The signals keep coming

Andrew Matthews menulis dalam buku beliau, hidup akan sentiasa memberi tanda  apabila hidup kita mula melencong. Mula2 kecik, jika diendahkan, diberi tanda besar yg lebih perit. Hari ini saya diberi tanda kecil, yang meyakinkan keputusan besar yang telah saya ambil.

Remember, you control your choices ...

Lessons from Wonder Boys

The truth is real. Face it.
When you need to, improvise.
Too much improvisation can distract you from the truth.
Know what you want, say it and do it.
You always need people to succeed in life.

Change is Coming

After much deliberation, am going to change locations soon.
If you don't change and move on, you will be changed ...
A lot of changes coming up soon ..

Change is Doing

Do you want to change? Yes, to change, you must DO it. Wishing, berharap, tidak akan merubah apa2 ...

Sorang sahabat berkata, jangan menyalahkan takdir atas apa yang berlaku. Kita harus redha and learn from it, kerana ia telah berlaku, and nothing will change it. That shook me like a thunderbolt.

Present and future is all we have ...

Clarity when it is clear

When you know what you want, you know what you want. At the very least, you know what you need to do.
I don't I will ever give up on sports stuff, but I must take care of my team first. :)

Writing Is...

Writing is something I know I can be good at ... Am I committed though? Good question for this Friday morning...

A few LP related links

Kerrang interview with LP  

Spin 2003 cover story

Spin review of Hybrid Theory 

Chester of Linkin Park Is Dead

I posted this note below on my Facebook upon hearing Chester's suicide

If you google his name right now, there are probably tributes on how he gave a voice to a lot of angry people. I am one of them.

When Hybrid Theory came out, I didn't pay much attention to it at first, as I was not that into 'One Step Closer'. But, had to admit that the music has a nice feel to it. 'Crawling' was alright, but what got me was 'Papercut'. Oh man, the lyrics were so speaking to me, about that point of time of my life. All the anger I had and felt really came out. So, bought the CD and the rest was history. I became a fan.

When Meteora came out, a few of the songs were even better, as it reflected again, the torment and anger inside. 'Somewhere To Belong' was wanting to be a part of something, 'Lying Away from You' and 'Don't Stay' was for all the m**ers who pissed me off all my life, 'Figure 09' was about my angry demons, 'Numb' was being angry and numb with oneself and the demons inside...

There were times I could listen to both albums repeated for a while ...

However, my interest in LP waned after these two albums, as their musical direction became a bit alien. I guess all bands evolve at one point and they did. When One More Light came out, I liked the new song 'Heavy' as it reminded me of the early two albums. I'll probably check it out later.

Suicide is never cool, and I wished he got help before he did it. To anyone who feels suicidal, do get help.

Thank you Chester for giving me a voice during those years ...

Goodbye, Chester.

You Only Live Twice

Yep, you only live for yourself and your dreams ...

"You Only Live Twice" by Nancy Sinatra (007 You Only Live Twice)

You only live twice or so it seems
One life for yourself and one for your dreams
You drift through the years and life seems tame
Till one dream appears and love is it's name

And love is a stranger who'll beckon you on
Don't think of the danger or the stranger is gone

This dream is for you, so pay the price
Make one dream come true, you only live twice

And love is a stranger who'll beckon you on
Don't think of the danger or the stranger is gone

This dream is for you, so pay the price
Make one dream come true, you only live twice

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Opening and Closing Credits of 007 You Only Live Twice

Amacam Raya?

Raya is what you want it yo be. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri :) maaf zahir batin ...

I am 44

Happy birthday to me ...:) the years are really beginning to roll by ....

Rizalman Life Inspired Episode 2 dan 3 Review

Sudah ku tonton episode 2 dan 3.

Lokasinya di Paris, France. Yang discover adalah shooting Rizalman dan aktiviti shopping and sightseeing beliau. Menarik juga menonton apa yang beliau minat dan lakukan.

Beberapa pengamatan

• Shooting sejuk ketika itu. Nampak usaha beliau dan pasukan untuk menjayakan penggambaran dalam semua keadaan yg muncul.
• Rizalman minat dengan antik. Sangat minat ok. He knows what his furniture taste which lies between royalty and aristocracy. Woo....
• His support team is very important to him to assist him in running his personal and business life. Admittedly, he is a control freak.
• Pelanggan Rizalman percaya dengan pilihan dan karya beliau mengikut apa yang mereka mahu. Sebab itu, mereka adalah pelanggan setia. Pelanggan yang muncul adalah Ifah dan Deborah Henry, Ms Universe Malaysia, di mana Rizalman siapkan baju perkahwinan beliau.
• Selain fesyen, beliau ada juga bisnes reka dalaman. Interior design merupakan bidang pilihan beliau dahulu sebelum terpaksa memilih fesyen di UiTM.

Yang pasti, personaliti beliau terserlah di rancangan ini.

Can't wait for episode 4!

The signal

In the alchemist, there is a passage where the alchemist tells the boy, Santiago, of his possible future ..

In summary 

The alchemist says Fatima understands that Santiago needs to complete his Personal Legend. Santiago asks the alchemist what would happen if he stayed in Al-Fayoum. The alchemist explains that Santiago would have enough money to buy many sheep and camels, and that he would marry Fatima. Santiago and Fatima would be happy for one year, but that during the second year Santiago would start to think about the treasure again. He would not be able to ignore the omens. During the third year, Santiago would become increasingly obsessed with his Personal Legend, and Fatima would feel bad for interrupting Santiago’s quest. Santiago and Fatima would still love each other, but by the fourth year, the omens of treasure would disappear. The tribal chieftains would dismiss Santiago as their counselor, and Santiago would live the rest of his life in regret. 

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I think I had one of the strongest signals today, and I really have to pay heed this time. I have done enough regretting.

Rizalman di Life Inspired

Sudah selesai menonton episode pertama Rizalman, rancangan documentary belakang tabir pereka terkenal Rizalman.

5 pendedahan episode pertama

1. The big why Rizalman pada permulaan kerjaya beliau adalah untuk menjaga ibubapanya supaya mereka hidup senang.
2. Mula-mula beliau mahu belajar Interior Design, tetapi tidak dapat, lalu masuk jurusan fesyen di UiTM.
3. Beliau ada personal aide bernama Umie dan a butler bernama Ary. Mereka penting untuk menolong beliau dalam urusan harian, bisnes dan peribadi.
4. Dengan pelanggan-pelanggan beliau, beliau involve 100% dengan penampilan mereka dengan rekaan beliau. Contoh, Datin Sophea dan Dayang NurFaizah.
5. Dalam bisnes dan peribadi, Rizalman mementing ketelusan, usaha dan kerja keras.

Kesimpulan, untuk episode pertama ini, memang menarik sudut Rizalman yang dipaparkan.

Okay, on ke episode ke 2 di Paris!

Tonton Rizalman di channel 728 Life Inspired di Astro.

wohoo ... LITV upload episode 1 di laman youtube mereka :) update 29/6/17


Bonus: Artikel Intrend mengenai beliau di sini.

Day 3 of Ramadhan

Selamat menyambut Ramadhan kepada semua rakan Muslim :)

Ramadan Kareem to all my Muslim readers.

Peace.

Kisah 21 May 2012

Pakcik Linda, abang ibunya meninggal dunia pada 2330, 20 May 2017 di rumah beliau, Binjai, Kelantan.

21 May, pukul 6 am, kami bertolak dari BBBangi ke sana. Sampai pukul 1330. Selesai urusan, sekitar 1630, kami bertolak ke BBBangi, sampai pukul 0115, 22 May.

Jumlah km - 950 km

A few words
AlFatihah kepada arwah
Wow ... Pi balik in one day to up there..
If it can be done, it can be done...

Family is important ...

Fahamkan Causality

Dalam siri The Matrix, Merovingian, salah satu watak berkata, hanya satu perkara yang benar-sebenarnya, iaitu causality, ..action reaction.. Cause and effect. For everything that happens, there must be a reason, a cause. Therefore, doing anything without a reason, cause, is pretty much useless.

True no.. Hmmm...m

Break The Pattern

In order to change the behavior, you have to change the pattern. Make new ones to replace the discarded ones.

Value of Sleep

After all these years, I learnt the value of sleep. Sleep reboots the brain and keeps it sharp. Macam2 dalam kepala anda? Anda cukup tidur?
Setiap orang berbeza keperluannya .. Find one that fits you ...

The Law of Nature

When you go against the laws of nature, you get the results you did not expect, good or bad, more bad than good.

Berbanding dengan apa yang kawan S n kawan J going through, ..  Mine is trivial. When bling is your goal, you tend to lose focus ....

Focus on natural growth and the process for the future ...

Ini Saatnya

The moment has arrived ... What is the judgment?

My twisted ankle

About a week ago, I badly twisted my ankle in front of a Shell station. Thought about the weekend, didn't watch my step and boom, "p***mak" came out. Got some painful foot therapy shortly. Spent Friday work leave rnr at home, hobbling around in the weekend, rehabbing. It's getting better now, and the pain reminds me of the need to focus on what you are doing at the moment.

Be In The Moment, ya dig?

How to Follow Advice

Bila orang bagi nasihat pada kita, lihat sama ada mereka buat apa yang mereka kata.
Lesson of the day- Do as I do, not as I say ...

Semuanya OK

No matter how bad it was, it's okay now. Focus on today for the future.
The past is past...

Gratitude is so so def... ;)

Undang2 Alam

One lesson that I have learnt the hard way in the past, is that laws of nature does apply when it come to life. Simply, you reap what you sow. Especially, when it comes to regrets. Action and consequences, like the Merongivian says in The Matrix Trilogy.

So Sad

Tell me why I feel so sad ... So sad ...

Terima kasih Google atas Doodle P. Ramlee

Terima kasih Google .. thank you Google :)

F is the word

Focus is the F word that should be permanently ingrained in the head.

Focus and Gratitude ... Yep, sounds about right.

Just another page

Focus on what is in front of you ... The past is past ....

Making peace with the past is hard but must be done in order to move on ...

Just a page  in history..

Written while listening to Nobody's Diary by Yazoo ...

Lump Size Head Of Regret

Untuk beberapa hari ini, kepala penuh dengan penyesalan masa2 lepas. Masa berlalu terlalu cepat dan anda masih rindukan zaman2 90an dahulu...
Bila ini berlaku, terus sabar dan fikirkan kesyukuran.. Be grateful but be not satisfied ...
And remember that details lead to action .. 

Tommy Page Is Gone

Beberapa hari lepas, keluar berita penyanyi Tommy Page mati disyakki bunuh diri. Benar atau tidak, tak pasti, tapi lagu-lagunya popular buat generasi 90an.

A shoulder to cry on, dan I'll be your everything masih kekal dalam ingatan ini. Lagu A shoulder to cry on pasti mengingatkan diri ini pada satu ketika yang segar dalam memori Jasin. Nanti saya updatekan ceritanya.

Kata-kata dari album ke 2 beliau Paintings in my mind.. "A picture is moment captured in the memory, while a painting can be anything imagined by the mind ... Soon, all these pictures will become paintings ..."

Benerkan?

And the hits keep on coming ..

Baik atau buruk, anda boleh mengeluh atau bertindak. Saya pilih untuk bertindak walaupun mengeluh kadangkala lebih senang .. 

Semua ini cobaan ....

February 2017 Dalam Kenangan

February 2017 mengajar aku mengenai apa yang benar dan apa yang maya. Bila sudah terpaksa buat, baru sedar sebenarnya boleh buat. Aduh! Dan apa yang ingat boleh buat, rupanya impossible.
Benar kata Einstein mengenai perkara gila .... You are condemned to repeat the lesson as long as you don't learn And apply it!

Perkara Gila

Mempercayai si  penipu berulang kali dan mengharap hasil yang berbeza setiap kali adalah perkara gila.

Jika anda lupa pelajaran ini, anda akan dihukum mengulanginya berulang kali...

Sampai Kapan

Sampai kapan gue harus menunggumu,, bila rindu ini milikmu. Penantian sekian lama tanpa bayang rupa. Atau selama ini aku mengejar bayang ..    ?

Dapatkah aku memanggilmu sayang .....

Dengarlah jeritan hatiku untukmu ..

Soul survivor

When you keep things simple, simple solutions will appear. And simple solutions work way better than complex solutions. :)
I am a soul survivor .. Yeaaahhh.....

Rancang Dan Buat

Sebenarnya kita tidak pernah berhenti merancang, dalam apa pun bidang yg kita ceburi. Macam2, tapi tinggal rancangan saja, kerana tiada tindakan

Jadi, buatlah tindakan ye..

Music is my soul

To deny something that is a part of you is useless, and music is a part of me.
The journey in music began for me in early childhood, assisted by my father, who kept playing Air Supply in the car where ever he's going anywhere.
I listen to most songs, importantly the melody. If I dig, it's on my playlist.

That's why I have boybands, girl band, hair metal, and others.

Gotta feel your soul, right? :)

You know what when you know this

Secara ringkas, bila anda tahu apa yang anda mahukan, anda tahu apa apa yang anda mahukan. Anda akan merangka strategi and rancang tindakan yang anda akan lakukan.
When it is simple, it is clear ....

You can have everything, when you know what your everything is ...

Simplicity In Focus From Wisdom

When wisdom hits you, you become wiser. The only problem with wisdom is that the road to get there usually is painful, nauseating and excruciating.
Watching 'Becoming Warren Buffet', I am struck by his simplicity of his success. Of course, it involved hard work and determination, but what I really liked was Warren knew what he wanted and worked his butt off. And he was happy doing it,
And he focused on the financial markets, and stuff related to it. Singular post.
As I am in my early 40s, it struck me home, made me realized that was the key to my failures. Focus n knowing what you want, and planning it. Step by step

Thanks , Warren.

Plan A dan Plan B

Satu perkara yang saya pelajari beberapa hari lepas, ialah perlunya kita meringkaskan perkara2/benda untuk membuat keputusan. Choose A or B, no C.
It is not limiting your choice, it's about simplifying. Choose two best options and decide. Make the choice and move on.
Minimalism in practice? Hmmm ....

Syukur Itu Indah

One thing about social media is that it allows people to post things they are doing. During the last few weeks, I have seen posts of my friends travelling all over the world. It made me realize that I loved travelling (still do), and I miss it.

So, instead of being envious of them, I chose to be grateful and happy for them that they are enjoying their travels.

I know my time with la familia will come eventually.

Envy and Wrath

If you have not seen the movie Seven, this  post contains spoilers for the movie.

In the ending of the movie Seven, the killer played by Kevin spacey was talking, or psyching, the detective played by brad Pitt, about the last of the two deadly sins, envy and wrath, that he had committed. Envy was when he saw the perfect couple of the detective and his wife played by Gwyneth paltrow. Wrath is when he say the detective will do to him what he committed because of his enviousness. Which actually happened since the killer killed the wife and sent the wife's head to the meeting. The detective just lost it and killed the killer thus fulfilling the final sin, wrath.
When I saw this scene, I totally got the killer's motivation. Myself, I get a bit envious and angry when I see the mofos who f'ed me up during my school/college years, doing well nowadays. Facebook is such a bad envy tool. Not all the time, but the anger is there.
So what stops be from being the badass, is the feeling of gratitude, and believe in what goes around comes around eventually.
But still, there are those dark times ...

Kisah Botol Kaca Nescafe Pecah

Malam tadi semasa emo tentang masa lalu, aku lalai dan menyebabkan botol kecil nescafe jatuh pecah.
Geram, marah dan menyumpah2 diri sendiri, atas lalai dan serabut yang dibuat, salah sendiri.
Setelah melepas geram, terus fikir apa nak buat, dan lakukannya.
Kutip dan buang  sampah.
Mop dan cuci kawasan yang kena
Vakum untuk pastikan serpihan kaca semua habis dikutip.
Pastikan semua dah okay.
Selesai

Settle semua.. Learnt lesson .. It's okay to vent and rant .. Then take action to resolve the problem. 

I think that's the solution to my past emoes. Take actions to get the future you want.

Lesson learnt :)

Nak buat apa untuk terus hidup

Satu persoalan yang ringkas tapi susah untuk dijawab, Nak buat apa untuk terus hidup. Persoalan ini bermain di kepala hujung 2016 lepas.
Dunia ini kian dinamik. If you don't change, you will be changed.
Yang pasti, keluarga diutamakan.
And leaving no major regrets on the deathbed.

3 Songs About Turning Back Time

One time or the other, we want to turn the back the clock. Me too. I get nostalgic for old memories, want to redo some stuff I did.

I woke up from this want when I realized two things

• The past made us what we are today. Love it it hate it, embrace it and learn and apply from it.
• The present is all we have to affect our future. Focus and work on the now for a different and hopefully better future.

Enjoy these songs below

Aqua -Turn Back Time-


Cher -If I Could Turn Back Time-


Johnny Hates Jazz -Turn Back The Clock-

The Real Problem

My problem is not forgetfulness, it is I don't forget.

Masalah aku bukan lupa ingatan, tetapi kuat mengingat.

Memories make us what us human ...

Kebenaran dan Realiti

The truth hurts, katanya ... Tetapi yang lebih menyakitkan kalau tidak menerima kebenaran itu sebagai realiti kita.

Bila kita terima realiti, baru jalan depan akan lebih cerah ...

Kyoto, I miss you ...

Don't Know What You Want Tapi Sudah Tidak Boleh Bagi Lagi Dah

Memberi lebih baik daripada menerima, tetapi berjaga-jaga bila memberi, dan berpada-padalah.

Keikhlasan hati itu penting bila memberi dan hanya anda tahu tentang hati anda ..

Minat dan Komitmen

Bebberapa hari lepas berceramah dengan Zara mengenai apa yg beliau mahu buat. Saya kata dengan beliau... Nak buat apa2 mesti minat Dan Komited untuk melakukannya. Sebab, kalau tidak kena penyakit hangat2 tahi ayam sahaja.

Truth to be told, ini nasihat yg i needed to hear years ago. Oh well, you learn from your mistakes

The last post is related to this as well.

Fokus

What you focus, expands. Buat apa yang perlu dan mahu dibuat.

Yes, sir!

2016 In Review - A Simple Summary

2016 In Memory

Personal

Most Significant No 1 - The Ismail Bros Reunited
Most Significant No 2 - Amirul Harith was born

MRSM Jasin memory - closure ...in a way ....

Work

Same old, same old .... :P though that co-op thing is getting to me ...

Business

Clarity in what to pursue in financial markets & IM

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Bring on 2017 ... a few changes in store...

The Force Is With Me, I Am One With The Force ....