Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Forgiveness Is The Only Way To Let Go

I always had issues of letting go in the past. Most, if not all, stems from anger of injustice, shit, et al. One of the major issues I had was how my attempted return to a previous workplace, DagangNet, was shattered due to so called company policy, even though I thought my return would be accepted with open arms. Esp, with the person who was handling HR during that time. In a way, she was clear that I would not be accepted back, even though the rest of them knew but were too p***y to tell it straight up.
I carried the hurt/grudge for a while .. and though I thought I had let it go, a recent event affecting DagangNet made it realize that it was still an issue inside. After a while, I decided that I should just tell the person that gave me the shock years ago .... through FB chat. I told her the whole story and basically said this ... I apologize for hating her what she did to me, and I forgave her for screwing me during that time, as she performing her duties at that time, and wished her the best for the future. It was closure, and I was relieved. I did not pay attention to whatever she said, as it did not matter any more. I finally let go ....
I guess, in the end, if you have issues, go to the core and decide what to do. Remember, you can forgive and move on. Usually you will not forget it, but it is easier to move on.

Sunday, March 01, 2015

Mortality Is Here .....

Earlier tonight, I had a reunion of sorts with a bunch of guys from my form one days in SM Vivekananda. I was late, due to car problems. A few of them turned up ... the one major thing that was playing in the back of mind was simply " .. dang, we met nearly 30 years ago! .." THIRTY YEARS ago ... when I was a kid, 30 years seemed so far away .... but here we are ...

Had a great time and realized that I have kinda moved on ...  and I had pleasant memories of that time ...


the picture above was my form one picture .. my one and only year there ... but great memories ...

Saturday, February 07, 2015

The Whys - Why I Do What I Do Nowadays ......

Nowadays, when I wonder why I am doing what I am doing, especially relating to my non work ventures, all I have to do is look at the three reasons sleeping each night.
Doakan ku berjaya, my loves :)

Me and My 3 Loves :)

Monday, February 02, 2015

Syukur Dan Regret

Beberapa hari lepas, saya dapat tahu yang bekas majikan saya, DNT, mengeluarkan VSS (Voluntary Separation Scheme), untuk mengurangkan jumlah staf mereka sebanyak 40%. Dan di gambar-gambar FB kawan, ada menunjukkan rakan-rakan yang menerima VSS ini. Kadarnya agak okay sesuai dengan khidmat lama mereka di sana.
Untuk beberapa jam, saya kembali marah, terguris dengan kenangan kerja di sana, di mana usaha untuk kembali setelah meninggalkan ditolak mentah2. Kerana, seingat saya, ada yang mendapat VSS itu ikut pengalaman saya, bukan kerja seberapa tetapi pandai bermain arus politik di DNT dalam kerja mereka. "Tak Guna!", "Pandai Getting Something For ..." ... di penghujung hari, saya sedar sebenarnya, ia hanyalah perasaan cemburu dan penyesalan. Di minda hanya bermain fikiran, kalaulah aku kan ..... Jadi, aku let go. Tahniah kepada mereka dan semoga sukses di masa hadapan. Masa untuk ke hadapan.
Kesimpulannya, kita harus bersyukur dengan apa yang kita.. fokus kepada hari ini dan masa hadapan, bukan masa lepas. Yang uniknya, kesimpulan ini aku kutip semasa minum malam Ahad lepas, semasa minum malam dengan 2 rakan sekolah rendah lama di Mahbub, Bangsar - Majid dan Kapit.

Aku Bersyukur , Fokus Kepada Hari Ini Dan Masa Hadapan!


Thursday, January 29, 2015

Small Signals, Large Signals

Satu perkara tentang kehidupan kita ialah perlunya kita mendengar suara hati yang kadangkala memberi petanda tentang keadaan kita sekarang. Orang putih kata, instinct. Bila petanda itu kecil, harus diberi perhatian, walaupun ia kecil. Sebab, bila kita ambil mudah tentang petanda kecil, petanda besar akan datang dan memaksa kita memberi perhatian.

Sunday, January 25, 2015

Sistem Untuk Hidup

Saya sedang buat satu ujikaji. Ujikaji di mana apa yang saya mahu capai, saya akan fokuskan kepada merangka dan menjalankan sistem ke arah apa yang mahu dicapai.

Buat masa ini, saya applikasikan secara khusus kepada kerja di pejabat. Hasilnya, setakatini, meberangsangkan. Kualiti kerja menunjukkan peningkatan yang baik. I am handling the work better.

Senang sahaja langkahnya,


  1. senaraikan apa yang perlu dilakukan ----> input
  2. hasilnya ---> output
  3. bagaimana output boleh diperbaiki --> feedback
  4. masukkan feedback ke input ...

Saya mendapat ilham untuk sistem sebegini, setelah membaca buku Scott Adams, penulis/pelukis Dilbert yang terbaru iaitu " How To Fail At Almost Everything and Win Big"

.. think about it ....

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Awal Pagi Dan Lewat Malam

Awal Pagi

Kalau televisyen dipanggil 'idiot box', apa yang harus digelar penontonnya?

Lewat Malam

Mata sudah berat ..namun mesti digagahkan untuk masa hadapan ... once you have a clear idea about your future, the plan shows itself slowly .... follow up itu penting ...