end, in clarity, it is all up to you .... you might not get the end result, but you control the input and the process ... but sometimes the output might differ ... but do the work, neverless. Control what you can control.

Kinabalu ... I will be there 

Jalan Boleh Ubah Tetapi Destinasi Tetap Same

 In the end, ko nak pergi ke mana kan ... itu yg selama ni yg aku jarang fikir ... aku belajar macam2 cara .. tapi bila tanya penghujungnya ... hmm, tidak pasti, samar2, berubah2...

so aku ubah ... aku rangka apa yang aku nak ... apa framework yg diperlukan? keep it simple, back 2 basics .. yes?

oklah kan ...

The Now and The Future

 Apa yang saya buat sekarang akan memberi kesan kepada masa  hadapan. So gotta do the now work. Question remains ... where are you going kan?

part of my wall 030921

I Want 2 Join The Typhoon Generation

 2022 ... the work changes but the effort will not stop ....

new mantra

It's Wet ...

 When the water overflows and the floor gets wet, tak perlu merungut ... tutup paip, guna kain2 buruk untuk lap sehingga kering, dan basuh kain2 buruk tersebut ....

Action, Not Words, Resolve the Matter ....

u dig?

Selamat Hari Kebangsaan ke 65

 

SAYA CINTA NEGARA SAYA.

One Day At A Time

 Let's do the change one at a time ... too much thinking will end up where I started ... back to basics ..

Yep, back to basics ....

Just Another Day ...

 Did a few things here and there ... but, the thought of how Ajie is doing does float in my mind here n there ...  as always, my mind is reflecting on my future ... and today's FX issue, does make reflect back on my biz .... future is my future ...

sedap teh ni

Nothing Else Matters

 Today, my bro Ajie who had been admitted a few days for being Covid + at Hospital Tengku Bainun Ipoh , has been transferred to ICU for full oxygen blast.

I am hopeful that he will recover, though it will take some time, anyway, that is all we have.. hope and prayers. 

I thought about a lot things to do ... did not do much work, though I did do some chores here and there. All the thoughts zipping up in my head, was around this big idea "Where do you want to end up?", and the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, expecting different results ... and no Einstein did not say it (proof here)

Well ....

 Well ... what is the pain? Reflect on it, Decide What To Do It, Execute It, see the result, analyze it and make adjustments ... repeat ...

Wisdom ... all about wisdom ...

 

from Ray Dalio Principles

r.e.f.l.e.c.t.i.o.n part 3

 Am questioning a lot of the business stuff I am doing right now ...  where am I going? Gotta do a lot of soul searching ... especially with fx ... maybe am banging my head against the wall ... since 2007 tu ...

Sept October November December -- 2021 --- these are the crucial months for the new direction ...

Keep on Grinding 

No 4 and final INTI working t-shirt

r.e.f.l.e.c.t.i.o.n part 2

 Business-wise ..maybe am have been wrong ... all this while since 2007 ... 

again the question in the back of my mind, where do I want to go? and what I am doing is getting me there ...

"Without developing a clear vision of the future we desire, of the values we want to adopt, of the identities we want to shed or step into—we are forever doomed to repeat the failures of our past. "

-Mark Manson- via Twitter

hari ke 3 with Inti shirt

r.e.f.l.e.c.t.i.o.n

Today has been a reflecting day for me. Hmm, now and future ... work, biz trade, ... in the end, where do I want to end up ... haven't done a real look at this for a while ...   

Today's BSG Mental Model session woke me up a bit ... a business rethink is in order as well ...

other than that .... gotta roll with it ...

 

 

day 2 pakai baju INTI .. 2 more to go ...

 

It has been a good day

 Today, I did ok .. practising focus on the work that needs to be done. Gotta admit the monkey in the mind was there at all times ... but so far so good, in taming the monkey, and doing what I need to do.

Gotta keep grinding.

wearing my blue INTI shirt 

Tulislah ... Where Do U Want To Be ....

 Hari ni sambil going along ... doing a reflection of the past ...  and yg bagus is bila I feel envy.. I ask myself ... reflect ... and it is obvious ... what they are doing now is what I could have been ... *sigh* .. yep that is it ... itulah barah yg selama ini dalam diri ...

I spent the present looking back and sacrificed the future most of the time ... I can do better ... I must do better .. I will do better...

Where Do U Want To Be ... and more importantly, bagaimana nak sampai ke sana?

Tu yg what was missing ... 

me with pussycat headphones :D

A New Reflection

As am reflecting on stuff these past few days, I see a couple of things in a new light. One for certain is am not sure what is the path that am really going. Ask me about five years from now and I am like... Giving you vague answers. I don't know the answer, and now it's clear. I have been on autopilot for a long while coz I keep looking at the past, and thinking about every obstacle ten miles down the road. Copied that from Good Will Hunting :p 

It is ok. When you know that you don't know, then it's possible to search for the answers.

Ogos 20 2021 Book

 I feel for the guy. His time will time, as karma has it.

Keep it simple ....

 Keep it simple, you will have good days and bad days ... keep the faith, trust the system.

 

drawn by Farah today 19/8/21

 

The Fifth Horsemen Is ...

Syukur2, it is getting better n clearer my next path. Consistent and persistent and reflection and focus, plus help from the Almighty. 

A nice joke which is too true nowadays 

Aku Tahu Mengapa Aku BS

 BS - Bodoh Sombong

Sebab aku tak reflect the pain that I went through. In denial. So no progress. Terkejut oleh realisasi ini bila join hari pertama BSG oleh Bukhari Ramli.

Pain + Reflection = Progress

Principles

I Screwed Up N It Was A Sign ...

 I screwed up big time today at work. An error from last sem came to roost. *sigh* it is really time to go.. it was another sign that the end of my academia career at INTI should be now, not later.

The sooner I leave, the sooner I can start my new beginning? Hmm.. see la how next few days is ... but whatever it is, I am at peace with what's coming ...

a  taste of things to come? gambar hiasan sahaja

Here We Go

 The beginning of the end for my work life with INTI. Let's do the best and go out with a bang ;)

Funny, I always said that INTI would be my last academia job. Looks like it is coming true ;) 

I miss this place ... Tanah Rata, Cameron Highlands ... InsyaAllah, Jan 2022!

The Countdown Begins

Oh well... my last sem is up. Just get it over and be done with it. You can do it.

up the Reds :D #YNWA

Ada Sinar di Penghujung ...

 When you do the work and grind, and do a lot of reflection ... light will appear .. syukur2 ... now keep working on it I must ....

Yeah, 2022 will be different ... I gotta work till I get there ....

celebrate Messi goes to PSG :)

PS/- am not lompat ke PSG just because Messi joined PSG ... been a fan since the Rai  - Opel days ... Ronaldinho and Pauleta used to play for PSG ok ...

Have you ever ....

Gotta get more sleep ... Am not that young any more ... Adoii .. wisdom, this is all wisdom.

My book reading plan ....

Gila Adalah ...

 Gila adalah melakukan perkara yang sama berulang kali dan berharap hasil lain. Learnt that today. Final semester bermula minggu depan ... whopee :P

Oh really .... 

Apa Nak Jadi ...

 Apa nak jadi ... jadilah ... sometimes, u gotta do it and let the chips fall ... u control what u can control.

mood malam 

Selamat Tahun Baru Maal Hijrah 1443

 Selamat Tahun Baru Hijrah 1443 

InsyaAllah, tahun yang betul2 hijrah ...

Mental Picture

 When doing something without a clear and focused mental picture, it will not occur or it does not get accomplished much. That is what happened these past 2 days - Sabtu dan Ahad.

I am gaining wisdom.

ya loh

ps/ one of my last memories while on US soil (1995) was watching GMA with him performing this song accompanied by a piano. This song was Jon's last Top 40 hit single 

How To Chart A New Path

 How do you chart a new path? This question has been playing in the background for a while. Am not BSing, I am plotting a new path .. but, there is a lot of possibilities ... I think am feeling a bit of analysis paralysis. Nak tak nak ... mesti lakukan juga, sebab tak mahu fikir apa yang tidak dibuat lima tahun lepas....

among my considerations for future

Nobody's Diary

 So much to do ... so many things I want to do ... so many things I need to do ... aiyo, mcm2 dalam ini kepala :P ... gotta do the work!

mcm2 ...

Just Do It

 I just have to do it. It is scary, but you just gotta do it. :P We lie to ourselves, most of the time. Kita nak buat sesuatu yang hasilnya ada 100% pasti positif untuk kita. Tapi, kalau kita tidak tahu akhirnya, atau ia samar2 bagaimana? .. hmm... always a dilemma ... tp mahu berubah/beralih arah ... mesti ubah arah dulu kan?

kan ku serahkan segala kepada mu ...

Trust Broken Can Never Be ....

 Ingatkan DITN preboard dah settle .. life goes on ... nope, that ICT stuff still happens ... Angry and mad? of course ... but, it sends me another signal ... just reinforce what I should do for the future. Pissed off yeah, but I dealt with it. Face it and move on ...

and now, you've become a part of me ...

One Down, One To Go

 Selesai satu sesi pre-board hari ni ... esok satu lagi. When it's over I can dance :P What I am sure is I gotta keep the faith in the future, by doing the work in the NOW. Focus on that.

random song for tonight

Brain Decompress Session

 Man ... I had one of those brain decompress episodes ... settled all the marking work and finally felt ... relieved and dumb ... hahaha ... bila dah penat bekerja dan settle semua .. u feel like what a semester it was .. it is my 2nd last sem or final :P at KL ... learnt a lot, stress a lot :P ... and the signals were all over this sem ... am going to do a specific reflection this week, after the whole Pre-Board thing ... generally, I did an okay job ... 7 subjects this sem .. so it wasn't all daisy and sunshine ..

2 of my old belts .. goodbye.

Ada cara ada jalan ...

Wajib ingat benda ni ...

Tanda - tanda Kecil

 Pernah baca buku Andrew Matthews dulu. Dia kata, "Life sends us small signals to remind us if we are doing wrong ... if you keep ignoring it, in the end  a big signal will be sent, when it will be too late to change " So far, I can say that this year, banyak signal2 kecil mcm ni telah muncul dan so far den dah ikut la .. bila ingat nak tukar fikiran tentang certain things, signal kecil muncul ... a reminder not to deviate ...

tu dia !!

Ini Hidup Aku

 Masa borak dengan my bro Ajie tadi, ... dia kata dia ada plan utk 2022, and wa tanya, tak takut dengan mak lampir ke ... dia kata, "It's my life" ... cewah, terus wa teringat Dr Alban n Bon Jovi lagu dengan tajuk sama. Then I chose Dr Alban. :)

Ya betul .. it's my life ... so why I need to live other people's life?

it is now and never ...

I Miss The 90s

 The 20s are the foundation to your future ... if you are reading this, if you are in your 20s ... plan your future now! ... it will make sense in your later years ...

lagu one hit wonder yg best

Input Process Output

 Hukum alam .... input + proces menghasilkan output ... jadi output adalah hasil input dan process. Kalau input dan proses sama, tapi mengharapkan hasil yang berlainan ... sorry la .. not gonna work ...

Ego, Pride and Humility mengikut kata Giannis Antetokoumpo, NBA Finals 2021 winner and MVP is so true ... tengok kat bawah ni ..

When You Finally Do ...

 In the end, it had to be done ... kalau tak, lagi susah nak buang ... there is a lesson here somewhere ..

finally shave it all off :P

You Gotta Do ....

 Azmir ... you have to do the work to get the results. It is not just planning, but also executing, and follow through. Insanity is doing the same thing and expecting different results ...

3 poses of self introspection

Think Like A ...

 I think therefore I am. Keep it simple and it will all makes sense.

Oh ya, wisdom is here ... dengan uban2 nya sekali ...

Legacy of ...

 You know what ... I am getting wiser ... am figuring out stuff ... hey, better now than never ya ... legacy ...

got my 1st dose today 24/7

If I Ever ...

We always wish ... If I ever .... But we never think about it once it happens again ...then we wish if I ever again ...

Nah, I am done ... To the future..

When it does not work, get it fixed ASAP.

Kontinjen Malaysia masuk perbarisan Sukan Olimpik Tokyo 202

 Video kontinjen Malaysia baris masuk ke Tokyo 2020 ... cantik costume ...

Malaysia Boleh!!!

If This Is Easy, What Would It Look Like?

 Something struck me today and helped me to realize ... the video belows ...

Errol is right .. I think too much ...

aku mesti ringkaskan cara ... untuk bergerak maju ke hadapan ....

the video

How It Works

 How it works? Awak perlu buat. You gotta do. It has been tiring for the past few weeks with my work. The grind I guess ... I know I can do better, but cannot complain much.

The future ... still samar2 and am moving there ... whether I like it or not ... ;)

sunset at Bandar Sri Bangi

Plan .. The Plan ..

The plan ... follow the plan ... if not, time will pass by ...

listen to dem lyrics 

Time - Hootie & The Blowfish

Looking Back, It is Ok ....

 Malam tadi, join kejap majlis tahlil budak2 Jasin SPM 90 for a few covid-19 patients.

Saw some of the faces on that Meet, I got awashed a bit on nostalgia, but that is it. Abis je bacaan Yasin tu, I left. It is difficult to classify/clarify my Jasin years ... took me a while to really put it behind, and I must admit my 20s were really screwed up due to Jasin experience. In the end, it was my choice kan. So, I chose to leave after the Yasin, didn't want to chit-chat, etc.

Making peace with the past is really important. If not, it is like a ball of chain, dragging you to continuously behind. You don't have to like it. Just accept it.

Oleh itu, aku bersyukur. Bersyukur yang aku masih aku, dapat berjalan terus. Aku ada masa sekarang dan masa hadapan untuk dinikmati dan diusahai. 

gambar malam Aidiladha 2021

You Gotta Be ...

 To be what you want to be, you actually gotta be ... do the action, not just kecek je ...

yep, sounds about right ..

Untuk Jadi X, Buat X

Change is Coming ....

 When change is coming, then you need to change as well ... if not, it would be so blur ..

I am gaining wisdom ... wisdom is when you acknowledge what you have learnt, for what it is .. no fantasy/bs ... 

I have the present to set the future ... whatever I do know, will determine the future ...

Dah bosar den ye ....

I Will Be There ....

 This parenthood thing is so challenging. For real :P I will be there for my family ... sebahagian tanggungjawab sebagai seorang ketua keluarga.

These coming years will be challenging, and I am facing it. Bring it on :D

terang masa depan 

Mungkin Tidak ...

 Mungkin apa sekarang yang den buat tidak bermanfaat? maybe I need to choose another way .. pilih jalan yang lain ... destinasi sama .. but another method.

Syukur I am still okay during this pandemic ni. Hearing the stories out there is scary ... :/

yes ... life goes on ..

Keep Banging Da Head

 Kau tahu kan bila hentak kepala kt dinding dan harap benda lain berlaku adalah GILA.

Yep, it happened to me earlier today. 

When am I gonna learn? *sigh* It does not work, find / work another way

15 Tahun Dah :D

 Yep, hari ini hari ulangtahun kahwin  ke 15 den dan Linda. Syukur2 sangat ... so far so good, with 3 kids ... alright la kan ... 14 July 2006 tarikh nikah kami.. selepas Asar di rumah Linda di Bandar Baru Bangi

Kisah lama: Saya lambat ke majlis nikah, sebab terlupa bawa sampin, so terpaksa pi balik Templer untuk ambik balik. Saya yang last sampai ke rumah ... ahli rombongan lain dah sampai .. sampai tu, Mariati, my old friend, siap sapu bedak kt muka sebelum masuk ke rumah Linda. Hahahaha ...

Oh well ...

Happy Anniversary ke 15 awak ....

Lagu masa majlis perkahwinan belah saya di Templer

Day 2 of Android 12 Update

 Today I think I spent more time on repairing/figuring to work with the new update on my hp than work :P 

entah how many times, it kept reboot ...  dah le kedai telcos are all closed ...

Oh well ... it is what it is ... have to work with it ...

simply class

PS/ Covid daily count is 11K .. yippee :P

Apa Android Update Terbaru Ajar Den

 Aduh ... proses yg sepatutnya ringkas menghabiskan berjam2 den , sampai kacau semua kerja lain  ... had to factory reset the hp a few times, .... and reinstall a few apps dan paling best ... lupa nak backup my WhatsApp rupanya ... abis .. so WA mmg start dari fresh balik ... aiyoo ...

Upgrade my Redmi 9 from Android 11 to Android 12 ... rupanya update2 ni things can happen ... lupa nak check my backup settings ... on the other hand ... a reboot perhaps ...

Lesson learnt ... before upgrade, check backup settings!

just live your life

Tiada Pasti 100%

 Nowadays, bila buat apa2, aku tidak menunggu lagi untuk semua pasti/perfect .. sebab it is never perfect. Teruskan sahaja, selepas merancang, kalau tidak ... ia akan menjadi rancangan sahaja tak abis2 ..

Yep, I can't wait another minute ...

I Can't Wait Another Minute -live at Apollo-

One More Night

 Give me just one more night ... lagu sedap Phil Collins ... in the end, if it was not meant to be ... no matter how many nights you have ... it is not meant to be ...

Wisdom In Full Bloom I have .... I hope ...

The Live Version

PS/ dah check my memories?

Cara Lepas Benda Lama

 Tadi, baru je den buang dua baju tshirt lama .. sayang tapi dah berlubang2 ... old sentimental things ... jadi apa Ome buat? Ambil gambar benda2 tu, peluk kali terakhir dan campak ke plastik sampah.

Rasanya tu cara terbaik untuk let go benda2 lama ... so kita boleh terima benda baru ...

Dah belajar something new.

2 baju tersebut - beli kat Pertama Kompleks zaman bujang dulu utk Raya

Focus ... Focus

 Focus .. means cutting and narrowing things to do ... am learning about this all the time ...

I love the way you ... me

 Change is hard ... but it has to be done .... it is for the future.

Today was a significant change .. I left 2 WA group that consists of my relatives coz cannot tahan the words being passed around ... goodness grief ... mahu ingat baik2 saja ... if they want to keep in touch with me, they know how to find me.

Gotta take of meself especially the otak.

Def Leppard videos from Hysteria

Happy Birthday Mama :)

 Hari ni birthday Mama yang ke 71. Rindu tak dapat pergi celebrate dengan beliau sebab PKPD ni :/ 

Tulislah ... Before Trilogy

 Write but one word ... Tulislah sepatah perkataan ... cewah ... aku kini kembali rajin menulis kerana mahu menulis dan macam2 mahu katakan :D

Filem trilogi BI mengenai hubungan romantik yang terbaik buat den .. kisah2 Jesse n Celine

The Before Trilogy :D

Nak Satu!!

 

Nak satu camni :) Look at the spokes on the rims. Ironinya, masa zaman den suka conteng2 dulu, I use to draw bikes like this ...

Do the Work

 Do the work .... fokus on the work ... dengar kata2 monyet dalam kepala ... teruskan sahaja ...

after a morning walk

Cat Warna Dalam Hujan

 Hidup ini berwarna-warni ... penuh dengan macam2 lalui ... apa yang berlaku ialah bagaimana kita respon kepada apa yang berlaku macam formula di bawah ...

Event + Response = Outcome

You think so? 

Tajuk post ini merujuk kepada lagu Roxette 'Watercolors In The Rain' dari album Joyride. Selalu berlari adalah cat warna dalam hujan ... tidak menyelesaikan apa2 ... so face reality and deal with it.

rip Marie 

All Of You .. Body and Soul

 Hari ni lagu ni keep buzzing in my head .. sampai den siap nyanyi masa mandi tadi. Lagu pop 80an lama, masih klasik :) 

Ini mengingatkan den ... kita kadang2 tidak perlu cari yang terbaru atau teknik terbaru ... what you have works as well. It is how you utilize it.

Julio n Diana