Saturday, June 11, 2005

For My Dad n Mom

.. thought of both songs for my parents ... only now, I begin to understand them ...

MAMA - Spice Girls -

She used to be my only enemy and never let me free,
Catching me in places that I know I shouldn't be,
Ever other day I crossed the line, I didn't mean to be so bad,
I never thought you would become the friend I never had,
Back then I didn't know why, why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes, all that you did was love,
Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
My friend
I didn't want to hear it then but I'm not ashamed to say it now,

Every little thing you said and did was right for me,
I had alot of time to think about, about the way I used to be,
Never had a sense of my responsibilty
Back then I didn't know why, why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes, all that you did was love,
Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
My friend
But now I'm sure I know why, why you were misunderstood,
So now I see through your eyes, all I can give you is love,
Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
My friend
Mama I love you, Mama I care,
Mama I love you, Mama my friend,
My friend


The Living Years - Mike N The Mechanics -

Every generation
Blames the one before
And all of their frustrations
Come beating on your door

I know that I'm a prisoner
To all my Father held so dear
I know that I'm a hostage
To all his hopes and fears
I just wish I could have told him in the living years

Crumpled bits of paper
Filled with imperfect thought
Stilted conversations
I'm afraid that's all we've got

You say you just don't see it
He says it's perfect sense
You just can't get agreement
In this present tense
We all talk a different language
Talking in defence

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It's too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye

So we open up a quarrel
Between the present and the past
We only sacrifice the future
It's the bitterness that lasts

So Don't yield to the fortunes
You sometimes see as fate
It may have a new perspective
On a different day
And if you don't give up, and don't give in
You may just be O.K.

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It's too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye

I wasn't there that morning
When my Father passed away
I didn't get to tell him
All the things I had to say

I think I caught his spirit
Later that same year
I'm sure I heard his echo
In my baby's new born tears
I just wish I could have told him in the living years

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It's too late when we die
To admit we don't see eye to eye

.. have a good weekend ;-) .. it is my last working weekend .. ;-)

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Ipoh Mali

1) Life Lessons ... >>>

Last Monday, I did a crazy thing. I decided to join a friend and his 'friend' in Ipoh for dinner. The plan was simple .. go down to Ipoh for dinner .. lepak with them for a couple of hours .. then balik to Penang. But u know what they say about good and noble intentions ...
After work, it was straight up ride there .. now, my transport was my beloved BFJ... those who know what it looks like.. enuff .. so in the middle of the night around 9 pm .. the bike broke down ! .. I was at the km 230 .. the hill before the Perak Simen.. my friend couldn't help me .. dumb ass ! .. a kind pakcik on a kapcai offered to tarik me .. but takde tali. So on a busy stretch of a highway .. 30+ km from Ipoh .. broke down bike .. pushing a bike uphill .. reaching on top of the hill... went down the drop ..no lights with only the signal lights ..it was dangerous I admit .. but, hey what to do ... ;-) .. after the cement plant, it went up again .. so had to push the bike up again.. but what happened made me feel glad to be alive and ashamed of myself of the same time.
A van stopped at the side near the hill. Two chaps asked what the trouble was .. I told them what happened and told them where I was going... so what did they do ? Took my bike in the back of my van .. took me in .. and drove me all the way to Ipoh .. dropped my bike at a motor shop near Ipoh Garden.. dropped me at the Ipoh Specialist for my friend to pick me up. And for saving me, both of them refused the cash I wanted to give them, even though I offered a few times. I remembered what of them said .. " takpe la bang .. tak payah la .. nanti mana tahu abang tolong kami pulak ... " To say that I am touched was an understatement ... it also made me thought of a few things .. which is still running in my mind ... most of the thread deals with who I am .. and what I want to be ...

2) My friend n ??

So my friend n his 'friend' .. we had dinner after I arrived .. I took the opportunity to observe the 'friend' the whole time I was there .. I spent the night in Ipoh .. the next day, took leave ... had the motor repaired .. observing the couple during the time I was there .. made me realize that I had no right to judge them .. I don't agree with they are doing ... but in the end, I leave it up to them to take responsibility for their actions ..

During my time in Ipoh, this tune was playing in my head .. pelik la .. a song for the couple perhaps ...

My Boo - Usher n Alicia Keys
[Usher intro:]

There's always that one person
That will always have your heart
You'll never see it coming
Cause you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me
It's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby ooh you'll always be my boo

[Alicia intro:]

I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
Its the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
Its the only way
We know how to rock

[Usher Verse:]

Do you remember girl
I was the one who gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl
I was the one who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and
People screaming your name
Girl I was there when you were my baby

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were young girl
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia:]
I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man in my life
You will always be my boo

[Alicia Verse:]

I remember boy
Cause after we kissed
I could only think about your lips
Yes I remember boy
The moment I knew
You were the one
I could spend my life with
Even before all the fame
And people screaming your name
I was there and you were my baby

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were young girl
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia:]
I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man in my life
You will always be my boo

[Usher:]
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

[Alicia:]
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were young girl
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia & Usher:]

I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
Its the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
Its the only way
We know how to rock

Later

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

PDA Post

.. a post from my PDA

27 May
.the decision to resign from my current work position is something that actually had roots beginning mid 2002.
At that time, I moved from another company in order to escape the company's environment. A few months after I joined, I knew I made a mistake as the job was not something I wanted to do. That started a chain reaction that resulted in me currently studying part-time. I had a rough idea what I wanted to do, but wasn't sure at that time.
I also looked at the financials, saw that I was a bit shaky, and made some decisions about it. Now, it is a bit better.
It took my current employer to make me realize that I did not want to do this kind of gig. The money is good, let me tell ya, but I was at risk of losing my sanity at times.
To the point that people saying that the world does not owe me a living, let me reiterate that I agree with that point, and I owe the world the right to do something that would best serve it, and this gig wasn't it.
So here it goes that I would have one to two months off, hopefully, and then get another gig that I am looking for. Exciting ? Scary ? yes.. I have learnt my lessons n it took a world class firm to show the error of my ways.
A few things from my current gig has helped.. identified a few weaknesses n helping me in working to rectify it. Listening n talking better ... always look at positive angle of bad stuff n apply it for future use, that's been one of my life credos.
I have realized another lesson, .. that I am a reactive person .. meaning that I tend to react to situations more than preparing for it. Will be more preppared for the future.
What a hmm post ..hehe ..

later

Monday, June 06, 2005

All Da Love

... more jiwang post ...

1) I attended two weddings this past weekend and read two Malay romance books from this publisher....

And the result is the song below ...

All the love in the world [remix] THE CORRS

I´m not looking for someone to talk to
I´ve got my friend, I´m more than O.K.
I´ve got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams but it´s not all they say
Still I believe - I´m missing - I´m missing something real
I need someone who really sees me

- Don´t wanna wake - Don´t wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you´ll walk through my door
All I need is to know it´s for sure
Then I´ll give all the love in the world

I´ve often wondered if love´s an illusion
Just to get you through the loneliest days
I can´t criticize it
I have no hestitaion
My imagination just stole me away
- Still - Still I believe
- I´m missing - I´m missing something real
I need someone who really sees me

- Don´t wanna wake - Don´t wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you´ll walk through my door
All I need is to know it´s for sure
Then I´ll give all the love in the world

Love´s for a lifetime not for a moment
So how could I throw it away
Yeah I´m only human
And nights grow colder
With no-one to love me that way
Yeah I need someone who really sees me

- Don´t wanna wake - And i won´t wake up alone anymore
Still believing you´ll walk through my door
You´ll reach for me and I´ll know it´s for sure
Then I´ll give all the love in the world
- Don´t wanna wake up alone anymore -

ps/ ignore the girl references ... I am a guy ok !!

2) This lady says I am currently lovesick .. ;-) .. ya la, maybe .. that's why my break is coming up real soon ! .. need to do some thinking and overhauling..

Please go to her blog here .. I enjoy reading her writings .. at times, she writes exactly what I am thinking at the moment !! Parallel universe ehh ;-)

Later...