Friday, December 30, 2005

2005 + 2006 Post

Hmm, for the past day, I have been thinking what to write for my 2005 review post. Cewah, kata nak buat mega review konon :D

Work / Career

This year has been the year where my career got a few shocks n adjustments but became clearer. I went from one big firm to another ..doing the same thing, realizing in the end, that I hated it. When that came out, there was relief and when I left, I knew that I made the right decision.

Now, I am doing something that I like doing it. More challenging, more tai-chi, but at least, it is something that I enjoy doing .. so far :-p .. I think I'm going to pursue this line la ... even though, the RM is less, but it is enjoyable. It is true folks .. when u love what you are doing, it does not become a chore ..it becomes a pleasure..

for 2006, I hope to continue and explore this arena, plus another endeavor which is still in 'pusing2 dalam kepala' stage

Personal

This one got so many subplots :D hehehe ..

Family - what can I say, is I appreciate my family more, esp. my parents .. I guess I am now mellowing and letting go of the past ..

Self - I have finally accepted that whatever it is, I can choose and responsibe for my choice and its consequences. Better peace of mind. ;-)

Love - I realized I kept repeating the same mistakes. And when I just opened my mind and just chilled, she came. Tq to my sister for the advice that she gave me, before I met her. It is a new experience and I am enjoying it :D

Financial - an improvement but will do better ;-)

Friends - I have made many new friends, through blogging especially, and offline.

Studies

Thank God for the assistance and strength He gave me to do it this year. The two semesters were very challenging, and syukur I did quite ok. I have one semester left and then graduation around July 2006. All the sweat and pain was worth it. Lesson learnt : The fruits of hard earned labor and commitment is very2 sweet indeed.

Overall


It might be strange to say this, but 2005 has been the year that I kind of like woke up and start focusing on what I want in life. Yeah, baru sedar ye ... I am still evolving, yet I can see and feel confident about the future ... I think that it really began, when I told myself to be responsible for myself .. in the end, it's all about your choice kan :-)

A special shout out to some of my online blog friends ;-) cookie,acat
Inn, Rafthah. Thank you for letting me be a part of your online lives, and vice versa.

Inn - for her inspiring words :-)
Acat n Cookie - for keeping my faith in love :D
Rafthah - the alter ego I can only wish to be ;-)


My song for this post .. one of my favorite inspiring songs ..

Lift Me Up - Geri Halliwell -

Watch the first light, kiss the new world
It's a wonder, baby like you and I.
All the colours of the rainbow.
Going somewhere, baby like you and I.
It's going to be allright.
But when my sky clouds over...

(Lift me up) When the day is over.
(Take me up) When the sun is going down.
(Show me love) I will be your angel now.
(Lift me up) When the lights are fading.
(Talk me down) When I'm flying way up high.
(Show me love) And I'll be your angel for life.
Your angel for life.

Like the seasons ever changing.
Everlasting, baby like you and I.
It's going to be allright.
But when my sky clouds over...

(Lift me up) When the day is over.
(Take me up) When the sun is going down.
(Show me love) I will be your angel now.
(Lift me up) When the lights are fading.
(Talk me down) When I'm flying way up high.
(Show me love) And I'll be your angel for life.
Your angel for life.

No matter where we run.
Who knows what we will become.
Is there a world we know.
Where life will naturally.

(Lift me up) When the day is over.
(Take me up) When the sun is going down.
(Show me love) I will be your angel now.
(Lift me up) When the lights are fading.
(Talk me down) When I'm flying way up high.
(Show me love) And I'll be your angel for life.
Your angel for life.

----

See ya in 2006 :D

PS / I will be in Kuantan this weekend. Nampak gue di sana, jgn malu2 tegur ya :P

Thursday, December 29, 2005

Stuff + Suddenly

Well, 2005 is about to end eh .. what a year it has been :D .. takpe2, the 2005 Review post will come up later ...

Work is good so far ... normal la stuff here n there ... but, I am enjoying it :D

I know, I know I have been cheesy lately ... ;-p .. I am not like spreading the love.. but, well .. yeah, I am :D .. I am learning new stuff almost everyday. Sometimes, u have read and know about about it, but when u have gone through it, baru la u understand it

Last Tuesday at Chilli's MV

Her : Awak perasan tak yang saya ada XXX ( very2 minor physical quirk )
Me : Yeah
Her : Awak tak kata apa2 pun. My mom suruh tanya pada you, kalau u notice tak
Me : Oh, I noticed it since we first met, but I didn't want to say anything sebab I accept you as what you are. Itu je ..
Her : *smiles*
Me : *in my head : Ambooiii Ome, bijaknya kau berkata .... :p "

Acceptance, now gue faham ....

Suddenly - Olivia Newton John n Cliff Richard -

She walks in and I'm suddenly a hero
I'm taken in my hopes begin to rise
Look at me can't you tell I'd be so
Thrilled to see the message in your eyes
You make it seem I'm so close to my dream
And then suddenly it's all there

Suddenly the wheels are in motion
And I, I'm ready to sail any ocean
Suddenly I don't need the answers
Cos I, I'm ready to take all my chances with you

How can I feel you're all that matters
I'd rely on anything you say
I'll take care that no illusions shatter
If you dare to say what you should say
You make it seem I'm so close to my dream
And then suddenly it's all there

Suddenly the wheels are in motion
And I, I'm ready to sail any ocean
Suddenly I don't need the answers
Cos I, I'm ready to take all my chances with you

Why do I feel so alive when you're near
There's no way any hurt can get thru
Longing to spend every moment of the day with you

Suddenly the wheels are in motion
And I, I'm ready to sail any ocean
Suddenly I don't need the answers
Cos I, I'm ready to take all my chances with you


.... ada ada dengan cinta ? ;-) ...

Friday, December 23, 2005

SRK

She likes his movies.

Me : " Kalau saya jadi Shah Rukh Khan, awak jadi Preity Zinta. Amacam ? "
She " Ok jugak :) "

Hmm, visions of dancing around trees and rolling in the fields at the Alps :D

aiyaaa .... tujhe dekha toyee janassalam .... pyar hota hai deewana salaam ... lalalala

Thursday, December 22, 2005

What Ome Is ...


One Made for Embraces


;-) Ok tak ?...

Listen Lah

Layan je la ye ... ;-)


Dengarkanlah - Amy Mastura n Glenn -

L : Kasih ku
Hanya kau sahaja di hati ku
Hanya kau satu yang ku rindu
Setiap waktu tak pernah rasa jemu

P : Saat kau tiba
Terasa sungguh bahagia
Jalinan indah mesra bersama mu
Seindah cinta yang pertama

* :
P/L : Dengarkanlah bicara cinta ku
Aku ingin selalu di sisi mu
Dengarkanlah bicara rindu ku
Pinta hati ini yang ingin bersama mu selamanya

L: Senyum tawa mu
Terbawa selalu dalam mimpi
P: Hingga tak mampu untuk ku lupakan
Kau sering di dalam ingatan

( Ulang Rangkap * )

L : Biar di mana berada
Simpankan saja di dalam hati kita
P : Rasa percaya
Detik indah akan tiba menyatu akhirnya

( Ulang Rangkap * )

... hmm .... hmmm ... I owe a few people some apologies la :D ...

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Secret Recipe Witness

Secret Recipe Mid Valley was a witness to a some sort of pengakuan masa dinner :D

*She says that I make her laugh.. must have been a clown in my previous life.
* She said , ".. 'kawan' with a twinkle in the eye ;-).." if ppl ask her from now on .. ada ke like that ?
* Met a friend who asked who she was .. I said "..in the middle between friend n girl-friend .. " ;-)
* Her parents ( esp. mom ) is old - skool. .. I also kena go like that la ...aiyoo

To quote Hitch, " ..in case, you don't go to high school, hitting is a good thing .. " ... hehehe :D

Like I told her, I don't know what's going on, but I am enjoying :D ...


"Sunshine"
- Gabrielle -

Made a wish, I can dream
I can be what I want to be
Not afraid to live my life
And fulfil my fantasies

I learnt a lot of tricks to help me live my life
You helped me find my paradise
When you came I saw

Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel like
I'm on top of the world
Telling me I'll go far

Reaching out, for the highs
You inspired me to try
I felt the magic inside
And I felt that I could fly
I'm looking at the world in an optimistic light
You made me appreciate my life
'Cos when you came you were my

Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel like
I'm on top of the world
Telling me I'll go far

You are the calm
I am the storm
You are the breeze that carries me on
When I said a truth
You wink at me
You're there for me

Sunshine (oh yeah)
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far
Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star

(Sunshine) Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far
Sunshine through my window
That's what you are
My shining star
Sunshine
Making me feel I'm on top of the world
Telling me that I'll go far
Sunshine
My star, my star..



Hmmm ... follow the flow la .. :-)

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Baby, Saya Awak Punya

A friend messaged me this earlier this morning ...

" Have faith on the one you love and take it as slow or as fast. There are no rules "

Following the flow, .. hmm.. everything is so new ;-)

Baby I'm Yours - Shai -

Understand girl that my heart is in your hands.
And I'm cautious. Of falling in love again.
So please don't hurt me, I'm scared.
Don't desert me, I'm afraid.
Of being a fool. Again.

So Baby I'm yours, if you want me. And if you want my sweet love.
And Baby I'm yours, if you need me. La la la.
Loving you forever, if you want me. Give me your love.
Baby I'm yours, if you need me. Ohh...

Realize girl that my faith is kind of torn.
Watch you step girl, Because my heart is weak and worn.
So won't you please be careful, I'm fragile.
I can't imagine the damage,
I have to handle. If you hurt me one more time,
Please by mine.

So Baby I'm yours, if you want me. And if you want my sweet love.
And Baby I'm yours, if you need me. La la la.
Loving you forever, if you want me. Give me your love.
Baby I'm yours, if you need me. Ohh...

Baby, I've been through a whole lot of relationships,
Whole lot of broken promises,
but now I'm ready for a real one sweet heart.
Yes I am.
You don't have to worry baby.
Don't you every go away.

Baby I'm, Baby Baby I'm yours.
Baby I'm, Baby Baby I'm yours.
Baby I'm, Baby Baby I'm yours.
Baby I'm, Baby Baby I'm yours.
Baby I'm, Baby Baby I'm yours.

So Baby I'm yours, if you want me. And if you want my sweet love.
And Baby I'm yours, if you need me. La la la.
Loving you forever, if you want me. Give me your love.
Baby I'm yours, if you need me. Ohh...

..

I am walking ever so gingerly as my heart is tender .... too many past disappointments .. *sigh*

Angel of Gue

Sometimes, when you least expect it, it appears ... and you're wondering like how it ever happened ...

Inspired by this post, whose author is a good friend and an inspiration of positivity :-)

"Angel Of Mine" - Monica -

When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of mine

I look at you, lookin' at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
I'm gonna love you boy you are so fine
Angel of Mine

How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm different now, you helped me grow
You came into my life sent from above
When I lost all hope you showed me love
I'm checkin' for ya boy you're right on time
Angel of Mine

Nothing means more to me than what we share
No one in this whole world can ever compare
Last night the way you moved is still on my mind
Angel of Mine

What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside I need to show
You came into my life sent from above (Sent from above)
When I lost all hope, you showed me love (Boy you showed me love)
I'm checkin' for ya, boy you're right on time (Right on Time)
Angel of Mine (Angel of mine)

I never knew I could feel each moment
As if it were new,
Every breath that I take, the love that we make
I only share it with you (you, you, you,you)
When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find
Angel of Mine

You came into my life sent from above (Came into my life, yeah yeah yeah)
When I lost all hope you showed me love (Boy You showed me love, uh huh)
I'm checkin' for ya, boy you're right on time (But boy your right on time)
Angel of Mine (Angel of mine, oh mine)

How you changed my world you'll never know
I'm different now, you helped me grow

I look at you lookin' at me
Now I know why they say the best things are free
I'm checkin' for ya, boy you're right on time
Angel of Mine


ps/ not a boy but a leng loi, for me :D

update 11.00 am - Breakfast was very good :D

Monday, December 19, 2005

Rock Witcha

Playing in my head right now ... ;-)

Rock Witcha - Bobby Brown -

Now that you are here with me
Baby, let's do it right
Lady, you know just what I need
I want to hold you oh so tight
Baby, just touch me anywhere
Cutie, you turn me on
I like to run my fingers through your hair
So come on and stay with me all night

c/o

I wanna rock witcha baby
All night long
I wanna roll witcha lady
Feelin' so strong
I wanna rock witcha baby
All night long
Rockin, rollin, rollin, rock
Makin' sweet lovin
Don't ever stop

How bout a little music now
Let's hear some marvin gaye
Let me rub your shoulders down
Let's dance the night away

Feel your heart beating next to mine
Baby, I'l make you feel nice
I think I can tell what's on your mind
I know I can make it right ...


aiyaa ... what's happening ???

So Much 2 Say Yet ...

The past few days have been intense .. and I am feeling a variety of new emotions :D ..some which is kind of new to me. I have been advised by my close friends, to follow the " flow ".

Dulu kutuk orang, sendiri kena, baru tahu ;-)

Hari ni, byk kali senyum sorang2 ;-) ..this is dangerous .. very dangerous kan :D

"Impulsive" - Wilson Phillips -

The secret of love
I thought I understood
The way it's supposed to be
I never imagined you could
Blow my theory apart
But now you're running away with my heart

[Chorus:]
I don't wanna think about it
Don't wanna think clear
Don't analyze
What I'm doing here
Wanna be impulsive
Reckless
And lose myself in your kiss

Arrows through hearts
Drawn on a misty window
You're taking me home in the rain
My heart, it's beating 'Don't say no'
My head keeps saying 'Take it slow'

[Chorus]

You're giving me a feeling
It's a sudden rush
Acting on the moment
Spontaneous, woh
Ooh this is not like me
To follow my heart so easily

I am reckless... Impulsive

I never imagined you could
Blow my theory apart
But now you're running away... with my heart... my heart

[Chorus]

You're giving me a feeling
It's a sudden rush
Acting on the moment
Spontaneous
Wanna be impulsive... reckless
And lose myself in your kiss... woh

Impulsive
I wanna be... impulsive
I'm gonna be impulsive... reckless
And lose myself, lose myself


Ada apa dengan cinta ? ;-p .. well, maybe I am figuring it out :D

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Found it !!

I have been looking for this mp3 high and low and I have found it :-)

That's What Love Can Do - BoyKrazy-

chorus:
That's what love can do
I don't wanna
Break your heart in two
And leave you cryin'
That's what love can do
Oh, no, I want you to know
I'm letting you go

You're just a fool
You say that I'm number one
And you'll always be true
How can this be
You say you've fallen in love
You don't know what it means
But look around and you will see
Broken promises and jealousy
Is that what you should want for us to be
One-time lovers turned enemies, but

chorus

All I can say
Is that I'm looking no further ahead than today
I'm too young for this game
On the road to forever
We don't know the way
So just forget about eternity
All the promises you just won't keep
Look down any street and you will see
I don't wanna bring you to your knees, but

chorus

So just forget about eternity
And all the promises you just won't keep
Look down any street, that's what you'll see
I don't wanna bring you to your knees, but

chorus

chorus to fade


Yes ;-) ada apa dengan cinta ya ? ;-)

pps / dia tanya .. " Awak merokok ke ? ", saya kata " Tak, tapi saya hisap ganja ".. dia terus gelak ... and I like that.

Monday, December 12, 2005

My Dil Goes Mmm

The last few days .. this song has been in my head :D

From Salaam Namaste reviewed here


My Dil Goes Mmmmm

Aati hain woh aaise chal ke jaise jannat mein rehti hain
dekhti hain sabko aaise jaise sabko woh sehti hain
par gusse mein jo aaye aur ankhein woh dikhlaye
ladte ladte galti se muskaaye
my dil goes mmmmmm....
my dil goes mmmmmm....

karti hu jab usse baatein lagta hain sone wala hain
soke jab jabbhi woh jaage lagta hain rone wala hain
par chupke se woh meri neend se mujhe jagaye
le baahon mein aur khud hi woh gir jaaye
my dil goes mmmmmm....
my dil goes mmmmmm....

ha woh na na karti hain
ha bada akadti hain
ha thodisi ziddi hain
ha akal se piddi hain
jaate hain sab daaye, baaye woh jaati hain
tedhi in baaton se mujhko satati hain
har waqt se pehle aanaa sunn na na koi bahana
par dekhna mera rasta rojana
my dil goes mmmmmm....
my dil goes mmmmmm....

ha picture mein rota hain
ha khulle muh sota hain
ha jara nalayak hain
ha pitne ke layak hain
jaane kya kehta hain jaane kya karta hain
sofe pe chadhta hain pardo se ladta hain
jab karne lage safaai samjho ke shaamat aayi
fir thak ke jab leta hain angdaai
my dil goes mmmmmm....
my dil goes mmmmmm....

ha thodi alag si hain
ha thodi galat si hain
ha thoda alag sa hain
ha thoda galat sa hain
aaisi bhi hogi woh aaisa na socha tha
aaisa hi hoga woh aaisa hi socha tha
kyo lagta hain yeh apna
yeh sach hain ya hain sapna
dar lagta hain kahi ho na jaaye jhuth
my dil goes mmmmmm....
my dil goes mmmmmm....
my dil goes mmmmmm....

my dil goes mmmmmm....


:-)

Oh ye, coming up, a mega movies review :D ...

Thursday, December 08, 2005

The Three Quizzes + Su ....

I took these three online quizzes quite recently .. heheh .. what do ya think ?

1) Color Power

Your Power Color Is Gold

At Your Highest:

You are engrossed in passions that mentally stimulate you.

At Your Lowest:

You seek thrills and neglect what's important in your life.

In Love:

You see dating as adventure and approach it with an open attitude.

How You're Attractive:

You passion for life makes others passionate about you.

Your Eternal Question:

"Am I Having Fun?"



comment : Hmmm .... so true ;-p

2) Usia

You Are 26 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.


comment : I say, it figues, and I do so agree .... jiwa muda kan kan .. :-)

3) Luck ,... ?

You Are Balanced - Realist - Empowered

You feel your life is controlled both externally and internally.
You have a good sense of what you can control and what you should let go.
Depending on the situation, you sometimes try to exert more control.
Other times, you accept things for what they are and go with the flow.

You are a realist when it comes to luck.
You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random.
You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you...
But you do your best to try to make your own luck.

You have a good deal of power, but you also know the pecking order.
You realize that working the system does get you further.
You know who to defer to and who to control.
When it comes to the game of life, you play things flawlessly.



comment : Yeah, it is true to a certain extent ...

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To my dear friend, Su : In the end, it is our choice. But, baggage will always be there in form of the past, but life has to go on ;-) Keep ya head up, my friend Su, for you are too beautiful to be dragged down.

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

A post from the past

A blast from the past

When I read this post, I immediately thought of this paragraph that I read from a short romance story I found on a Net, during my college years. I cried bucketloads after the first read of the story, as I was at a low point at that time.

" That's when I began to understand what role I was going to play in the lives of all my female friends. I was always going to be the best friend, the surrogate big brother. They would take the flattery I offered in the spirit in which they thought it was intended, that of a friend who was 'required' to say such things. "

After reading the post, I was happy for the blogger, yet shed a tear of sadness for me.

..life goes on ..

Thursday, December 01, 2005

It's Getting Clearer

Something got cleared late last night. Something that was samar2 for me, became crystal clear semalam. I think it's true la .. when you made things clear for yourself, other things become clearer for you. :-)

Initially, I was a bit disappointed, but I am glad now... interesting what you can see at an art gallery helps you in making the choice.

Monday, November 28, 2005

Me, Melepas + Have U Ever,

1) Me

From this movie

Charles: Why am I always at, uh, weddings, and never actually getting married, Matt?
Matthew: It's probably 'cause you're a bit scruffy. Or it could also be 'cause you haven't met the right girl.
Charles: Ah, but you see, is that it? Maybe I have met the right girls. Maybe I meet the right girls all the time. Maybe it's me.


I was a pengapit this past weekend on the 1st wedding.. and this scene played a lot on that day, on my mind n the rest of the day ..

2) Melepas

Girl A : Hang ni choosy sangat la...
Me : Eh ye ke ... takde la
Girl B : Tu la .. yang jauh dikejar tak dapat, yg depan mata tak kejar pun .. bila sedar di depan mata tu ok, dia dah ada org punya .. melepas lagi kau ..
Me : *laugh out loud* ( ..dlm hati rasa adoiii pedasnya cili .. )


* at the 2nd wedding, talking to 2 lady friends ...

3) Have U Ever

I saw this show on MTV on Saturday night and when it featured Brandy, I remembered this song and how it hurts when I listen to it masa tengah jiwang ...

"Have You Ever?" - Brandy -

[Chorus]
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
[Chorus]

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
[Chorus]

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you into my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep
[Chorus]

.. haiya ..jiwang eh ....

Saturday, November 26, 2005

From Yourself 2 Heaven

1) Open Yourself
The past week, something has been brewing up in my mind. It all began since the Afdlin Shauki show. My good friend who went along with me, commented something about me that got me my mind working on the matter for the past few days.

According to her, I am a great conversationalist ( yes ;-) I know I am charming ... hehehe ) ..but, what I talk about actually doesnt reveal much about what I am. ( ? ) ..." dah camtu, how la they want to get to know you and be interested in you .. " ... referring to my eternal 'woman problems.

Talking to my best friend yesterday, I actually asked him about his thoughts on what she said .. what he said in summary, after a long explanation is simply this .. you have to share yourself if you want to share your life with others... "

Hmm ... interesting point to think about ...

2 ) The Love Thang

I took the quiz below

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.

You tend to take more than give in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.


heheh ... all I can say is *wink*

3) Stress Ball

A few nights ago I went to a Promuda Toastmasters event. It was my second time, first being last year. A fellow blogger is the current President and one of the members is a blogger whom I think is a cool person. Essentially, it is an avenue for public speaking for those who want to improve. For me, that's cool plus the networking opportunities yg ada ...

One of the events is what they call Table Topics, where anyone present can speak off the cuff, with an idea given by the moderator. For that night, the speakers were given an item and was asked to tell why they bought the item for a loved one. So, I participated and picked out a yellow stress ball. Okay .. so I made up a story of buying for a loved one, as the person was stressed and I hoped that by giving him that, when the person squeezes it, the person remembers me .. sounds a bit sexual eh , even they were laughing, making sexual innuendos .. hehe .. borderline .. it was spontaneous ..in the end, my last line was this .. " life is a like a ball, you get rolled around, but in the end, you keep your shape " ... from the top of my head.. fikir2 balik .. I think it's true in a way .. the president kata it was my forrest gump quote :-)

4) Heaven

I saw this movie earlier tonight, with my best friend. It was okay la and kind of a sweet romantic comedy. At times, the David character wallows around .. n I knew how it felt, because I used to do that. In the past, when a lady rejects me, I would wallow ..asking myself ..why not me ? When my lady friends would ask me , where have all the good guys gone .. I would ponder why they never saw me more than a friend ..

Now, I have the choice to choose my response. Nowadays, I just let go if it does not work out or I feel like it's not going anywhere .. and if any lady asks me that question again .. I'll answer .. " You have not chosen a good one yet "

The power of choice :D

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

HP4, Sharp Nose n Karaoke

1) Harry Potter 4

Ok ok .. this is like the umpteenth review of Harry Potter that you have read ;-p but bear me la ye .. hehe .. I saw on Thursday at TGV 1 Utama ..:-) .. my rating - hmmm.. two thumbs up ..but a bit unsatisfied ... ;-p .. from what I know the Goblet of Fire was a thick one .. so making it into one movie was a daunting task. That's why I felt a bit unsatisfied I guess.. the important elements were in, but somehow ..some stuff were missing... anyway, .. please don't let that distract you from enjoying the movie. The movie itself shows Harry's 4th year .. yeah, the hormones have kicked in.. the teen scenes were brief but sweet ;-p .. I still think Harry n Hermione should do the jiggy but .. hey, I'm not JK :D .. the tone is darker following the last movie and there is death n violence .. so if u r bringing kids, beware ya .. they might be shocked especially, the last 30 minutes or so. I enjoyed Voldemort's intro or how he came in.. eww, the way Wormtail did it ... and Malfoy is a bad nigga anyway.

2) Sharp Nose

The last weekend was filled with open houses .. makan2 sampai semalam MC. heheh ... I met old friends, made new friends ... main2 dgn my anak buah ( yes, I hope to have my own kids one day mcm this post ;-p ) .. must be the clock ticking thing ....

Also, I learnt n finally understood this lesson, " Kalau hidung tak mancung, pipi jangan la tersorong - sorong " .. I think dulu I applied the lesson in the wrong situation n circumstances .. but now, I know. Have to let go ....

3) Karaoke

I like karaokeing .. melalak free .. heheh .. last few days, I had two chances to sing .. one with family n one with friends ... both opportunities, I found a new favorite song to sing .. my rule in karaokeing is simple .. to sing the song, you gotta have the feel for it ..

This is the song I sang with most feel ;-p

I Love The Way You Love Me -Boyzone-

I like the feel of your name on my lips
And I like the sound of your sweet gentle kiss
The way that your fingers run through my hair
And how your scent lingers even when you're not here


And I like the way your eyes dance when you laugh
And how you enjoy your two-hour bath
And how you've convinced me to dance in the rain
With everyone watching like we were insane


But I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul so completely
I love the way you love me


And I like the sound of old R 'n' B
And you roll your eyes when I'm sloppily off key
And I like the innocent way that you cry
At sappy old movies you've seen thousands of times


Chorus

(Listen to me now)
And I could list a million things
I love to like about you
But they could all come down to one reason
I could never live without you

..later..

ps/ I saw Afdlin Shauki on Saturday with a good friend. Verdict : Hilarious !! :-)

Monday, November 21, 2005

Mcm2 Ada

Last weekend was a very good and interesting one. My next post will be full of stories ;-P ..now tak leh sbb takde masa ... but here is something cute that came in my mailbox ...do enjoy ;-)

HOW DO YOU DECIDE WHO TO MARRY?

(written by kids)

(1) You got to find somebody who likes the same stuff. Like, if you like

sports, she should like it that you like sports, and she should keep the

chips and dip coming.

-- Alan, age 10

2) No person really decides before they grow up who they're going to

marry. God decides it all way before, and you get to find out later who

you're stuck with.

-- Kristen, age 10

WHAT IS THE RIGHT AGE TO GET MARRIED?

(1) Twenty-three is the best age because you know the person FOREVER by

then.

-- Camille, age 10

2) No age is good to get married at. You got to be a fool to get

married.

-- Freddie, age 6 (very wise for his age)

HOW CAN A STRANGER TELL IF TWO PEOPLE ARE MARRIED?

(1) You might have to guess, based on whether they seem to be yelling at

the same kids.

-- Derrick, age 8

WHAT DO YOU THINK YOUR MOM AND DAD HAVE IN COMMON?

(1) Both don't want any more kids.

-- Lori, age 8

WHAT DO MOST PEOPLE DO ON A DATE?

(1) Dates are for having fun, and people should use them to get to know

each other. Even boys have something to say if you listen long enough. --

Lynnette, age 8 (isn't she a treasure)

(2) On the first date, they just tell each other lies and that Usually

gets them interested enough to go for a second date.

-- Martin, age 10

WHAT WOULD YOU DO ON A FIRST DATE THAT WAS TURNING SOUR?

(1) I'd run home and play dead. The next day I would call all the

newspapers and make sure they wrote about me in all the dead columns.

-- Craig, age 9

WHEN IS IT OKAY TO KISS SOMEONE?

(9) When they're rich.

-- Pam, age 7

(2) The law says you have to be eighteen, so I wouldn't want to mess with

that.

- - Curt, age 7

(3 ) The rule goes like this: If you kiss someone, then you should marry

them and have kids with them. It's the right thing to do.

-- Howard, age 8

IS IT BETTER TO BE SINGLE OR MARRIED?

(1 ) I don't know which is better, but I'll tell you one thing. I'm never

going to have sex with my wife. I don't want to be all grossed out.

-- Theodore, age 8

(2 ) It's better for girls to be single but not for boys. Boys need

someone to clean up after them.

-- Anita, age 9 (bless you child)

HOW WOULD THE WORLD BE DIFFERENT IF PEOPLE DIDN'T GET MARRIED?

There sure would be a lot of kids to explain, wouldn't there?

-- Kelvin, age 8

And the #1 Favorite is........

HOW WOULD YOU MAKE A MARRIAGE WORK?

Tell your wife that she looks pretty, even if she looks like a truck.

-- Ricky, age 10


cute kan ? ;-) ... esp the last one .. hehehe

ada apa dengan marriage ya ? .. ;-)

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Panic

Yesterday night something happened. I panicked and in a pretty major way.

I watched Harry Potter 4 at the TGV 1 Utama .. the 7.45 pm show ... I will review that flick later eh .. after the movie abis, I nak belah n then realized my wallet was gone ! .. cari la kejap at my seat .. tak jumpa .. panic set in .. tgk balik betul2 .. jumpa la wallet tersepit.. masa tu I was so bersyukur ...:-)

In fact, the shock didnt go away with the finding back of my wallet. I felt a bit dull .. hmm,... masa tu felt like going through the motions ...hmm. balik rumah .. tukar baju .. terus nak tido .. it felt odd. Suddenly, I felt empty inside and wished that someone was there to hug me and tell me that it's going to be alright. Woke up at 3 am .. felt better.. n then tido balik ..

Sometimes, at these moments .. it might be different situations for you, that we get an insight on what we are right now .. and to be honest, I was scared of what I felt. It was an empty feeling .... jeez, beneath all the layers that I put on.. am I a lonely soul , even though I tell myself that it's all okay ...

hmm ....

All The Way From New York - Wilson Phillips -

I’m gonna ask you for something, and it may sound like a lot.
I’ve never really asked you for anything, no.
We’ve always lived so far apart

Chorus:
Would you fly all the way from new york to see me?
Could you fly all the way to stand here next to me?
I didn’t think so
But here you are with me.

I was hanging on to nothing as a child.
And my brother, he used to slam into walls
Everyone called him wild
Yes it’s been a while since I’ve had a day,
Where I don’t wish away all the fear, all the fear
That’s why it’s so hard to ask

Thank you for coming.
You’ll never know what it means (ah..ah)
’cause no one ever cared enough about you
How were you supposed to know what I need
You’ll never know what it means
But thank you for coming.

hmmm.....

Friday, November 18, 2005

Marry Me

1) Marry Me ;-)

Inspired by this post, the song below immediately popped in my mind. Actually, ada cerita la dulu2 masa college. I had a major crush on this girl masa my first sem in college .. at the end of sem, I compiled a booklet that had a few songs including this one below ... hehehe .. hehe .. those days la kan ..


Will You Marry Me? -Paula Abdul-

Just girl to boy
I'd like to share this thought with you
Our love's a joy
Two one's have made inseparable two
Last night my heart spoke to me
And it said
You've found that lover-friend
So now I've finally got the courage
Just ask You Baby ooh

Chorus:
Will you, will you
Will you marry me boy
Will you, will you
Will you marry me
Will you, will you
Will you marry me boy
Will you, will
Will you, will you, will you
Come on baby now

I lay awake
So full with hope of things to come
For heaven's sake
I pray I'm not the only one
I never dreamed I'd be so bold
I'm standing here, my heart's been sold
So now I've finally got the courage
Just ask you baby ooh

Chorus

Think of love as wings
Not a ball and chain
And Your fear of things
Unnecessary
I only want to share your name
Share your name
Last night my heart spoke to me
And it said
You've found that lover-friend
So now I've finally got the courage
Just ask You Baby ooh

Chorus

Maybe sunday
Come on monday
Baby any time this week
Get an old house
Find a back Yard
Buy some flowers down street
Tell your mother
Tell your mother
Don't tell anyone at all
All we need is
Just the two of us
and ooh...


Ada apa dengan marriage ya ? ;-p

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Over N Over

1) I made a choice this morning. And it's over. I am not a victim and will move on. It was sweet when it lasted. :-)

A new day begins ..

2) I had a great dinner with a couple of friends. Ate, drank and talked n laughed abis ... not to mention some triple X in the end .. hehehe ... seronok bila you are with your good buddies. Your troubles seem to be a zillion miles away.

Later peeps...

Monday, November 14, 2005

Lost, Yeehaa + Back2Work

1) I saw the much acclaimed Lost In Translation DVD a few days ago. My verdict : A must watch though it might not be everyone's cup of tea. It is a mood film, in such that you have to get the melancholic mood of the film in order to enjoy it. The theme of loneliness and connected souls in Tokyo, between 2 Americans.

One thing that I agree with the flick and in general, it is that there is always someone that we connect with, in our life .. but sometimes, he or she might be the one that we expected to connect with.

An excellent review of the movie here.

The song below was featured in the movie .. a lovely track

Just Like Honey -The Jesus & Mary Chain -

Listen to the girl
As she takes on half the world
Moving up and so alive
In her honey dripping beehive
Beehive
It's good, so good, it's so good
So good

Walking back to you
Is the hardest thing that
I can do
That I can do for you
For you

I'll be your plastic toy
I'll be your plastic toy
For you

Eating up the scum
Is the hardest thing for
Me to do

Just like honey (x 17)


2) Yeehaaa .... I am done with my coursework semester ! ;-) .. no more classes on weekends !! ;-)

3) Today was my first day at work. Yeah, I joined back the rat race ;-p .. I am in Jalan Tun Razak, KL area .. kalau jumpa, say hi yeah ;-) ...

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Encik Halimunan

Inspired by this post, I would like to tell her that she is not alone. I know how it feels as I have been in similar situations. Cinta itu manis and mengasyikkan tetapi, bila ia menyakitkan, it really hurts ... no physical scars, but mental n emotional scars ...


Invisible Man -98 Degrees-

Oh, oh, oh, yeah

You can hardly wait to tell all your friends
How his kisses taste sweet like wine
And how he always makes your heart skip a beat
Everytime he walks by

And if you're feeling down
He'll pick you up
He'll hold you close when you're making love
He's everything you been dreaming of, oh baby

I wish you'd look at me that way
Your beautiful eyes looking deep into mine
Telling me more than any words could say
But you don't even know I'm alive
Baby, to you all I am is the invisible man
Oh, you don't see me baby


You probably spend hours on the phone
Talking 'bout nothing at all
It doesn't matter what the conversation
Just as long as he calls

Lost in a love so real, and so sincere
And you'll wipe away other's tears
Your face lights up whenever he appears

I wish you'd look at me that way
Your beautiful eyes looking deep into mine
Telling me more than any words could say
But you don't even know I'm alive
Baby, to you all I am is the invisible man
Oh, you don't see me baby

I see you all the time baby
Huh, the way you look at him
I wish it was me, sweetheart
Boy, I wish it was me
But I guess...

I wish you'd look at me that way
Your beautiful eyes looking deep into mine
Telling me more than any words could say
But you don't even know I'm alive
Baby, to you all I am is the invisible man
Oh, you don't see me baby

I wish you'd look at me that way
Your beautiful eyes looking deep into mine
Telling me more than any words could say
But you don't even know I'm alive
Baby, to you all I am is the invisible man
Oh, you don't see me baby

Oh, oh, oh, oh baby
The invisible man
You don't see me girl
But I love you
Yes, I love you
The invisible man
Oh, oh, oh, yeah, yeah
The invisible man
Baby, baby, baby, yeah
The invisible man

...

How it feels like ?
* playing the sad song in the rain, with the guitar
* keeping the candle flickering alive in the storm

..more to come on this line ..

Salon + Mohabbatein

Hello amigos ..

In the midst of menyiapkan my assignments yg due this Sabtu ..( I feel a bit of a panic..here n there ..uwaaa ) .. I watched two movies .. cinema n vcd

Salon

I watched this flick at GSC 1 Utama. Conclusion : Hmmm..... underwhelmed. Susah la nak review this flick .. I guess I was expecting something like Gol N Gincu. There is something about this movie I cannot put a finger on. It had its moments..no doubt .. but at times, I felt like it was kind of fake acting, but I let you judge it for yourself.

Story-wise, what the main character, Luna, asks is something I can faham, as I am / have been in similar predicaments. There is a message on commitment here, but like I said, judge it for yourself. The other character, Ezra, also has his own problems in his pursue of the big L.

Other than that, watching Jojo Struys speak BM is a hoot, some of the dialogue were quite good ... ;-) The music is good though .. I'd probably reach for the soundtrack ..

I'd probably watch it again ..just to get it again.

Mohabbatein

People.. I give this Hindi movie two thumbs way up ;-) I have the vcd n the soundtrack .. definitely recommended :-)

I was watching in between doing the assignments .. and as usual, I was hooked again, especially in the song sequences ;-)

The story of Raj Aryan vs Narayan Shankar. The love stories of Samir-Sanjana, Kiran-Karan, Vicky-Ishka .. this film is about Love. :-) After watching this flick, if you don't feel the love ... aiyaa, you got heart of stone la .. ;-)

Below is the most popular song from the movie with translations

HUMKO HAMISE CHURA LO

Lyrics: --FEMALE--
Aaaa aaa aaa....
Humko humise chura lo,
dil mein kahin tum chhupa lo - 2
Hum akele kho naa jaaye, door tumse ho naa jaaye
Paas aao gale se lagaa lo

Steal me from myself
Hide me somewhere in your heart
Alone , fear I might get lost
Far from you , I might go
Come close and put your arms around my neck


--MALE--
Humko humise chura lo,
dil mein kahin tum chhupa lo
Hum akele kho naa jaaye, door tumse ho naa jaaye
Paas aao gale se lagaa lo

Steal me from myself
Hide me somewhere in your heart
Alone , fear I might get lost
Far from you , I might go
Come close and put your arms around my neck


--FEMALE--
Humko humise chura lo
Steal me from myself

--MALE--
Dil mein kahin tum chhupa lo
Hide me somewhere in your heart

--FEMALE--
Aaa aaa aa....la la la la la

--MALE--
Yeh dil dhadka do, zulfen bikhraa do
Sharmaake apna, aanchal lehraa do

Let the heart beat (faster) , spread your hair
Blush and let your shawl fly


--FEMALE--
Hum zulfen to bikhraa de, din mein raat na ho jaaye
Hum aanchal to lehraa de, par barsaat na ho jaaye

I would let my hair down , but it might make the day into night
I would spread my shawl but it might start raining


--MALE--
Hone do barsaatein, karni hain kuch baatein
Let it rain , we have to talk
Come near and embrace me


--FEMALE--
Paas aao gale se lagaa lo

Come close and put your arms around my neck

--MALE--
Humko humise chura lo, dil mein kahin tum chhupa lo

Steal me from myself
Hide me somewhere in your heart


--FEMALE--
Hum akele kho naa jaaye, door tumse ho naa jaaye

Alone , fear I might get lost
Far from you , I might go


--MALE--
Paas aao gale se lagaa lo
Come close and put your arms around my neck

--FEMALE--
Humko humise chura lo
Steal me from myself

--MALE--
Dil mein kahin tum chhupa lo
Hide me somewhere in your heart

-FEMALE--
Aa aa aaa aaa aa.....la la la la laa

--MALE--
Tumpe marte hain, hum mar jaayenge
Yeh sab kehte hain, hum kar jaayenge

I die for you , I might die in reality I say all this , I will do it

--FEMALE--
Chupki bhar sindoor se tum ab yeh maang zara bhar do
Kal kya ho kisne dekha, sab kuch aaj abhi kar do

Put this red dye of marriage in my hair parting
What will happen tomorrow who knows , do everything today


--MALE--
Hona ho sab raazi, dil raazi, rab raazi

Others may not be ready , but the heart is ready and God is willing.

--FEMALE--
Paas aao gale se lagaa lo

Come close and put your arms around my neck

--MALE--
Humko humise chura lo, dil mein kahin tum chhupa lo

Steal me from myself
Hide me somewhere in your heart


--FEMALE--
Oooo, humko humise chura lo, dil mein kahin tum chhupa lo

Steal me from myself
Hide me somewhere in your heart


--MALE--
Hum akele ho naa jaaye, door tumse ho naa jaaye
Alone , fear I might get lost
Far from you , I might go


-FEMALE--
Paas aao gale se lagaa lo - 2
Come close and put your arms around my neck

La la la...hmm hmm....

.. ada apa dengan cinta ya ? ;-p

Monday, November 07, 2005

Lagu Utk Org Bercinta :P

Whenever I heard this song masa Raya kan .. teringat la couple tu .. I dedicate to both of them .. acat n senorita ;-p

You Got It All - The Jets -

I, I was a game he would play
He brought the clouds to my day
Then like a ray of light
You came my way one night
Just one look and I knew
You would make everything clear
Make all the clouds disappear
Don't you know, don't you know

You got it all over him
You got me over him
Honey it's true
There's just you
You must have been heaven sent
Hearing me call you went
Out on a limb
And you're all that he's not
Just look what I got
Cause you got it all
Over him

No, don't let him worry you so
Once I met you I let go
Oh you can surely see
You're so much more to me
Just one look and I knew
You would make everything clear
Make all the clouds disappear
You're better than all the rest
Who do I love the best
Don't you know, don't you know

You got it all over him
You got me over him
Honey it's true
There's just you
You must have been heaven sent
Hearing me call you went
Out on a limb
And you're all that he's not
Just look what I got
Cause you got it all
All over him
(You got it all over him, You got me over him)
Honey it's true there's just you
You must have been heaven sent
Hearing me call you went
Out on a limb
And you're all that he's not
Just look what I got
Cause you got it all
All over him

ps / ada apa dengan cinta ya ? ;-p

Post Raya I

How was your Raya ? .. hehe.. the next few days inilah what ppl will tanya u bila jumpa ... my Raya was in overall okla .. I tak balik Utara this time .. but traveled around n beraya with ppl around ..

Some changes occurred .. my best friend celebrated his first married Raya .. so moir got no kaki to ajak along .. it was strange to receive the raya sms from him .. in the end it had E n Z. hehe ...

The theme of this Raya was for me .. its Choice. As I biked from Sban to KL on Sunday, it dawned on me that whatever that ppl do to you .. it is their choice ... it is also yr choice on how to respond to them ... after making yr choice, accept n be responsible for its consequences. A rainy afternoon under the Nilai interchange helps ...

What is Raya without makan2 eh ? The food during my visits .. were yummy .. I ate a few varieties of the rendang esp .. thank goodness, I did not makan over2. It was more the gathering thing that interested me. The vibes ranged from condescending to fatherly advice.

There was also a friend I missed due to miscommunication .. A friend who became a real aunt for the first time .. a friend whose mum is suffering from cancer n may not live long. N a friend who is in a relationship dilemma. Choices...choices ...

I had this song on my mp3 player n it sums what I feel abt my friends during this Raya ..

Kisah Klasik Masa Depan - SO7 -

Jabat tanganku, mungkin untuk yang terakhir kali
Kita berbincang tentang memori di masa itu
Peluk tubuhku usapkan juga air mataku
Kita terharu seakan tidak bertemu lagi

Bersenang-senanglah
Kar'na hari ini yang 'kan kita rindukan
Di hari nanti sebuah kisah klasik untuk masa depan
Bersenang-senanglah
Kar'na waktu ini yang 'kan kita banggakan di hari tua

Sampai jumpa kawanku
S'moga kita selalu
Menjadi sebuah kisah klasik untuk masa depan
Sampai jumpa kawanku
S'moga kita selalu
Menjadi sebuah kisah klasik untuk masa depan

Bersenang-senanglah
Kar'na hari ini yang 'kan kita rindukan
Di hari nanti...

Mungkin diriku masih ingin bersama kalian
Mungkin jiwaku masih haus sanjungan kalian


.... well, real world awaits ..

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

The Syawal Post

Ahh,, Raya is just around the corner ... a major celebration for most Muslims ... when I was a kid, it was a major, major thing ..but , bila dah jadi dewasa ni ...hmm, I guess the spark is not as much as I used to feel. Not to mean, I don't enjoy it , but tak segila2 dulu ;-P ..

Raya is a significant milestone .. it is one of the milestones, where I compare where I am now to where I was a year ago .. so at this moment, hmm.. there are some things that have remained the same .. there are things which have changed.. InsyaAllah, by Raya next year .. there will be some real changes .. " ..bergerak ke hadapan, bukan ke belakang .. "

To my readers,

S E L A M A T H A R I R A Y A A I D I L F I T R I

MAAF ZAHIR BATIN


Have Fun, Be Safe :-)

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Or Am I + A Test

Or am I Daniel Cleaver ? As I thought to myself, while eating my sahur earlier ?.... I read a recent post of this blog , whose author is currently in La La Land with the author of this blog. I followed and am following their exploits from his perspective and now, only recently, following hers too. I am not sure which type of man that I fall in, but I am pretty sure, it could be one of the latter categories …
Often, in the matters of the heart, it is not the actions of the person that you are attracted that make you go crazy, it is your own response to the their actions that do.

Consider this

11.00 pm – Boy calls girl for the first time, after weeks of messaging. Girl takes call, asking boy to call back after 20 mins. Girl says, she needs to shower.

11.20 pm – 1.30 am : Boy keeps calling girl, but only getting voicemail.

So what is the boy’s response ?

A – Aarghh …. Mcm2 la .. starts thinking bad thoughts .. she doesn’t want to talk to me ..bla bla ..

B – Hmm, so near so far … okay la .. what to do kan …

I am sure most people have gone through this, one way or another … I have … option A seems to be my favorite thing … and option A causes the most heartbreak …

So, I chose option B.. and … importantly, redha about it. What I did was I watched my music therapy ( LP + GNR November Rain ) as usual, when this occurrences happen, but this time I decided, it wasn’t worth it anymore. It wasn’t satisfying. A breakthrough …  … I am not saying that the problem is resolved yet, but the end is in the sight. A suggestion from Andrew Matthews , “ When you are attached to things, you tend to screw it up .. “ … you know what, it finally makes sense ;-) …

And all of this because of a flicker …

Update : 30th October 2005

.. but thanks to the flicker, my faith is restored ;-)

Friday, October 28, 2005

Mr Jones

The past few days, in between of studying and doing assignments …I had the pleasure of watching this movie and its sequel. With the trials and tribulations of the heart that I have been through for the past year, I nominate myself as the male equivalent of the lead character ;-)

Ever wish that once you can be a android, devoid of human emotions ? I remembered that I once wished I was Data ( from Star Trek : The Next Generation ) … due to the sole fact that emotions can either push you or pull you, depending on how it is handled. But, on the other hand, emotions is what makes us human eh …. The cruelest pain that one can inflict on another is not the pain of the physical kind, for the wounds may heal, but the pain of the emotional kind. Pain, that takes quite a while to heal and perhaps never heal at all.

It is this pain which I have carried so long .. and twisted as it may sound, at times, it is more comforting than the fear of unknown. When one lets go of the pain in the past, that is a whole new territory to explore, where fear of the unknown takes into effect. I have been jorneying to the unknown for the past year, inch by inch, step by step. And at times, there is a tendency for me to crawl into the comfortable shell, eyeing the world through wary and weary eyes.

It is through the assistance and guidance of people whom you know, love and trust, that you are able to make it through. It is aptly described below ….

“ A true friend knows your weaknesses but shows you your strengths; feels your fears but fortifies your faith; sees your anxieties but frees your spirit; recognizes your disabilities but emphasizes your possibilities. - William Arthur Ward – “


It is my hope and wish, to you dear reader, that this post, out of the ordinary as it is, would spark you a little bit in living this life …. Most of the time, we go through the motions in living … but, if we stop once a while, and look around where we are .. we can change the motion..

I leave you with this excerpt from The Prophet – Khalil Gibran –


Reason & Passion

And the priestess spoke again and said:

"Speak to us of Reason and Passion."

And he answered saying:

Your soul is oftentimes a battlefield, upon which your reason and your judgment wage war against passion and your appetite.

Would that I could be the peacemaker in your soul, that I might turn the discord and the rivalry of your elements into oneness and melody.

But how shall I, unless you yourselves be also the peacemakers, nay, the lovers of all your elements?

Your reason and your passion are the rudder and the sails of your seafaring soul.

If either your sails or our rudder be broken, you can but toss and drift, or else be held at a standstill in mid-seas.

For reason, ruling alone, is a force confining; and passion, unattended, is a flame that burns to its own destruction.

Therefore let your soul exalt your reason to the height of passion; that it may sing;

And let it direct your passion with reason, that your passion may live through its own daily resurrection, and like the phoenix rise above its own ashes.

I would have you consider your judgment and your appetite even as you would two loved guests in your house.

Surely you would not honour one guest above the other; for he who is more mindful of one loses the love and the faith of both.

Among the hills, when you sit in the cool shade of the white poplars, sharing the peace and serenity of distant fields and meadows - then let your heart say in silence, "God rests in reason."

And when the storm comes, and the mighty wind shakes the forest, and thunder and lightning proclaim the majesty of the sky, - then let your heart say in awe, "God moves in passion."

And since you are a breath In God's sphere, and a leaf in God's forest, you too should rest in reason and move in passion.


Rest In Reason & Move In Passion , my dear readers ;-)

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Ramadhan Morning Thoughts

This morning .. between Sahur n Subuh prayers .. I did some thinking and resolution .. I wont say it here .. but, it is an ever improving process for me personally. The last few weeks have interesting ....

1) A few people close to me have given some feedback on my current life. Of course, it aint bed of roses, but I do appreciate the feedback. In a sense, it had confirmed in one way or another, what I knew I went through these past years. The light is appearing ... and the end of the tunnel is what I see now.

My thanks to Inn, Errol n my sis :-)

2) Remember that flicker ? It is now steadily illuminating .. honestly, I have been going through a see saw of emotions because of this flicker ...really, it is due to the stuff in the past. The demons were playing with me .. again, my best friend helped to make things clear ... and to a certain extent and credit, this flicker has been very patient ... and I am surprised by this positive development. One step at a time ... and I am moving forward. :-)

ps/ tu sbb previous post in French ;-)

2.1 ) Thanks to this program, I have been downloading songs like crazy ;-).. especially, classic stuff .. the song below is something I was looking for ages .. and syukur, I found it ! ;-)

HANDS TO HEAVEN - Breathe -

As I watch you move, across the moonlit room
There's so much tenderness in your loving
Tomorrow I must leave, the dawn knows no reprieve
God give me strength when I am leaving

Chorus:
So raise your hands to heaven and pray
That we'll be back together someday
Tonight, I need your sweet caress
Hold me in the darkness
Tonight, you calm my restlessness
You relieve my sadness

As we move to embrace, tears run down your face
I whisper words of love, so softly
I can't believe this pain, it's driving me insane
Without your touch, life will be lonely

Repeat Chorus

Morning has come,
I must pack my bags and say goodbye,
Goodbye

:-)

My last sentence for this post comes from this author... whose books I have read and re-read, inspires me daily :-) ..

" Life keeps giving you the same lessons until you have learned from it, made adjustments and move on ! "

later ...

Saturday, October 22, 2005

Vous ce pourrait être

Vous ce pourrait être

Le temps, j'ai passé temps regarder les trains vont par
Toute ma vie
Couchant sur le sable regarde des oiseaux de mer volent
Souhaiter il pourrait y avoir quelqu'un
Attendant à la maison pour moi

Dire de quelque chose me vous ce pourrais être
Il me dit que vous ce pourrait être
toute ma vie

Regardant de retour comme les amants vont marcher le passé
toute ma vie se
Demandant comment ils ont rencontré et ce qu'il fait dure
Si j'ai trouvé l'endroit ferait je reconnais la face

Dire de quelque chose me vous ce pourrais être
Il me dit que vous ce pourrait être
tant de promenades calmes pour prendre
tant de rêves pour réveiller et il y a le si beaucoup d'amour pour faire

Je pense que nous sommes gonna a besoin de quelque temps
Peut-être tout nous avons besoin d'est le temps
Et il me dit que vous ce pourrait être
toute ma vie

J'ai épargné les chansons d'amour et les berceuses
Et il y a si beaucoup plus
personne jamais a entendu avant
que dire de quelque chose me vous ce pourrais être
Ouais, il me dit que vous ce doit être et
je me sens qu'il fera juste vous est
toute ma vie vous c'Est, vous c'est j'ai attendu toute ma vie
Peut-être vous c'est
Peut-être vous c'est
j'ai attendu toute ma vie.


A mon ami de dame : J'espère que ceci vous encourage en haut :-)

Friday, October 21, 2005

PM's wife R.I.P

Actually I want to blog abt some stuff .. but, nation takes precedence for once.

Pak Lah, my condolences on your wife's passing. Semoga perjuangan diteruskan !

That's what I wrote in the tribute page located here.

The news from Malaysian papers : -

1) NST.

Endon In Pictures courtesy of NST here.

2) Utusan Malaysia

3) The Star

The rest of it .. courtesy of Google News here

Al-Fatihah.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Keruan + G.O.L

Satu perkataan yang mencerminkan diri gue sehari dua ini. Tidak keruan.

Sebab apa ? … hmm…. I pride myself that I am more or less able to be on my own .. bak kata, depend on myself … tetapi, satu kehadiran sekrg yg membawa fenomena ..

Tanda – tanda

1. Selang beberapa minit terfikir tentangnya
2. Menunggu2 isyarat SMS masuk …
3. Berfikir sama ada mahu sms atau tidak …
4. Mahu menjaga ego seorang lelaki yet ...

Penyakit si mamat ni sudah berjangkit pada gue ke ? ….

Meanwhile, untuk menenangkan jiwa, gue mendengar lagu kumpulan ini .... an interesting form of self therapy .. actually to keep my expectations low ..

But then … I think I may be playing the game below …

"The Game Of Love" – Santana feat. Michelle Branch) –


Tell me just what you want me to be
One kiss and boom you're the only one for me
So please tell me why don't you come around no more
Cause right now I'm crying outside the door of your candy store

[Chorus:]
It just takes a little bit of this
A little bit of that
It started with a kiss
Now we're up to bat
A little bit of laughs
A little bit of pain
I'm telling you, my babe
It's all in the game of love

This, whatever you make it to be
Sunshine set on this cold lonely sea
So please baby try and use me for what I'm good for
It ain't sayin' goodbye that's knocking down the door of your candy store

[Chorus]
It's all in this game of love
You roll me
Control me
Console me
Please hold me
You guide me
Divide me
Into what...

[Guitar solo]
Make me feel good, yeah

So please tell me why don't you come around no more
Cause right now I'm dying outside the door of your loving store

[Repeat Chorus]

It's all in this game of love
It's all in the game of love
Yeah, in the game of love

Roll me
Control me
Please hold me
(make me feel good, yeah)


update : Pet, redha aja ..

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Weekend Review + Flicker

The weekend was tiring but interesting. Tiring due to my schoolwork .. it’s the last few weeks and stuff due is just piling ion.. pening kepala den ;-) But, despite all that, syukur that I am still maintaining my sanity … he he …

I met a good friend last weekend .. and was happy to meet her .. felt more comfortable .. and more natural .. J .. yeah, I am getting IT at last, and I am happy about it.

Something is flickering in the sky .. when it flickers for that moment, it warms my heart n brings me a smile …

In the end, it’s you choice on how to respond to it … and I am making good ones more than bad ones nowadays. Again, my thanks to my good friend.


This song below is getting me jumping at times .. nama kumpulan pun menarik eh ..


"Don't Cha" Pussycat Dolls (feat. Busta Rhymes)

[Busta Rhymes]
Ok (ahh)
Yeahh (ahh)
Oh, we about to get it just a lil hot and sweaty in this mu'f**ka (oh, baby)
Ladies let's go (uhh)
Soldiers let's go (dolls)
Let me talk to y'all and just you know
Give you a little situation... listen (fellas)

[Buster Rhymes]
Pussycat Dolls
Ya see this shit get hot
Everytime I come through when I step up in the spot (are you ready)
Make the place sizzle like a summertime cookout
Prowl for the best chick
Yes I'm on the lookout (lets dance)
Slow bangin shorty like a belly dancer with it
Smell good, pretty skin, so gangsta with it (oh, baby)
No tricks only diamonds under my sleeve
Gimme tha number
But make sure you call before you leave

[Pussycat Dolls]
I know you like me (I know you like me)
I know you do (I know you do)
Thats why whenever I come around
She's all over you (she's all over you)
I know you want it (I know you want it)
It's easy to see (it's easy to see)
And in the back of your mind
I know you should be fucking me (babe)

[Chorus:]
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me?
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was a freak like me?
Don't cha
Don't cha
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was raw like me?
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was fun like me?
Don't cha
Don't cha

Fight the feeling (fight the feeling)
Leave it alone (leave it alone)
Cause if it ain't love
It just aint enough to leave my happy home (my happy home)
Let's keep it friendly (let's keep it friendly)
You have to play fair (you have to play fair)
See I dont care
But I know She ain't gonna wanna share

[Chorus:]
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me?
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was a freak like me?
Don't cha
Don't cha
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was raw like me?
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was fun like me?
Don't cha
Don't cha

[Busta Rhymes]
Ok, I see how it's goin' down (ahh, don't cha)
Seems like shorty wanna little menage pop off or somethin, let's go
Well let me get straight to it
Every broad wan watch a nigga when I come through it
It's the god almighty, lookin all brand new
If shorty wanna jump in my ass then vanjewish
Lookin at me all like she really wanna do it
Tryna put it on me till my balls black an blueish
Ya wanna play wit ah playa girl then play on
Strip out the channel
And leave the lingerie on
Watch me and I'mma watch you at the same time
Lookin at ya wan break my back
You the very reason why I keep a pack ah the Magnum
An wit the wagon hit chu in the back of tha magnum
For the record, don't think it was somethin you did
Shorty all on me cuz it's hard to resist the kid
I got a idea that's dope for y'all
As y'all could get so I could hit the both of y'all

[Pussycat Dolls]
I know she loves you (I know she loves you)
So I understand (I understand)
I'd probably be just as crazy about you
If you were my own man
Maybe next lifetime (maybe next lifetime)
Possibly (possibly)
Until then old friend
Your secret is safe with me

[Chorus:]
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me?
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was a freak like me?
Don't cha
Don't cha
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was raw like me?
Don't cha wish your girlfriend was fun like me?
Don't cha
Don't cha

Saturday, October 15, 2005

Control ++ Kerja ?

1) Control

A blogger wrote that I had issues of control. I had she misunderstood what my control comment to her was. What I said was, " I am never going to let any woman control me again .. " .. it sounds rather harsh eh .. what I meant was, I was not going to let my emotions be overly swayed or influenced by women, to a point where I do stupid things.

There are lots of reason why I said that .. but, it first came out around July. Suffice to say, I was partially duped by a girl I fancied and when I ticked her off abt it .. she just laughed me off. It got me thinking right, .. when it comes to womenfolk, I have been played a lot .. and the lessons keep on repeating. So, I guess, that's where the control part came in. I am sorry that she misunderstood it.

Honestly, *sigh* .. when it comes to relationships and stuff like that, the heart rules the head more ya .. so nowadays, I tell my head to have more input on the matter and since that July .. it's improving ...

2) Swamped

Currently, I am a bit swamped with loads of study stuff due this month .. byknya kerja !

2.1 ) .. work ..

I am going back racing in the rat race after Raya ! .. interesting gig this time ;-) and maybe some new interesting makeovers ... hmm .. see la ye ...

3) Wilson Phillips

Anyone remember this trio ? ;-) .. in the flood of black singing girl groups, a WASP trio came out and sang themselves to the top. Cepat dia naik, cepat dia hilang .. I loved their songs from the their two albums. There were lovely pop tunes, and heartfelt lyrics .. I had their cassettes only and lost 'em .. lupa lak nak beli their CDs when I was in US. They were an important music part of my college years ..

A review of their selected albums are below

1) Wilson Phillips
2) Shadows and Lights

Their official website here.

Some of their videos here. ( ... bestnya !! )

I got the mp3 to this song from them a few days ago

"Don't Take Me Down"

'I love you girl' that's what you used to say
And that no one would ever take it away
I gave you all I had inside, baby it's alright

But then you took the love right from my heart
It's funny how things so strong can fall apart
I gave you all I had inside, baby it's alright, ooh

One day you'll wear out the lines you always use
Why do you say that you'll change when you never do?
I've always found a reason to let it slide...baby not this time.
Ooh, because I know where you're going from here
(Don't take me down with you)

[Chorus:]
Don't take me down (take me down with you...)
'Cause I don't need no one and no one's ever gonna bring me down.
Don't take me down (Don't take me down with you...)
And I don't need no one and no one's ever gonna bring me down.
You had someone; you had me to love.

Why do we put up all these fronts?
There's something about the way that you loved me once.
And why, why is it wrong to want it back again?

Oh no... one day you'll wear out the lines you always use
Why do you say that you'll change when you never do?
I've always found a reason to let it slide...baby not this time.
Ooh, because I know where you're going from here
(Don't take me down with you)

[Chorus]

Too many times, I've realized the truth
(don't take me down, don't take me down)
Too many times...
I've seen enough, I've seen it enough to know
This time you're not, you're not gonna take me down
Down, down, down, down .... yeah

[Chorus]

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Nickname N Her

1) Origin

Most of my good friends call me Pet. What's the story ? Well, the story is like this ...

" .. Arakian satu masa dahulu, di bumi Melaka, di pekan Jasin, adalah seorang cowok yang menjejak kakinya di situ, tanggal 1989. Menempuh alam baru, terpisah daripada keluarga tercinta .. saja nak tunjuk terrer ;-)..

Hidup beliau di maktab yg tersergam indah mencelikkan mata beliau pada realiti hidup .. no longer black and white, semuanya kelabu ala jerebu ...

Ketika makhluk2 maktab asyik dengan irama rock melayu dan tommy page ... cowok ini mendengar lagu geng ini. Warga2 bertanya kpd cowok .. weii mamat .. apa yg lu dengar ni ? .. cowok dengan lagak macho n cool berkata .. electropop .. sesungguhnya mereka tidak faham, lalu berkata .. mulai tika dan saat ini, dengan perintah yg asal usulnya taman rasyidah utama, yg penuh misteri mimpi syakilla, tak masuk lagi dengan fenomena, dan penuh penantian ... we call you Pet Shop Boy or Fat Short Boy !!

Dan bermulalah Hikayat Penuh Ranjau Pet .... "


Pet was the nickname and it stuck from then on ...

Imagine when I found out later that they were gay. Adakah Pet juga gay ? jeng jeng ...

Below is one of my fav songs from the group ;-)


Domino Dancing - Pet Shop Boys -

-----------------
(all day, all day)

I don't know why, I don't know how
I thought I loved you, but I'm not sure now
I've seen you look at strangers too many times
A love-you-once is of a, a different kind

Remember when we felt the sun
A love like paradise, how hot it burned
A threat of distant thunder, the sky was red
And when you walked, you always - turned every head

(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day) domino dancing
(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day) domino dancing

I thought that when we fought I was to blame
But now I know you play a different game
I've watched you dance with danger, still wanting more
Add another number to the score

(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day) domino dancing
(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day) domino dancing

When you look around you wonder
Do you play to win'
Or are you just a bad loser'

(all day, all day)
(all day, all day)

(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day, domino dancing)

(all day, all day)
(all day, all day)

I don't know why, I don't know how
I'd thought I loved you, but I'm not sure now
I hear the thunder crashing, the sky is dark
And now a storm is breaking within my heart

(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day) domino dancing
(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day, domino dancing)

(all day, all daeheheheheheheh)
(all day, all daeheheheheheheh)

(all day, all day)
(all day, all day)
(domino dancing)

(all day, all day)
(all day, all day)

(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day, domino dancing)

(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day) domino dancing
(all day, all day) watch them all fall down
(all day, all day)


... To her : We may have more in common than I thought. Oh well ...

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Tagged !!

Allo hombres .. I got tagged by this blogger who is a wonderful person in real life .. so dah kena nag dengan dia ;-p .. buat la juga benda di bawah ni.


Seven things you plan to do before you die:
1 - Perform the Hajj / visit the Holy Land
2 – Visit Anfield, home of Liverpool FC
3 - Go back to USA and chill there.. watch American football puas2. 
4 – Go and visit each continent, especially Europe
5 – Ada rezeki , kahwin !
6 – Become a cool husband and father ( related to no 6 )
7 – Read .. read ..read on stuff that interests me

Seven things I could do:
1 – start doing more instead of thinking aja
2 – Buy a car … finally ;-)
3 – Settle down .. hehehe
4 – Upgrade my wardrobe .. still in college mode ;-p
5 – Read more stuff ( esp history and management )
6 – Visit more muzeums / art galleries
7 – Pursue my creative interest .. drawing, acting

Seven celebrity crushes:
1 – Dian Sastro
2 – Alexis Bledel
3 – Preity Zinta
4 – Marisa Tomei
5 – Kirsten Dunst
6 – Larisa Oleynik
7 – Sharifah Amani

Seven often repeated words:
1 – Yeah baby
2 – What the f***
3 – Damn !
4 – Yo wassup
5 – What ?!
6 – Nahh ….
7 – You know what I'm saying ..

Seven physical traits I look for in the opposite sex :
1 – A bit fair looking
2 – Chinese looking
3 – Sweet smile
4 - Lovely eyes
5 – Soft hands
6 – Medium size
7 - Cute

Seven tags go to:
1 – julia ( my sis )
2 - Inn
3 - Rafthah
4 - Rudy
5 -
6 -
7 -

.. to those who I tagged .. kalau dah buat, tak yah la buat lagi ye ...

Freaky Friday + ?

1)Freaky Friday

I saw Freaky Friday last Friday ( get it ? ;-p ). It was okay la .. I enjoyed it and would definitely recommend it to everyone for a nice viewing. It has an interesting story of how a mother and daughter switches places for one day. It is believable as the leads Jamie Lee Curtis ( mother ) and Lindsay Lohan ( daughter ) make a totally cool mother and daughter combo. Going through the tribulations of one day of switched identities, with new discoveries and appreciation for each other, and in the end, the main lesson is that in order to get along, both parties need to look from the other point of view.

Oh, screw it ;-) Lindsay Lohan is hot … ! Freckle face and all … she can play guitar for me anytime !

2)Why ?

What is it about the big L ? I posted a comment on this blog’s post … am reposting it here again below …

1) Sandman says ..

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love." ~Neil Gaiman

2) Sean says

" Sean: You're not perfect sport, and let me save you the suspense, this girl you've met she's not perfect either. But the question is whether or not you're perfect for each other.That's what intimacy is all about ..."

-good will hunting-



It occurred to me about this after breaking fast with my sis and her friends today at Chinoz KLCC ( good food, btw ). My sis kata my misconception abt the big L is simple … it is not about control … hmm, of course masa tu I was like blergh …. But on the way back, hmm… hmmm … hmmmm ……. Ada apa dengan cinta ya ? …

The song belows answers it a bit I guess …

Why - 3T with MJ-

(Chorus)
Why does Monday come after Tuesday
Why do summers start in June
Why do winters come too soon
Why do people fall in love
When they're always breaking up, oh why

Why do I love you, tell me why

It's not like I can explain whats in my heart
It's just I feel a crazy pain with we're apart
I don't wanna breathe
I don't wanna think
I don't wanna love
I don't wanna do anything

It's not like I can't describe what's going on
It's just I feel I'm not alive when your not home
I don't wannna sleep
I don't wanna be
I just want you here beside me
Without you there's no me

(Chorus)

Why do we love if love will die

Why does Wednesday come after Tuesday
Why do flowers come in May
Why does springtime go away
Why do people fall in love
When they're always breaking up
Oh why

Why do I love you, tell me why

It's not like I can escape what's in my soul
Cuz with you inside my heart where can I go
I don't wanna see
No you without me
I can't go through life without you
Without you there's no me

(Chorus)

Why do we love if love will die?

Why do the rivers flow to the sea
Even if it flows
Why can't your love flow to me, babe
Why does my heart feel sadness
To be in love, to feel your love
Why don't I feel complete

(Chorus)

Why do I love you, tell me why
Tell me why
Tell me why
Tell my why
Tell my why

.. ada apa dengan cinta ya ? ;-) ...

Monday, October 10, 2005

No More I Love U's

Greetings ..

I have been looking for the mp3 for this song amd I have found it at last. Interesting song as my thoughts are going along these lines .. maybe .. ;-) ..

No More I Love Yous – Annie Lennox --

I used to be lunatic from the gracious days
I used to be woebegone and so restless nights
My aching heart would bleed for you to see
Oh but now...
(I don't find myself bouncing round whistling
and fortunes to make me cry)
No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me
No more "I love you's"
Changes are shifting outside the word
(The lover speaks about the monsters)

I used to have demons in my room at night
Desire,despair,desire,so many monsters
Oh but now...
(I don't find myself bouncing round whistling
and fortunes to make me cry)

No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me
No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me in silence
No more "I love you's"
Changes are shifting outside the word

They were being really crazy
They were on the come.
And you know what mammy?
Everybody was being really crazy.
Uh huh.
The monsters are crazy.
There are monsters outsides.

No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me
No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me in silence
No more "I love you's"
Changes are shifting outside the word

Outside the word


... ada apa dengan cinta ya ? ... ;-)

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Mail n Puasa No 2

1) Mail

Yesterday, I saw You've Got Mail. The storyline of love through the internet, which is so relevant today. This movie was set during the days of dial up using American Online .. I used it a few times when I was in US, and wondered why it wasn't done here ... and the rest of you guys who have internet in your homes know how at times, troublesome internet in Malaysia ..but that's another matter.

A key success factor of this movie is the chemistry between the two leads, Tom n Meg. This was their 2nd movie together after Sleepless in Seattle .. it is nice tale of enemies in the real world, lovers online kind of thing. I would recommend it.. and of course, NYC is a nice place to fall in love.

One thing struck me though .. in the dvd extra, in an interview with the director, Nora Ephron .. she said that the kind of love shown in the movie is fantasy. Hmm, maybe she's right and I have been foolish all these years ..

2) Puasa No 2

Day No 2 has been okay. Have not suffered much. Agaknya, sbb dah biasa kan ... today, I had a chance to go up the KLCC .. at the skybridge and the 76th floor .. looking down at all that was going on .. I realized that I am now at a major crossroads of my life ... yep the crossroads where changes have to made .. and I mean major changes ...

You can't have everything .. there must be sacrifices ..

Selamat berbuka ..

Later.

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Movies n Ramadan

Hello amigos ...

1) Saw these flicks these past few days ..

Must Love Dogs

Cerita ni okay lah .. so relevant as it touches on internet dating  .. I enjoyed but wouldn’t really put it as a must watch kind of flick .. probably kan because at times .. the chemistry between the leads ( Cusack and Lane ) was kind of forced at times,.. but it has some good one liners :-) and u have some free time..tgk la

50 First Dates

A classic Adam Sandler flick if you asked me. Actually, I like the idea,.. it is kind of hard but, you want to make the person love you every single day of her life. ;-) Watching it make me smile most of the times seeing Henry ( Sandler ) trying his best to woo Lucy ( Drew Barrymore ) with the help from his nutty cousin Ula ( Rob Scheider ).

And the music really helped

Notting Hill

Hugh Grant at his best :D and Julia Roberts. I would really recommend this flick to lovers of romantic comedies ;-) Good performances from both of them … and assisted by able support from the rest of the cast, especially William ( Grant )’s gila housemate.

Classic quote : “ I am just a girl .. asking a boy to love her .. “ … Awwwww


2) Ramadhan

Ramadhan will begin tonight, so I would like to wish my Muslim readers Selamat Beribadah in Ramadhan ;-) .. hope the Man will accept our ibadah during this Holy Month.

As I was biking back, I realized that I should count my blessings in many ways .. ya la, this is what normal people do kan ... but really, do I count my blessings ... I don't think I do that enough. I get a bit depressed when I think of what I dont have : A car, a house, loads of blings ...etc .. but then, look of what I have and accomplished so far .. then .... its get better.. and since one of Ramadhan's lessons is to count yr blessings .. so I will focus on my blessings from now on :-)Insya-Allah.

Ok lah .. later ... Selamat Berpuasa Hari Pertama !

ps/ I am working now at KLCC .. albeit until Raya ;-) ...

Monday, October 03, 2005

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I have not written for the past few days but fear not, masa tu pun my head was cranking out blog posts ;-) .. so at least, I know what I plan to write ..

1) Pre, Post, Epilogue

When you are in love with a woman, this song comes to my mind ...

When she tells you, ".. let's just be friends ... " .. the song below plays ...

I Guess She Never Loved Me - Jason Donovan -

She said she knew, but she never knew me
and when she looked, she was looking through me
and when she talked, I don’t know exactly
behind her smile, was she laughing at me
I guess it doesn’t matter anymore
How could she hold, but never hold me
feel, but never feel me
I guess she never loved me at all

She said she tried, but she never made it
The love just died, nothing would have saved it
I was so sure on the day we started
Now I’ll never know if it could have lasted
I guess it doesn’t matter anymore
How could she hold, but never hold me
feel, but never feel me
I guess she never loved me at all

I guess she never meant all those things
Maybe it’s just one of those things
I guess she was fooling me
I guess she was using me

Was she laughing, was she laughing
Was she laughing, was she laughing
Was she laughing, was she laughing
Was she laughing at me
Was she laughing, was she laughing
Was she laughing at me

I guess it doesn’t matter anymore
How could she hold, but never hold me
feel, but never feel me

I guess she never loved me at all
I guess she never loved me at all
I guess she never loved me at all
I guess she never loved me at all
I guess she never loved me at all


And during those lonely times, especially cold lonely rainy nights .. this song can make one break down and cry ..

2) Goodbye

A lady friend's fiance passed away recently ... it reminded me of when one of my college roommate passed away a few years ... there was a song I gave her.. for my lady friend and in rememberance of arwah R, this song is for them ....

One Sweet Day - Mariah Carey n Boyz II Men -


Sorry, I never told you, all I wanted to say.
Now it's too late to hold you. '
Cause you've flown away, so far away.

Never, Had I imagined, yeah, living without your smile.
Feelin' and knowing you hear me.
It keeps me alive. Alive!

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way,
And I know eventually we'll be together.
One sweet day.

picture a little scene from heaven

Darling, I never showed you.
Assumed you'd always be there.
I took your presence for granted.
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared.

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven.
Like so many friends we've lost along the way.
And I know eventually we'll be together.
One sweet day.

Picture a little scene from Heaven.

Although, the sun will never shine the same, I'll
always look to a brighter day.

Yeah, Lord, I know, when I lay me down to sleep,
You'll always listen, as I pray!

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way,
And I know eventually we'll be together.
One sweet day.

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,
Like so many friends we've lost along the way,
And I know eventually we'll be together.
One sweet day.

Sorry, I Never told you, all I wanted to say


..more to write later ;-)