A few LP related links

Kerrang interview with LP  

Spin 2003 cover story

Spin review of Hybrid Theory 

Chester of Linkin Park Is Dead

I posted this note below on my Facebook upon hearing Chester's suicide

If you google his name right now, there are probably tributes on how he gave a voice to a lot of angry people. I am one of them.

When Hybrid Theory came out, I didn't pay much attention to it at first, as I was not that into 'One Step Closer'. But, had to admit that the music has a nice feel to it. 'Crawling' was alright, but what got me was 'Papercut'. Oh man, the lyrics were so speaking to me, about that point of time of my life. All the anger I had and felt really came out. So, bought the CD and the rest was history. I became a fan.

When Meteora came out, a few of the songs were even better, as it reflected again, the torment and anger inside. 'Somewhere To Belong' was wanting to be a part of something, 'Lying Away from You' and 'Don't Stay' was for all the m**ers who pissed me off all my life, 'Figure 09' was about my angry demons, 'Numb' was being angry and numb with oneself and the demons inside...

There were times I could listen to both albums repeated for a while ...

However, my interest in LP waned after these two albums, as their musical direction became a bit alien. I guess all bands evolve at one point and they did. When One More Light came out, I liked the new song 'Heavy' as it reminded me of the early two albums. I'll probably check it out later.

Suicide is never cool, and I wished he got help before he did it. To anyone who feels suicidal, do get help.

Thank you Chester for giving me a voice during those years ...

Goodbye, Chester.

You Only Live Twice

Yep, you only live for yourself and your dreams ...

"You Only Live Twice" by Nancy Sinatra (007 You Only Live Twice)

You only live twice or so it seems
One life for yourself and one for your dreams
You drift through the years and life seems tame
Till one dream appears and love is it's name

And love is a stranger who'll beckon you on
Don't think of the danger or the stranger is gone

This dream is for you, so pay the price
Make one dream come true, you only live twice

And love is a stranger who'll beckon you on
Don't think of the danger or the stranger is gone

This dream is for you, so pay the price
Make one dream come true, you only live twice

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Opening and Closing Credits of 007 You Only Live Twice

Amacam Raya?

Raya is what you want it yo be. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri :) maaf zahir batin ...

I am 44

Happy birthday to me ...:) the years are really beginning to roll by ....

Rizalman Life Inspired Episode 2 dan 3 Review

Sudah ku tonton episode 2 dan 3.

Lokasinya di Paris, France. Yang discover adalah shooting Rizalman dan aktiviti shopping and sightseeing beliau. Menarik juga menonton apa yang beliau minat dan lakukan.

Beberapa pengamatan

• Shooting sejuk ketika itu. Nampak usaha beliau dan pasukan untuk menjayakan penggambaran dalam semua keadaan yg muncul.
• Rizalman minat dengan antik. Sangat minat ok. He knows what his furniture taste which lies between royalty and aristocracy. Woo....
• His support team is very important to him to assist him in running his personal and business life. Admittedly, he is a control freak.
• Pelanggan Rizalman percaya dengan pilihan dan karya beliau mengikut apa yang mereka mahu. Sebab itu, mereka adalah pelanggan setia. Pelanggan yang muncul adalah Ifah dan Deborah Henry, Ms Universe Malaysia, di mana Rizalman siapkan baju perkahwinan beliau.
• Selain fesyen, beliau ada juga bisnes reka dalaman. Interior design merupakan bidang pilihan beliau dahulu sebelum terpaksa memilih fesyen di UiTM.

Yang pasti, personaliti beliau terserlah di rancangan ini.

Can't wait for episode 4!

The signal

In the alchemist, there is a passage where the alchemist tells the boy, Santiago, of his possible future ..

In summary 

The alchemist says Fatima understands that Santiago needs to complete his Personal Legend. Santiago asks the alchemist what would happen if he stayed in Al-Fayoum. The alchemist explains that Santiago would have enough money to buy many sheep and camels, and that he would marry Fatima. Santiago and Fatima would be happy for one year, but that during the second year Santiago would start to think about the treasure again. He would not be able to ignore the omens. During the third year, Santiago would become increasingly obsessed with his Personal Legend, and Fatima would feel bad for interrupting Santiago’s quest. Santiago and Fatima would still love each other, but by the fourth year, the omens of treasure would disappear. The tribal chieftains would dismiss Santiago as their counselor, and Santiago would live the rest of his life in regret. 

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I think I had one of the strongest signals today, and I really have to pay heed this time. I have done enough regretting.

Rizalman di Life Inspired

Sudah selesai menonton episode pertama Rizalman, rancangan documentary belakang tabir pereka terkenal Rizalman.

5 pendedahan episode pertama

1. The big why Rizalman pada permulaan kerjaya beliau adalah untuk menjaga ibubapanya supaya mereka hidup senang.
2. Mula-mula beliau mahu belajar Interior Design, tetapi tidak dapat, lalu masuk jurusan fesyen di UiTM.
3. Beliau ada personal aide bernama Umie dan a butler bernama Ary. Mereka penting untuk menolong beliau dalam urusan harian, bisnes dan peribadi.
4. Dengan pelanggan-pelanggan beliau, beliau involve 100% dengan penampilan mereka dengan rekaan beliau. Contoh, Datin Sophea dan Dayang NurFaizah.
5. Dalam bisnes dan peribadi, Rizalman mementing ketelusan, usaha dan kerja keras.

Kesimpulan, untuk episode pertama ini, memang menarik sudut Rizalman yang dipaparkan.

Okay, on ke episode ke 2 di Paris!

Tonton Rizalman di channel 728 Life Inspired di Astro.

wohoo ... LITV upload episode 1 di laman youtube mereka :) update 29/6/17


Bonus: Artikel Intrend mengenai beliau di sini.

Day 3 of Ramadhan

Selamat menyambut Ramadhan kepada semua rakan Muslim :)

Ramadan Kareem to all my Muslim readers.

Peace.

Kisah 21 May 2012

Pakcik Linda, abang ibunya meninggal dunia pada 2330, 20 May 2017 di rumah beliau, Binjai, Kelantan.

21 May, pukul 6 am, kami bertolak dari BBBangi ke sana. Sampai pukul 1330. Selesai urusan, sekitar 1630, kami bertolak ke BBBangi, sampai pukul 0115, 22 May.

Jumlah km - 950 km

A few words
AlFatihah kepada arwah
Wow ... Pi balik in one day to up there..
If it can be done, it can be done...

Family is important ...

Fahamkan Causality

Dalam siri The Matrix, Merovingian, salah satu watak berkata, hanya satu perkara yang benar-sebenarnya, iaitu causality, ..action reaction.. Cause and effect. For everything that happens, there must be a reason, a cause. Therefore, doing anything without a reason, cause, is pretty much useless.

True no.. Hmmm...m

Break The Pattern

In order to change the behavior, you have to change the pattern. Make new ones to replace the discarded ones.

Value of Sleep

After all these years, I learnt the value of sleep. Sleep reboots the brain and keeps it sharp. Macam2 dalam kepala anda? Anda cukup tidur?
Setiap orang berbeza keperluannya .. Find one that fits you ...

The Law of Nature

When you go against the laws of nature, you get the results you did not expect, good or bad, more bad than good.

Berbanding dengan apa yang kawan S n kawan J going through, ..  Mine is trivial. When bling is your goal, you tend to lose focus ....

Focus on natural growth and the process for the future ...

Ini Saatnya

The moment has arrived ... What is the judgment?

My twisted ankle

About a week ago, I badly twisted my ankle in front of a Shell station. Thought about the weekend, didn't watch my step and boom, "p***mak" came out. Got some painful foot therapy shortly. Spent Friday work leave rnr at home, hobbling around in the weekend, rehabbing. It's getting better now, and the pain reminds me of the need to focus on what you are doing at the moment.

Be In The Moment, ya dig?

How to Follow Advice

Bila orang bagi nasihat pada kita, lihat sama ada mereka buat apa yang mereka kata.
Lesson of the day- Do as I do, not as I say ...

Semuanya OK

No matter how bad it was, it's okay now. Focus on today for the future.
The past is past...

Gratitude is so so def... ;)

Undang2 Alam

One lesson that I have learnt the hard way in the past, is that laws of nature does apply when it come to life. Simply, you reap what you sow. Especially, when it comes to regrets. Action and consequences, like the Merongivian says in The Matrix Trilogy.

So Sad

Tell me why I feel so sad ... So sad ...

Terima kasih Google atas Doodle P. Ramlee

Terima kasih Google .. thank you Google :)

F is the word

Focus is the F word that should be permanently ingrained in the head.

Focus and Gratitude ... Yep, sounds about right.

Just another page

Focus on what is in front of you ... The past is past ....

Making peace with the past is hard but must be done in order to move on ...

Just a page  in history..

Written while listening to Nobody's Diary by Yazoo ...

Lump Size Head Of Regret

Untuk beberapa hari ini, kepala penuh dengan penyesalan masa2 lepas. Masa berlalu terlalu cepat dan anda masih rindukan zaman2 90an dahulu...
Bila ini berlaku, terus sabar dan fikirkan kesyukuran.. Be grateful but be not satisfied ...
And remember that details lead to action .. 

Tommy Page Is Gone

Beberapa hari lepas, keluar berita penyanyi Tommy Page mati disyakki bunuh diri. Benar atau tidak, tak pasti, tapi lagu-lagunya popular buat generasi 90an.

A shoulder to cry on, dan I'll be your everything masih kekal dalam ingatan ini. Lagu A shoulder to cry on pasti mengingatkan diri ini pada satu ketika yang segar dalam memori Jasin. Nanti saya updatekan ceritanya.

Kata-kata dari album ke 2 beliau Paintings in my mind.. "A picture is moment captured in the memory, while a painting can be anything imagined by the mind ... Soon, all these pictures will become paintings ..."

Benerkan?

And the hits keep on coming ..

Baik atau buruk, anda boleh mengeluh atau bertindak. Saya pilih untuk bertindak walaupun mengeluh kadangkala lebih senang .. 

Semua ini cobaan ....

February 2017 Dalam Kenangan

February 2017 mengajar aku mengenai apa yang benar dan apa yang maya. Bila sudah terpaksa buat, baru sedar sebenarnya boleh buat. Aduh! Dan apa yang ingat boleh buat, rupanya impossible.
Benar kata Einstein mengenai perkara gila .... You are condemned to repeat the lesson as long as you don't learn And apply it!

Perkara Gila

Mempercayai si  penipu berulang kali dan mengharap hasil yang berbeza setiap kali adalah perkara gila.

Jika anda lupa pelajaran ini, anda akan dihukum mengulanginya berulang kali...

Sampai Kapan

Sampai kapan gue harus menunggumu,, bila rindu ini milikmu. Penantian sekian lama tanpa bayang rupa. Atau selama ini aku mengejar bayang ..    ?

Dapatkah aku memanggilmu sayang .....

Dengarlah jeritan hatiku untukmu ..

Soul survivor

When you keep things simple, simple solutions will appear. And simple solutions work way better than complex solutions. :)
I am a soul survivor .. Yeaaahhh.....

Rancang Dan Buat

Sebenarnya kita tidak pernah berhenti merancang, dalam apa pun bidang yg kita ceburi. Macam2, tapi tinggal rancangan saja, kerana tiada tindakan

Jadi, buatlah tindakan ye..

Music is my soul

To deny something that is a part of you is useless, and music is a part of me.
The journey in music began for me in early childhood, assisted by my father, who kept playing Air Supply in the car where ever he's going anywhere.
I listen to most songs, importantly the melody. If I dig, it's on my playlist.

That's why I have boybands, girl band, hair metal, and others.

Gotta feel your soul, right? :)

You know what when you know this

Secara ringkas, bila anda tahu apa yang anda mahukan, anda tahu apa apa yang anda mahukan. Anda akan merangka strategi and rancang tindakan yang anda akan lakukan.
When it is simple, it is clear ....

You can have everything, when you know what your everything is ...

Simplicity In Focus From Wisdom

When wisdom hits you, you become wiser. The only problem with wisdom is that the road to get there usually is painful, nauseating and excruciating.
Watching 'Becoming Warren Buffet', I am struck by his simplicity of his success. Of course, it involved hard work and determination, but what I really liked was Warren knew what he wanted and worked his butt off. And he was happy doing it,
And he focused on the financial markets, and stuff related to it. Singular post.
As I am in my early 40s, it struck me home, made me realized that was the key to my failures. Focus n knowing what you want, and planning it. Step by step

Thanks , Warren.

Plan A dan Plan B

Satu perkara yang saya pelajari beberapa hari lepas, ialah perlunya kita meringkaskan perkara2/benda untuk membuat keputusan. Choose A or B, no C.
It is not limiting your choice, it's about simplifying. Choose two best options and decide. Make the choice and move on.
Minimalism in practice? Hmmm ....

Syukur Itu Indah

One thing about social media is that it allows people to post things they are doing. During the last few weeks, I have seen posts of my friends travelling all over the world. It made me realize that I loved travelling (still do), and I miss it.

So, instead of being envious of them, I chose to be grateful and happy for them that they are enjoying their travels.

I know my time with la familia will come eventually.

Envy and Wrath

If you have not seen the movie Seven, this  post contains spoilers for the movie.

In the ending of the movie Seven, the killer played by Kevin spacey was talking, or psyching, the detective played by brad Pitt, about the last of the two deadly sins, envy and wrath, that he had committed. Envy was when he saw the perfect couple of the detective and his wife played by Gwyneth paltrow. Wrath is when he say the detective will do to him what he committed because of his enviousness. Which actually happened since the killer killed the wife and sent the wife's head to the meeting. The detective just lost it and killed the killer thus fulfilling the final sin, wrath.
When I saw this scene, I totally got the killer's motivation. Myself, I get a bit envious and angry when I see the mofos who f'ed me up during my school/college years, doing well nowadays. Facebook is such a bad envy tool. Not all the time, but the anger is there.
So what stops be from being the badass, is the feeling of gratitude, and believe in what goes around comes around eventually.
But still, there are those dark times ...

Kisah Botol Kaca Nescafe Pecah

Malam tadi semasa emo tentang masa lalu, aku lalai dan menyebabkan botol kecil nescafe jatuh pecah.
Geram, marah dan menyumpah2 diri sendiri, atas lalai dan serabut yang dibuat, salah sendiri.
Setelah melepas geram, terus fikir apa nak buat, dan lakukannya.
Kutip dan buang  sampah.
Mop dan cuci kawasan yang kena
Vakum untuk pastikan serpihan kaca semua habis dikutip.
Pastikan semua dah okay.
Selesai

Settle semua.. Learnt lesson .. It's okay to vent and rant .. Then take action to resolve the problem. 

I think that's the solution to my past emoes. Take actions to get the future you want.

Lesson learnt :)

Nak buat apa untuk terus hidup

Satu persoalan yang ringkas tapi susah untuk dijawab, Nak buat apa untuk terus hidup. Persoalan ini bermain di kepala hujung 2016 lepas.
Dunia ini kian dinamik. If you don't change, you will be changed.
Yang pasti, keluarga diutamakan.
And leaving no major regrets on the deathbed.

3 Songs About Turning Back Time

One time or the other, we want to turn the back the clock. Me too. I get nostalgic for old memories, want to redo some stuff I did.

I woke up from this want when I realized two things

• The past made us what we are today. Love it it hate it, embrace it and learn and apply from it.
• The present is all we have to affect our future. Focus and work on the now for a different and hopefully better future.

Enjoy these songs below

Aqua -Turn Back Time-


Cher -If I Could Turn Back Time-


Johnny Hates Jazz -Turn Back The Clock-

The Real Problem

My problem is not forgetfulness, it is I don't forget.

Masalah aku bukan lupa ingatan, tetapi kuat mengingat.

Memories make us what us human ...

Kebenaran dan Realiti

The truth hurts, katanya ... Tetapi yang lebih menyakitkan kalau tidak menerima kebenaran itu sebagai realiti kita.

Bila kita terima realiti, baru jalan depan akan lebih cerah ...

Kyoto, I miss you ...

Don't Know What You Want Tapi Sudah Tidak Boleh Bagi Lagi Dah

Memberi lebih baik daripada menerima, tetapi berjaga-jaga bila memberi, dan berpada-padalah.

Keikhlasan hati itu penting bila memberi dan hanya anda tahu tentang hati anda ..

Minat dan Komitmen

Bebberapa hari lepas berceramah dengan Zara mengenai apa yg beliau mahu buat. Saya kata dengan beliau... Nak buat apa2 mesti minat Dan Komited untuk melakukannya. Sebab, kalau tidak kena penyakit hangat2 tahi ayam sahaja.

Truth to be told, ini nasihat yg i needed to hear years ago. Oh well, you learn from your mistakes

The last post is related to this as well.

Fokus

What you focus, expands. Buat apa yang perlu dan mahu dibuat.

Yes, sir!

2016 In Review - A Simple Summary

2016 In Memory

Personal

Most Significant No 1 - The Ismail Bros Reunited
Most Significant No 2 - Amirul Harith was born

MRSM Jasin memory - closure ...in a way ....

Work

Same old, same old .... :P though that co-op thing is getting to me ...

Business

Clarity in what to pursue in financial markets & IM

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Bring on 2017 ... a few changes in store...

The Force Is With Me, I Am One With The Force ....

Life Is Rolling By ...

Life is rolling by and sometimes me thinks am missing key moments ..... must focus now and future, not the big lumps of the past.

2017 is coming, 2016 is leaving ..... *sigh* .... macam2 belum buat atau capai .... salah ku juga ....

An all-time favorite video of mine - What Have I Done To Deserve This?

loved the song for ages ... my favorite song by them ....

Muddy Road

A Zen koan called "Muddy Road":

" Tanzan and Ekido were once traveling together down a muddy road. A heavy rain was still falling.
 Coming around a bend, they met a lovely girl in a silk kimono and sash, unable to cross the intersection.
 "Come on, girl," said Tanzan at once. Lifting her in his arms, he carried her over the mud.
 Ekido did not speak again until that night when they reached a lodging temple.
Then he no longer could restrain himself. "We monks don't go near females," he told Tanzan, "especially not young and lovely ones. It is dangerous. Why did you do that?"
 "I left the girl there," said Tanzan. "Why are you still carrying her?"

It's a lesson about not dwelling on the decisions of others, the trading style of another person, our own mistakes, or our trading victories. We do what we do and then we move onward.

Got it from an email from Rob Booker ...

An answer to a few past questions in my head today ..

Boys Like You - Who Is Fancy Featuring Meghan Trainor and Arianna Grande -

This song is so playing in my head .. I could watch the videos below repeatedly.

The first video is their live performance in Dancing With The Stars around 2015.



The second video is the official video. It is an animation.




Who is Fancy? hahaha ... figure it out yourself la ....

The lyrics to the song ...

"Boys Like You"
(feat. Ariana Grande & Meghan Trainor)

[Who Is Fancy:]
I'm in the deep end, cannonball jump
Thinkin' of your love
And my heart beats like a drum
Not feeling guilty
'Cause the water's just right
Oh, it might be wrong, might be the time of your life

So jump on in with me
Let me set you free
I'll make you feel like you're dreaming

Try, try, try to follow the rules
I break everyone of them with boys like you
My, oh, my, doing what I always do
Yeah, I'm crossing every line to get to boys like you

Boys like you, you
Tripping, freaking, falling over boys like you

[Meghan Trainor:]
It's getting hot out under that summer sun
I'm not playing games
I'm just a girl having fun
I need to cool down
'Cause I know we're just friends
But one look from you baby then I'm falling back in

What's a girl to do?
I got it mad for you
You make me feel like I'm dreaming

Try, try, try to follow the rules
I break everyone of them with boys like you
My, oh, my, doing what I always do
Yeah, I'm crossing every line to get to boys like you

Boys like you, you
Tripping, freaking, falling over boys like you

[Ariana Grande:]
I get a feeling
Looking you in the eye
Know you wanna take a bite of my cherry pie
Get so excited
Boy, you're making me blush
Let's just take our time now, there ain't no need to rush, no

Why don't you make a move?
You got nothing else to lose
Just make me feel like I'm dreaming

Try, try, try to follow the rules
I break everyone of them with boys like you
My, oh, my, doing what I always do
Yeah, I'm crossing every line to get to boys like you

Boys like you, you
Tripping, freaking, falling over boys like you

I got that something I know you can't resist
I'm gonna make you feel it when I blow you that kiss

Sudah 10 Tahun Kami Bersama

14 July 2016 .. sudah 10 tahun kami bersama ....

In that honor, a few posts on our pre-marriage relationship :P

http://ome20.blogspot.my/2005/12/found-it.html

http://ome20.blogspot.my/2005/12/so-much-2-say-yet.html

http://ome20.blogspot.my/2005/12/rock-witcha.html

http://ome20.blogspot.my/2005/12/angel-of-gue.html

http://ome20.blogspot.my/2005/12/baby-saya-awak-punya.html

http://ome20.blogspot.my/2005/12/secret-recipe-witness.html

http://ome20.blogspot.my/2005/12/listen-lah.html

http://ome20.blogspot.my/2005/12/srk.html

http://ome20.blogspot.my/2005/12/stuff-suddenly.html

http://ome20.blogspot.my/2005/12/2005-2006-post.html

Acat, Cookie, Inn, My sister Julia, Rafthah .. terima kasih :)

Khusus kepada Khai, terima kasih kerana menemukan kami ;-)

Dan penganjur, U Aida dan Dj Azura, kalian pemangkinnya :)

Sudah 3 Hari Syawal

Sudah 3 hari Syawal ... how do I feel? happy. Tetapi, yang menarik, ini adalah Syawal yang paling sempoi, tetapi hatiku senang kerana keluarga happy. Fokus kepada kebahagiaan mereka, InsyaAllah, things will be alright ...

Malam ke 28 Ramadhan

Malam terakhir Ramadhan , malam aku dapat tidur dengan nyenyak, kerana aku tahu apa yang perlu buat. InsyaAllah, terima kasih Ramadhan. Jumpa lagi tahun depan.

Malam ke 25, 26 dan 27 Ramadhan

Dapat saya rasakan Ramadhan kali ini  menolong membersihkan minda tentang apa yang perlu dibuat untuk sekarang dan masa hadapan. Yang lepas itu lepas, lepaslah ia ...

Paradigma baru dan tindakan baru penting bagi mencapai matlamat masa hadapan ....

Malam ke 23 dan 24 Ramadhan

Tahun ini rasanya persiapan paling minima bagi diri ini, sejak mendirikan rumahtangga. Bila isteri dan anak-anak seronok dengan persiapan mereka :) Kita adjust apa yang kita ada .... ok what :D

Malam ke 22 Ramadhan

Ingat lagi masa awal2 zaman kerja, persiapan untuk Hari Raya sebagai orang yang dah bekerja. Esp, berkira duit raya untuk sepupu2 yang masih bersekolah dan belum bekerja lagi. Boleh tahan juga belanjanya :P .. pada masa itu la.. Masa itu bujang, most of the time thinking short term and irrelevant things ...
Now dah bekeluarga ni, anak2 didahulukan ... daddy's sempoi je OK :)

Malam ke 20 dan 21 Ramadhan

Bulan Ramadhan kata dengan kenangan cinta, esp Zaman sekolah dahulu. Kirim salam Raya, kirim kad Raya dengan kata-kata puitis kpd si dara adalah lumrah.
Antara diingat kad Raya manis masa form 1 yg dihantar kpd suhaliza, zuraina dan zarina. ;) kad murah je Tp it's the thought that counts.

Malam ke 19 Ramadhan

Sebelum muncul SMS kemudian WhatsApp dan Telegram, orang hantar kad raya. Macam-macam jenis  ada, sesuai untuk keadaan. Yang ringkas, kelakar, ibu bapa. Romantis, dll.
Seronok menerima, best hantar..

Malam ke 18 Ramadhan

Anda akan tahu raya sudah dekat apabila  stesen radio memainkan lagu raya. Sudah 2/3 Ramadhan berjalan, so Syawal  ia hovering. Lagu M.Nasir tetap evergreen :) satu hari di hari raya...

Malam ke 16 dan 17 Ramadhan

Berpuasa di luar negara, especially di mana anda adalah minoriti, amat berlainan feelnya. Semasa berpuasa di America, sekitar awal 90an, pengalaman berpuasa ketika orang sekeliling hidup (makan minum) seperti biasa, was a challenge. Lama - lama, baru biasa. Semasa saya di sana, Washington DC, imsak sekitar pukul 5 am, dan Subuh was soon after. Berbuka pula sekitar lewat pukul 5 pm, sebelum pukul 6 pm. Juadah berbuka, apa yang ada ketika itu. Sangat sempoi kerana tidak ada bazar Ramadhan.

Malam ke 15 Ramadhan

Syukur. Hari jadi pertama kali yang ku ingat di bulan Ramadhan yang aku akan ingat. I cannot go any lower, the only way is up ....

Hari jadi ke 43

Syukur, saya berumur 43 tahun hari ini. And, I learnt a lesson and it kept repeating in my head the whole day. Aku mesti bersyukur dengan apa yang aku ada sekarang. Kepala ku berserabut kerana tidak bersyukur dengan apa yang aku tidak ada, sebaliknya mendambakan apa yang yang tiada.

Tidak bermakna aku bersyukur, aku sudah rasa cukup dengan apa yang aku ada. Tidak sama sekali. Ia bermakna, dalam usaha ku mencapai yang lebih, I must be happy with what I have. Then, I will achieve more, InsyaAllah :)

Happy birthday, Azmir .... you are finally free of the shackles!

Malam ke 14 Ramadhan

Selalunya bila di pertengahan Ramadhan, waktu sahur, makan tidak beberapa penting tetapi minuman is a must.

Malam ke 12 dan 13 Ramadhan

Bila bicara tentang buffet berbuka, kasih ingat lagi beberapa tempat yg best. Dulu aktif juga pergi, tapi now not so much. Ada la 1 or two. Ada yg pasti pi every year for the past decade, here around BBB area.
Niat pi buffet human bukan nak mkn byk2 Tp nak mkn yg unik or expensive contoh kambing bakar. Tidak dinafikan mmg ada pembaziran, so beringatlah bila nak ambil.

Pilihan empat yg best

Hotel Legenda at The Mall, KL.. Dah tiada
Bangi Golf Resort, BBB
Kafe Paya Serai, PJ Hilton
Hotel Residence, BBB... At Uniten

Berbaloi untuk nilai ... Juadah + harga..

Selamat berbuka :)

Malam ke 11 Ramadhan

Salah satu kemanisan Ramadhan adalah begitu senang utk kita beribadat. Kurang 'gangguan' if you know what I mean. Pahala Ramadhan hanya Allah sahaja yang makbulkan. Kita buat aja, harap diterimaNya. Amin.

Malam ke 8,9 dan 10 Ramadhan

Salah satu fakta hidup yang dibuktikan di bulan Ramadhan ... air lebih penting dari makanan :) .. sekurang2nya masa sahur, saya akan minum air sebelum makan apa2.....

Malam Ke Enam dan Ketujuh Ramadhan

Feel Ramadhan semasa kanak-kanak sangat berbeza dengan masa dewasa. Mungkin sebab masa kanak-kanak, saya rasakan dunia masa hadapan masih terlalu jauh ... dan Ramadhan masa untuk berseronok jalan2 dengan kawan2 di Paroi Jaya masa itu .... dewasa ini, sudah fikir lain.. esp, tentang masa hadapan yang makin lama makin singkat ...

Malam Kelima Ramadhan

Masakan paling sedap masa berbuka? Masakan ibu, or in my case, Mama. Walaupun ringkas, ia tetap sedap kerana dimasak dengan penuh kasih sayang. Nikmatilah ia sementara ibu masih ada....

Malam keempat Ramadhan

Berpuasa di luar negara berbeza sedikit dengan dalam  negara, bergantung KO'd tempat. Tahun 94 di USA, puasa sekitar musim Fall 94. Biasa sahur sekitar pukul 4 pagi dan berbulka sekitar 5 pm. Tp alah  bisa tvutgal biasa, boleh hr.

Malam Ketiga Ramadhan

Seingat saya, sebab utama saya suka pergi ke surau Taman Paroi Jaya untuk solat Ramadhan, ialah untuk bertemu rakan2 yang bersekolah di sekolah lain. Saya ke SPI (St Paul), yg lain pi KGV. Amie, Boy and Nasri, antara yang saya ingat. Also, Helmi Duncan dan Rustam. And Emel (now Dato'). When you are a kid, friendships seem so magical.

Malam Kedua Ramadhan

Another fond memory was checking out the ladies yg datang surau Taman Paroi Jaya, during my PJ years (ones my age la during that time) ... ada la one or two still in my mind :P ... one of sweet childhood memories ...

Malam Pertama Ramadhan

Masa kecil2 dulu, malam pertama Ramadhan dirasakan gementar, sebab ibadah puasa was a big thing when you were a kid .... ;-) now, you wonder what the fuss was all about? ;-)

Terima kasih Yoda

Ketika sedang was-was, keluar cerita Empire strikes back di TV... Kebetulan babak2 Yoda melatih Luke Skywalker ... Percaya boleh buat penting, kerana tidak percaya itu membawa kegagalan yakin... Do. Or do not. There is no try.

Back to public transport

Back to life... I want to go back to the rivers of belief....

First time Mobile blogging

First time doing mobile blogging, from the back of Ucsi bus :) here we go....

Amirul Harith bin Azmir was born today

Amirul Harith bin Azmir was born on 10th March 2016, 6.20 am via c-section at KPJ Kajang :)

Yep, my son :)

2016 - Tahun Penting

Tahun 2016 ini merupakan tahun penting kerana pelbagai pelan akan dilaksanakan tahun ini ...

Tahun 2015 mengajar aku satu pelajaran -- FOKUS  kerana FOKUS adalah Rahsia Ajaib Untuk Berjaya ...

Buku ini mengubah kembali pemikiran diri ini ...

Jonah Lomu and Me (Saya Dan Jonah Lomu)

Hari ini, dunia sukan dikejutkan dengan pemergian mengejut legenda ragbi New Zealand, Jonah Lomu. Berita itu dilaporkan oleh akhbar The Guardian, antaranya.

Beliau memang sensasi ragbi ketika bermain dan saya berpeluang menonton beliau di puncak kegemilangan, apabila pasukan New Zealand menang pingat emas acara ragbi 7 (rugby sevens) di Sukan Komanwel 1998 Kuala Lumpur. Sehari suntuk saya lepak menonton ragbi 7 di Stadium Kelana Jaya, tempat acara ragbi 7. Keputusannya, ye .. New Zealand menang pingat emas. Yang manisnya, ragbi 7 dipertandingkan sebagai acara sukan Komanwel untuk kali pertama.

Saya ingat menonton aksi beliau ketika Malaysia menentang New Zealand .. it's like watching men against schoolboys ... New Zealand meratah Malaysia 53-0. Tabik semangat juang pasukan Malaysia tetapi, they were simply outclassed. Melihat Jonah Lomu lari langgar pemain ragbi Malaysia, macam melihat bola bowling melanggar bowling pins, jatuh berterabur pemain Malaysia. He was that good.

Di bawah adalah video aksi-aksi beliau. Aksi beliau bermain melawan pasukan Malaysia mula minit 2:27


Aksi pasukan New Zealand melakukan haka selepas menang perlawanan pingat emas melawan Fiji




Thanks for the great rugby memories, Jonah :)

Eternal Life Lessons .... Oasis - Roll With It

Beberapa pelajaran yang saya dapat dari sekolah 'hidup' dalam 24 jam 1) When the why is STRONG, you will figure out and find the WAY 2) Mistakes will be made, but LEARN and APPLY it next time smile emoticon

Power of Focus, Personal Version

I wrote this post for my online biz English blog on the power of focus, and can't help but think it can be applied for other aspects of life as well.

My main mistake, I admit, was spreading myself too thin and multi-tasking too much. Yep, multi-tasking too much. So, for the past few months, I have been experimenting with focus on smaller to-do list at work .. but working deep on them. The result? no surprise, I got more work done! It was quite simple ..

1. What is the preferred end result?
2. What is the plan to get there?
3. Execute the plan
4. Adjust the plan, depending on feedback.

There it is. And it works ...  I am planning to implement it in my online businesses to improve my online business. And, in my personal life as well.

And like I wrote in my BM business blog here, most of the time, we have already whatever to begin the change ....

Later

Change is Coming .....

Change is coming .... and I know it is for real ....

a new career path?
addition to el familia?


All I know that is unstoppable. How to deal with it? woohoo...

Why I didn't go .....

I have been wanting to write this post for a while ... but now only came to it ... ada dua majlis reunion tempat belajar berlangsung pada bulan lepas .... Jasin dan IU10. Dan aku tidak pergi, walapupun mahu pada mulanya, mahu sangat2...

why? It brought bad memories of what really happened there in both places. I romanticized it a little bit and the reunions made me realize that I was not really happy and had issues. My fear was that being there, I would feel all bad again .... especially realizing that am not at my potential due to issues I faced at both places ....

I didn't fret later, and knew I made good decisions not to go. I was not missed and it did not really matter to me. I saw me for what I was, in friendships, I was close to a few friends and that's alright. I am suited and I like to do stuff where I am in control. Probably, that explains why trading fx and internet marketing appeals to me, as I do not have to meet so many people. Another self discovery.

Will I go again? Probably, yes ... when I am ok .. and have made peace with both memories ...  and worked out the issues ...




This song makes so much sense ....

Rindu Kepada Kawan

Kebelakangan ini, aku merindui rakan-rakan zaman umur 20an. Zaman di mana aku begitu 'carefree' ;-) namun, kebanyakan kami kini hidup dengan haluan masing-masing. Dapat berjumpa sekali sekala untuk mengambil tahu situasi terkini masing2.
Mungkin aku rindu masa-masa lampau dengan mereka, yang pasti tidak akan kembali. Dan kini masa-masa lampau itu menjadi kisah klasik di masa hadapan.

Treasure your times with your friends, for you don't know how long it will last ...

Four Weddings And A Funeral, Good Will Hunting & Beautiful Girls

For the past two days, watched these three movies, while working .. casual watching...

Four Weddings And A Funeral
Good Will Hunting
Beautiful Girls

There is a pattern here .... can you see it? For the record, I never tire re-watching them. Each viewing shows me wrinkles which I did not see before ...

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2015

Salam semua pembaca,

Tidak lambat untuk saya ucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri kepada semua pembaca Muslim (Muslim readers of my blog). Maaf Zahir Batin ;-)

Ps/ kami sekeluarga menerima berita baik sempena Hari Raya. Murah rezeki. Amin.

A Story About A Girl

There is a story about this girl ...

Suffice to say, she is not what I dreamt and wanted .. but she is what I need .... :)

Happy Anniversary, awak ..... dah 9 tahun tu!

Pemburu Bayang

Baru ku tahu selama ini aku pemburu bayang. Pernahkah pemburu bayang mencapai apa yang diburunya? Tidak kan. Aku telah sedar. Kerja yang sia-sia tetapi akhirnya tidak menghasilkan apa-apa.

I Love Kicks Part One

A simple confession .. I am into athletic shoes specifically basketball .. so when I saw this feature on Nike Zoom Air technology, I had to check it out and put it in here for future reference ;-) .. look at the unit for KD8 .. full spec yo ...

Just needed to post something here .... ;-)

Aiyo ... Move On La ....

These last few days was a good flashback for me ... I guess , at times, I was in a melancholic mood .... I learnt a new insight, probably not new for some people ... but it is this ... ASK YOURSELF WHERE YOU WANT TO GO .. And Work Towards There .... not your coulda, shoulda, wouldas of the past. Am so guilty of that ...

It's all in the mind ... it's all in the mind ....

David Letterman's Final Show - All Highlights Here

All the stuff that happened in the final show of The Late Show With David Letterman, May 20th .. all from the official Youtube of the Late Show. Go there for more stuff :)

The Start


Letterman Final Entrance



The Monologue


David wishes the best for his replacement, Stephen Colbert


The Top 10 List - Celebrity Top 10 Things I've Always Wanted To Say To Dave


A Day In The Life of David Letterman



David Letterman and the Kids


The Letterman Final Thank You and Good Night



 The Letterman Show highlights featuring Foo Fighters


The Letterman Final Credits



Thank you, Dave .. especially for your Top 10 Lists :) you will be missed ...

Last Morning In Jinan

last morning in Jinan, and it has to be a wet morning .. just like my first morning. :)

Hurt.

Saya tidak suka diherdik. And it really hurts when it is done by a loved one, and in public. You know who your real family are, and it hurts. Ok, fear and anger, your turn to play ....

How I Met Your Mother aka 14 May 2015

Pada penghujung tahun 2005, sekitar November, ada satu majlis keramaian anjuran rakan-rakan di Hotel Grand Pacific, berdekatan PWTC. Majlis hi-tea. Saya dah register nak pergi. Petang itu, hujan sekitar kawasan perumahan saya ketika itu (Damansara Damai). Memang rasa tidak mahu pergi, sebab masa itu bermotor lagi. Tapi, sebab dah berjanji dengan penganjur, kita pergi juga.

Majlis keramaian ini, meraikan Aidilfitri, antara kami. Macam biasa, bila jumpa kawan2, masa berlalu begitu cepat. Makan dan borak-borak. :) Pada majlis itu, ada dua rakan puteri baru yang saya berkenalan, A dan B.

Pada masa itu, memang keadaan diri ini, sedikit sunyi, sebab my best friend, Errol, baru sahaja melangsungkan perkahwinan. Sudah tidak ada geng :P ... so have to find new diversion, so to speak ...

Ikut style zaman itu, mula la rajin sms A and B sejak berjumpa. A, best friend rakan saya, Khai, manakala B, seorang yang bekerja di industri insurans. Respon B suam2 kuku, in other words, maybe dia tidak berminat, manakala A pula memberikan respon yang sangat baik. Terlalu baik ;-)

Nak ringkaskan cerita, enam bulan selepas itu, pada 14 May 2006, aku dan A bertunang. 14 May adalah tarikh hari jadi beliau. Dan tepat dua bulan selepas itu, kami telah bernikah.

Tahun ini untuk raikan hari jadinya, kami ke IOI City Mall, menonton  Avengers Age of Ultron, di GSC, dan makan di Tony Roma's. The movie was excellent and we had a good time.

Happy birthday, awak :) terima kasih kerana kejar saya pada masa kita dating-dating dulu :)

and here's hoping to many more years of happiness ... :)

gambar terbaru keluarga kami

Lawatan ke PBAKL 2015

Lama sudah tidak ada isi.. baru ada isi untuk tulis kembali ...

Siang tadi, pergi ke PBAKL 2015 di lokasi biasa, PWTC. Ramai orang, pelbagai peringkat umur dan ragam. Pelbagai penerbit, seperti dahulu.

Gambar menunjukkan buku-buku yang dibeli. Buku-buku yang dijamin akan dibaca :)

Saya mahu meneroka alam buku Indie yang semakin popular di Malaysia. Jikalau anda lihat buku Saiful Nang di atas, pasti anda ingat penerbit, penerbit baru, pada hal, di sebaliknya, adalah penerbit popular.

Kisah di sebalik buku2 yang dibeli

Koleksi Ujang dan Ayop Anak Tulakang dibeli di booth Creative Enterprise. Nostalgia zaman kanak-kanak, semasa saya gemar membaca Gila-Gila. Masa di booth Creative Enterprise, rasa sedih melihat keadaan Creative Enterprise yang tidak seberapa berbanding penerbit2 tempatan yang lain, padahal mereka adalah antara veteran penerbitan negara.

Buku Not terbitan Tulisnovel.com clan, dibeli secara tunai dari sahabat lama FB, Cik Husna, sebagai menyokong usaha penulisan beliau. Sempat bergambar dengan Puan Husna yang saya kenal sejak zaman Karipap-karipap Cinta PTS ;-)

ihsan FB Puan Husna Adnan

Buku-buku Dubook Press yang saya beli timbul dari perasaan ingin tahu mengenai keistimewaan Dubook yang saya dengar sejak sebulan dua, di FB rakan penulis .. buku mereka jenis Indie ... tiga buku yang saya beli dipilih berdasarkan imbasan bacaan isi mereka. Bermulalah penerokaan saya ke alam buku Indie yang popular di kalangan muda-muda sekarang.

Sama dengan buku Fixi, trilogi tulisan cik Gina ... masa melawat booth Fixi di tingkat 4, pada mulanya saya tidak mahu beli apa-apa buku Fixi, kerana buku fiksyen Fixi lain dari yang lain. Terus terang, buku-buku Fixi meneroka alam di hujung, 'edge'.. bukan buku-buku tipikal. Jadi buyer beware, Akhirnya saya beli sebab memang tertarik dengan Ngeri,dan keramahan Cik Gina melayan celoteh saya mengenai buku-bukunya. Another book arena to ponder.

Saiful Nang. Hmm, saya hormat dan kagum dengan beliau. Ramai yang bersetuju bila saya katakan yang beliau adalah pemangkin kepopulariti fotografi perkahwinan Melayu. Jika anda tidak pernah membaca blog beliau, buku ini adalah permulaan yang bagus kerana ia adalah kompilasi tulisan blog/FB beliau. Mengapa saya beli ialah saya nak tahu apa yang membuat beliau 'tick'. I do not agree with some of his words, especially nowadays, tetapi give credit where it's due. Beliau berjaya dalam bidang beliau dan kerja kebajikan beliau di bawah Rumah Warga Prihatin harus dicontohi.

Jumpa-jumpa

Jumpa Prof Kami dan Kak Roza di booth UMKI anjuran Blink. Aduh, Prof, maaf kerana lama tidak ikut UMKI. Saya akan ikut kembali. It's good to have you and Kak Roza back here in Malaysia. Beliau dan Kak Roza masih begitu, semangat dan bersahaja. It feels like I have known them for a long while.

Jumpa tuan Syaizul Amal di Gempak Starz :) sempat tegur beliau dan berborak sekejap. Salah seorang tokoh penerbitan buku Malaysia yang saya hormati dan kagumi. Tidak lokek berkongsi ilmu dan cerita perniagaan buku Blink.

Kesimpulannya, lawatan yang okay, tapi tidak semeriah bagi saya macam tahun-tahun dahulu. Am I getting more cynical, atau saya kepenatan masa itu..

Forgiveness Is The Only Way To Let Go

I always had issues of letting go in the past. Most, if not all, stems from anger of injustice, shit, et al. One of the major issues I had was how my attempted return to a previous workplace, DagangNet, was shattered due to so called company policy, even though I thought my return would be accepted with open arms. Esp, with the person who was handling HR during that time. In a way, she was clear that I would not be accepted back, even though the rest of them knew but were too p***y to tell it straight up.
I carried the hurt/grudge for a while .. and though I thought I had let it go, a recent event affecting DagangNet made it realize that it was still an issue inside. After a while, I decided that I should just tell the person that gave me the shock years ago .... through FB chat. I told her the whole story and basically said this ... I apologize for hating her what she did to me, and I forgave her for screwing me during that time, as she performing her duties at that time, and wished her the best for the future. It was closure, and I was relieved. I did not pay attention to whatever she said, as it did not matter any more. I finally let go ....
I guess, in the end, if you have issues, go to the core and decide what to do. Remember, you can forgive and move on. Usually you will not forget it, but it is easier to move on.

Mortality Is Here .....

Earlier tonight, I had a reunion of sorts with a bunch of guys from my form one days in SM Vivekananda. I was late, due to car problems. A few of them turned up ... the one major thing that was playing in the back of mind was simply " .. dang, we met nearly 30 years ago! .." THIRTY YEARS ago ... when I was a kid, 30 years seemed so far away .... but here we are ...

Had a great time and realized that I have kinda moved on ...  and I had pleasant memories of that time ...

the picture above was my form one picture .. my one and only year there ... but great memories ...

The Whys - Why I Do What I Do Nowadays ......

Nowadays, when I wonder why I am doing what I am doing, especially relating to my non work ventures, all I have to do is look at the three reasons sleeping each night.
Doakan ku berjaya, my loves :)

Me and My 3 Loves :)

Syukur Dan Regret

Beberapa hari lepas, saya dapat tahu yang bekas majikan saya, DNT, mengeluarkan VSS (Voluntary Separation Scheme), untuk mengurangkan jumlah staf mereka sebanyak 40%. Dan di gambar-gambar FB kawan, ada menunjukkan rakan-rakan yang menerima VSS ini. Kadarnya agak okay sesuai dengan khidmat lama mereka di sana.
Untuk beberapa jam, saya kembali marah, terguris dengan kenangan kerja di sana, di mana usaha untuk kembali setelah meninggalkan ditolak mentah2. Kerana, seingat saya, ada yang mendapat VSS itu ikut pengalaman saya, bukan kerja seberapa tetapi pandai bermain arus politik di DNT dalam kerja mereka. "Tak Guna!", "Pandai Getting Something For ..." ... di penghujung hari, saya sedar sebenarnya, ia hanyalah perasaan cemburu dan penyesalan. Di minda hanya bermain fikiran, kalaulah aku kan ..... Jadi, aku let go. Tahniah kepada mereka dan semoga sukses di masa hadapan. Masa untuk ke hadapan.
Kesimpulannya, kita harus bersyukur dengan apa yang kita.. fokus kepada hari ini dan masa hadapan, bukan masa lepas. Yang uniknya, kesimpulan ini aku kutip semasa minum malam Ahad lepas, semasa minum malam dengan 2 rakan sekolah rendah lama di Mahbub, Bangsar - Majid dan Kapit.

Aku Bersyukur , Fokus Kepada Hari Ini Dan Masa Hadapan!

Small Signals, Large Signals

Satu perkara tentang kehidupan kita ialah perlunya kita mendengar suara hati yang kadangkala memberi petanda tentang keadaan kita sekarang. Orang putih kata, instinct. Bila petanda itu kecil, harus diberi perhatian, walaupun ia kecil. Sebab, bila kita ambil mudah tentang petanda kecil, petanda besar akan datang dan memaksa kita memberi perhatian.

Sistem Untuk Hidup

Saya sedang buat satu ujikaji. Ujikaji di mana apa yang saya mahu capai, saya akan fokuskan kepada merangka dan menjalankan sistem ke arah apa yang mahu dicapai.

Buat masa ini, saya applikasikan secara khusus kepada kerja di pejabat. Hasilnya, setakatini, meberangsangkan. Kualiti kerja menunjukkan peningkatan yang baik. I am handling the work better.

Senang sahaja langkahnya,

1. senaraikan apa yang perlu dilakukan ----> input
2. hasilnya ---> output
3. bagaimana output boleh diperbaiki --> feedback
4. masukkan feedback ke input ...

Saya mendapat ilham untuk sistem sebegini, setelah membaca buku Scott Adams, penulis/pelukis Dilbert yang terbaru iaitu " How To Fail At Almost Everything and Win Big"

.. think about it ....