Laju Dan Marah

Dua tiga hari pelbagai perasaan dan fikiran melanda diri ini .. hmm ... yang pasti, masa hadapan akan dilalui dengan lebih semangat dan tawakkal ... kalau tiada usaha, bagaimana nak mengharap sesuatu ye ...

Kerja

Seorang lagi rakan akan memburu cita-citanya .. bukan bidangnya sekarang ... in the back of my mind, I am contemplating the same thing in a way ... semata2 untuk memaksimakan potensi dalam diri ini ... bagaimana ?

Bisnes

Aku buat keputusan untuk 100% committed kepada bisnes2 aku ... dengan fokus yang terancang dan langkah2 kecil .. aku stasis kerana memikirkan 'the big picture' dan information overload ..

Personal

Esok sudah EMPAT tahun ... oh man, how did it get this far ? ;-P

Slogan Hari Ini - Kecik2 , Lama2 Jadi Bukit ...

Kisah Permainan

hmm... Toy Story 3 best especially kalau kalian sudah menonton kedua-dua filem Toy Story sebelum ini.

Movie ini mengajar bagaimana kita harus melepaskan realiti yang dahulu dan menghadapi realiti yg akan datang ... pemergian Andy ke IPT ( college ) menjadi alat2 permainan itu gusar, kerana mereka telah berkongsi macam2 pengalaman dengannya... kira dalam filem ini fokus adalah perubahan ... in the end, Andy dan the toys let go of each other dan masing2 pergi ke destinasi baru. Hanya sebuah kisah di layar perak ? Rasanya ia relevan untuk masa kita ...

Change will always .. it is important how we deal with changes in our life ... and it will always be there ....

Kalaulah .... Kalaulah ... Kalaulah

Main video di bawah sambil membaca post ini ;-)




Satu perkara yang aku belajar malam tadi ialah apabila kita melihat ke belakang dan mula menuding jari, ia tidak akan ke mana. Like a trader, the trend is always clear in perspective ... jadi, the lesson is whatever decision you make, it may not be right / correct in the end , tetapi, ia dibuat berdasarkan apa yang kita tahu pada masa itu.. learn and move on.

Kerja

Isk .. have to do some stuff today ...

Family

Toy Story 3 ;-) ... a fitting end to the trilogy ...

Business

Bak kata my favorite Volturi, Jane .. " decisions..decisions..decisions " ...

Pesanan Pakcik Jack

Is Your Life Working the Way You Want it to Be?
by Jack Canfield

When things happen in the world that seem so far beyond our individual control, it can feel unsettling.

But don’t give up on your goals and dreams just because “the time isn’t good”... you can still make 2010 the year you uncover a whole new you for the better!

Even in tough times, you get to decide how to respond to certain conditions, opportunities, and outcomes—both good and bad.

Life will always be a series of choices and YOU get to decide on what will move you closer to your goals, or farther away from them. External forces will always be part of the equation, even during the good times when the world is thriving.

When people ask me about the single most important ingredient to success, I always share the same response: realizing what’s making you achieve success, and then realizing what is stifling your success.

Sometimes recognizing the things that are NOT working in your life can be painful, yet VERY powerful to shaping the life you want.

Don’t try to rationalize them, make excuses for them, or hide them. This is when it’s even more critical to take personal inventory and evict those excuses, rationalizations, and hidden habits that don’t serve you. These things will keep you from the life you want to be living. Let me give you some examples. Ask yourself if you relate to any of these questions:

Do you want to be active, fit, and strong? Then you have to stop making excuses about your weight, diet choices, and lack of exercise.

Do you want to be in a loving relationship based on friendship and respect? Then you have to stop rationalizing why you and your partner are not communicating well.

Do you want to embrace Monday mornings and feel excited about going to work every day? Then you have to stop hiding your true passions and go after whatever it is you really want to be doing day in and day out.

Do you want to lose the debt forever? Then you have to stop ignoring your spending habits and get real about a creating budget that will pull you out of debt and allow you to reach financial freedom.

Do you want to feel more connected to the people in your life, such as your children, friends, and colleagues? Then you have to stop complaining about your poor relationships and figure out why you don’t feel as connected as you’d like to be.

These things can be painful to look at because the truth is that you have to do something about them in order to make it work in your life.

You’ll have to say no to the second helping of dinner and the dessert to follow and go through the action steps to get into shape... You’ll have to confront your partner about the areas that need work... You’ll have to get past fears about changing your job or professional path... You’ll have to cut back on your spending and be a bit more frugal... You’ll have to take a good hard look at your personal relationships and perhaps consider your own shortfalls and weaknesses in communicating your needs and concerns.

Plain and simple, you will have to do something uncomfortable.

Successful people don't waste time in denial (or complain or make excuses for that matter). They face situations like a warrior. They look for the warning signs, they find out why things aren’t working, and they go about fixing them- even when fixing requires problem solving, hard work, risk, and a level of uncertainty.

It’s okay to identify a problem even though you haven’t a clue about how to go about solving it right away.

The first step is just recognizing the issue, and then having faith that you’ll figure it out with careful attention to it. That’s how successful people live—in constant focus on goals, on results, on problem solving, and on the actions that get them to where they want to be.

Following are three things to do constantly in pursuit of your goals and dreams, however big or small:

Awareness: Keep your awareness on the feedback you are getting from life and decide to address the situations immediately. Don’t bottle up feedback, cast it aside, and avoid it like you would a pile of dirty laundry or a stack of unopened bills. Life tells you things every day. Do this. Don’t do that. Think about this. Try me. Forget that. We live in a world that seemingly encourages us to live on autopilot. Successful people fly manually every day and so should you. When those feedback signals come in, listen to them and use them in planning your next step.

Commitment: Commit to finding out why things aren’t working and learn what will fix them. Once you start the process it will be much easier to continue. Nothing fruitful stems from inaction.

Trust: Trust that making changes to the situation will ultimately bring about the best results. Sure you might go through a bit of discomfort during the change, and some unlikely or unwanted outcomes, but in the end you will triumph!
So are you ready to admit the things that just are not working out?

Make a list of the things in your life that are working against your success and ask how the situation can be improved. Commit to tackling just one of those issues and be brave!

If you need help organizing those “things” in your life, try using the following list of categories. I recommend reflecting on each of the 7 areas and ask yourself, what’s not working here in each one and then brainstorm 3 potential solutions.

1.) Financial Goals, 2) Career/Business Goals, 3.) Free Time/Family Time, 4.) Health/Appearance Goals, 5.) Relationship Goals, 6.) Personal Growth 7.) Making a Difference



Jack Canfield, America's #1 Success Coach, is founder of the billion-dollar book brand Chicken Soup for the Soul© and a leading authority on Peak Performance and Life Success. If you're ready to jump-start your life, make more money, and have more fun and joy in all that you do, get your FREE success tips from Jack Canfield now at: www.FreeSuccessStrategies.com

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Budak Karate Idamanku

dah tengok versi 2010, masih suka versi di atas .... macamana tajuknya Karate Kid tetapi belajar Kung Fu daripada Jackie Chan ? ( ps/ it'a a bit too long )

Kerja

- I love this gig ... but the other details.. hmmm ...
- ada yang akan belayar pergi ... semoga mereka dapat yang apa yang mereka mahu ... question is, adakah aku tahu apa yang aku mahu ? .. and I am getting there ...

Family

- Zara sometimes drives me crazy ... tapi saat2 ini lah yang akan aku ingat bila dia besar nanti .. so adorable mah ....
- I worry a bit more about death nowadays ... yep, am no longer in my 20s

Business

- full time or part time ?
- apa yang pasti ... all or nothing ... hari2 mesti ada tindakan walaupun sedikit ..

Life is beautiful .. if you look past the past ....

Me Encanta El Calamar *

a short post before Subuh

Kerja
- syukur lepas midterm, a bit of a break so that I can focus on my new assignment and future. Academician gaya bgm ?

Business
- baby steps at a time but need more commitment. Plan and execute plan la joe .. work the damn system yo ...

Personal
- mrs had to go through the whole thing again ... feel for her la ...

oh and this just in ... The Spaniards have found a new love for squid while the Germans hate that stuff !!



ps/ subuh dah masuk...

Musim Dalam Matahari

lagu ini dinyanyikan oleh Azman Warren di Bangi Kopitiam tadi ... dan Papa pun join sekali :P

Kerja

- penat tapi berbaloi .. as a troubleshooter, you learn new things ;-)
- seorang prospek yang dilayan masa Open Day sudah belajar di sini .. and I am happy ;-) hubba hubba

Family

- makan malam dan minum2 bersama orang tua .. aku mesti hargai saat2 bersama mereka ... actually, bagi mereka can main2 dengan Zara :)
- kesian dengan isteri ... she will leave her current place after no. 2 arrives ... d**b ass employer ...

Perniagaan

- On the move ;-) doakan aku berjaya kali ini ....

Inspirasi Blogging Ala Doogie Howser

Lepas ini, rasanya aku mahu berblogging secara Doogie Howser .. padat, jitu dan direct to the point ;-)

World Cup 2010

- boo hoo, England dan Brazil .. sekurang2nya, Brazil ke peringkat kalah mati.. England hanya jaguh publisiti kali ini ..
- pasukan pilihan - Spain
- pasukan dijangka menang - Germany

kita tgk keputusannya

Kerja

- memenatkan dan am wondering about it dua tiga minggu ini ...
- dua subjek dan kedua-duanya memenatkan

Keluarga

- Linda sihat2 sahaja ... No 2 coming up Nov ini ... dan I thought my line dies with me in the beginning of the new millenium...

Got A Problem ? Here Is A Solution

One of my favorite self help authors has a suggestion for problem solving. Below is the article in full ...

Overcome ANY Obstacle with 3 Simple Questions
by Jack Canfield

What stands between you and what you most desire?

Your answers might relate to a lack of money, time, support from family, or all of these. Obstacles can seem so numerous, so obvious, and so tough to change.

You can relate to obstacles in many ways. Typical responses are to explain them or resist them.

Both responses take a lot of time and energy. And both anchor you firmly in the past, keeping your focus on areas of your life that are not working.

To immediately generate alternatives, remember a simple analogy...

Imagine that you’re driving down a scenic highway. Suddenly you come to a huge rock in the middle of the road.

At this moment you have several options. You could try to explain how the rock ended up there. You could also go into resistance mode, complaining about the carelessness of highway construction or the lack of state funding for rock removal.

Or, you could bypass all this negativity and remove the obstacle from your life at once. Instead of explaining the rock or resisting it, just drive around it.

When faced with obstacles, people often respond with questions based on explanation and resistance, such as:

- Why am I so alone?
- Why does this always happen to me?
- Why am I such a failure?

However, you always have another option. You can ask questions that help you drive around any obstacle in your life.

Questions have uncanny power. Questions direct your attention— and along with it, how you think and how you feel. If you want to create different thoughts, feelings, and results into your life, then ask different questions.

Start now by skipping the why questions and begin asking what questions, such as:

1) What’s the lesson here?

There’s an old saying about learning from experience: Beware the person with twenty years of experience. This may consist of one year of learning and nineteen years of repetition.

The point is that experiences do not come prepackaged with empowering lessons. Everything hinges on how you interpret experiences, and your interpretations can change over the years. A single event can take you a step closer to emotional contraction or expansion. It all depends on how you interpret that event.

Psychologist Martin Seligman has made a career by studying how human beings interpret their experience. He notes that each of us has an explanatory style. People who chronically feel helpless tend to explain events in ways that are:

Permanent: “I always get confused when trying to learn something new.”
Personal: “I’m just no good at meeting people.”
Pervasive: “I’m just the kind of person who fails to follow through, no matter what kind of goals I set.”
Optimistic people use a different style. They explain events in ways that are:

Temporary: “When I feel confused, I ask questions that lead me to understanding.”
External: “I find it hard to talk to people in bars, so I invite them to quiet restaurants instead.”
Specific: “I find it challenging to meet long-term goals, so for now I will focus on achieving short-term objectives.”
You should interpret these obstacles as yield signs rather than stop signs.

These are signals that the world is expanding to accommodate your growth. Instead of resisting a challenge, just lean into it. Ask yourself: How can I interpret this event in a more powerful way? What’s a positive lesson that’s waiting here to be learned?

2) What’s great about having this problem?

There’s an easy answer to this question: “Nothing!” However, looking beyond that knee-jerk response can quickly open up your perspective.

Tony Robbins offers an example in his book Awakening the Giant Within. He recalls a time when he’d been on the road for nearly 100 days out of 120. Returning to his office, he found a stack of urgent memos and a list of 100 phone calls that he needed to personally return. Before making these discoveries, he was tired. Now he felt exhausted.

Tony managed to shift his internal state simply by asking: What’s great about having this problem? He then realized that just a few years ago he would have been grateful to get calls from twenty people—let alone one hundred people with national reputations.

This insight was enough to break his pattern of frustration. He found himself feeling grateful that so many people he loved and respected were willing to connect with him.

3) What’s my next action?

This question shines a spotlight on solutions. No matter what happens, you can choose what to say and do in response. Rather than manifesting resistance or explanation, you can choose your next action.

Successful people hold a bias for action. Add inspiration and intention to the mix, and you gain an unstoppable momentum.

Jack Canfield, America's #1 Success Coach, is founder of the billion-dollar book brand Chicken Soup for the Soul© and a leading authority on Peak Performance and Life Success. If you're ready to jump-start your life, make more money, and have more fun and joy in all that you do, get your FREE success tips from Jack Canfield now at: www.FreeSuccessStrategies.com

The Wonders of Udara Nyaman

Menunaikan pada isteri yang ingin makan strawberry segar di Cameron Highlands, kami ke sana dan bermalam pada hari Sabu lepas. Layan aja ya si dia yang sedang mengidam ini. :)

Minum teh di Bharat... makan strawberry di Healthy Strawberry...steamboat di Restoran Emida ... amat menyeronokkan .. tapi kali ini jalan - jalan ini lain sedikit. I paid more attention and breathed the fresh air of Cameron ... and it was good. Menolong diri ini melihat perkara - perkara lama dengan perspektif baru.

It was too short ;-) and I will go there again. :)

Gambar-gambarnya ada di sini ( hanya boleh diakses jika tuan ada facebook dan kawan saya )

Coba Katakan

Kadangkala apa yang kita ingin luahkan tersekat di kerongkong ... dan si dia yang inginkan kepastian pergi kerana kita tidak dapat memberi kepastian itu.

When the moment arrives, say it or it will pass by ....

Hayati lirik dan video di bawah ..

COBA KATAKAN - MALIQ & D'ESSENTIALS

Coba coba katakan kepadaku bahwa kita sedang berjalan menuju satu alasan
Janganlah kau katakan bila kita memang tak ada tujuan dari apa yang dijalankan

Aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan
Terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa
Aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti
Lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini..

Coba coba katakan kepadaku sekali lagi bila kita memang benar akan kesana,
Buktikan dan buat aku percaya bahwa kita bisa mewujudkan bahagia..

Aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan
Terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa
Aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti
Lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini..

Ohh.. Oh.. Habis sudah semua rangkai kata..
Telah terungkap semua yang kurasa..
Yang kuingin akhir yang bahagia.. hoo..

Aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan
Terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa
Aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti
Lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka..

Aku tak ingin terus terdiam memandangi harapan
Terlena akan manis cinta dan berujung kecewa
Aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti
Lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini..

Wohoho.. Dudududu…
Wohoho.. Dudududu…

Yang ku inginkan..
Satu tujuan..
Sebuah kenyataan..
Bukan impian..
Bukan harapan..
Bukan alasan..
Satu kepastian..

Coba katakan..
Coba katakan..
Coba katakan..
Coba katakan..

Objek Di Cermin Belakang Kelihatan Lebih Dekat Walaupun Sebaliknya

Post ini sudah lama bermain di minda, jadi saya rasa harus dicurahkan jua. Kita semua ada kenangan yang lalu .. pahit dan manis .. terutama apabila ia melibatkan orang yang kita pernah sayang, suka atau SS ( syok sendiri ).

Aku juga begitu ... hmm.. bila direnung - renung kembali .. aduh ... memori bermain kembali di minda ini, bagaikan Youtube yang boleh direplaykan bila - bila ku mahu. Pelik kan .. mereka sudah 'pergi' .. move on .. tetapi aku masih di sini .. masih bermain video mereka di dalam minda ku... mengingatkan ku kepada mereka di zaman dahulu ... di zaman aku mengagumi mereka ..

Bagaimana aku boleh menutup semua ini ? Kerana aku sudah sedar yang rupa-rupanya , aku masih berdiri di masa lalu .. walaupun aku sudah berdiri di masa sekarang. 

Syukur, siang tadi .. aku telah jumpa penyelesaiannya .. terima kasih kepada gadis cerah kerana kau menolong aku menemui jawapannya. Kau telah melambaikan tangan selamat tinggal dan aku membalas lambaianmu.

Ia telah lama berlalu, tetapi masih dekat di hati rupanya ... oleh itu, aku ucapkan selamat tinggal dan simpankan kenangan itu baik2 dalam peti memori.

Video lagu yang memberi inspirasi tajuk posting ini ....

Satu Dekad Yang Menarik

Melihat dekad yang lepas ... saya ingat lagi, dunia dilanda demam Y2K. Ketika itu, saya di KL, DagangNet, waktu tengah malam .. melihat kesan Y2K atas sistem DNT. Syukurlah, pada masa itu, tidak ada kejadian yang tidak diingini terjadi.


Azmir dahulu dan Azmir sekarang ada satu persamaan. Fizikalnya masih sama ;-) tetapi yang beza, yang saya pasti, adalah pemikiran sekarang berbeza dengan dahulu.


Pada permulaan dekad lepas, adalah mulanya saya membaiki diri ini. Daripada trauma kejadian - kejadian lepas ( sekolah dan universiti ). 


Antara Fakta - Fakta Yang Mula Dipelajari


Fakta Pertama - Anda Bertanggungjawab Kepada Diri Anda Sendiri 


Fakta Kedua - Buat Salah Tidak Mengapa, Belajar Dan Maju Ke Hadapan




Walaupun ada jatuh dan bangun, yang pentingnya ialah bagaimana reaksi kita selepas jatuh dan bangun. Adakah kita akan belajar dari kesilapan / kemenangan dan terus maju atau lalai / alpa dengan situasi itu ?


Dua Buku Yang Memulakan Perjalanan Diri pada tahun 2000 




Pada rakan - rakan kalian, semoga 2009 telah memberi pengajaran yang berguna untuk kejayaan kalian pada tahun 2010.

Kata - kata Cinta Puitis

Petikan dari buku Paulo Coelho " The Alchemist "

" The day after we met, " Fatima said, " you told me that you loved me. Then, you taught me something of the universal language and the Soul of the World. Because of that, I have become a part of you. "

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" I have been waiting for you here at this oasis for a long time. I have forgotten about my past, about my traditions, and the way in which men of the desert expect women to behave. Ever since I was a child, I have dreamed that the desert would bring me a wonderful present. Now, my present has arrived, and it's you. "

Kata - kata Fatima kepada Santiago setelah Santiago meluahkan cinta kepada Fatima. Begitu indah kata seorang insan wanita kepada jejaka yang berani meluahkan cintanya.

The Alchemist adalah sebuah buku mengenai legenda peribadi ( personal legend ) seseorang. Di dalamnya, ada kata - kata dan perasaan cinta yang bersih dan indah !

Ada Nawaitu Kerja ?

Hari ini saya membuat suatu keputusan yang memeranjatkan. Saya memilih untuk berkorban sedikit masa demi masa depan sekumpulan pelajar saya untuk trimester akan datang.

Mengapa ? Kerana saya ingat dahulu nawaitu saya dalam bidang akademia, dan tindakan ini selaras dengan nawaitu saya.

Pengajaran : Jika nawaitu anda dan tindakan anda selari, keputusannya amat senang sekali.

PS / Yoda berkata kepada Luke Skywalker ... " There is no try. Either you do or do not " .. fikir - fikirkanlah...

Work The System

Salam sejahtera.

Sudah lama saya tidak menukilkan apa2 di blog ini. Maaf wahai pembaca. Banyak nukilan yang ingin saya coretkan, tetapi pinta berikan masa untuk saya keluarkan semuanya.

Kisah Kerja Sekarang - diam2 sudah dua tahun di dunia academia .. satu dunia penuh cabaran dan dugaan dan nikmatnya yang tersendiri. Sekarang, saatnya telah tiba. The future awaits.

Kisah Perniagaan - oh ye, saya ada blog perniagaan dengan nama yang gah, iaitu www.kayahebat.com .. ya, blog perniagaan yang saya akan kembangkan daripada semasa ke semasa ... saya ceburi tiga - forex, ebay and affiliate marketing. Hasilnya, masih lagi a bit pencapaian sederhana .. di sini perlunya dan pentingnya fokus.

Tajuk blog ini adalah sempena sebuah buku yang baru ku beli beberapa hari lepas. Kata si penulis, Sam Carpenter, apa yang berlaku dalam hidup kita, baik atau buruk, adalah kerana system yang kita gunakan. Fikir2kan kata itu ....

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

To all my blog readers and friends....

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI !

MAAF ZAHIR BATIN !

Thank you :-) Cayang anda semua ....

Jenaka H1N1

Beruang, Singa dan Babi bertemu di hutan...

Beruang : "Korang tau tak, sekali aku mengaum, seluruh hutan menggigil."

Singa : "Ek eleh! Tak power lagi. Aku kalo mengaum, semua belantara kegerunan."

Babi kata: "Wa La Weh.... Aku batuk skali aje, satu dunia panik beb!"

Beruang & Singa : Babi kau!!

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gelak2 boleh la ... jaga diri anda daripada wabak H1N1 dengan pencegahan :-)

Dedicated To My Students Who Graduated Today

Ahh.. the sweet day of graduation..one that you will always remember fondly ;-) Ada satu lagu yang khas aku tujukan untuk kalian ...

Good luck, selamat maju jaya dan all the best ! :D ... ingat, perjalanan baru telah bermula... MMU adalah kenangan indah anda di masa lalu ;-)

Shah Alam & Weddings

Lama sudah aku tidak update blog. Ada cerita sikit2

1) Perjumpaan pagi Ahad di Shah Alam

Dua Ahad yang lepas, di suatu pagi yang basah, saya telah menghadiri satu perjumpaan kawan2 lama yang saya aturkan. Sayang, ramai tidak dapat datang. Yang datang adalah dua orang sahabat dengan keluarga2 mereka. Tension dengan yang tidak datang ? Azmir dulu mungkin begitu, tetap ini adalah Azmir sekarang.

Pada pagi aku belajar dua perkara

1) 2 jam bersama kawan2 lama adalah seperti 10 minit sahaja.

2) Melihat kawan2 lama bertukar cerita dan jenaka, keseronokannya adalah priceless

dan no 3) ( .. tambah satu ekstra .. ) ... focus and do with what you have :)

2) Wedding Student

Pada hari Ahad yang sama, waktu petang, pergi ke wedding ex-student yang pertama, Puan Norhana Suhaime. Seronok tgk aksi dia dan husband kat pelamin, masa ambil gambar dengan keluarga dan sanak saudara. Video nikah pun okay juga. Semoga mereka berbahagia ke anak cucu. Pesan saya satu sahaja ( satu major, minor byk :P ) ... byk2 sabar dengan pasangan.. nasihat pada diri gue dan kawan2 yang lain.

3) Wedding Orang Lain

Hmm.. ada satu lagi wedding sebelum Ramadhan ini. Pergi atau tidak pergi ? ... kerana ini mengingatkan saya pada wedding saya yang dulu .. ramai 'kawan2' yang kata datang tidak datang .. apa yang anda akan buat ... oh well, pergi sahajalah. Kalau kita tidak datang, mungkin dia tidak perasan. But, you do it for yourself. Because if you do it for other causes, then tidak ke mana usaha anda.

Sekian, terima kasih :)

ps/ amacam post2 style ni, best tak ? Saya tengah eksperimen cara blogging baru :D

Berat Mata Memandang

Seorang sahabat karib dan isteri sedang mengalami dugaan dariNya. Anak ke 2 mereka mengalami masalah selepas dilahirkan dan masih dirawat di hospital sejak awal bulan ini.

Aku kagum dengan dirinya yang tabah dengan dugaan ini. Pada beliau, yang penting sekarang adalah apa yang terbaik boleh dilakukan untuk anaknya. Dengan kata lain, fokus pada penyelesaian bukan masalah.

Terima kasih sahabat, kau merupakan contoh yang selalu mengingatkan aku untuk maju ke hadapan.

"Fokus Pada Penyelesaian"

3 years, Conrad, Zac Efron

A few things happened these last few days

1) 3 years

On the 14th was our 3 years wedding anniversary. We celebrated it yesterday. Dah 3 tahun weii .... it is not easy, and I am glad we have made it here so far with one product :) .. and, I think my faith in marriage is a bit better ...

2) Conrad

A well known trader, Conrad Alvin Lim, actually taught me a new paradigm shift in my biz thinking .. why ? how ? what ? .... the why was always there ... it was the how that needed to change.

3) Zac Efron

Zac Efron taught me to live in the present and the future.

Envy

I used to be envious. Thank goodness, no more.

Akhirnya Tertutup Jua

Dalam masa dua minggu kebelakangan ini, ada dua majlis yang aku hadiri. Kedua-duanya melibatkan kisah - kisah lalu. Dan setelah aku hadiri kedua - dua majlis ini, dengan tidak disangka - sangka, aku telah menemui penyelesaian masalah aku selama ini.

Syukurlah !

Benar kata bijak pandai, bila kita mahu ia berakhir, ia akan berakhir ... bergerak ke hadapan ! :-)

36

3 X 2 = 6 ...

so 3 and 6 are so together ...

It's going to be a good year InsyaAllah.

Aku tahu dalam tahun ini ada beberapa persimpangan yang harus aku buat pilihan. Minta - minta pilihan yang aku buat merupakan pilihan yang betul. Tetapi, kita tidak akan tahu ia adalah pilihan yang betul sehingga kita membuat pilihan kan .. ? ;-)

Selamat Hari Jadi ke - 36 Azmir ... teruskan mara ke hadapan :-)

You Matter

Got it from this post. The You as a brand ..

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You matter

When you love the work you do and the people you do it with, you matter.
When you are so gracious and generous and aware that you think of other people before yourself, you matter.
When you leave the world a better place than you found it, you matter.
When you continue to raise the bar on what you do and how you do it, you matter.
When you teach and forgive and teach more before you rush to judge and demean, you matter.
When you touch the people in your life through your actions (and your words), you matter.
When kids grow up wanting to be you, you matter.
When you see the world as it is, but insist on making it more like it could be, you matter.
When you inspire a Nobel prize winner or a slum dweller, you matter.
When the room brightens when you walk in, you matter.
And when the legacy you leave behind lasts for hours, days or a lifetime, you matter.

Kisah Jasin

Salam semua.

Lama saya tidak menulis ye ... untuk pengetahuan kalian, kisah Jasin saya telah berpindah ke blog baru. Kalau anda berminat, cari blog bertajuk nama nickname saya masa zaman Jasin :-)

Syukur, I can feel forgiveness in my heart.

Amin.

Setiap Kali Aku Memelukmu

Sebelum menjadi seorang ayah, rasanya aku tidak pernah memahami Papa. Tapi, selepas menjadi daddy pada si budak kecik, aku faham sedikit sebanyak apa yang Papa lalui ketika membesarkan kami sekeluarga.

Satu hadiah yang Zara berikan yang amat aku hargai ialah unconditional love. Dan, setiap aku memeluknya, I feel that love.

Zara, daddy loves you and reminds you that you will always be daddy's little girl. :-)

Look At That

Van Der Saar's expression before the goal by Leo Messi in the Champions League final ;-) I wonder what was he thinking ?

Care to fill in the blanks ? :-)

Jasin Dan Dendam

Pada rakan - rakan yang mengenali diri ini sejak Jasin, mungkin kalian tahu yang aku ada berdendam dengan beberapa orang ex-Jasin. Dendam bagaimana, kalian tanya ?

Dendam yang boleh membuatkan gue 'lose control' dan melaksanakan tindakan di luar fikiran.

Beberapa hari lepas, seorang sahabat menyebut salah seorang mereka dan tanpa berfikir panjang, aku terus berkata yang aku mahu pelangkung kepalanya dengan kayu golf wooden driver ( kaki golf tahu apa kayu ini ) dan baru mengajaknya main golf, untuk menghilangkan kemarahan ini.

Individu - individu ini mempunyai set video mereka tersendiri dalam memori. Video yang penuh dengan gambar berwarna-warni dan sound effect Hollywood. Dalam video ini, ada mereka dan aku. Dan ianya sungguh jelas. Sejelas TV plasma Samsung.

" Let bygones be bygones " - Scorp , " Masa tu kita budak2 lagi .. "- CP,

" It is the meaning of the event that maginifies how it affects you ... " - Tony Robbins

Macam pernah aku kata di mailing list group Jasin, kalian bisa menasihati itu dan ini, tetapi yang merasainya adalah aku. Aku yang tidak tahu apa - apa masa itu. Sebelum Jasin, ianya hitam dan putih, selepas Jasin, ianya kelabu.

Dan baru - baru ini, seorang insan yang berada dalam kumpulan ini menegurku. Beliau baru sahaja dalam satu ujian dan kalian tahu apa ku kata. Tahniah. Dendam Kesumat kemarahan itu masih ada dan menyala, tetapi ucapan tahniah was the right thing to do. Kisah insan ini akan ku ceritakan nanti. Kisah yang menukarkan persepsi aku tentang orang berkopiah dan berkuasa, yang sepatutnya menolong / membimbing tetapi menolak ku jauh hanya kerana, " Saya tidak mahu orang sebegini di bawah saya. " Bagi dia, aku insan pelik yang patut bersama insan - insan 'pelik' yang lain.

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Ini bukan kisah yang aku nak ceritakan selepas post ini, tetapi aku luahkan kerana ia sudah lama dalam hati.

Macam aku katakan ... ini semua therapy.

Homeroom V

Dalam sebuah kelas, kami berkumpul buat kali pertama. 5 jejaka, 5 puteri. Nama - nama mereka yang aku masih ingat adalah Azmarul, Abu Hassan, Mohd Yusof, Rusni, Noor Laila, Marina, Fairuza. Yg lain tidak aku ingat. Yang aku ingat pada pertemuan pertama ialah Azmarul dengan songkoknya.

Cikgu homeroom kami ialah Cikgu Rokiah Samion. I think she was alright. Mama begitu berharap yang aku akan dijaga oleh Cikgu Rokiah. I don't think that arrangement really worked out, tapi okaylah kan, Ma begitu bimbang dengan anaknya di sini.

Mungkin nanti aku upload gambar homeroom jika ada dalam simpanan. 

Lepas ini, cerita minggu orientasi ... yang bagi gue, adalah penting kerana ia menemukan gue dengan ' Kartini ' ....  

Masa Lalu Bertemu Masa Sekarang

Pada satu hari, seseorang insan yang pernah mewarnai hidup ini, telah muncul kembali. Aku lihat dan amati diri dia pada masa itu.

Gayanya masih sama :-) Cara percakapannya masih sama :-) Buat beberapa saat, saat - saat manis itu datang kembali.

Itu masa lalu. Bukan masa sekarang. Kata orang, older and wiser. 

Aku bersyukur dipertemukan dengan dia walaupun untuk seketika. Mungkin selepas ini, kami tidak akan berjumpa lagi, tetapi kali ini, aku bahagia kerana ia berakhir dengan senyuman dan mesra.

Fokus aku adalah untuk masa sekarang dan masa hadapan, bukan masa lalu. 

Bertemu Changgang

Lepas pendaftaran, kami ke bilik yg telah diberikan. Aku ingat lagi sampai sana sudah ada sekeluarga di katil sebelah. Kira roommate aku la tu. Budak hitam manis. Kami bersalaman. 

" Azmir "

" Azri "

Kami tidak banyak berbicara masa itu. Sebab ahli keluarga lain ada, jadi masing - masing diam sementara mereka berceloteh. Ayah Azri seorang petani, mereka berasal dari Johol, Negeri Sembilan ... Kg Changgang .. sejak itu, aku panggil Azri Changgang ... sempena nama asalnya.

Oklah, lepas ni aku cerita ttg meeting homeroom pertama.

Hari Pendaftaran Part 3

Sampai di maktab, parking kereta sebelah Dewan Besar ( lama ) dan masuk ke dalam Dewan untuk memulakan proses pendaftaran.

Perasaan : Excited, Nervous

Yang aku ingat ialah betapa hensemnya Ustaz yang menjaga kaunter Tabung Haji, sapa tah namanya. Di situ, aku diberi dua benda yang memberikan kesan penting untuk hidup gue di MRSM. Homeroom dan lokasi bilik dorm gue.

Homeroom V - Vanadium dan dorm Al-Biruni.

Terus ke tempat tidur baru kita !

bersambung lagi ....

Hari Pendaftaran Part 1

11/2/1989 

Satu tarikh keramat.

Seorang pelajar meredah ke pendalaman Melaka untuk meneruskan pengajian Tingkatan 4nya.

Satu dunia baru yang akan mengajarnya kelabu kehidupan.

Akan bersambung nanti ....

FOM Society Prom Night

My observations of the MMU FOM Society Night

1. First time jadi VVIP event, cool ;-) dilayan dengan baik2 sekali .... seronok dan aku nak merasai keseronokan tersebut lagi.

2. Makanannya sedap :-) Hidangan Chinese 8 course dinner yg sedikit yet begitu mengenyangkan ;-) .. there is an eating lesson here ...

3. Duduk di meja VVIP depan ... memang best utk view ... tapi sakit telinga terutama masa persembahan musik .... bingit telinga. Have to bring earplugs next time :D

4. The ambience was great. Sesuai dengan tema dan pesertanya. Tema 'A Walk To Remember' dan pesertanya students MMU ... jiwa - jiwa muda dengan konsep Prom Nite.

5. Konsep Prom Nite .. hmm.... darah - darah muda melaram abis2an terutamanya kaum puteri ... amboi .. ada sampai yg gue tidak kenal ;-) ... kepada yg minta gue bergambar dengan mereka .. terima kasih kerana merakamkan kenangan bersama kalian :-)

6. Band2 yang bermain .... kalian ada bakat dan heart ... cuma sound system yg out mengecewakan ... but it was entertaining .... ;-)

7. Yuna is awesome in live. Beliau perform at the afterparty dance. Beliau perform 4 lagunya .. semuanya best ;-) ....dan suaranya ikhlas.

8. I remember this prom nite better than my last college dinner. The only things I remembered about my college dinner are ... bergambar dengan Wan dan Alfa, bergambar dengan the boys dengan butang top baju batik dibuka .... tunjuk chest tu ...

9. My dressing malam tu was so lah not on the occasion. Rata2 peserta datang dengan evening dress ( ladies ) dan tuxedo ( gentleman ). Gue datang dengan baju batik kuning dan seluar khaki. Fashion disaster it was not ... but ......

10. The Malaysian Dreamgirls Runaway show proved that young boys will still be boys ....:-) and at times, that aint bad :-)

10a. Aku tgk mereka biasa2 sahaja except for one contestant .. those lips dan that bod was giving me the rrooewwwwrrrrr :-) ... turns that she is the youngest of the group .. alamakkkkk .....

11. Ada negative2nya tapi aku simpan utk diri sendiri .... they were just enjoying themselves ...

12. In summary, great show dan event... dan aku tahu ... saat itu adalah saat mereka ... saat aku sudah berlalu di masa lalu ...

Sebab - Sebab Aku Nak Pergi MRSM Jasin

Sebab - sebabnya

1. Nak merasa kehidupan asrama.

2. Nak pengalaman sekolah campur ;-) asyik sekolah boys aja

3. Nak merasa hidup di negeri Melaka

4. Nak pengalaman sekolah campur ;-) asyik sekolah boys aja

5. Nak jumpa member2 baru

6. Nak pengalaman sekolah campur ;-) asyik sekolah boys aja

kalian sudah nampak coraknya ? .. bila berbuat sesuatu, nawaitu itu adalah penting untuk kita mulakan perbuatan tersebut. Dan pengalaman hidup 2 tahun gue di Jasin adalah sedikit sebanyak dipengaruhi nawaitu gue pada masa itu.

Surat Pertama

Aku ingat hari itu. Mendapat surat dari pihak Mara. Tahniah katanya. Anda telah ditawarkan ke MRSM Jasin untuk pengajian tingkatan 4.

Apa yang aku ingat tentang surat tawaran itu ( dah lama dibuang ) ialah ruang tawaran tempat pengajian yang ada bekas liquid paper. Maksudnya, ada tempat lain yang ditawarkan sebelum Jasin. Jadi, aku amati2 bekas liquid paper, boleh baca perkataan MRSM Kuala Terengganu.

Wah, sepatutnya aku ke Kuala Terengganu bukan ke Jasin ke ? Hmm, yang pasti kalau aku ke Kuala Terengganu, kisah ini mungkin berbeza ... sekurang2nya dapat berloghat Terengganu !

Kisah ini bermula....

Kisah2 Sekolah

Dalam posting2 yang akan datang, akan ku ceritakan kisah - kisah sekolah ku di Jasin. Mungkin kalian tidak mahu membacanya, ;-) tetapi aku tidak kisah.

Inilah masanya untuk diluahkan. Supaya kepala ini ringan, kisah diluahkan dan memori - memori itu boleh biarkan aku pergi.

Ada kisah pahit manis, senyum dan ketawa. Ia ada kena dengan yang hidup dan yang telah pergi. Niat hanya menukilkan pengalaman supaya menjadi panduan pada semua.

Tunggu kisah yang pertama ya ....

Nota : Kisah2 ini tidak mengikut susunan masa tetapi akan disebutkan bilanya ....

I Can Still Dream

Saya masih boleh bermimpi dan berharap .. :-) Susan Boyle telah menunjukkan jalan dengan sikapnya yang tersendiri ...

" Now living alone, with only her cat Pebbles for company, she was spurred to enter the competition by a pledge she made to her mother to do something with her life. "

Bila sebab dan kemahuan menjadi kewajipan, cara akan muncul dan kita akan bergerak ke hadapan.

Salah satu reaksi yang menarik mengenai kemunculan Susan datang dari penulis akhbar Guardian Tanya Gold dalam artikelnya, " It wasn't singer Susan Boyle who was ugly on Britain's Got Talent so much as our reaction to her ". Komen beliau bahawa penampilan Susan yang tidak cantik tidak diterima dengan baik oleh penonton pada awalnya, tetapi hanya selepas beliau menyanyi, baru penonton memberikan tepuk sorak gemuruh dan para hakim memberikan komen2 begitu positif. Saya akui Susan tidak cantik. Juga membuatkan saya terfikir wujudnya 'Susan' begini di Malaysia.. yang tidak dapat mewarnai dunia hiburan kita kerana mereka tidak memiliki rupa atau bentuk badan yang 'ideal'. Lihat sahaja program2 realiti TV sekarang ... adakah mereka benar2 berbakat atau cuma pandai berdrama. Tanya sahaja Adibah Noor, jika beliau tidak yakin dan fokus dan percaya dengan bakat beliau, kita pasti tidak akan kenal beliau.

Video persembahan Susan di sini.

KIsah Setakat Ni

Good day.

I have not blogged for a while .. but that does not mean yg I am not online. My FB activities are regular. Cuma, I have so much to write about , yet .... oh well.. might as well write a bit of summary ... get it of my chest

Work

Well, my teaching has been erratic for this current trimester. Perhaps, this situation is due to the change that will occur later this year. Whatever it is, I have learnt a bit about myself this past few months, ... teaching is something I love to do ... but what I teach is also important ...

Business

I have business activities on the side and I think I am a bit stretched here. Each branch has its own demands and I am seriously considering dropping one of them to concentrate on the other two. What would be your advice ? All 3 have the potential to succeed.

Personal

Managing my personal demons have been easier nowadays. Rasanya, sbb I give these events less meaning. Itulah pengalaman hidup yang melakari hidup. Dibuat tauladan dan pengajaran dan kita terus bergerak ke hadapan.

Keluarga

Alhamdullillah, semua baik2 aja. Bulan July, sudah TIGA tahun kami bersama. Begitu cepat masa berlalu. Bulan Jun ini Zara turns TWO. Waa, dah besar anak kami seorang ini. ;-)

Okaylah, later.

gambar dgn webcam ;-) Senyum !

Tired + New Pics

I think I have a lot on my plate right now ... so many things to do yet ... hmmm,... might have to reprioritize ... any suggestions ?

Anyway, here are a few pics for your enjoyment

the last two pictures are the sweetest ones ... :D

You Are What You Eat

Last two days, I have been unwell due to diarrohead .. or in Malay, cirit birit. Unpleasant it is. It actually was due, I think, to some bad stuff I ate at a restaurant here in Bangi.

It got me thinking how sometimes we compromise our personal beliefs in order to get what we want. In this case, it was this makan place. It was a bit dirty but the naan n tandoori was good. After a few visits which did not result in anything bad happening, at last kena juga.

Lesson here, do not compromise your beliefs for short term or you will surely pay for it. As for me, I lost one day of class work plus a few days sitting on the 'throne'.

Santayana's saying, " Those who forgot the past are condemned to repeat it" , rings true.

Trip Advisor Asia Hotel Review

The top 10 dirtiest hotel in Asia review

• 1.First Hotel, Bangkok, Thailand
• 2.Hotel Grand Central, Singapore, Singapore
• 3.The Imperial Hotel, Hong Kong, China
• 4.Royal Peacock Hotel, Singapore, Singapore
• 5.Woraburi Sukhumvit Hotel and Resort, Bangkok, Thailand
• 6.Colmar Tropicale, A French-Themed Resort, Bentung, Malaysia
• 7.Oxford Hotel, Singapore, Singapore
• 8.City Gate Hotel, Hanoi, Vietnam
• 9.Royal Parkview Hotel, Bangkok, Thailand
• 10.Aseania Resort, Langkawi, Malaysia

The link can be found here

so what say you ? Has anyone been to any of the above hotels ?

Lama Tak Jumpa .. :P

hehe ... lama tak jumpa .. long time no posts .. I have been preoccupied with so many things.. anyway, something new just came up ... this is my first picture taken with my laptop camera .. yours truly has one .. after so many years..

Life is good ... mcm2 ada .... some time late this September probably, some change will come ....

A lovely ballad

I don't celebrate it but the song is a nice one about love .. couldn't find a nice one with the original singer, Martina McBride .. Olivia Newton-John pun boleh la ye ...

A return to innocence .... it was there all along ;-)

Another Time To Feed The Beast

The beast wants more ... the beast gets more ..

Feed The Beast

It is time to feed the beast once a while. Like the song below says it all

Focus On What Is In Front Of You

For the past week, it has been a rollercoaster of emotions. Ada ups and downs... :-) One thing for sure, I am better when I focus forward. A lot of my melancholic ramblings then to happen when I look too much at the past.

Perhaps, one of my previous post explained it. I am just doing my best to capture the lost wonderful 'what-if' moments of my past, and in doing so, it has hamstrung me.

Okaylah then .... focus di depan.

Have You Ever Really Loved A Woman

Sometimes, I really wonder about the question posed in the song below .... *sigh*..

Ah well, fiddlesticks :-)

It's Over

I am over it already. It happened a few nights ago. I will move on finally. There is still more things on the horizon that I have to do.

Still, I kinda figured bits and pieces of why I do some things that I do. Of course, I won't share much with you guys, ;-) ... but the theme seems to be recapturing past glories / memories.

Mungkin saya akan huraikan sikit2 ... 

The head feels better already ...

Carpe Diem !

Ladybugs

If you have seen the movie below, you would understand. She did.

Pardon me. I am that close to letting go.

Heart Of The Matter

In the end, it was all about forgiveness. She, asking for forgiveness for what she was back then. Me, for forgiving myself that it was not meant to be. Still, bittersweet it was for me, inside. Tahniah my friend. Your happiness means a lot to all of us, your friends.

A Classic Video

Ni lagu classic juga ... always thought of serenading someone with it ;-)

:) ..

Melancholic

If there was a time to feel really melancholic, this coming weekend would really be it. As the event draws nearer, the memories start to come and go ...

There was a time .. there was a story ... all the ifs... but now, alas.. they remain memories .. bittersweet ...

Last Post 2008

Hmm .. nice picture of fireworks eh ;-) 

2008 merupakan tahun yang sgt2 mengujakan. Pelbagai perubahan berlaku, positif dan negatif tetapi kebanyakannya positif :-) Satu perkara yang telah saya belajar tahun ini ialah untuk bergerak ke hadapan, tembok - tembok  di hadapan kita MESTI kita panjat untuk kita maju.

Areas of Review

Family - hidup suami isteri ni byk cabaran dan kegembiraan. Tidak mcm kisah2 romantic comedy .. ada pahit dan manisnya ... yg pasti, syukur pada Tuhan kerana anugerahNya .. Linda n Zara make my life 'interesting' ... and maybe la ,... just maybe .. no 2 will come along ... ;-) I understand my parents better nowadays ... being a parent has taught me that. Pada Pa n Ma, you did your best for me and I will always be thankful for that. 

Career - oklah first full year ... loads of challenges and it was fun ! Honestly, I love this gig .. and this where I will be ;-) ... I have a lot to improve and I will do so...2009 will see the beginnings of the PHD ( playa hater degree ) :P ..

Personal - the weight ... dulu turun then naik balik ..now maintain ... 2009 by my birthday ( June 09 ) .. it will be different :) ... the demons .. they are further and further back ...

Biz Interests - earlier in the year, I was only interested in one field ... and for the past month, I have included two more ...:-) all are still at their baby steps ... I am following the suggestion that one should have MSI ( multiple streams of income ).. and online seems to be the BEST option for me ;-)

In summary people, the upcoming 2009 will be another interesting year sbb the path looks better and better and clearer ;-) ... All the best and may your wishes come true !

Your friend, Ome.

A step back in 2008

Events in the past few weeks have lead me to realize that 2008 has sort of being of a transition period for yours truly ... yep, transition ..

1) Personal

Personal Mastery has been something which I have been striving for the past year and I have made some significant strides in that area. Especially, in dealing with the past. That part has been plaguing me for years

2) Career

Working for the past year in academia, has been an interesting experience. Of course, ada ups and downs nye .... I am getting grips with academia. Something I love to do and self-improvement and time management are very important.

The above things are what I consider the most important things right now .... 2009 will be wayyy better ;-)

Jangan Cakap Masa Makan

Ada sebab2 mengapa kita dinasihatkan jangan bercakap ketika makan ;-) Di bawah, bagi saya, kata - kata Hagar adalah nasihat yang terbaik :) betul tak ?

U Know The Answer

Have you had a question which you know the answer  ? I bet you did. And I think most of us do. But if you know the answer, why do you keep looking ? I propose that this situation occurs  due to the fact that we do not like the answer and keep on searching for alternative answers that satisfy us. The keyword is satisfy. In the end, it is the ego that needs to be fulfilled 

Want to lose weight ? Eat less and exercise more. Want to be more productive ? Focus on real important task instead of mundane matters. It is easy yet why do you search for alternatives ? In a way, at least for me, it explains why there are huge markets for products / services that cater to these kinds of questions. 

I am writing this post as a message to my readers and also to my goodself. There are never simple answers to everything but there are simple answers to some problems. 

The Lesson of A Lost Tooth

I had a minor surgery today .. removing a gigi geraham bongsu. Being the mercy of the dentist has never been one of my favorite activities, but today was a must do.  Last week, I went to my annual dental checkup at a clinic in Bangi. Normally I would do it in Rawang, but since now I am now staying in Bangi, might as well do it here. The doctor, Dr Mazlina, checked my teeth and gave me the news. The upper left gigi geraham bongsu was dying and sooner or later it would be painful. " Sooner or later ", she said, " it would be very painful and you kena cabut anyway...". After the checkup, I decided to just get an appointment to get the procedure. It was not needed, at the moment but must be done eventually, so I figured, just get it over and done with. I did not think much of the operation till last night. It was scary I guess, but it was something that I had to do to avoid future problems with my teeth. I did the procedure ... sakit la jugak a bit but credit to the good doctor, she was good and it was over in about 20 minutes. Tapi, malu la .. keluar air mata sikit sebab tahan sakit.

The point of the above paragraph is that when it became a must, I took the plunge and was better for it. And, as I feel the empty space where the tooth used to be, I think that single fact is the key for a better future. As Tony Robbins says it, when should become a must, then it will start to work ..

I have a lot of shoulds ... and from now on, those shoulds must change into musts .... a lesson learnt from a lost tooth.

180725 - saja put pix, sbb pix lama is gone :D

A Lesson on RM

Recently for the past two months, I was given the opportunity to do some part time teaching at a private university that catered for adult working students. The money was okay so I accepted the offer. It came at the last minute but it was an opportunity to earn some extra RM.

Bad move.

I do have a passion to teach but the events that happened during this part-time gig, especially in terms of grading, have taught me a lesson. The lesson is simply, teaching for RM and RM only, will lead to disastrous results, as evident by my gig. And if given the opportunity, I will not take it up again. The teaching environment at the university was not conducive and frankly, I was surprised and disappointed with the attitude of most of the students.

Anyway, a lesson learnt.

Where Do You Want To Go ?

The past two weeks have been really intense.. especially in terms of work. Marking, grading and the aftermath. Plus a conference that I was involved in.

All the stress involved lead me to a realization that I still had a few unresolved issues still running around in my world. Especially personal ... and a few of them contribute to my current state that I am in. 

The song below kinda roughly generally explains the whole situation ....

It's Just Love

The end of the year will bring an event which will evoke a certain melancholy in me. The confirmation of the event was made recently. The video never fails to put me in a melancholic mood when I see it.

It's just love I guess ....

Perjalanan Hidup

A few days me and family went to Brunei to visit my parents-in-law. My father-in-law had an operation and it was successful.

Being in Brunei for a few days allowed me to review a bit of my life these past few months. Mostly, my life has improved a bit more ... and there are areas that still need adjustment. One of the areas which I have finally come to terms .. or at least recognize the pain is my Jasin years. Jasin was an important part of my history and now I acknowledge it ... the pain and the joy. The pain of love and loneliness ... the joy of humanity ... hmm... rasanya kan ... boleh buat drama la ... so in the end, while I was flying back to KL... I just turned down the volume and enjoyed the pictures of Jasin. I felt better already after that .... and would like to thank the Jasinians who are still friends with me till now. And Tony Robbins n Adam Khoo for teaching me the formula Event + Response = Outcome

The picture below was taken on last Saturday morning .... I like it as it showed a defiant side that I rarely show :)

Gambar Perkahwinan Penang Jeni

Gambar rakan2 bersama pengantin. Kenduri di Gemencheh, NS.

Kadang2 akan berlaku situasi dimana lakaran hidup dahulu bertemu kembali dan mengingatkan anda pada lingkaran hidup dahulu. Pada hari Sabtu lepas, rakan Jasin yang bernama Penang menjadi suami pada rakan IU10 yang bernama Jeni. Tahniah kalian berdua. Dua Dunia bertemu membawa kembali memori masa silam...

Selamat Pengantin Baru, Semoga Berbahagia ke Anak Cucu.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Zara, Ome, Linda

Salam Aidilfitri dari kami sekeluarga :-) Maaf Zahir Batin. Have fun, Be Safe ... n Jgn Makan2 Too Much :D

Click

For the past few weeks, I am happy to say that many things have began to 'click' for me. How did I know ? When it all suddenly made sense ... many things ... work, business, family et al.

It is true, when you let go what you have been holding on to, everything else makes sense. It is about letting go of your fears, and focusing on your dreams. It is about doing what needs and putting it on paper, so it does not just stay in your head as images and sounds. An important lesson was that it was okay to begin the first few steps as the first few steps are the foundation of the journey :-) Truly a journey begins with the first step.

Check out the talk below by Tony Robbins ... quite enlightening ..

Looking With Patient Eyes

Once a while, when I think how I look to the God, I wonder if He looks at me this way. I thank Him after each solat for His blessings and challenges as they have made me to what I am today and hopefully what I will be ...

Syukur Alhamdulillah for everything.

The video below always brings me along this line of thought....

Post Congratulations

The short trip was very useful .. in a sense, it cleared up things for me and allowed me to see the bigger picture. To a certain extent, as my good friend E told me, it is just old memories playing tricks on me. Eliza is right ... moving on is the thing that I must do. Her prequel day went well :-)

I move on.

Congratulations 2

A follow up ... I think things changed once I noticed I was no longer in her blog links :-) petty huh ....



Today is the prequel day to the big day ...

Congratulations

The news I received late today left me swimming in an ocean of memories. All I can say is... " Congratulations. " At last, she has found the love.



The video above will always be her video.

Funny Muslim PickUp Lines

Courtesy of this blogger, :-) ... below are a list of Muslim pickup lines ... please do not take it seriously ;-)

1. I'm looking for the "Made In Jannah" tag
2. Are those legs halal?
3.OMG!! I just saw part of your hair, now your obligated to marry me..
4. Wanna pray in jamaat? shoulder to shoulder, feet to feet?"
5.wanna date? i bought a whole box when i went to madinah"
6. Marry me so I don't have to lower my gaze everytime you walk into the room..
7. Girl you fine, I see that praying 5 times a day has really payed off
8. Girl when i saw you i said mashallah, then i said inshallah
9. Would you like to help me wake up for Fajr?
10. Are you a Shiite? Because when I saw you, I said to myself, "She aiight"
11.You’re so fine, I wanna marry you, get 10 kids with you and pray domestic jamaah for the rest of our lives.
12. "U thief. u know, its wrong to steal in islam"
"how am i a thief?"
"u stole my heart"
13. Are your feet tired? Because you've been performing Tawaaf in my mind all day long?
14. How would you like to help me fulfill half of my deen?
15. "Nice ankles. Very nice"
16. Girl...I know its haraam "paying" so much "interest" in you...but I can't help myself...
17.wanna ride shotgun on my camel?
18.Girl you fine, TAKBEER
19. Girl you're so hot, you make Shaytan sweat.
20. You are the noor of my eyes.
21. Hey do you want to pray together? Should I call you or Nudge you?
22.Your face shines with so much noor that it could launch a thousand (Jihadi) ships
23. Have your ammi call my ammi
24. You are the reason hijab was mandated.
25. You are the coolness of my eyes.
26. I didn't trip over my robe, I fell for you.
27. You're so beautiful, You would make hur-al-ayn jealous.
28. I have some sort of sickness but Allah*swt* has created a cure, thats you.
29. Sister, I'm not drunk, just intoxicated by you.
30. Any cup of water that you pour for me will taste like Zam Zam.
31. The noor on your face is soo strong, I think I'm going to go blind!
32. "Hey I'm a nice muslim boy and you seem like a nice muslim girl, so what do you say we make a halal match?"
32.Allah created everything in pairs, so what are you doing single?
33.Sister For a moment I thought I had died and gone to heaven. Now I see that I am very much alive, and heaven has been brought to me.
34.Our parents engaged us when we were little, they must have forgotten to tell you.
35.I'd like to be more than just your brother in Islam.
36.To watch you pray is a sin of its own.
37.Will my platinum VISA cover your dowry?
38.You can't play basketball with a hijab on, marry me, and we will go one-on-one our entire life.
39. Muslims are supposed to have many children, and I am willing to do my part...
40. Will you help the cause of the Ummah by helping me fulfill my deen?
41.What school of thought do you follow because I thought about you all through school.
42.Do you believe in the hereafter? Oh you do? Then you know what I'm hereafter.
43.It must be Laylatul Qadr. Because that's the night that angels come down from Heaven.
44.I've had to fast every day since the day that I first saw you.
45.Would you like to share my prayer-mat?
46.I'm not sure of the Nikah process. Can you help me through it?
47.I just made dua for YOU
48.I think I just lost my wudu by the sight of you.
49. I'm not staring, I'm just enjoying my first and only allowed look.
50.Sister, you are a hijabi fitnah.
51.I'm new here, can you take me to the closest masjid?
52.You make me realize why we're asked to lower our gaze so much
53.I love the way your Abaya flows when you walk
54.I dont need mahr...YOU are my mahr
55.Do u remember me?...from the alam al-arwah?
56.Is it me or is it getting a lil halal in here?
57.Assalamu alaikum, so what time does a hur al-ayn like you have to be back in paradise?
58.Black is definately your color.
59.Girl if lookin at u is gunnah then i don't want to get any sawab
60.Your father must be a printer cuz your picture has been plastered in my mind all day..
61. (If you don't get this, you can ask the person)
"Baby did you just have eggplant? Because you're BANGAN"
62. Do you work for al qaeda? u hijacked my heart
63. girl you're so sweet, when I tasted you I was like AYY! Sunni!! (as in.. oww my tooth)

Argghhhh

Nice title ain't it ... :P ... during this trimester, my Wednesdays are the most stressful, as I am teaching 6 hours on this day. 2 hours pagi and 4 hours ptg. ....

Urghh .. at the end of the day .. my thoughts were echoed by the song below ...



oh well , in the end, I want to do the thing below ...




:-) some great music eh, from 80s n 90s .... in truth, what does not kill make you stronger ... and in the end ... each time, I learn something new ... still, its damn f**king trying at times !