Ladybugs

If you have seen the movie below, you would understand. She did.

Pardon me. I am that close to letting go.

Heart Of The Matter

In the end, it was all about forgiveness. She, asking for forgiveness for what she was back then. Me, for forgiving myself that it was not meant to be. Still, bittersweet it was for me, inside. Tahniah my friend. Your happiness means a lot to all of us, your friends.

A Classic Video

Ni lagu classic juga ... always thought of serenading someone with it ;-)

:) ..

Melancholic

If there was a time to feel really melancholic, this coming weekend would really be it. As the event draws nearer, the memories start to come and go ...

There was a time .. there was a story ... all the ifs... but now, alas.. they remain memories .. bittersweet ...

Last Post 2008

Hmm .. nice picture of fireworks eh ;-) 

2008 merupakan tahun yang sgt2 mengujakan. Pelbagai perubahan berlaku, positif dan negatif tetapi kebanyakannya positif :-) Satu perkara yang telah saya belajar tahun ini ialah untuk bergerak ke hadapan, tembok - tembok  di hadapan kita MESTI kita panjat untuk kita maju.

Areas of Review

Family - hidup suami isteri ni byk cabaran dan kegembiraan. Tidak mcm kisah2 romantic comedy .. ada pahit dan manisnya ... yg pasti, syukur pada Tuhan kerana anugerahNya .. Linda n Zara make my life 'interesting' ... and maybe la ,... just maybe .. no 2 will come along ... ;-) I understand my parents better nowadays ... being a parent has taught me that. Pada Pa n Ma, you did your best for me and I will always be thankful for that. 

Career - oklah first full year ... loads of challenges and it was fun ! Honestly, I love this gig .. and this where I will be ;-) ... I have a lot to improve and I will do so...2009 will see the beginnings of the PHD ( playa hater degree ) :P ..

Personal - the weight ... dulu turun then naik balik ..now maintain ... 2009 by my birthday ( June 09 ) .. it will be different :) ... the demons .. they are further and further back ...

Biz Interests - earlier in the year, I was only interested in one field ... and for the past month, I have included two more ...:-) all are still at their baby steps ... I am following the suggestion that one should have MSI ( multiple streams of income ).. and online seems to be the BEST option for me ;-)

In summary people, the upcoming 2009 will be another interesting year sbb the path looks better and better and clearer ;-) ... All the best and may your wishes come true !

Your friend, Ome.

A step back in 2008

Events in the past few weeks have lead me to realize that 2008 has sort of being of a transition period for yours truly ... yep, transition ..

1) Personal

Personal Mastery has been something which I have been striving for the past year and I have made some significant strides in that area. Especially, in dealing with the past. That part has been plaguing me for years

2) Career

Working for the past year in academia, has been an interesting experience. Of course, ada ups and downs nye .... I am getting grips with academia. Something I love to do and self-improvement and time management are very important.

The above things are what I consider the most important things right now .... 2009 will be wayyy better ;-)

Jangan Cakap Masa Makan

Ada sebab2 mengapa kita dinasihatkan jangan bercakap ketika makan ;-) Di bawah, bagi saya, kata - kata Hagar adalah nasihat yang terbaik :) betul tak ?

U Know The Answer

Have you had a question which you know the answer  ? I bet you did. And I think most of us do. But if you know the answer, why do you keep looking ? I propose that this situation occurs  due to the fact that we do not like the answer and keep on searching for alternative answers that satisfy us. The keyword is satisfy. In the end, it is the ego that needs to be fulfilled 

Want to lose weight ? Eat less and exercise more. Want to be more productive ? Focus on real important task instead of mundane matters. It is easy yet why do you search for alternatives ? In a way, at least for me, it explains why there are huge markets for products / services that cater to these kinds of questions. 

I am writing this post as a message to my readers and also to my goodself. There are never simple answers to everything but there are simple answers to some problems. 

The Lesson of A Lost Tooth

I had a minor surgery today .. removing a gigi geraham bongsu. Being the mercy of the dentist has never been one of my favorite activities, but today was a must do.  Last week, I went to my annual dental checkup at a clinic in Bangi. Normally I would do it in Rawang, but since now I am now staying in Bangi, might as well do it here. The doctor, Dr Mazlina, checked my teeth and gave me the news. The upper left gigi geraham bongsu was dying and sooner or later it would be painful. " Sooner or later ", she said, " it would be very painful and you kena cabut anyway...". After the checkup, I decided to just get an appointment to get the procedure. It was not needed, at the moment but must be done eventually, so I figured, just get it over and done with. I did not think much of the operation till last night. It was scary I guess, but it was something that I had to do to avoid future problems with my teeth. I did the procedure ... sakit la jugak a bit but credit to the good doctor, she was good and it was over in about 20 minutes. Tapi, malu la .. keluar air mata sikit sebab tahan sakit.

The point of the above paragraph is that when it became a must, I took the plunge and was better for it. And, as I feel the empty space where the tooth used to be, I think that single fact is the key for a better future. As Tony Robbins says it, when should become a must, then it will start to work ..

I have a lot of shoulds ... and from now on, those shoulds must change into musts .... a lesson learnt from a lost tooth.

180725 - saja put pix, sbb pix lama is gone :D

A Lesson on RM

Recently for the past two months, I was given the opportunity to do some part time teaching at a private university that catered for adult working students. The money was okay so I accepted the offer. It came at the last minute but it was an opportunity to earn some extra RM.

Bad move.

I do have a passion to teach but the events that happened during this part-time gig, especially in terms of grading, have taught me a lesson. The lesson is simply, teaching for RM and RM only, will lead to disastrous results, as evident by my gig. And if given the opportunity, I will not take it up again. The teaching environment at the university was not conducive and frankly, I was surprised and disappointed with the attitude of most of the students.

Anyway, a lesson learnt.

Where Do You Want To Go ?

The past two weeks have been really intense.. especially in terms of work. Marking, grading and the aftermath. Plus a conference that I was involved in.

All the stress involved lead me to a realization that I still had a few unresolved issues still running around in my world. Especially personal ... and a few of them contribute to my current state that I am in. 

The song below kinda roughly generally explains the whole situation ....

It's Just Love

The end of the year will bring an event which will evoke a certain melancholy in me. The confirmation of the event was made recently. The video never fails to put me in a melancholic mood when I see it.

It's just love I guess ....

Perjalanan Hidup

A few days me and family went to Brunei to visit my parents-in-law. My father-in-law had an operation and it was successful.

Being in Brunei for a few days allowed me to review a bit of my life these past few months. Mostly, my life has improved a bit more ... and there are areas that still need adjustment. One of the areas which I have finally come to terms .. or at least recognize the pain is my Jasin years. Jasin was an important part of my history and now I acknowledge it ... the pain and the joy. The pain of love and loneliness ... the joy of humanity ... hmm... rasanya kan ... boleh buat drama la ... so in the end, while I was flying back to KL... I just turned down the volume and enjoyed the pictures of Jasin. I felt better already after that .... and would like to thank the Jasinians who are still friends with me till now. And Tony Robbins n Adam Khoo for teaching me the formula Event + Response = Outcome

The picture below was taken on last Saturday morning .... I like it as it showed a defiant side that I rarely show :)

Gambar Perkahwinan Penang Jeni

Gambar rakan2 bersama pengantin. Kenduri di Gemencheh, NS.

Kadang2 akan berlaku situasi dimana lakaran hidup dahulu bertemu kembali dan mengingatkan anda pada lingkaran hidup dahulu. Pada hari Sabtu lepas, rakan Jasin yang bernama Penang menjadi suami pada rakan IU10 yang bernama Jeni. Tahniah kalian berdua. Dua Dunia bertemu membawa kembali memori masa silam...

Selamat Pengantin Baru, Semoga Berbahagia ke Anak Cucu.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Zara, Ome, Linda

Salam Aidilfitri dari kami sekeluarga :-) Maaf Zahir Batin. Have fun, Be Safe ... n Jgn Makan2 Too Much :D

Click

For the past few weeks, I am happy to say that many things have began to 'click' for me. How did I know ? When it all suddenly made sense ... many things ... work, business, family et al.

It is true, when you let go what you have been holding on to, everything else makes sense. It is about letting go of your fears, and focusing on your dreams. It is about doing what needs and putting it on paper, so it does not just stay in your head as images and sounds. An important lesson was that it was okay to begin the first few steps as the first few steps are the foundation of the journey :-) Truly a journey begins with the first step.

Check out the talk below by Tony Robbins ... quite enlightening ..

Looking With Patient Eyes

Once a while, when I think how I look to the God, I wonder if He looks at me this way. I thank Him after each solat for His blessings and challenges as they have made me to what I am today and hopefully what I will be ...

Syukur Alhamdulillah for everything.

The video below always brings me along this line of thought....

Post Congratulations

The short trip was very useful .. in a sense, it cleared up things for me and allowed me to see the bigger picture. To a certain extent, as my good friend E told me, it is just old memories playing tricks on me. Eliza is right ... moving on is the thing that I must do. Her prequel day went well :-)

I move on.

Congratulations 2

A follow up ... I think things changed once I noticed I was no longer in her blog links :-) petty huh ....



Today is the prequel day to the big day ...

Congratulations

The news I received late today left me swimming in an ocean of memories. All I can say is... " Congratulations. " At last, she has found the love.



The video above will always be her video.