A Lesson on RM

Recently for the past two months, I was given the opportunity to do some part time teaching at a private university that catered for adult working students. The money was okay so I accepted the offer. It came at the last minute but it was an opportunity to earn some extra RM.

Bad move.

I do have a passion to teach but the events that happened during this part-time gig, especially in terms of grading, have taught me a lesson. The lesson is simply, teaching for RM and RM only, will lead to disastrous results, as evident by my gig. And if given the opportunity, I will not take it up again. The teaching environment at the university was not conducive and frankly, I was surprised and disappointed with the attitude of most of the students.

Anyway, a lesson learnt.

Where Do You Want To Go ?

The past two weeks have been really intense.. especially in terms of work. Marking, grading and the aftermath. Plus a conference that I was involved in.

All the stress involved lead me to a realization that I still had a few unresolved issues still running around in my world. Especially personal ... and a few of them contribute to my current state that I am in. 

The song below kinda roughly generally explains the whole situation ....

It's Just Love

The end of the year will bring an event which will evoke a certain melancholy in me. The confirmation of the event was made recently. The video never fails to put me in a melancholic mood when I see it.

It's just love I guess ....

Perjalanan Hidup

A few days me and family went to Brunei to visit my parents-in-law. My father-in-law had an operation and it was successful.

Being in Brunei for a few days allowed me to review a bit of my life these past few months. Mostly, my life has improved a bit more ... and there are areas that still need adjustment. One of the areas which I have finally come to terms .. or at least recognize the pain is my Jasin years. Jasin was an important part of my history and now I acknowledge it ... the pain and the joy. The pain of love and loneliness ... the joy of humanity ... hmm... rasanya kan ... boleh buat drama la ... so in the end, while I was flying back to KL... I just turned down the volume and enjoyed the pictures of Jasin. I felt better already after that .... and would like to thank the Jasinians who are still friends with me till now. And Tony Robbins n Adam Khoo for teaching me the formula Event + Response = Outcome

The picture below was taken on last Saturday morning .... I like it as it showed a defiant side that I rarely show :)

Gambar Perkahwinan Penang Jeni

Gambar rakan2 bersama pengantin. Kenduri di Gemencheh, NS.

Kadang2 akan berlaku situasi dimana lakaran hidup dahulu bertemu kembali dan mengingatkan anda pada lingkaran hidup dahulu. Pada hari Sabtu lepas, rakan Jasin yang bernama Penang menjadi suami pada rakan IU10 yang bernama Jeni. Tahniah kalian berdua. Dua Dunia bertemu membawa kembali memori masa silam...

Selamat Pengantin Baru, Semoga Berbahagia ke Anak Cucu.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Zara, Ome, Linda

Salam Aidilfitri dari kami sekeluarga :-) Maaf Zahir Batin. Have fun, Be Safe ... n Jgn Makan2 Too Much :D

Click

For the past few weeks, I am happy to say that many things have began to 'click' for me. How did I know ? When it all suddenly made sense ... many things ... work, business, family et al.

It is true, when you let go what you have been holding on to, everything else makes sense. It is about letting go of your fears, and focusing on your dreams. It is about doing what needs and putting it on paper, so it does not just stay in your head as images and sounds. An important lesson was that it was okay to begin the first few steps as the first few steps are the foundation of the journey :-) Truly a journey begins with the first step.

Check out the talk below by Tony Robbins ... quite enlightening ..

Looking With Patient Eyes

Once a while, when I think how I look to the God, I wonder if He looks at me this way. I thank Him after each solat for His blessings and challenges as they have made me to what I am today and hopefully what I will be ...

Syukur Alhamdulillah for everything.

The video below always brings me along this line of thought....

Post Congratulations

The short trip was very useful .. in a sense, it cleared up things for me and allowed me to see the bigger picture. To a certain extent, as my good friend E told me, it is just old memories playing tricks on me. Eliza is right ... moving on is the thing that I must do. Her prequel day went well :-)

I move on.

Congratulations 2

A follow up ... I think things changed once I noticed I was no longer in her blog links :-) petty huh ....



Today is the prequel day to the big day ...

Congratulations

The news I received late today left me swimming in an ocean of memories. All I can say is... " Congratulations. " At last, she has found the love.



The video above will always be her video.

Funny Muslim PickUp Lines

Courtesy of this blogger, :-) ... below are a list of Muslim pickup lines ... please do not take it seriously ;-)

1. I'm looking for the "Made In Jannah" tag
2. Are those legs halal?
3.OMG!! I just saw part of your hair, now your obligated to marry me..
4. Wanna pray in jamaat? shoulder to shoulder, feet to feet?"
5.wanna date? i bought a whole box when i went to madinah"
6. Marry me so I don't have to lower my gaze everytime you walk into the room..
7. Girl you fine, I see that praying 5 times a day has really payed off
8. Girl when i saw you i said mashallah, then i said inshallah
9. Would you like to help me wake up for Fajr?
10. Are you a Shiite? Because when I saw you, I said to myself, "She aiight"
11.You’re so fine, I wanna marry you, get 10 kids with you and pray domestic jamaah for the rest of our lives.
12. "U thief. u know, its wrong to steal in islam"
"how am i a thief?"
"u stole my heart"
13. Are your feet tired? Because you've been performing Tawaaf in my mind all day long?
14. How would you like to help me fulfill half of my deen?
15. "Nice ankles. Very nice"
16. Girl...I know its haraam "paying" so much "interest" in you...but I can't help myself...
17.wanna ride shotgun on my camel?
18.Girl you fine, TAKBEER
19. Girl you're so hot, you make Shaytan sweat.
20. You are the noor of my eyes.
21. Hey do you want to pray together? Should I call you or Nudge you?
22.Your face shines with so much noor that it could launch a thousand (Jihadi) ships
23. Have your ammi call my ammi
24. You are the reason hijab was mandated.
25. You are the coolness of my eyes.
26. I didn't trip over my robe, I fell for you.
27. You're so beautiful, You would make hur-al-ayn jealous.
28. I have some sort of sickness but Allah*swt* has created a cure, thats you.
29. Sister, I'm not drunk, just intoxicated by you.
30. Any cup of water that you pour for me will taste like Zam Zam.
31. The noor on your face is soo strong, I think I'm going to go blind!
32. "Hey I'm a nice muslim boy and you seem like a nice muslim girl, so what do you say we make a halal match?"
32.Allah created everything in pairs, so what are you doing single?
33.Sister For a moment I thought I had died and gone to heaven. Now I see that I am very much alive, and heaven has been brought to me.
34.Our parents engaged us when we were little, they must have forgotten to tell you.
35.I'd like to be more than just your brother in Islam.
36.To watch you pray is a sin of its own.
37.Will my platinum VISA cover your dowry?
38.You can't play basketball with a hijab on, marry me, and we will go one-on-one our entire life.
39. Muslims are supposed to have many children, and I am willing to do my part...
40. Will you help the cause of the Ummah by helping me fulfill my deen?
41.What school of thought do you follow because I thought about you all through school.
42.Do you believe in the hereafter? Oh you do? Then you know what I'm hereafter.
43.It must be Laylatul Qadr. Because that's the night that angels come down from Heaven.
44.I've had to fast every day since the day that I first saw you.
45.Would you like to share my prayer-mat?
46.I'm not sure of the Nikah process. Can you help me through it?
47.I just made dua for YOU
48.I think I just lost my wudu by the sight of you.
49. I'm not staring, I'm just enjoying my first and only allowed look.
50.Sister, you are a hijabi fitnah.
51.I'm new here, can you take me to the closest masjid?
52.You make me realize why we're asked to lower our gaze so much
53.I love the way your Abaya flows when you walk
54.I dont need mahr...YOU are my mahr
55.Do u remember me?...from the alam al-arwah?
56.Is it me or is it getting a lil halal in here?
57.Assalamu alaikum, so what time does a hur al-ayn like you have to be back in paradise?
58.Black is definately your color.
59.Girl if lookin at u is gunnah then i don't want to get any sawab
60.Your father must be a printer cuz your picture has been plastered in my mind all day..
61. (If you don't get this, you can ask the person)
"Baby did you just have eggplant? Because you're BANGAN"
62. Do you work for al qaeda? u hijacked my heart
63. girl you're so sweet, when I tasted you I was like AYY! Sunni!! (as in.. oww my tooth)

Argghhhh

Nice title ain't it ... :P ... during this trimester, my Wednesdays are the most stressful, as I am teaching 6 hours on this day. 2 hours pagi and 4 hours ptg. ....

Urghh .. at the end of the day .. my thoughts were echoed by the song below ...



oh well , in the end, I want to do the thing below ...




:-) some great music eh, from 80s n 90s .... in truth, what does not kill make you stronger ... and in the end ... each time, I learn something new ... still, its damn f**king trying at times !

Goodbye + Missing SomeOne + Da Future

Part I

My grandmother ( father side ) passed away last weekend. Her passing brings closure to one of the difficult times of my life. When I heard the news, I was actually relieved. Goodbye, Busu, may you rest in peace and find the happiness you have been searching.

Part II

I am missing a friend, but then I don't think the person misses me at all. It got me to thinking about the idea of letting go. I do not want to let the person go, but I think I have to la ...sticking to a picture of how it was in the past ain't gonna help about how the future is going be.

Part III

The future looks better nowadays. In a way, it is due to me being active in deciding what to do about it. Granted, I have not covered everything yet ... but in due time, in due time. Have a plan. Create strategy based on plan. Execute. Be prepared for kinks, and work it out.

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A few upcoming weddings and stories coming up. Will keep all posted ;-)

Congrats to Da Couple

A bit late but I want to wish 'Congratulations' to the Da Couple on the arrival of Jada Kyra. Their lives won't be the same again :-) ...

Reminds me when Zara came along .. adjusting to her took us a while. Come to think of it .. still adjusting mah :) ..

A way to let go of the past, is to be comfortable with the past .... if you are not comfortable with it, it still clings on ...

Whose Line

This clip of episode of Whose Line Is It Anyway is freaking hilarious !! :D

but all that comedy does not hide the true pain inside ....

Untukmu Sayang - Febians

Lagu di bawah ni betul2 mengingatkan gue kembali kepada seorang insan itu masa Jasin dulu :) ... phewwittt .... dang, it was sweet ! .. pada kawan2 Jasin, pasti ingat lagu di bawah .. meletup masa zaman kita dulu .. a Malay version of 'More Than Words' .. enjoyz !! :D

Sepi + Criminal Minds

1) Sepi

Aku menonton Sepi petang tadi. Pada pendapat aku, ia adalah salah satu filem Melayu yang bagus sejak kebelakangan ini. Tahniah kepada Kaber Bhatia + pasukan, kerana menghasilkan satu karya yang mebuat aku bangga dengan filem Melayu. Tidak ada unsur2 melalut dan merapik, tidak seperti karya seorang professor. Kisah Adam adalah yang paling mengesankan kerana aku pernah melaluinya, kisah Sufi mengingatkan aku tentang keluarga dan cinta dan kisah Imaan membuat aku menghargai kehadiran orang2 yang ku sayang.

The photography, the mood and the dialogue was perfect.

2) Criminal Minds - North Mammon

Just watched the episode earlier tonight. And it struck a nerve. Suffice to say that it triggered a few memories of high school n college years. I see the point of the main protagonist, the reason he did the things he did. But that is no excuse. I would have used the same excuse years ago ... but not anymore. As I learnt a few years ago, we all have the power of choice in how we respond to the going-ons in our life.

Like the comment I made in this blog post, one of the key moves I made was to define my own success / failure. It is still evolving ( mind you ) .. but I am not worried much about it. I know where I want to go ... at least there is a destination at the end of the journey.

I still have some minor issues with my past, but most of the time, I am at peace with it... those that troubled me are the ones that are still unresolved. But I am on the way to resolving them.

One last thing, most of the methods of the self-help and motivation books available in the market do actually work. To read it is one thing, but the key to improve / change, is to practice it.

10 Minutes

My friend's wife passed away last week. It was due to heart failure, her two heart arteries were congested.

It was a big surprise as she was fine and dandy the last I met them about a few weeks ago. So, on that night, as I rushed to meet him, I reflected how these moments show us how short and unpredictable life is at times.

As I met him, the first thing he said was " 10 minutes ". " Huh ? " " It took only 10 minutes for her t0 pass away " .. later he elaborated the incident .. suffice to say, it happened to quickly for him and his children to do anything much about it. A post mortem later revealed the problem, with her heart. It seems that the symptoms did not appear till it was too late.

He and his kids miss her terribly, but I am sure the pain will go away slowly ..... but, the thought of her will always be with them.

To my friend, Nasir + family.. my condolences and I hope you will be strong for your children. To Allahyarham Linda, may you rest in peace.

Al-Fatihah. Amin.

Always tell your loved ones, that you love them.

Cerita Itu Dan Ini

Cerita 1

Zara baru sahaja sembuh dari chicken pox. Syukurlah .. namun, aku tidak dapat menghadiri dua majlis kenduri, satu di Seremban dan rakan blogger di KL. Sedih a bit, tetapi, hati ini tidak begitu mahu ke mana2 majlis kenduri tanpa dua permata hidupku. Linda N Zara ... err, boring la tanpa mereka.Kepada rakan blogger, Nat, ampun dan maaf gue pinta kerana tidak dapat menghadirkan diri. Was really looking forward to it. Nat, I wish you the very best and hope you n hubby will be happy ever after :-) Ingat my nasihat ye ;-)

Cerita 2

Sudah hampir 10 bulan aku bekerja di bidang ini, dan I know I made the right decision :-) Walaupun pendapatannya tidak setinggi yang mana sepatutnya bagi taraf aku sekarang, tetapi kepuasannya adalah pada tahap maksimum, sejak aku mula bekerja. Baru - baru ini, setelah mencongak apa yang patut .. rupa-rupanya, ada peluang, dengan perancangan betul, untuk aku masih meneruskan perjalanan dalam bidang ini, sambil menjalanka aktiviti-aktiviti lain yang ku gemari - membaca dan melancong. Insya-Allah, semua dalam perancangan :)

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Things are looking better, God Willing :-)