Setiap Kali Aku Memelukmu

Sebelum menjadi seorang ayah, rasanya aku tidak pernah memahami Papa. Tapi, selepas menjadi daddy pada si budak kecik, aku faham sedikit sebanyak apa yang Papa lalui ketika membesarkan kami sekeluarga.

Satu hadiah yang Zara berikan yang amat aku hargai ialah unconditional love. Dan, setiap aku memeluknya, I feel that love.

Zara, daddy loves you and reminds you that you will always be daddy's little girl. :-)

Look At That

Van Der Saar's expression before the goal by Leo Messi in the Champions League final ;-) I wonder what was he thinking ?

Care to fill in the blanks ? :-)

Jasin Dan Dendam

Pada rakan - rakan yang mengenali diri ini sejak Jasin, mungkin kalian tahu yang aku ada berdendam dengan beberapa orang ex-Jasin. Dendam bagaimana, kalian tanya ?

Dendam yang boleh membuatkan gue 'lose control' dan melaksanakan tindakan di luar fikiran.

Beberapa hari lepas, seorang sahabat menyebut salah seorang mereka dan tanpa berfikir panjang, aku terus berkata yang aku mahu pelangkung kepalanya dengan kayu golf wooden driver ( kaki golf tahu apa kayu ini ) dan baru mengajaknya main golf, untuk menghilangkan kemarahan ini.

Individu - individu ini mempunyai set video mereka tersendiri dalam memori. Video yang penuh dengan gambar berwarna-warni dan sound effect Hollywood. Dalam video ini, ada mereka dan aku. Dan ianya sungguh jelas. Sejelas TV plasma Samsung.

" Let bygones be bygones " - Scorp , " Masa tu kita budak2 lagi .. "- CP,

" It is the meaning of the event that maginifies how it affects you ... " - Tony Robbins

Macam pernah aku kata di mailing list group Jasin, kalian bisa menasihati itu dan ini, tetapi yang merasainya adalah aku. Aku yang tidak tahu apa - apa masa itu. Sebelum Jasin, ianya hitam dan putih, selepas Jasin, ianya kelabu.

Dan baru - baru ini, seorang insan yang berada dalam kumpulan ini menegurku. Beliau baru sahaja dalam satu ujian dan kalian tahu apa ku kata. Tahniah. Dendam Kesumat kemarahan itu masih ada dan menyala, tetapi ucapan tahniah was the right thing to do. Kisah insan ini akan ku ceritakan nanti. Kisah yang menukarkan persepsi aku tentang orang berkopiah dan berkuasa, yang sepatutnya menolong / membimbing tetapi menolak ku jauh hanya kerana, " Saya tidak mahu orang sebegini di bawah saya. " Bagi dia, aku insan pelik yang patut bersama insan - insan 'pelik' yang lain.

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Ini bukan kisah yang aku nak ceritakan selepas post ini, tetapi aku luahkan kerana ia sudah lama dalam hati.

Macam aku katakan ... ini semua therapy.

Homeroom V

Dalam sebuah kelas, kami berkumpul buat kali pertama. 5 jejaka, 5 puteri. Nama - nama mereka yang aku masih ingat adalah Azmarul, Abu Hassan, Mohd Yusof, Rusni, Noor Laila, Marina, Fairuza. Yg lain tidak aku ingat. Yang aku ingat pada pertemuan pertama ialah Azmarul dengan songkoknya.

Cikgu homeroom kami ialah Cikgu Rokiah Samion. I think she was alright. Mama begitu berharap yang aku akan dijaga oleh Cikgu Rokiah. I don't think that arrangement really worked out, tapi okaylah kan, Ma begitu bimbang dengan anaknya di sini.

Mungkin nanti aku upload gambar homeroom jika ada dalam simpanan. 

Lepas ini, cerita minggu orientasi ... yang bagi gue, adalah penting kerana ia menemukan gue dengan ' Kartini ' ....  

Masa Lalu Bertemu Masa Sekarang

Pada satu hari, seseorang insan yang pernah mewarnai hidup ini, telah muncul kembali. Aku lihat dan amati diri dia pada masa itu.

Gayanya masih sama :-) Cara percakapannya masih sama :-) Buat beberapa saat, saat - saat manis itu datang kembali.

Itu masa lalu. Bukan masa sekarang. Kata orang, older and wiser. 

Aku bersyukur dipertemukan dengan dia walaupun untuk seketika. Mungkin selepas ini, kami tidak akan berjumpa lagi, tetapi kali ini, aku bahagia kerana ia berakhir dengan senyuman dan mesra.

Fokus aku adalah untuk masa sekarang dan masa hadapan, bukan masa lalu. 

Bertemu Changgang

Lepas pendaftaran, kami ke bilik yg telah diberikan. Aku ingat lagi sampai sana sudah ada sekeluarga di katil sebelah. Kira roommate aku la tu. Budak hitam manis. Kami bersalaman. 

" Azmir "

" Azri "

Kami tidak banyak berbicara masa itu. Sebab ahli keluarga lain ada, jadi masing - masing diam sementara mereka berceloteh. Ayah Azri seorang petani, mereka berasal dari Johol, Negeri Sembilan ... Kg Changgang .. sejak itu, aku panggil Azri Changgang ... sempena nama asalnya.

Oklah, lepas ni aku cerita ttg meeting homeroom pertama.

Hari Pendaftaran Part 3

Sampai di maktab, parking kereta sebelah Dewan Besar ( lama ) dan masuk ke dalam Dewan untuk memulakan proses pendaftaran.

Perasaan : Excited, Nervous

Yang aku ingat ialah betapa hensemnya Ustaz yang menjaga kaunter Tabung Haji, sapa tah namanya. Di situ, aku diberi dua benda yang memberikan kesan penting untuk hidup gue di MRSM. Homeroom dan lokasi bilik dorm gue.

Homeroom V - Vanadium dan dorm Al-Biruni.

Terus ke tempat tidur baru kita !

bersambung lagi ....

Hari Pendaftaran Part 1

11/2/1989 

Satu tarikh keramat.

Seorang pelajar meredah ke pendalaman Melaka untuk meneruskan pengajian Tingkatan 4nya.

Satu dunia baru yang akan mengajarnya kelabu kehidupan.

Akan bersambung nanti ....

FOM Society Prom Night

My observations of the MMU FOM Society Night

1. First time jadi VVIP event, cool ;-) dilayan dengan baik2 sekali .... seronok dan aku nak merasai keseronokan tersebut lagi.

2. Makanannya sedap :-) Hidangan Chinese 8 course dinner yg sedikit yet begitu mengenyangkan ;-) .. there is an eating lesson here ...

3. Duduk di meja VVIP depan ... memang best utk view ... tapi sakit telinga terutama masa persembahan musik .... bingit telinga. Have to bring earplugs next time :D

4. The ambience was great. Sesuai dengan tema dan pesertanya. Tema 'A Walk To Remember' dan pesertanya students MMU ... jiwa - jiwa muda dengan konsep Prom Nite.

5. Konsep Prom Nite .. hmm.... darah - darah muda melaram abis2an terutamanya kaum puteri ... amboi .. ada sampai yg gue tidak kenal ;-) ... kepada yg minta gue bergambar dengan mereka .. terima kasih kerana merakamkan kenangan bersama kalian :-)

6. Band2 yang bermain .... kalian ada bakat dan heart ... cuma sound system yg out mengecewakan ... but it was entertaining .... ;-)

7. Yuna is awesome in live. Beliau perform at the afterparty dance. Beliau perform 4 lagunya .. semuanya best ;-) ....dan suaranya ikhlas.

8. I remember this prom nite better than my last college dinner. The only things I remembered about my college dinner are ... bergambar dengan Wan dan Alfa, bergambar dengan the boys dengan butang top baju batik dibuka .... tunjuk chest tu ...

9. My dressing malam tu was so lah not on the occasion. Rata2 peserta datang dengan evening dress ( ladies ) dan tuxedo ( gentleman ). Gue datang dengan baju batik kuning dan seluar khaki. Fashion disaster it was not ... but ......

10. The Malaysian Dreamgirls Runaway show proved that young boys will still be boys ....:-) and at times, that aint bad :-)

10a. Aku tgk mereka biasa2 sahaja except for one contestant .. those lips dan that bod was giving me the rrooewwwwrrrrr :-) ... turns that she is the youngest of the group .. alamakkkkk .....

11. Ada negative2nya tapi aku simpan utk diri sendiri .... they were just enjoying themselves ...

12. In summary, great show dan event... dan aku tahu ... saat itu adalah saat mereka ... saat aku sudah berlalu di masa lalu ...

Sebab - Sebab Aku Nak Pergi MRSM Jasin

Sebab - sebabnya

1. Nak merasa kehidupan asrama.

2. Nak pengalaman sekolah campur ;-) asyik sekolah boys aja

3. Nak merasa hidup di negeri Melaka

4. Nak pengalaman sekolah campur ;-) asyik sekolah boys aja

5. Nak jumpa member2 baru

6. Nak pengalaman sekolah campur ;-) asyik sekolah boys aja

kalian sudah nampak coraknya ? .. bila berbuat sesuatu, nawaitu itu adalah penting untuk kita mulakan perbuatan tersebut. Dan pengalaman hidup 2 tahun gue di Jasin adalah sedikit sebanyak dipengaruhi nawaitu gue pada masa itu.

Surat Pertama

Aku ingat hari itu. Mendapat surat dari pihak Mara. Tahniah katanya. Anda telah ditawarkan ke MRSM Jasin untuk pengajian tingkatan 4.

Apa yang aku ingat tentang surat tawaran itu ( dah lama dibuang ) ialah ruang tawaran tempat pengajian yang ada bekas liquid paper. Maksudnya, ada tempat lain yang ditawarkan sebelum Jasin. Jadi, aku amati2 bekas liquid paper, boleh baca perkataan MRSM Kuala Terengganu.

Wah, sepatutnya aku ke Kuala Terengganu bukan ke Jasin ke ? Hmm, yang pasti kalau aku ke Kuala Terengganu, kisah ini mungkin berbeza ... sekurang2nya dapat berloghat Terengganu !

Kisah ini bermula....

Kisah2 Sekolah

Dalam posting2 yang akan datang, akan ku ceritakan kisah - kisah sekolah ku di Jasin. Mungkin kalian tidak mahu membacanya, ;-) tetapi aku tidak kisah.

Inilah masanya untuk diluahkan. Supaya kepala ini ringan, kisah diluahkan dan memori - memori itu boleh biarkan aku pergi.

Ada kisah pahit manis, senyum dan ketawa. Ia ada kena dengan yang hidup dan yang telah pergi. Niat hanya menukilkan pengalaman supaya menjadi panduan pada semua.

Tunggu kisah yang pertama ya ....

Nota : Kisah2 ini tidak mengikut susunan masa tetapi akan disebutkan bilanya ....

I Can Still Dream

Saya masih boleh bermimpi dan berharap .. :-) Susan Boyle telah menunjukkan jalan dengan sikapnya yang tersendiri ...

" Now living alone, with only her cat Pebbles for company, she was spurred to enter the competition by a pledge she made to her mother to do something with her life. "

Bila sebab dan kemahuan menjadi kewajipan, cara akan muncul dan kita akan bergerak ke hadapan.

Salah satu reaksi yang menarik mengenai kemunculan Susan datang dari penulis akhbar Guardian Tanya Gold dalam artikelnya, " It wasn't singer Susan Boyle who was ugly on Britain's Got Talent so much as our reaction to her ". Komen beliau bahawa penampilan Susan yang tidak cantik tidak diterima dengan baik oleh penonton pada awalnya, tetapi hanya selepas beliau menyanyi, baru penonton memberikan tepuk sorak gemuruh dan para hakim memberikan komen2 begitu positif. Saya akui Susan tidak cantik. Juga membuatkan saya terfikir wujudnya 'Susan' begini di Malaysia.. yang tidak dapat mewarnai dunia hiburan kita kerana mereka tidak memiliki rupa atau bentuk badan yang 'ideal'. Lihat sahaja program2 realiti TV sekarang ... adakah mereka benar2 berbakat atau cuma pandai berdrama. Tanya sahaja Adibah Noor, jika beliau tidak yakin dan fokus dan percaya dengan bakat beliau, kita pasti tidak akan kenal beliau.

Video persembahan Susan di sini.

KIsah Setakat Ni

Good day.

I have not blogged for a while .. but that does not mean yg I am not online. My FB activities are regular. Cuma, I have so much to write about , yet .... oh well.. might as well write a bit of summary ... get it of my chest

Work

Well, my teaching has been erratic for this current trimester. Perhaps, this situation is due to the change that will occur later this year. Whatever it is, I have learnt a bit about myself this past few months, ... teaching is something I love to do ... but what I teach is also important ...

Business

I have business activities on the side and I think I am a bit stretched here. Each branch has its own demands and I am seriously considering dropping one of them to concentrate on the other two. What would be your advice ? All 3 have the potential to succeed.

Personal

Managing my personal demons have been easier nowadays. Rasanya, sbb I give these events less meaning. Itulah pengalaman hidup yang melakari hidup. Dibuat tauladan dan pengajaran dan kita terus bergerak ke hadapan.

Keluarga

Alhamdullillah, semua baik2 aja. Bulan July, sudah TIGA tahun kami bersama. Begitu cepat masa berlalu. Bulan Jun ini Zara turns TWO. Waa, dah besar anak kami seorang ini. ;-)

Okaylah, later.

gambar dgn webcam ;-) Senyum !

Tired + New Pics

I think I have a lot on my plate right now ... so many things to do yet ... hmmm,... might have to reprioritize ... any suggestions ?

Anyway, here are a few pics for your enjoyment

the last two pictures are the sweetest ones ... :D

You Are What You Eat

Last two days, I have been unwell due to diarrohead .. or in Malay, cirit birit. Unpleasant it is. It actually was due, I think, to some bad stuff I ate at a restaurant here in Bangi.

It got me thinking how sometimes we compromise our personal beliefs in order to get what we want. In this case, it was this makan place. It was a bit dirty but the naan n tandoori was good. After a few visits which did not result in anything bad happening, at last kena juga.

Lesson here, do not compromise your beliefs for short term or you will surely pay for it. As for me, I lost one day of class work plus a few days sitting on the 'throne'.

Santayana's saying, " Those who forgot the past are condemned to repeat it" , rings true.

Trip Advisor Asia Hotel Review

The top 10 dirtiest hotel in Asia review

• 1.First Hotel, Bangkok, Thailand
• 2.Hotel Grand Central, Singapore, Singapore
• 3.The Imperial Hotel, Hong Kong, China
• 4.Royal Peacock Hotel, Singapore, Singapore
• 5.Woraburi Sukhumvit Hotel and Resort, Bangkok, Thailand
• 6.Colmar Tropicale, A French-Themed Resort, Bentung, Malaysia
• 7.Oxford Hotel, Singapore, Singapore
• 8.City Gate Hotel, Hanoi, Vietnam
• 9.Royal Parkview Hotel, Bangkok, Thailand
• 10.Aseania Resort, Langkawi, Malaysia

The link can be found here

so what say you ? Has anyone been to any of the above hotels ?

Lama Tak Jumpa .. :P

hehe ... lama tak jumpa .. long time no posts .. I have been preoccupied with so many things.. anyway, something new just came up ... this is my first picture taken with my laptop camera .. yours truly has one .. after so many years..

Life is good ... mcm2 ada .... some time late this September probably, some change will come ....

A lovely ballad

I don't celebrate it but the song is a nice one about love .. couldn't find a nice one with the original singer, Martina McBride .. Olivia Newton-John pun boleh la ye ...

A return to innocence .... it was there all along ;-)

Another Time To Feed The Beast

The beast wants more ... the beast gets more ..

Feed The Beast

It is time to feed the beast once a while. Like the song below says it all

Focus On What Is In Front Of You

For the past week, it has been a rollercoaster of emotions. Ada ups and downs... :-) One thing for sure, I am better when I focus forward. A lot of my melancholic ramblings then to happen when I look too much at the past.

Perhaps, one of my previous post explained it. I am just doing my best to capture the lost wonderful 'what-if' moments of my past, and in doing so, it has hamstrung me.

Okaylah then .... focus di depan.

Have You Ever Really Loved A Woman

Sometimes, I really wonder about the question posed in the song below .... *sigh*..

Ah well, fiddlesticks :-)

It's Over

I am over it already. It happened a few nights ago. I will move on finally. There is still more things on the horizon that I have to do.

Still, I kinda figured bits and pieces of why I do some things that I do. Of course, I won't share much with you guys, ;-) ... but the theme seems to be recapturing past glories / memories.

Mungkin saya akan huraikan sikit2 ... 

The head feels better already ...

Carpe Diem !

Ladybugs

If you have seen the movie below, you would understand. She did.

Pardon me. I am that close to letting go.

Heart Of The Matter

In the end, it was all about forgiveness. She, asking for forgiveness for what she was back then. Me, for forgiving myself that it was not meant to be. Still, bittersweet it was for me, inside. Tahniah my friend. Your happiness means a lot to all of us, your friends.

A Classic Video

Ni lagu classic juga ... always thought of serenading someone with it ;-)

:) ..

Melancholic

If there was a time to feel really melancholic, this coming weekend would really be it. As the event draws nearer, the memories start to come and go ...

There was a time .. there was a story ... all the ifs... but now, alas.. they remain memories .. bittersweet ...

Last Post 2008

Hmm .. nice picture of fireworks eh ;-) 

2008 merupakan tahun yang sgt2 mengujakan. Pelbagai perubahan berlaku, positif dan negatif tetapi kebanyakannya positif :-) Satu perkara yang telah saya belajar tahun ini ialah untuk bergerak ke hadapan, tembok - tembok  di hadapan kita MESTI kita panjat untuk kita maju.

Areas of Review

Family - hidup suami isteri ni byk cabaran dan kegembiraan. Tidak mcm kisah2 romantic comedy .. ada pahit dan manisnya ... yg pasti, syukur pada Tuhan kerana anugerahNya .. Linda n Zara make my life 'interesting' ... and maybe la ,... just maybe .. no 2 will come along ... ;-) I understand my parents better nowadays ... being a parent has taught me that. Pada Pa n Ma, you did your best for me and I will always be thankful for that. 

Career - oklah first full year ... loads of challenges and it was fun ! Honestly, I love this gig .. and this where I will be ;-) ... I have a lot to improve and I will do so...2009 will see the beginnings of the PHD ( playa hater degree ) :P ..

Personal - the weight ... dulu turun then naik balik ..now maintain ... 2009 by my birthday ( June 09 ) .. it will be different :) ... the demons .. they are further and further back ...

Biz Interests - earlier in the year, I was only interested in one field ... and for the past month, I have included two more ...:-) all are still at their baby steps ... I am following the suggestion that one should have MSI ( multiple streams of income ).. and online seems to be the BEST option for me ;-)

In summary people, the upcoming 2009 will be another interesting year sbb the path looks better and better and clearer ;-) ... All the best and may your wishes come true !

Your friend, Ome.

A step back in 2008

Events in the past few weeks have lead me to realize that 2008 has sort of being of a transition period for yours truly ... yep, transition ..

1) Personal

Personal Mastery has been something which I have been striving for the past year and I have made some significant strides in that area. Especially, in dealing with the past. That part has been plaguing me for years

2) Career

Working for the past year in academia, has been an interesting experience. Of course, ada ups and downs nye .... I am getting grips with academia. Something I love to do and self-improvement and time management are very important.

The above things are what I consider the most important things right now .... 2009 will be wayyy better ;-)

Jangan Cakap Masa Makan

Ada sebab2 mengapa kita dinasihatkan jangan bercakap ketika makan ;-) Di bawah, bagi saya, kata - kata Hagar adalah nasihat yang terbaik :) betul tak ?

U Know The Answer

Have you had a question which you know the answer  ? I bet you did. And I think most of us do. But if you know the answer, why do you keep looking ? I propose that this situation occurs  due to the fact that we do not like the answer and keep on searching for alternative answers that satisfy us. The keyword is satisfy. In the end, it is the ego that needs to be fulfilled 

Want to lose weight ? Eat less and exercise more. Want to be more productive ? Focus on real important task instead of mundane matters. It is easy yet why do you search for alternatives ? In a way, at least for me, it explains why there are huge markets for products / services that cater to these kinds of questions. 

I am writing this post as a message to my readers and also to my goodself. There are never simple answers to everything but there are simple answers to some problems. 

The Lesson of A Lost Tooth

I had a minor surgery today .. removing a gigi geraham bongsu. Being the mercy of the dentist has never been one of my favorite activities, but today was a must do.  Last week, I went to my annual dental checkup at a clinic in Bangi. Normally I would do it in Rawang, but since now I am now staying in Bangi, might as well do it here. The doctor, Dr Mazlina, checked my teeth and gave me the news. The upper left gigi geraham bongsu was dying and sooner or later it would be painful. " Sooner or later ", she said, " it would be very painful and you kena cabut anyway...". After the checkup, I decided to just get an appointment to get the procedure. It was not needed, at the moment but must be done eventually, so I figured, just get it over and done with. I did not think much of the operation till last night. It was scary I guess, but it was something that I had to do to avoid future problems with my teeth. I did the procedure ... sakit la jugak a bit but credit to the good doctor, she was good and it was over in about 20 minutes. Tapi, malu la .. keluar air mata sikit sebab tahan sakit.

The point of the above paragraph is that when it became a must, I took the plunge and was better for it. And, as I feel the empty space where the tooth used to be, I think that single fact is the key for a better future. As Tony Robbins says it, when should become a must, then it will start to work ..

I have a lot of shoulds ... and from now on, those shoulds must change into musts .... a lesson learnt from a lost tooth.

180725 - saja put pix, sbb pix lama is gone :D

A Lesson on RM

Recently for the past two months, I was given the opportunity to do some part time teaching at a private university that catered for adult working students. The money was okay so I accepted the offer. It came at the last minute but it was an opportunity to earn some extra RM.

Bad move.

I do have a passion to teach but the events that happened during this part-time gig, especially in terms of grading, have taught me a lesson. The lesson is simply, teaching for RM and RM only, will lead to disastrous results, as evident by my gig. And if given the opportunity, I will not take it up again. The teaching environment at the university was not conducive and frankly, I was surprised and disappointed with the attitude of most of the students.

Anyway, a lesson learnt.

Where Do You Want To Go ?

The past two weeks have been really intense.. especially in terms of work. Marking, grading and the aftermath. Plus a conference that I was involved in.

All the stress involved lead me to a realization that I still had a few unresolved issues still running around in my world. Especially personal ... and a few of them contribute to my current state that I am in. 

The song below kinda roughly generally explains the whole situation ....

It's Just Love

The end of the year will bring an event which will evoke a certain melancholy in me. The confirmation of the event was made recently. The video never fails to put me in a melancholic mood when I see it.

It's just love I guess ....

Perjalanan Hidup

A few days me and family went to Brunei to visit my parents-in-law. My father-in-law had an operation and it was successful.

Being in Brunei for a few days allowed me to review a bit of my life these past few months. Mostly, my life has improved a bit more ... and there are areas that still need adjustment. One of the areas which I have finally come to terms .. or at least recognize the pain is my Jasin years. Jasin was an important part of my history and now I acknowledge it ... the pain and the joy. The pain of love and loneliness ... the joy of humanity ... hmm... rasanya kan ... boleh buat drama la ... so in the end, while I was flying back to KL... I just turned down the volume and enjoyed the pictures of Jasin. I felt better already after that .... and would like to thank the Jasinians who are still friends with me till now. And Tony Robbins n Adam Khoo for teaching me the formula Event + Response = Outcome

The picture below was taken on last Saturday morning .... I like it as it showed a defiant side that I rarely show :)

Gambar Perkahwinan Penang Jeni

Gambar rakan2 bersama pengantin. Kenduri di Gemencheh, NS.

Kadang2 akan berlaku situasi dimana lakaran hidup dahulu bertemu kembali dan mengingatkan anda pada lingkaran hidup dahulu. Pada hari Sabtu lepas, rakan Jasin yang bernama Penang menjadi suami pada rakan IU10 yang bernama Jeni. Tahniah kalian berdua. Dua Dunia bertemu membawa kembali memori masa silam...

Selamat Pengantin Baru, Semoga Berbahagia ke Anak Cucu.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Zara, Ome, Linda

Salam Aidilfitri dari kami sekeluarga :-) Maaf Zahir Batin. Have fun, Be Safe ... n Jgn Makan2 Too Much :D

Click

For the past few weeks, I am happy to say that many things have began to 'click' for me. How did I know ? When it all suddenly made sense ... many things ... work, business, family et al.

It is true, when you let go what you have been holding on to, everything else makes sense. It is about letting go of your fears, and focusing on your dreams. It is about doing what needs and putting it on paper, so it does not just stay in your head as images and sounds. An important lesson was that it was okay to begin the first few steps as the first few steps are the foundation of the journey :-) Truly a journey begins with the first step.

Check out the talk below by Tony Robbins ... quite enlightening ..

Looking With Patient Eyes

Once a while, when I think how I look to the God, I wonder if He looks at me this way. I thank Him after each solat for His blessings and challenges as they have made me to what I am today and hopefully what I will be ...

Syukur Alhamdulillah for everything.

The video below always brings me along this line of thought....

Post Congratulations

The short trip was very useful .. in a sense, it cleared up things for me and allowed me to see the bigger picture. To a certain extent, as my good friend E told me, it is just old memories playing tricks on me. Eliza is right ... moving on is the thing that I must do. Her prequel day went well :-)

I move on.

Congratulations 2

A follow up ... I think things changed once I noticed I was no longer in her blog links :-) petty huh ....



Today is the prequel day to the big day ...

Congratulations

The news I received late today left me swimming in an ocean of memories. All I can say is... " Congratulations. " At last, she has found the love.



The video above will always be her video.

Funny Muslim PickUp Lines

Courtesy of this blogger, :-) ... below are a list of Muslim pickup lines ... please do not take it seriously ;-)

1. I'm looking for the "Made In Jannah" tag
2. Are those legs halal?
3.OMG!! I just saw part of your hair, now your obligated to marry me..
4. Wanna pray in jamaat? shoulder to shoulder, feet to feet?"
5.wanna date? i bought a whole box when i went to madinah"
6. Marry me so I don't have to lower my gaze everytime you walk into the room..
7. Girl you fine, I see that praying 5 times a day has really payed off
8. Girl when i saw you i said mashallah, then i said inshallah
9. Would you like to help me wake up for Fajr?
10. Are you a Shiite? Because when I saw you, I said to myself, "She aiight"
11.You’re so fine, I wanna marry you, get 10 kids with you and pray domestic jamaah for the rest of our lives.
12. "U thief. u know, its wrong to steal in islam"
"how am i a thief?"
"u stole my heart"
13. Are your feet tired? Because you've been performing Tawaaf in my mind all day long?
14. How would you like to help me fulfill half of my deen?
15. "Nice ankles. Very nice"
16. Girl...I know its haraam "paying" so much "interest" in you...but I can't help myself...
17.wanna ride shotgun on my camel?
18.Girl you fine, TAKBEER
19. Girl you're so hot, you make Shaytan sweat.
20. You are the noor of my eyes.
21. Hey do you want to pray together? Should I call you or Nudge you?
22.Your face shines with so much noor that it could launch a thousand (Jihadi) ships
23. Have your ammi call my ammi
24. You are the reason hijab was mandated.
25. You are the coolness of my eyes.
26. I didn't trip over my robe, I fell for you.
27. You're so beautiful, You would make hur-al-ayn jealous.
28. I have some sort of sickness but Allah*swt* has created a cure, thats you.
29. Sister, I'm not drunk, just intoxicated by you.
30. Any cup of water that you pour for me will taste like Zam Zam.
31. The noor on your face is soo strong, I think I'm going to go blind!
32. "Hey I'm a nice muslim boy and you seem like a nice muslim girl, so what do you say we make a halal match?"
32.Allah created everything in pairs, so what are you doing single?
33.Sister For a moment I thought I had died and gone to heaven. Now I see that I am very much alive, and heaven has been brought to me.
34.Our parents engaged us when we were little, they must have forgotten to tell you.
35.I'd like to be more than just your brother in Islam.
36.To watch you pray is a sin of its own.
37.Will my platinum VISA cover your dowry?
38.You can't play basketball with a hijab on, marry me, and we will go one-on-one our entire life.
39. Muslims are supposed to have many children, and I am willing to do my part...
40. Will you help the cause of the Ummah by helping me fulfill my deen?
41.What school of thought do you follow because I thought about you all through school.
42.Do you believe in the hereafter? Oh you do? Then you know what I'm hereafter.
43.It must be Laylatul Qadr. Because that's the night that angels come down from Heaven.
44.I've had to fast every day since the day that I first saw you.
45.Would you like to share my prayer-mat?
46.I'm not sure of the Nikah process. Can you help me through it?
47.I just made dua for YOU
48.I think I just lost my wudu by the sight of you.
49. I'm not staring, I'm just enjoying my first and only allowed look.
50.Sister, you are a hijabi fitnah.
51.I'm new here, can you take me to the closest masjid?
52.You make me realize why we're asked to lower our gaze so much
53.I love the way your Abaya flows when you walk
54.I dont need mahr...YOU are my mahr
55.Do u remember me?...from the alam al-arwah?
56.Is it me or is it getting a lil halal in here?
57.Assalamu alaikum, so what time does a hur al-ayn like you have to be back in paradise?
58.Black is definately your color.
59.Girl if lookin at u is gunnah then i don't want to get any sawab
60.Your father must be a printer cuz your picture has been plastered in my mind all day..
61. (If you don't get this, you can ask the person)
"Baby did you just have eggplant? Because you're BANGAN"
62. Do you work for al qaeda? u hijacked my heart
63. girl you're so sweet, when I tasted you I was like AYY! Sunni!! (as in.. oww my tooth)

Argghhhh

Nice title ain't it ... :P ... during this trimester, my Wednesdays are the most stressful, as I am teaching 6 hours on this day. 2 hours pagi and 4 hours ptg. ....

Urghh .. at the end of the day .. my thoughts were echoed by the song below ...



oh well , in the end, I want to do the thing below ...




:-) some great music eh, from 80s n 90s .... in truth, what does not kill make you stronger ... and in the end ... each time, I learn something new ... still, its damn f**king trying at times !

Goodbye + Missing SomeOne + Da Future

Part I

My grandmother ( father side ) passed away last weekend. Her passing brings closure to one of the difficult times of my life. When I heard the news, I was actually relieved. Goodbye, Busu, may you rest in peace and find the happiness you have been searching.

Part II

I am missing a friend, but then I don't think the person misses me at all. It got me to thinking about the idea of letting go. I do not want to let the person go, but I think I have to la ...sticking to a picture of how it was in the past ain't gonna help about how the future is going be.

Part III

The future looks better nowadays. In a way, it is due to me being active in deciding what to do about it. Granted, I have not covered everything yet ... but in due time, in due time. Have a plan. Create strategy based on plan. Execute. Be prepared for kinks, and work it out.

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A few upcoming weddings and stories coming up. Will keep all posted ;-)

Congrats to Da Couple

A bit late but I want to wish 'Congratulations' to the Da Couple on the arrival of Jada Kyra. Their lives won't be the same again :-) ...

Reminds me when Zara came along .. adjusting to her took us a while. Come to think of it .. still adjusting mah :) ..

A way to let go of the past, is to be comfortable with the past .... if you are not comfortable with it, it still clings on ...

Whose Line

This clip of episode of Whose Line Is It Anyway is freaking hilarious !! :D

but all that comedy does not hide the true pain inside ....

Untukmu Sayang - Febians

Lagu di bawah ni betul2 mengingatkan gue kembali kepada seorang insan itu masa Jasin dulu :) ... phewwittt .... dang, it was sweet ! .. pada kawan2 Jasin, pasti ingat lagu di bawah .. meletup masa zaman kita dulu .. a Malay version of 'More Than Words' .. enjoyz !! :D

Sepi + Criminal Minds

1) Sepi

Aku menonton Sepi petang tadi. Pada pendapat aku, ia adalah salah satu filem Melayu yang bagus sejak kebelakangan ini. Tahniah kepada Kaber Bhatia + pasukan, kerana menghasilkan satu karya yang mebuat aku bangga dengan filem Melayu. Tidak ada unsur2 melalut dan merapik, tidak seperti karya seorang professor. Kisah Adam adalah yang paling mengesankan kerana aku pernah melaluinya, kisah Sufi mengingatkan aku tentang keluarga dan cinta dan kisah Imaan membuat aku menghargai kehadiran orang2 yang ku sayang.

The photography, the mood and the dialogue was perfect.

2) Criminal Minds - North Mammon

Just watched the episode earlier tonight. And it struck a nerve. Suffice to say that it triggered a few memories of high school n college years. I see the point of the main protagonist, the reason he did the things he did. But that is no excuse. I would have used the same excuse years ago ... but not anymore. As I learnt a few years ago, we all have the power of choice in how we respond to the going-ons in our life.

Like the comment I made in this blog post, one of the key moves I made was to define my own success / failure. It is still evolving ( mind you ) .. but I am not worried much about it. I know where I want to go ... at least there is a destination at the end of the journey.

I still have some minor issues with my past, but most of the time, I am at peace with it... those that troubled me are the ones that are still unresolved. But I am on the way to resolving them.

One last thing, most of the methods of the self-help and motivation books available in the market do actually work. To read it is one thing, but the key to improve / change, is to practice it.

10 Minutes

My friend's wife passed away last week. It was due to heart failure, her two heart arteries were congested.

It was a big surprise as she was fine and dandy the last I met them about a few weeks ago. So, on that night, as I rushed to meet him, I reflected how these moments show us how short and unpredictable life is at times.

As I met him, the first thing he said was " 10 minutes ". " Huh ? " " It took only 10 minutes for her t0 pass away " .. later he elaborated the incident .. suffice to say, it happened to quickly for him and his children to do anything much about it. A post mortem later revealed the problem, with her heart. It seems that the symptoms did not appear till it was too late.

He and his kids miss her terribly, but I am sure the pain will go away slowly ..... but, the thought of her will always be with them.

To my friend, Nasir + family.. my condolences and I hope you will be strong for your children. To Allahyarham Linda, may you rest in peace.

Al-Fatihah. Amin.

Always tell your loved ones, that you love them.

Cerita Itu Dan Ini

Cerita 1

Zara baru sahaja sembuh dari chicken pox. Syukurlah .. namun, aku tidak dapat menghadiri dua majlis kenduri, satu di Seremban dan rakan blogger di KL. Sedih a bit, tetapi, hati ini tidak begitu mahu ke mana2 majlis kenduri tanpa dua permata hidupku. Linda N Zara ... err, boring la tanpa mereka.Kepada rakan blogger, Nat, ampun dan maaf gue pinta kerana tidak dapat menghadirkan diri. Was really looking forward to it. Nat, I wish you the very best and hope you n hubby will be happy ever after :-) Ingat my nasihat ye ;-)

Cerita 2

Sudah hampir 10 bulan aku bekerja di bidang ini, dan I know I made the right decision :-) Walaupun pendapatannya tidak setinggi yang mana sepatutnya bagi taraf aku sekarang, tetapi kepuasannya adalah pada tahap maksimum, sejak aku mula bekerja. Baru - baru ini, setelah mencongak apa yang patut .. rupa-rupanya, ada peluang, dengan perancangan betul, untuk aku masih meneruskan perjalanan dalam bidang ini, sambil menjalanka aktiviti-aktiviti lain yang ku gemari - membaca dan melancong. Insya-Allah, semua dalam perancangan :)

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Things are looking better, God Willing :-)

Chicken Pox, Work Issues, N Finally ....

1) Chicken Pox

My dear daughter, Zara, is having the chicken pox since last Saturday. Pity for her .. luckily, she is exhibiting her usual perangai even though she is a bit unwell. Her mummy is taking of her for the past two days. Tomorrow and Friday, it will be the turn of her CikTi. We are not sending her back to the nursery until she gets well, which probably be next week. I am cool about it, but Linda is more worried than I am ;-) ... but she is recovering.

2) Work Issues

Aduh, kerja semester agak bertimbun berbanding semester lepas. Bilangan pelajar bertambah hampir enam kali ganda, dan juga jumlah jam mengajar ( teaching hours ) adalah pada tahap maksimum. Memang rasa penat, terutama sekali pada hari Rabu yang baru lepas. Hari yang paling sibuk. Ketika menulis post ini, minda ku tepu seketika ... tepu kerana ada pelbagai tugasan yang belum disiapkan lagi, di mana tarikh menghantarnya adalah esok !

3) Akhirnya

Pada seorang sahabat ini... baru ku sedar tentang pentingnya bagi diriku untuk melepaskan mu.. supaya segala kisah masa dahulu disimpan baik2 untuk nostalgia. Terbanglah engkau sahabat .. aku relakan kau pergi dan berbahagia. Terima kasih kerana menjadi seorang sahabat. Walaupun kita tidak serapat dahulu sejak kebelakangan ini, aku mendoakan kebahagiaanmu dan perlunya untuk kau terbang ke awan.

You have to let go one by one ...

Nasihat Untuk Orang Nak Kahwin

Bulan Jun adalah bulan kahwin. Aku sudah menerima 5 jemputan majlis perkahwinan untuk dihadiri. Dalam 5 jemputan, satu adalah daripada rakan blogger ini. Syukurlah beliau telah menemui kebahagiaan akhirnya. Walaupun aku tidak mengenali beliau secara dekat, aku tahu yang dia telah melalui banyak peristiwa hati yang bisa melemahkan jiwa.

Nasihat aku pada beliau adalah mudah, iaitu sabar dan redha. Kedua-duanya adalah hasil pengamatan diri ku sendiri, walaupun baru melangkau dua tahun usia perkahwinan ku dan Linda.

Sabar - bersabarlah dengan perjalanan perkahwinan. Ada pasang dan surut. Ada ketawa dan menangis. Ada bising dan diam. Ingatlah bahawa si dia tidak sempurna dan kau juga begitu. Tetapi, bak kata Andhra N The Backbone, kau adalah sempurna untuk dia dan sebaliknya, InsyaAllah.

Redha - akan datang masanya, sekali - sekala, dalam masa ombak2 perkahwinan, terutama sekali bila hati kau diguris oleh si dia , kau bertanya diri sendiri, mengapa aku kahwin dengan si dia ? Adakah ianya berbaloi, tanya kau lagi ... pada saat ini .. redha lah. Semua ini adalah ujian yang kita tidak lihat hikmahnya sekarang, tetapi satu hari nanti.

Inilah sahaja nasihat aku pada mu, sahabat yang akan berkahwin nanti.

Zara is 1 year old today

She is one today :-) What a miracle ....

The Best Post For Harga Minyak Naik

Ladies n Gentlemen,

This post is the best post on the harga minyak naik, bar none. I was literally laughing my ass off reading this post ... :D Check it out !

My take on the fuel hike : Najib is a liar ( No fuel hike after PRU ) ; Shahrir is a liar ( It is still June la .. not August !! ) ; Pak Lah just ikut script saja .....

We have to make necessary adjustments ... ye ye .. also adjustment in Govt ? ;-)

Please Help Sufi

I found this appeal at the blog link here .. and as I have a little girl myself ... tersentuh juga jiwa ini ... so guys please donate if you can.. even a token RM 10 would surely help ... so in my part, I am donating some RM and putting the banner under my blog post which advertises her plight.

My thanks.

Isy .. masa ni rasa nak peluk Zara .. I miss my daughter all the time ...

I Love My Job :-)

One of the things that I really enjoy nowadays is ..surprise, surprise .. is my current job. I have worked here for the past 8 months .. since Sept 07 and honestly, I don't feel that time has passed me by .. it was so quick. It is true ... once your work is something you love, it does not feel like work at all :D ... very cliche huh ...

Anyway, I just finished my first full teaching semester and marking the exam papers and giving out the sem grades. Ahh, not easy as it seems and makes me appreciate my previous lecturers ;-) .. it was a good experience and I plan to make next trimester even better ... this trimester I had a class of 40 students, while next trimester will be a class of about 100 + .. talk about a workload upgrade eh.

To the peeps who are looking for their dream job, actually you know it already. It is inside of you ... just listen carefully to your heart and the details will be there... :-)

For My Friends

The video below is dedicated to all my friends ... it reminds me so much when I had just arrived in the USA, around August 93, to continue my studies in DC ...

Laser Focus

For the past week, I have learnt that the myth about the power of focus is actually true. So, L & Gs, please focus and do not spread yourself out too thin.

I have decided to focus on things that really matter to me. Wont bother you about the details, but suffice to say .. I am letting go of some items which I thought I wanted to do, but are not really what I wanted to do.

In fact, successful people are focused in what they do, only now I have come to realize it ... or really realized it and actually see it. I tried to be jack of all trades but was just stretching myself too thin. I think the obsession to do everything is due to not wanting to be left out ..

So, my friend, changes will come .. and it will continue ....

ps / check out the book 'Awaken The Giant Within' by Tony Robbins ... an interesting piece of reading ... am nearly halfway through ...

The Jasin Chronicles : Cerita2 Dewan Selera

Dewan Selera or DS for short adalah tempat di mana makanan disediakan untuk pelajar2 Maktab. Makan Pagi, Makan Tengahari, Makan Malam, Minum Petang, Minum Malam.
Aku ingat lagi abang2 dan kakak2 pekerja .. bukan semua .. sebahagian aje la .. yang aku ingat is warna uniform mereka ( hijau tua ) dan boot Phua Chu Kang hitam mereka. Kadang2 fikir, pelik juga .. sebab apa ye pakai boot mcm tu tapi kerja di bahagian dapur ? ..oh well ... Ada 4 orang yang aku ingat .. dua perempuan dua lelaki .. nama2 mereka .. Abg Lembut, Abg Misai, Kak Garang, Kak Selamba.

Abg Lembut ni memang lembut .. tapi lembut yg membebel .. bila tgk dia buat kerja ( menghidang et al ) ... rasa2 ni dia ni garang kot ..

Abg Misai pula seorang yang santai je .. buat kerja muka sempoi ... pernah sekali aku kena marah sebab tercakap perkataan kesat ... actually, not to him tp dia terdengar .. menegur kot ..

Kak Selamba ni cool orangnya .. hmm.. bila dia buat kerja, muka tu la .. muka selamba seposen .. tidak ada emosi langsung .... mungkin dalam kepala dia , pelbagai perkara yang dia fikirkan ..wallahualam.

Kak Garang pula adalah seorang yang garang. Muka pun memang garang .. kalau cakap dengan bebudak student ni, nada kadang2 mcm nak mengherdik kita aje ... yg tak best is kalau dia bertugas menghidang untuk makan tengahari / makan malam ... nampak sgt kedekutnya bila meletakkan makan atas tray kami.

Di DS, tray yang digunakan adalah tray stainless steel empat segi .. oklah .. senang nak basuh ...

Makan Yang Disediakan di DS kira ok aja ... edible and fit for human consumption ... ;-) breakfast paling aku tidak suka is roti n telur. Telur tu dimasak style pressure cooker .... makan tengahari dan makan malam biasanya nasi dan lauk pauk biasa .... kadang2 lauk tu ada yg basi atau tidak bagus ... kalau nak tahu lauk tak bagus / basi ... bau lauk itu sendiri atau tidak ada abang / kakak DS untuk menghidang .... depa pun mcm tahu2 je ...

Ada bebudak ni kadang2 ambik lebih lauk ... esp kalau diberi peluang mengambil lauk sendiri ... bagi aku .. tak kisah sgt la ... tapi kalau Kak Garang nampak, dia marah oo .... siap tempelak lagi ...

Perkara terakhir yang tidak akan aku lupa is cara abang2 pekerja DS melap meja makan setiap hari selepas tamat makan malam. Selamba je, dia ambik mop ( tah dipakai untuk mop lantai ke ) dan terus lap meja.

Jadi malam2 masa Prep, students yang have to study di DS, akan menghabiskan masa 5-10 minit pertama, membersihkan meja yang mereka menggunakan sbb punyalah melekit meja tersebut selepas dibersihkan ;-)

The Jasin Chronicles : Roomate

Pada hari pendaftaran masuk ke sini, kami diarahkan ke Dewan Besar. Ramai rakan2 sekalian yang bersama .. berpakaian serba biru atau serba cokelat. Pelbagai perkara yang diselesaikan .. yuran2, laporan perubatan dan kalau ada yang mahu .. ASB dan Tabung Haji.

Setiap pelajar baru diberikan lokasi bilik mereka dan juga homeroom. Aku tidak ingat which one came first .. tapi aku ingat lawatan kali pertama ke asrama ku.

Blok asrama di mana bilik gue adalah blok di hujung kawasan blok asrama putera. Ground floor, pintu masuk dorm on the right side. Hmm... bukan bilik2 sebenarnya ... cuma kawasan2 partition dinding kau setinggi leher .. dua katil setiap partition. 'Bilik' gue was in the middle... dekat2 dengan pintu masuk ke kawasan bilik air ...

Oh ye .. nama dorm itu adalah Al-Biruni ;-) Al Birunians represent !

Kami bukan yang pertama sampai. My roommate sudah sampai dengan keluarga beliau. Agak hitam manis dan pendiam. Ayah ibunya agak berusia berbanding dengan kedua ibubapa ku.

" Azmir "
" Azri " ...

Ibu bapa kami berdua yang berbual sesama mereka. Azri datang dari Kg Changgang, Johol.

We didn't talk much masa tu .. sebab ahli keluarga2 masih lagi ada. Yang aku ingat selepas itu ialah percubaan PERTAMA ( first time ever ) memasang kain cadar putih pada katil. Oh man, what an attempt :)

Hmm.. little that I know that perjalanan kami akan menjadi menarik tetapi pendek. Beliau meninggal dunia pada awal Reformasi 98. Innalillah.

AlFatihah.

The Jasin Chronicles : A Shoulder To Cry On

Tengahari itu, genap beberapa minggu aku 'bermastautin' di Jasin ni. Hmm, aku tidak sangat merindui keluarga di KL. So far, hidup di sini, has been a minor culture shock. Hmm.. apa ye .. daripada campur lelaki perempuan kepada wujudnya student mostly Melayu di mana2 sahaja. Sebelum ini persekolahan ku di sekolah2 di mana wujudnya pelbagai kaum.

Makan di sini diadakan di Dewan Selera ( DS ). Dari blok asrama, ia adalah dewan terbuka , sebelah kiri dewan adalah untuk pelajar puteri manakala sebelah kanan adalah pelajar putera. Di kawasan tengah hadapan dewan adalah kaunter di mana makanan disediakan, di mana abang2 dan kakak DS meletakkan makanan untuk pelajar yang beratur. Di sini telah terserlah satu budaya , junior dan senior ... bukan mengikut tingkatan tetapi kemasukan pelajar, iaitu batch masuk Form 1 n batch masuk Form 4.

Ada sebuah tv di DS ini. Ia terletak di hadapan kawasan pelajar putera. TV inilah lifeline bagi pelajar putera. Kalau tidak ada TV ini, there will be no TV for the male student population di sini. Bagi pelajar puteri, tv terletak di blok mereka.

Setelah mengambil makan tengahari, nasi dan lauk, aku mencari tempat untuk duduk. Aku ingat lagi .. aku sedang berdiri memegang tray dan di belakang ku, terdengar suara tv sedang berkumandang. Aku lihat ramai pelajar yang sedang makan menumpukan perhatian kepada tv. As usual, the tv was loud. Ada sebuah lagu berkumandang and agak menarik lagunya ... rupa2nya, sebuah lagu balada. Aku lihat sekilas ke arah kawasan pelajar puteri .. waduh, ada yang dengan duduk dekat2 kawasan pelajar putera pun sedang tekun melihat tv kami.

Later, I found out that his song was the current 'in' song of the moment. Lagu Tommy Page " A Shoulder To Cry On " ... later in my Jasin life, I will understand the words better ... but that is another story :-)

The video is posted below ..

Introducing My New Biz

I have another blog .. you can check it out here ... it is for those who wish to lose weight effectively and safely :-)

Liverpool N Life

On a high note, Liverpool beat the Gunners 4 -2 at Anfield, with 5 - 3 aggregate. Match reports can be found here and here :-)

Ah, the Champions League ;-) since 2005, Liverpool have appeared in 3 out of 4 semis, not bad, that is way excellent. Compare to the other English clubs, Pool seem to do better in Europe than England.

However, it is going to be Chelsea ( again ! ).

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One thing that Liverpool teaches me about life all the time is you have to move on and take action, even though things are not going well.

You'll Never Walk Alone !

The Future is What You Make Of It

The Future is what you make of it. :-)

Itulah kata - kata keramat yang diutarakan oleh Doc Brown kpd Marty McFly di penghujung Back To The Future III.

In the pursuit of the future, one thing clear is there is no shortcut. Tidak ada short-cut. That is the lesson learnt and relearnt recently.

I miss my friends. What I miss is the camarederie and simply just catching up with each other. I will be the first to reach out from now on.

I love my wife n daughter. Sometimes, they drive me nuts ;-) but they are the apple of my eye. It does help to see their pictures everyday, scrolling around the desktop.

Whatever that needs to be done, must be planned. Then it is all easy from there. And incorporated into all plans, the delay of instant gratification. Gratification is only accepted when the plan has been executed and succeeds.

A chat with Tiger

Check out this conversation with Tiger Woods. You can listen and understand what fuels this great golfer...

For Manchester United Fans Only

To MU Fans Only :-

I am selling two magazines that featured Manchester United's Champions League Glory during the 98/99 season, part of the Treble, on EBAY UK.

The link to Shoot Magazine is here.
The link to Match Magazine is here.

Please go there for further details. If you wish to buy either or both, Happy Bidding :D

Hung Up On Memories

For the past few days, memories have come back again. Memories of Jasin especially and DagangNet.

I am still hung up on these memories , at times, dwelling on the what-ifs, etc.

*sigh* it is time to the let that ship sail. I will let it go,.. as I have the rest of my life to live.

A current photo of Zara :-) cute eh ... taken at a friend's wedding...

The Big Duhh

Although the news here is US-based, I think a Malaysian perspective should apply :D

Dah Lama Tak Blog

A Haiku

Lama tak blog
macam2 dalam kepala
semua nak keluar
tapi semua tunggu siapa dulu

bagaimana ?

Letting Go

This post has two songs...

More Than That

This song below was for this lady that I had a major, major jones for. The day she told me that she had a bf, I went into a funk. Penangan power beb .... I still remember her love for Weezer ;-) .. she would complaint how her bf didn't treat her right, bla2 ... while not knowing that in front of her was this guy who was willing to take care of her. She married her bf..yes, I went to the wedding. I know that she is happy so far. I have not met her for a long time, but we talked via phone or sms once a blue moon. And when we do ... the butterflies that I had for her is still there ;-)



Where Do I Go From You ?

The second is for my best lady friend who got married a few years ago.  
Truthfully, we were buds since we were 13. She is my longest serving friend ;-) ... I think when she told me she was getting married ... I kinda had a lump on my throat a bit. We had a friendly wager that if we were single by the time we hit the big 3-0 then we would hook up. Heheh... she beat me by a few years. She has a little girl now and is a teacher. Still geng lagi after all these years ... :D




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I have a few friend weddings this year and a lot of memories ...

First Post Poem of 2008 Part I

In the honor of a certain 'Datin', I would like to write an inspirational poem in BM.

Inspired by this and that and this, baby ... it's like this ...

Part I


Ada orang kata dunia ini akan menggulung saya

Saya bukanlah alat paling tajam di bengkel

Makwe tu nampak bodoh dengan jari2 dia berbentuk L di dahinya

Tahun2 mendatang dan mereka tak berhenti2 datang

Mengikut undang2 dan saya berlari2 gila

Tak masuk akal untuk tak hidup untuk seronok

Otak semakin bijak tetapi kepala jadi bodoh


Banyak nak buat banyak nak tengok

Jadi apa salahnya ambil jalan belakang

Kalau tak pergi, tak tahu la pulak

Kalau lu tak terang, lu tak glamer la weii

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Part I tidak ada kena mengena dengan kumpulan Mulut Hempas ... kalau ada persamaan pun, sungguh2 tidak disengajakan ... nak makan Cake ?

Datin oh Datin ... dah le masa kahwin buat hal ... ini pulak sungguh la blatant bengongnya ..

what a colorful 2008 so far ...

Last Post of 2007

The theme of this final post is " The More Things Change, The More It Seems Normal" :-)

Well, the last day of 2007 is upon us. 2007 has been a very momentous year for yours truly. So many things that I have done. So many things I wish I did. So many things I wish I didn't do .. ;-)

I am still a work in progress. However, this year I have been brave to try some new things

Family

The arrival of Zara :-) Our precious princess ... life has been different with her around for us .. but she is a joy and a blessing. I am still learning on my role as hubby and daddy ( something yg I think will never end ) ... overall, I am grateful for mi familia.

Personal

I have in some part achieved some of my personal goals 2007, overall I give myself a passing grade. But I will do better in 2008 in the major areas of my life.

Career

Earlier this year, I set a goal that I was to be in the academia by September 2007. Honestly, it was a minor joke actually, to begin with. I just started work at my previous workplace as an Account Manager and probably leaving there was the last thing in my mind. It was a nice place, but my soul was not in it in the end. When I received my Masters in May, I knew academia was my calling. For a while, my efforts were really fruitless, but I stuck to it. Getting my current gig is a minor miracle and syukur alhamdulillah, it is a blast so far. Honestly, it is not work I( cross my fingers ! ) so far. I am blessed with a good boss and loads of people around willing to help.


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Ladies and Gentlemen, if there is ONE lesson I learnt this year and wish to impart to all of you is this simple statement : YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR OWN LIFE :-) No one else is ...

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May 2008 lead us to bettr things :-) My thanks for being a loyal reader to this blog :D

You're In Love

This song was flying in my head today. I guess because it is due to the news I heard and the future that might be.



Let it go, my dear Ome.

My Future Crib

Below is the video to my future crib :D

Check it out kay ! He is renting from me at the moment :D

So Many Happy News

Today has been a good day ( personally ) for good news of friends.

To Acat n Cookie, the fruit of their offspring is on the way. Even though it is still early, take care okay !! The story on her and his blog about the news is quite interesting ... hehehe .... I am still reminded the day my wife told me that she was positive and carrying Zara. The first word that came out was " Alamak ! '  hehehe .... but I didn't get morning sickness ;-) Acat apparently is ... :D

To Binxie, this piece of news was really good ! Imagine, her rezeki and to top it off, she is going back to her old place with a better position ( and better pay ). This lady deserves it, after mcm2 that she has been through .... ACCA, her old office bla2s ... it's true kan Binx, what does not kill you makes you stronger ;-)

Both news helped to cheer up my day a bit. Especially what happened earlier in KL ... but that is another blog.

ps / more musings to come ...

The Sabo of Me

I read this article yesterday and it got me thinking. A lot of my missed opportunities in the past were due to this line of thinking.

In the guise of thinking things over from all angles, pretty soon you would arrive at a conclusion of not pursuing / doing anything. And then, lo and behold, somebody does it, you berate yourself for not doing it, feeling down, letting the event affect your psyche.

In the end, you are scared of trying / doing anything new and challenging as you prefer to be on the safe side.

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I am currently reading the book on the founder of Genting, Lim Goh Tong. Quite a good read as he tells his life story. Actually, I have noticed this book eons ago, but since his death, I told myself to get his book and read it. It is a good book and it is full of honest to goodness stuff of inspiration. Wonder if other Malaysian tycoons would come out with something similar ? I would love to read about Ananda Krishnan and Mokhtar AlBukhary.

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Am not well today and yesterday. A case of diarrohea from a wedding semalam. Blergh :(

Football Is Back N Musings

Yo Amigos .. if you are into American Football, this site is back up !

Letting Go is Easy, but some times, it comes back and says hi :-) ... and what do you do when it says hello ... ? .. you say hello back :D

I admire this lady .. she got spunk I tell ya ! :-)

Da Return Of Da Mind

To my blog readers, the Mind of Pet is back up and running :-)

Tu Amor

I so love this song below .. a very sweet song :-)



Tu Amor by RBD


As I was watching my daughter sleep, I felt blessed with the little angel. In a way, I realized that my life is really changed. She is going to be five months old soon ... yet, I felt like it was only yesterday she was born ...

Issk .. tgh jiwang ni ;-)

ps / Mind of Pet / American Football will be active again .. real soon :-)

The Discovery Of Envy

Finally confronted the awful truth. There was something inside of me that hindered my progress towards a better life. The enemy is Envy.

To be honest, I did not really think much about it until a few days ago. When I realized this, I decided to consciously become aware when the feelings materialize.

It materializes whenever I hear / see people I personally know being successful at whatever they do. I became envious and had thoughts of their success being 'bad' and wished they would fail. Unknowingly, I sabotaged myself.

What is the cure ? The cure is the healing process. Now, every time after I perform my solat, I would offer a prayer of gratitude, thanking God for all that He has given me. I feel now that my soul is lighter a bit.

Syukur alhamdullillah for all that I have ... focus on what you have and want to have :-)

For My Old Friend N Updates -- Changes

I am planning a few changes for my blogs ... yes, The Mind Of Pet & Pet American Football will be back up and running too ... also this blog too ...

I miss an old online friend, Rafthah from Singapore.. I wonder how she is doing now ... anyway, the song below is for her .. :-)

Get Rich Or Die Trying !

I am gonna get rich or die trying ! :D

Have a good week ahead folks !

How Do I Sell A Movie Poster ?

Dear readers,

I have a signed movie poster that I want to sell.

The movie : Indonesian movie UNGU VIOLET starring Dian Sastro and Rizky Hanggono
Size : 65 cm ( width ) X 90 cm ( height ) .... estimated
Condition : Good ... ( Not torn la ... ;-) )

The poster is a poster that was signed by both main stars ( Dian and Rizki )

Would really appreciate feedback on where can I sell this item :-)

Gracias

Back From Kampung

Back from Kampung ... lots of relatives, lots of memories ... something new must begin ;-)

To Zsarina, thank you for invite,.. ampun kerana terlalu sekejap !

Selamat Hari Raya

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to my Muslim readers and Happy Hols to the rest :-)

To go somewhere, you must know where to go, right ? Or is the first step important ?

FREE Internet Marketing Report

If you guys are into internet marketing, check out this free report here. It is about how the situation is like a dead Lamborghini at a dead-end road.

Why la tak guna Proton Perdana ke or Putra .. lagi cool kan ? :D

Again, the link is here ..

Here's Looking At Ya

I am adjusting on my time to my new workplace. It is kind of bliss ... flexi hours ... :-) ... I have considered this gig to be the one that I have dreamed of ... however, tomorrow ... another employment opportunity, where the monetary rewards are substantial. What do you do ? Here, where I am ... the RM is not exactly top of the line .. where else there .. the RM is good .. but I have always preached to others ... follow your heart, don't follow the RM .. is it time for me to follow my own wisdom ?

I guess ... the ding-donging is due to the fact of life necessities nowadays ... on one hand you want to follow your dreams ... on the other hand, you want security.

Decisions .. decisions ....



me and jr watching tv .. further pics can be seen under Baby Zara section here.

Where You Are Now

1) Here

Now, I am at my new spot ... in academia, in a semi private university. Funny thing is, around May this year .. I told myself that I will be teaching in academia, by September this year. And, walla, the opportunity appeared.

So here I am .. at a new world. Since  I had already decided to go into academia the day I decided to pursue my Masters, I didn't hesitate to accept the offer when it came.

It has been a easy going process so far. I would not be teaching till this November, as the current semester is about to end. Rather, I am getting used to academia flow, if there is such a term.

2) Future

The future is what we plan and make of it.. what was in the past, stays there. Repeat this phrase :-)

3) Album

I have included a link to my Flickr album. More pictures will be updated soon ;-)

Tgh Blues

Right now .. I am feeling bluesy .... the song below captures my current mood .. haiyaa .. so jiwang mah ....

A Dedication To All My Friends

To all my friends, I dedicate this song to you guys ... always in my thoughts ....



- the audio is a bit off though .... a very beautiful song ....

ps/ I have begun a new journey..hopefully my Personal Legend :-)