Wednesday, November 02, 2005

The Syawal Post

Ahh,, Raya is just around the corner ... a major celebration for most Muslims ... when I was a kid, it was a major, major thing ..but , bila dah jadi dewasa ni ...hmm, I guess the spark is not as much as I used to feel. Not to mean, I don't enjoy it , but tak segila2 dulu ;-P ..

Raya is a significant milestone .. it is one of the milestones, where I compare where I am now to where I was a year ago .. so at this moment, hmm.. there are some things that have remained the same .. there are things which have changed.. InsyaAllah, by Raya next year .. there will be some real changes .. " ..bergerak ke hadapan, bukan ke belakang .. "

To my readers,

S E L A M A T H A R I R A Y A A I D I L F I T R I

MAAF ZAHIR BATIN


Have Fun, Be Safe :-)

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Or Am I + A Test

Or am I Daniel Cleaver ? As I thought to myself, while eating my sahur earlier ?.... I read a recent post of this blog , whose author is currently in La La Land with the author of this blog. I followed and am following their exploits from his perspective and now, only recently, following hers too. I am not sure which type of man that I fall in, but I am pretty sure, it could be one of the latter categories …
Often, in the matters of the heart, it is not the actions of the person that you are attracted that make you go crazy, it is your own response to the their actions that do.

Consider this

11.00 pm – Boy calls girl for the first time, after weeks of messaging. Girl takes call, asking boy to call back after 20 mins. Girl says, she needs to shower.

11.20 pm – 1.30 am : Boy keeps calling girl, but only getting voicemail.

So what is the boy’s response ?

A – Aarghh …. Mcm2 la .. starts thinking bad thoughts .. she doesn’t want to talk to me ..bla bla ..

B – Hmm, so near so far … okay la .. what to do kan …

I am sure most people have gone through this, one way or another … I have … option A seems to be my favorite thing … and option A causes the most heartbreak …

So, I chose option B.. and … importantly, redha about it. What I did was I watched my music therapy ( LP + GNR November Rain ) as usual, when this occurrences happen, but this time I decided, it wasn’t worth it anymore. It wasn’t satisfying. A breakthrough …  … I am not saying that the problem is resolved yet, but the end is in the sight. A suggestion from Andrew Matthews , “ When you are attached to things, you tend to screw it up .. “ … you know what, it finally makes sense ;-) …

And all of this because of a flicker …

Update : 30th October 2005

.. but thanks to the flicker, my faith is restored ;-)