Pada sekitar pertengahan Julai 1981, Sukan SEA sedang berlangsung di Manila, Filipina. Dan sekitar minggu 17 Julai, aku menonton perlawanan bola keranjang wanita Indonesia bertemu Filipina. Terus suka dengan nama seorang pemain Indonesia ini ... pada malam itu, Papa turun ke kereta di parkir UH setelah melawat Mama di wad. Katanya, "ha,.. korang dapat baby sister .. nak nama apa?" .. spontan den jawab, " Nama Juliana la Pa.. macam sedap je " ... itulah kisahnya. Nama adik ku sempena nama pemain bola keranjang wanita Indonesia ;-) ... just nak put that into record! :D
Selamat Hari Jadi ke XX kepada my adik bongsu Juliana Ismail :) rakan tengok wayang CM masa late 90s dulu :D have a great celebration!!
Syukur, I am 41 today :) Alhamdullillah, this past week has been eventful, an awakening that I thought would never be possible. My gratitude to Him for the all blessings that He has given me. Syukur :) and may He gives more in the future. My thanks to my parents, Ismail Md Noor and Puteh Ismail for being the best they can be as parents. To my family, wife Linda & kids Zara, Farah .. who bring me smiles and joy every single day. To my siblings, Ajie, Novie and Julia, thank you for being around, InsyaAllah, we will be back together.
Sejak awal tahun ini, saya telah membuat tekad. Tekad bahawa UCSI adalah tempat terakhir kerja saya sebagai seorang akademia. Dalam suatu kerjaya, ada matlamat yang harus dicapai untuk 'mencukupkan' kerjaya itu. Dalam kerjaya akademia, dua perkara utama tersebut adalah membuat penyelidikan dan menghasilkan tulisan akademik dan menyambung pengajian phD.
Dan akhirnya, setelah tujuh tahun berkecimpung dalam bidang ini, I come to realization that for all intents and purposes ... it is not my path anymore ... and continuing this path will not make me happy in the long run ....
Drastik bukan .... kerja stabil tetapi tidak mahu teruskan kerja ini ... habis itu, mahu buat apa? Hujung tahun lepas, saya berfikir .. 20 tahun akan datang ... apa yang akan saya lakukan? Sayangnya,bayangan dunia akademik saya agak malap. Saya boleh teruskan dengan apa yang saya lakukan sekarang, tetapi rasanya tidak akan ke mana.
Tapi, saya bersyukur dapat merasa kerja sebagai seorang ahli akademik ... saya dapat masa untuk berfikir secara terang, sambil membuat sesuatu yang menyeronokkan.. dan bekerja dengan orang muda membuatkan saya jiwa muda :) hehehe ....
Saya tahu masa depan saya masih dalam bidang pendidikan, tetapi mungkin pendidikan ilmu lain ...
In the movie, " Pursuit of Happyness " .. there is a scene where Chris Gardner talks about the 10 gallon hat of disappointment in his head .. I know how he feels I guess, because for the past years, I felt the same. The coulda, shoulda, wouldas .... the constant comparisons to friends your age who are far more successful .... and the list go on and on .... so what did I do about it? Ignoring it did not work as it still gnawed on my mind.
I just ACCEPTed it. That was the first thing I did. I admitted that I effed up my 20s and early 30s in terms of career, especially. And I am behind and must accept where I am. The next thing was moving on, acknowledging that the memories are there and plan your current and future. I forgiven a few fellas and l felt better. Letting go truly works and can be therapeutic.
One thing about change that I learnt in the past month is that you have to plan for your change. There must be details in this plan, so that you know what to do when the need or situation arises . p
One minor change in my diet for the past month is I have limited/remove intake of sugared water during working weekdays. I do my best to drink plain water / air masak, during these times. Or iced water / Coke Light. No Milo, teh o ais and the works. Result: I feel a bit lighter and I like it. Will continue doing it. I have not been 100% successful, but it is not a bad thing.
oh and I have been posting my old diary entries from my Jasin school days in this blog. Nothing has been edited, as it has been posted word by word. Reading it again brings a different perspective. I was a bit naive then, that's for sure.
A recent picture of Me and my Pool :)
and I like to finish with this video of Michael Jackson performing 'Man In The Mirror' live. Now that he's gone, more people miss him and realize what a legend he was.
A common theme in my posts in the past years has been my desire for change. Of course, I want to change for the better. In 2014, I did some changes to how I work ... and discovered that something interesting and significant.
What I did was I just scheduled my work stuff/details ahead of time. Nothing major. And the results were significant. I was able to handle more workload especially the pressure. There was less 'paralysis' and more movement-more completed tasks, etc.
Eureka! ( just for illustration )
In the end, it was just that I had a 'system'. That is what it was .... a system of how to do things ... and actually, all of us have been doing that all this while .. what is a human body, but a system of interconnected organs, for example.
So lesson here ... Change is good, have a system that would implement the change ... and it should fit you as a person-Who you are ...
Satu buku yang mengandungi catatan peribadi tuan penulisnya yang santai dan bersahaja, dengan maksud yang mendalam. Apa yang ditulis oleh tuan Nazali, kita juga mungkin pernah mengalami, bukan kisah yang sama, tetapi konteks yang sama. Yang menjayakan buku ini adalah catatan - catatan beliau yang jujur dan datang dari jiwa. Ia memberi kesan dan inspirasi kepada pembacanya. Saya berikan lima bintang kerana banyak pengajaran beliau dalam buku ini adalah praktikal dan relevan untuk masa ini. Juga, saya peminat tegar Liverpool :) YNWA!
Kagum dengan kisah hidup tuan Nazali yang dibukukan ini. Juga ada nasihat-nasihat yang berguna. Walaupun beliau sekeluarga berhijrah ke UK, tapi Malaysia tetap di hati. Hmm, memang aku ada berniat untuk berhijrah ke tanah Amerika, cuma bimbang mengenai nawaitu dan sekiannya. Akan aku beri pertimbangan sepenuhnya, InsyaAllah.
Kepada tuan Nazali, tahniah atas kejayaan buku ini dengan menyunting semangat Liverpool Football Club dengan kisah2 hidup anda. YNWA!! :)
Being in the 40s these past few weeks have been a bit sucky :P .. why? I am reminded of my 20-30s which lead to a pearl of wisdom I imparted to my ex-students. The wisdom- what we do in the 20s and 30s lead to where we are. Cliche and true.
Being introspective is good and bad. Good as it keeps you grounded, and bad, as it makes me you rue the stuff you screwed up- the shoulds and what-ifs. And it can be overwhelming.
The cure for this I guess as I my old lecturer Joel Boyd used to say, " Keep On Living ". And work on your Now and Future.
As some of you who might read my blog, I have issues with my pasts which still stays in the background. I do my best to keep focus, but dang it still f**king lingers ...
Linda also has been giving me signals about staying home full time. I think she is tired of the whole corporate life. Can't blame her much. She is a homegirl, who wants to do her thing. I think ;-)
And one thing I have to say, I miss the USA. There I said it.
I have been posting my Jasin diary writings at another blog. Why? Self therapy and preservation of what I wrote, since the writing paper is decaying slower. Wish I could scan it, but I do not have a scanner. What I am interested to see is the evolution of the significant moments in my Jasin school years, which still rocks till now. Two very transformative years :/ hmm .... So far, I am cool when flashing back to those times .. but gotta admit.. it is bittersweet.
Sejak dua tiga hari ini, surah ini sentiasa berkumandang dalam minda ini ..
Emas boleh beli, masa tidak boleh dibeli balik. That is why time is precious and cruel. Once it is gone you can never get it back. Maximize it as much as you can.
2/1/2014 adalah hari pertama Zara masuk ke alam persekolahan. :) Tahun 1. Pelbagai perasaan ada-- bangga, takut, risau, gelabah, .. in the end, everything turned out okaylah. Beliau bersekolah di Sek Ren Jalan 3, BB Bangi.
Bila apa yang kita usahakan tidak menjadi/berhasil...masa telah tiba untuk mencari jalan baru untuk mencapai apa yang dikehendakki. Kegagalan yang kita alami sebenarnya adalah mesej bahawa kemungkinan besar caranya tidak betul ataupun salah. Dan bila berterusan buat benda yang sama, jangan harap hasil yang berbeza.
Sejak tahun 2007 (dah lama ye..) diri ini ada menjalankan pelbagai usaha untuk menjana pendapatan sampingan. Namun, hasilnya tidak berapa memberangsangkan walaupun usaha telah dicurahkan secara material dan masa. Beberapa hari lepas, baru ku sedar bahawa selama ini aku melakukannya dengan cara yang salah. Terlalu mengejar pelbagai cabang pada waktu yang sama walaupun dengan komitmen yang akhirnya memenatkan dan membuat aku berhenti berusaha. Dan akhirnya ia tidak berjaya. Dan ia akan berulang lagi dan lagi.
TIDAK. Ini kalilah ....aku akan pilih SATU cara dan berikan komitmen 100%. Doakan aku berjaya.
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tiba - tiba teringat kepada kawan lama, Nor Kamarul Aisyah Zaiedi. Masih ingat dengan makan malam KFC di KFC Sek 18? dan lagu ini beliau kata beliau suka pada masa itu ..
Earlier today, I was going through my video downloads of Youtube videos and found a video of Tony Robbins talking about how to get through a crisis, and the success of handling it. I downloaded the video as the title was compelling. Anyway, after going through the video, it is actually a repeat or a remix ;-) of some of his stuff that he has been talking about. Now, if you have followed him all this way, some of the things he speaks in this video are 'old' stuff that you have read or heard him talk about. But I like this video as it is still informative as ever.
The video is embedded below
However, if you want a summary of the points, the picture below summarizes five points he outlined in the video above ..
I do recommend that after checking the summary above that you view the video in its entirety to get the 'meat' of the message :)
For the record, I like him and think that he is an inspiring guy.
picture credit - screen capture from the youtube video.
Di mana kita dan ke mana kita akan pergi? Bukan di mana kita dahulu. Melihat entri2 blog ini yang lepas, satu keinsafan timbul pada diri ini. Some stuff will work and stuff will not work. But, if you do not take real action, instead of just imagining it, then you will not know whether it works or not.
And having too much on your plate will distract and overload your senses. Saya masih ingat apa yang mendiang Steve Jobs lakukan semasa dia kembali ke Apple sekitar tahun 96. Beliau bertanya kepada pasukan pengurusnya, tentang produk-produk keluaran Apple. Pelbagai nama dan jenis diberikan sehingga beliau marah dan berkata.. " This is crazy ... we should make four great products.. one for each quadrant ..". Bagi beliau, tahu untuk tidak buat apa adalah sama penting untuk tahu buat apa.
Satu perkara yang saya akhirnya sedar adalah tindakan kecil - kecil yang kita buat pada masa lampau memberi impak yang sangat besar kepada hasilnya di masa hadapan. Tony Robbins sendiri berkata, " when you make a small change in the beginning, in the long run, it will make a huge change.."
Dalam buku beliau, Rahsia Ajaib Untuk Berjaya, Razzi Armansur juga menekankan fokus kepada impak masa hadapan tindakan sekarang untuk berjaya dalam segala bidang/usaha yang kita lakukan.
Kesimpulannya, untuk berjaya, ia memerlukan tindakan yang berterusan ke arah mencapai apa yang kita inginkan.
Pesanan untuk diri ini dan rakan-rakan pembaca sekalian.
Pada tahun 1987, saya mengenali seorang gadis pingitan ini. Orangnya comel, senyumannya manis. Walaupun kami berbeza sekolah, tetapi kami berkawan macam biasa. NorDalilah Adnan namanya. Dan ketika itu, lagu di bawah amat saya gemari dan pasti mengingatkan saya pada dirinya. Sayang selepas SRP, kami berpisah arah, saya ke MRSM J, beliau ke Vokay Rembau. Once in a while, bila dengar lagu ini, I always wonder where she is and hope she is fine and happy ..
I wrote the lyrics to this song on a birthday card to Wan Noor Halizan, around mid 90s. Then I learnt the truth and she broke my heart. Ah well, it was not meant to be....
Pada zaman sekolah menengah dahulu.. zaman MRSM Jasin khususnya, saya selalu berutus surat dengan gadis ini, kawan baik saya, Zarina Mokhtar. Trend masa zaman itu, kami sering menghantar lirik lagu bersama surat kiriman kami. Dan, dalam satu surat, beliau kirim lirik lagu ini, and each time I hear this song, I am reminded of her ...
Shall I write it here so shall I keep it a secret ? Yang pasti 2013 adalah satu tahun yang penting. Umur saya 40 ( EMPAT PULUH ). Umur kawan2 saya pun 40 :) InsyaAllah.
Tell you what .. I will keep it a secret this time. Once I reached it, I will post it here. Let's do it this way kali ini :)
Gadis ini ku kenal masa tahun terakhir di KPP. Junior setahun. Cik Halimatun. Dia melanjutkan pelajaran ke Oklahoma State. Masa di Oklahoma State, aku sungguh mahu menghantar lagu ini pada beliau. Tetapi, tidak pasti sama ada berjaya atau tidak ia dihantar. Zaman sebelum Facebook dan Youtube. But, I will always remember her when I listen to this song and know that she's happy. :)
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