Plan .. The Plan ..

The plan ... follow the plan ... if not, time will pass by ...

listen to dem lyrics 

Time - Hootie & The Blowfish

What to do ...

 When things are not going your way, let it be ... learn the lesson and move on ...

jadual terakhir sesi Ogos 2021 dah dapat.. last sem di INTI KL :)

Mamai

 Mamai. Sebab tidak cukup tidur. And when that happens, I don't work well. 

Bila dah tahu, apa yang akan den buat? Good question.

Aku Bersyukur

 Syukur dapat rayakan hari jadi bersama keluarga tercinta. Terima all the blessings that diberikan.

Focus on now and what you have :) to 49 pulok .....

hehehe 

Sijil dan Masa Depan INTI KL ... dan Lagu Raya

Dapat sijil komitmen di bawah. Okaylah, tapi belum tamat lagi .... akan saya teruskan.

Masa depan di INTIKL akan tamat December 2021. Yep, akan bernoktah. Pemberhentian secara dot dot dot ... in the end, you are just a number. Scary though bila tuan besar datang dari Tanah Besar China.

Jom Nyanyi Lagu Raya :)

Back to public transport

Back to life... I want to go back to the rivers of belief....

Hurt.

Saya tidak suka diherdik. And it really hurts when it is done by a loved one, and in public. You know who your real family are, and it hurts. Ok, fear and anger, your turn to play ....

Dalam Diri Ini Ada Naga

Pada masa saya kecil sehingga lewat remaja, saya selalu diperkecilkan, dipermain2kan dan diperlekehkan. Dan saya akan menjadi sangat marah. Perasaan marah itu seperti api yang membakar. Dan saya akan bungkuskan kemarahan itu dalam ais sejuk dan ia menjadi satu ketul ais. Sekian lama, ia menjadi timbunan ketul-ketul ais. Dan dalam ketulan-ketulan ais ini ada Naga.

Pada masa sekarang, kadang-kadang, bila rasa marah, saya boleh rasa kewujudan Naga ini, and it scares me to think what can happen if I let it take control ...

hiasan sahaja (imej dari Wikipedia)

The Opposite Sex Best Friend Syndrome - The Reality

I hate the situation as described in blog post title above. Why? Been there, done that. Romantic movies / drama / sitcoms make it so cute but IT IS NOT! blah2, hopefully he/she will see you as a better partner than the current partner...uh uh, no it does not if rarely happens.

It does not work because no matter what you did or do .. he/she will never see past your gallant/good acts .. treating it just as an act of a best friend who is suppose to do that ... does it suck? yes... does it feel sucks? most definitely ... but if you make your move and get out .. the hurt will lessen in time and your life will be better ...

Get off the floor and believe in life .. there are other romantic opportunities where life goes on .. your life goes on, and that person's will go on (if not already).

One of my past situations involved this scenario. It was cute at first, then you realize that you are just the sounding board/feedback wall ... the couple still ends up together and you are left clutching nothing ...

and you are always the invisible man .. :P


dulu best la lagu ni ... bila dengar balik, rasa terkilan sebab dulu kita je asyik mengharap ....

Mengapa Dirindu?

Kepada rakan2 pembaca blog,

ingatlah ... bahawa masa lepas adalah masa lepas ... coulda, shoulda, woulda tidak akan memberi manfaat kecuali merebahkan dan melalaikan kita kepada masa sekarang dan masa akan datang ....


aduh, diri ini sudah tertipu dan sudah sedar .. doakan aku terus berdiri dan berlari ke hadapan .. Amin.

Discipline Itu Proses

Discipline must be done consistently. Kalau tidak, ia tidak akan menjadi. Betul? Focus pada proses dan hasilnya akan menjadi semula jadi. Pelajaran hidup baru.

Lagu rock klasik no 1 gue of all time ...

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2014

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri dari kami sekeluarga ;)

 lagu raya best ...

Kisah Tentang Adikku Juliana

Pada sekitar pertengahan Julai 1981, Sukan SEA sedang berlangsung di Manila, Filipina. Dan sekitar minggu 17 Julai, aku menonton perlawanan bola keranjang wanita Indonesia bertemu Filipina. Terus suka dengan nama seorang pemain Indonesia ini ... pada malam itu, Papa turun ke kereta di parkir UH setelah melawat Mama di wad. Katanya, "ha,.. korang dapat baby sister .. nak nama apa?" .. spontan den jawab, " Nama Juliana la Pa.. macam sedap je " ... itulah kisahnya. Nama adik ku sempena nama pemain bola keranjang wanita Indonesia ;-) ... just nak put that into record! :D

Selamat Hari Jadi ke XX kepada my adik bongsu Juliana Ismail :) rakan tengok wayang CM masa late 90s dulu :D have a great celebration!!

gambar ihsan FB Juliana :)

Demi Masa aka my 40 year old musing

Sejak dua tiga hari ini, surah ini sentiasa berkumandang dalam minda ini ..

Emas boleh beli, masa tidak boleh dibeli balik. That is why time is precious and cruel. Once it is gone you can never get it back. Maximize it as much as you can.

Ini Bukan Kisah Isteri Mat Yo

Sahaja saya mahu buat title yang mesra SEO ;-)

Di mana kita dan ke mana kita akan pergi? Bukan di mana kita dahulu. Melihat entri2 blog ini yang lepas, satu keinsafan timbul pada diri ini. Some stuff will work and stuff will not work. But, if you do not take real action, instead of just imagining it, then you will not know whether it works or not.

And having too much on your plate will distract and overload your senses. Saya masih ingat apa yang mendiang Steve Jobs lakukan semasa dia kembali ke Apple sekitar tahun 96. Beliau bertanya kepada pasukan pengurusnya, tentang produk-produk keluaran Apple. Pelbagai nama dan jenis diberikan sehingga beliau marah dan berkata.. " This is crazy ... we should make four great products.. one for each quadrant ..". Bagi beliau, tahu untuk tidak buat apa adalah sama penting untuk tahu buat apa.


Life goes on.. and I am going to write more...

I am Fat

Yes, I am fat and I must lose weight. Thank you very much ! :)

Baby Steps Checklist

Reading an article on the usefulness of checklist made me realize that I need to have one for most of the things that I do.
One checklist I did today was for cleaning up the living room.

1. Put the kids toys in one place , from all over the floor and kitchen table
2. Separate the toys into their uses.
3. Clean up the table and arrange the magazines.

Walla, it worked. ;-) and I plan to continue doing this. Well, little steps to improve oneself.

To my friend Awal, salam takziah on the depart of your mother. I remembered her a bit during my time that I spent with Awal. She was okay ... truth is, you can't say much about these matters. And, I have been considering about mortality lately, here and there.

The link to the checklist article is here.

The Hardest Thing

The Hardest Thing To Do is to admit that you are wrong .. and what to do about it. Apa yang berlaku dua minggu kebelakangan ini memberi satu notis kepada diri ini yang aku GILA. GILA bak kata Einstein, melakukan perkara yang sama dan mengharapkan keputusan / kesudahan yang lain. Dan tidak seperti dahulu, aku mulakan perubahan dengan langkah - langkah kecil. Kecil - kecil, lama - lama menjadi bukit, InsyaAllah.

Reality Is Now A Friend Of Mine

At this point of life, all I can say, is reality finally caught up. The financial one that is. *sigh* when you are ignorant, when it catches up with you, it really does ...to the young ones reading, take care of your financials early on. How did I get into this mess ? Ignorance. Plain and simple. Have to make things right. I owe it to myself and future, to make things right.